away from love

Tacit understanding is never acquired, but inborn, regardless of the vicissitudes of the outside world.

In the past, the mutual friends of Chen Ming and Wen Ye marveled at the tacit understanding between the two. The tacit understanding between the two of them was astonishing: when Wen Ye went to sweep the floor, Chen Ming must take the initiative to sweep the floor with a mop. The locals work hard; Chen Ming goes home from work to go to the vegetable market to buy vegetables, and Wen Ye will never buy the same kind of vegetables again, and the two can buy each other's tastes; on Saturdays, Chen Ming goes to work, Wen Ye Resting at home, if Chen Ming called and the baby hadn't finished shouting, Wen Ye would push back with "Is there any document left at home?"

Tacit understanding means that you understand me silently and I happen to understand you too.

All in all, the two are a match made in heaven.

But now, one is in the south and the other is in the north, the other is in the countryside and the other is in the prohibition prison, the other is on the computer and the other is in the diary, on the same day, the same night, and even the same day after the two divorced. In the hour, they open their hearts and convey their thoughts to each other.

February 9:

Chen Ming: Sunny

On the second night in prison, I found out the rules and regulations in the prison. It is very difficult to reduce the sentence, but it doesn't matter, Wen Ye, please wait for me, and don't run away with the little girl.

Hey, I admit that I have done too much to divorce, but there is no way, this is already the best way, after you get out of prison, it is best if you forgive me, if you can’t forgive me...then hate me for the rest of your life , at least don't forget me.

Three years, it is still too early to say that he will be released from prison, who knows what will happen in these three years?You and I are both going to change.

Wen Ye: Yin

My hometown has changed a lot. If it wasn’t for the address in the original household registration book, I should have reported to the police station. There is a house in the suburbs, which was left to me when my parents divorced. I almost forgot.I was halfway through cleaning the house before I realized that I couldn't live in it. Don't say I'm hypocritical. Now that everything is over, why bother to pick up the old one to embarrass myself.

As with people, so with things.

So I sold that house and bought an unwanted house in the countryside.

Civilization just came to the north, probably a little acclimatized, sluggish, I don't even eat beef, let alone animals, even I feel uncomfortable all over.The North is too dry.

Chen Ming, are you okay?I've missed you for a long time, although you didn't want me first, but I still like you like a bitch, are you happy with her?Are you happy with me?Probably happier, after all, that is true love!

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April 12

Wen Ye: heavy snow

Today is your birthday, there must be someone over there celebrating your birthday lively.You were always smiling from ear to ear when I prepared birthdays for you.You don't like sweets very much, so we'll order the smallest cake, and the two of us can taste it.The main reason is that I also cooked several dishes that you like, so what's the point of the little cake?You didn’t know it before, and I didn’t want to show it off. Just for your bowl of longevity noodles, I kneaded the dough for a whole afternoon for one bowl of noodles, but you still bitten it off in your mouth and fed it to me. .

Forget it, what's the point of saying this.

Still the same happy birthday to you!

Tonight's longevity noodles, you are not here, let me try it for you!

Don't forget about me.

Chen Ming: Gale

I knew it was my birthday a few days ago, and I have been looking forward to it for a long time.Obviously you are gone, and no one will remember my birthday.

I know that you are the most cruel person, you didn't even shed a tear when you proposed marriage, let alone the divorce is just red eyes.

That's fine, I'm not worthy.

Hey, let me tell you the truth, in fact, I always cry behind my back, not as strong as you think.

When I went to sleep at noon, I dreamed that I ate the longevity noodles you made. Unfortunately, when I was eating, I woke up laughing.

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February 1:

Chen Ming: Sunny

The Chinese New Year is approaching, and the atmosphere in the prison is obviously getting more and more oppressive.Everyone is holding back their energy, hoping that their family members will be willing to cook a pot of New Year's Eve dinner for themselves.Hei Lian was a big man, his wife came to see him, and after she left, Hei Lian lay on the bed without saying a word, and he was in a hurry with anyone who spoke to him.

Is it so exaggerated?

Who is not a hero after going out?

Wen Ye: Snow

Civilization missed you, went out to look for you in heavy snow, and got sick from the cold.

The doctor said that the dog is old and needs to be rested, so don't be so rash.

Hey, it's only been two years, and the white-haired person will give away the black-haired person (a bit strange to say)!Thanks to you, our son could have lived two years longer.

Civilization, if you can't survive the Chinese New Year this year, I'll make you canned dog meat!

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February 3:

Wen Ye: Sunny to cloudy

After renovating the old house and buying a few books, it became my own library. I am the administrator of this library. The first rural library opened!

Not many people came, maybe the rural people don't have the time to spare.

Chen Ming: cloudy to sunny

I got the first commutation of sentence, so I am one step closer to you.

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February 5:

Wen Ye: rain

I have been paying attention to controlling myself not to think about you, but why can't I do it! !

Chen Ming: Sunny

I was praised by the prison guards today, I am so grown up and still feel proud, really!

It turns out that apart from school, prison can also be regarded as a simple place. After living in prison for less than a year, I have become childish. I don’t know if you will like me like this.

No, when you read the poem, you said that you only love me. No matter what I become, you can only like me... Yes, you can only like me.

Yup!

You said you only love me!

So Wen Ye, you wouldn't marry someone else, would you? ?

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February 7:

Chen Ming: Sunny

Chen Ming, find a wife for our son!

All living beings have different life spans, hey, our son will have a wife, and I am still single now.

Miss you, old...companion?

Wen Ye: heavy rain

Chen Ming, you can't imagine how I filled my life with your traces.

I printed all your photos on my phone and posted them in my little bedroom.

Then I bought another copy of the same type of souvenirs we bought a few years ago. Anyway, you are not here, I, I will pretend that these gifts are still the ones you gave me.

I bought the auspicious doll you like, and the gloves, scarf, earmuffs, and cotton socks you gave me. Tsk, you must be out of your mind, and you gave me these things on a hot day.oh!Civilization has also received the little yellow duck you gave him, and today he is flopping happily in the water.

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February 9:

Wen Ye: Yin

I feel like I’m in a daze, there are traces of you everywhere in my life, but people who can’t see you can’t hear your voice, so I cut out the few recordings on my mobile phone and played them on a big speaker .

Civilization didn't have the strength to shout anymore, so at least I could still have some voices at home.

The recording was recorded when I was on the phone with you, and it took me a long time to find it.There's actually nothing in the recording, just what

"—Hey, baby, let's eat cabbage and pork dumplings today. I still have cabbage at home. I'll go buy some meat! Do you want me to bring you something back?

--Need not!By the way, bring back some teething sticks for Civilization, so that the legs of the table will be chewed to pieces.Oh, and, just buy the meat and come back, don't let the boss grind it into meat stuffing!

--Why?Is that easy?

——The purpose of buying meat is to make stuffing. You have directly deprived me of the sense of participation in making dumplings. Why don’t you just buy ready-made dumplings from the restaurant? "My back is down!"

After listening to your words for a week, I ended up eating pure pork dumplings for a week.I made the noodles, I made the stuffing, I rolled the skins, I made the dumplings, I made them, and I ate them with Wenming.

Chen Ming: Gale

In the past, I was the most tired of waiting. It has been more than a year now, and I can't wait any longer. I am also slowly changing.

One of the inmates can play the violin. I thought he would be very romantic, but it turned out that way, far worse than you.It should also be limited by the environment.

In a place like a prison, if you want to learn anything, you have to learn from corners. You can’t say that you can get a perfect score in ideological and political courses.

In order to learn to be more romantic, so that you don’t think I’m boring, I found two collections of poetry from the study room, and read them for almost two months, but I didn’t get any romantic taste from the poems.

Probably I am a boring person in my bones. The more I read that poem, the more upset I feel, the more I feel that the content of the poem is too fake. I am not a hypocritical person by nature, as you know.

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February 11:

Wen Ye: cloudy, windy

Knowing that you have a happy family now, I don't even have the courage to sneak a look at you.

It used to be our home too, but now it's gone.

It's cold, remember to wear more clothes, you are the easiest to catch a cold.

Miss you--

The veterinarian said that civilization might not survive this winter.

Civilization now often naps on the stomach next to the radiator, and it lasts most of the day.

I teased it with a toy, but it didn't move and ignored me.

Old, good old, at least we have lived enough, which means we have the ability to be with a good master, eat and drink without worrying, and finally die of old age.

If civilization is gone, I will really be left alone.

How can it be so cold this winter?

Chen Ming: Yin

Forcing myself to read poetry for another month, I may have a natural hatred for poetry, if I continue to read, I may not be human anymore.

I learned to write a poem for you, so I feel embarrassed.

The old couple is old, you just make do with it:

Baby, allow me to call you baby again.

Baby, I was wrong!

I shouldn't force you to love me after cheating on you,

But what should I do?

Baby, I miss you—

It's not like poetry at all, is it?It's clearly breaking a paragraph into several lines, but when I first wrote it, I still felt that I wrote it very smoothly.

Not born to do this.

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February 2:

Chen Ming: light rain

It turned out that even if there were prison guards, these gangsters would dare to commit crimes.

He was punished and forced to be a scapegoat.

The days are longer, more than before, and I can't bear it already.

Didn't you say you want to read the prisoner's diary?Now I wish you could see it.

Wen Ye: sunny

I have been worried all winter, and almost always stay by our son's side day and night.Our son is strong and survived the coldest time. I am relieved. After all, the winter is over, the weather is getting warmer, and spring is here. It should not be so difficult, right?

I really didn't expect civilization to fail in its entirety.

Thinking about it, I am not qualified to comment, because I have not experienced any ups and downs, and I have not passed the end of my life.

The death of civilization was already expected, but what I didn't expect was that I didn't even shed a single tear—my eyes were dry!

It wasn't hot, and the corpse had been lying there for seven or eight days before I remembered that I had to collect the corpse.

I have thought a lot in the past two days, from your divorce to the death of civilization, and then to my death, it is all good luck.

I intend to be cremated.

I want to take a posthumous photo of Wenming first, and then make a small urn by myself.

I suddenly found that there were not many photos of Wenming, so I stopped for another two days and posed for it a few more poses.

Paper money should not be needed. I have to burn civilized toys, dog bowls, and favorite dog food to it.

Burn some dog food at the end of each month!

Civilization is gone, and I am the only one left.

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February 5:

Chen Ming: Sunny

Wen Ye, I miss you so much. (This sentence has appeared 160 eight times in my diary.)

Wen Ye: Yin

The woman said, you are not together at all.

how is this possible! ?

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February 5:

Wen Ye: Yin, strong wind

Where are you?If you want to go, just tell me directly.

Why do you... force me away?

where have you been?

Chen Ming: cloudy

Is there any way to make the time less difficult?

It would be fine if he just fell asleep and woke up on the day he was released from prison.

There are less than two years left, wait for me, baby.

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February 7:

Wen Ye: Fog

There is no one at home, where have you been?

You are not the kind of irresponsible person who left without a word, something must have happened!Why didn't you tell me!

We have been married for so many years, there is no need for you to hide from me.

I went to the Public Security Bureau to report the case. The young policeman who picked me up gave me a sympathetic look.

What do you mean you're gone?I do not believe!

I called your friends one by one. They all said that you were terminally ill. They all knew about it, so they passed me alone. You have the guts, Chen Ming!

OK, you can!This is something you Chen Ming can do!

I asked them for evidence, and in less than two days, they actually produced the surgery sheet—you acted like that...

Chen Ming: Thunderstorm

I don't know why, but today my heart feels cramped.When I went to the infirmary, the prison doctor said there was nothing wrong with me.

My heart hurts, is it Wen Ye, are you missing me?

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February 12:

Wen Ye: Sunny, Breeze

I haven't written a diary for two or three months. What have I been busy doing recently?

Chen Ming, you can't think of it, can you?I'm back.I keep a spare key to my house.

I cleaned up my house... again, thinking about how we were together when we were together.

And you idiot, you put my bath towel and foot towel together!

Chen Ming: Yin

Today is the first time in prison to cook dumplings, oh, today is Laba.

The dumplings made by a group of old men are really unpalatable, and they all have to drink dumpling soup.

I miss the dumplings you made, Wen Ye.

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February 12:

Chen Ming: Sunny

I feel that the palpitations have become more and more serious recently. I am afraid there is some serious family genetic disease?Bah bah—who would curse himself to death on his birthday.

Wen Ye: Blizzard

I couldn't wait a long time ago, but it's best to bring you a gift today...

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February 12:

Chen Ming: light sleet

If a person is in a trough, sometimes he has to believe in the gods for a while.

Wen Ye, you came to my dream last night, along with our civilization.

Wen Ye:

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February 3:

Chen Ming: cloudy to sunny

Another year, should I start planning now how to get you to forgive me, and what else can I do to support you and my son after I get out of prison.

How about opening a bookstore?Don't you like books the most?

I will be the boss, you are the employee, and we will be civilized to supervise the work.

Or you can be the boss.

Wen Ye:

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February 6:

Chen Ming: cloudy

Check out my forgiveness plan!

PLANA: Just kneel on the spot.

PLANB: Buy presents, buy hardcover books, and sum up.

PLANC = PLANB + PLANA

PLAND: Leave you alone for a few days, when you can't take it anymore, you will naturally get along with me. (forget it.)

PLANE: I'll take you to the tour group, you won't scold me in the street if there are outsiders around.

In my face, I have already suggested that someone strip me naked, and I don't care.

You are a thin-skinned person, can you put down your airs?

After playing for a while, your anger will disappear, it should be almost the same, right? (It's a good plan.)

PLANF: ...

PLANG: ...

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It's really not possible, ABCDE... Come together, there must be one who can make you forgive me.

I was wrong, I shouldn't use these twists and turns on you, for you, it's very simple, just give you a heart, that's enough!

Wen Ye:

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February 7:

Chen Ming: Yin

In the past two years, people have come in one after another, and some people have gone out. Those who go out miss this place, because there is no need to worry about food or clothing, and there is no pressure to survive; those who come in are regretting it!

Wen Ye:

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February 10:

Chen Ming: Sunny

Can you imagine?After entering the prison, the whole person became healthier and his life became more regular, thanks to the militarized management.

Wen Ye:

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February 11:

Chen Ming: Sunny

Someone committed suicide, using stolen chopsticks and grinding them for more than a week.

It was too bloody, he committed suicide standing under the prison monitor, no one was wronged.

I didn't want to write to you...but I was too depressed.

I remember that every time I was in a bad mood, you would find some fun to divert my attention first, and then come to find a solution to the matter later.

I wish you could accompany me...

It is better to die than to live. The desire to die is really so strong that there is no need to sharpen your chopsticks a week in advance.Don’t say anything about killing yourself by biting your tongue (I don’t believe it anyway), relying on one’s willpower, I think it’s the most economical to suffocate to death. Of course, people have a sense of survival that is not controlled by the mind, and as long as some auxiliary measures are added in advance, a bowl water, some duct tape, a pillow...

No matter how bad it is, starving to death is also feasible, although it is difficult to implement in prisons.

Wen Ye:

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February 12:

Chen Ming: cloudy

I have to admit that the most terrifying thing in prison is loneliness.

That kind of loneliness does not mean that there is no one to chat with you, nor is it the same as "lonely" or "lonely", it is a sense of emptiness from the inside out.

If I have to describe it, it feels like standing at the bottom of the ocean. Although I know that the seabed is vast, there is no life below 200 meters, it is dead silent, and the heartbeat cannot be heard.

Wen Ye:

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February 12:

Chen Ming: Sunny

Finally going!

Only then did I realize that when I came here, how much the change has changed depends on myself. Only then did I understand the meaning of the sentence of the prison guard three years ago.

Some people can turn gray overnight because they lose the belief in living.

Wen Ye, I want to thank you—whether you are here or not.

When you are there, it is my backing; when you are not, it is my belief.

Wen Ye:

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February 1:

Chen Ming: Sunny

You must be calm, and you are no longer a brat.You can't go wrong!

Wen Ye, do you miss me?

Wen Ye:

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February 2:

Chen Ming: Sunny

It's tomorrow...Wen Ye, wait for me!

Don't be afraid, my appearance and figure haven't changed much, you can recognize me!

According to human memory, you should still remember me!

Wen Ye:

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February 2:

Chen Ming: Sunny

coming.

Wen Ye: