Special Assistant's Notes

I made an agreement with my parents to come back for the New Year this year, and set off on the return journey with the big and small bags of food prepared by the two elders.

After New Year's Day, Wei Boyuan took me to the outskirts of the city to visit his grandfather and parents.

I burned incense and kowtowed to them, and they will be a family from now on.

In January, it was time for Wei Boyuan and his graduation thesis to start, and Wei Boyuan and I stayed at home throughout the winter vacation.

Mainly he writes papers and I check information.

Wei Boyuan recently planned to start his own business. He made an agreement with his computer department classmates that he would come back to work on the plan after the Chinese New Year.

The computer industry is an emerging industry, and the prospect is still very good, but I didn't have much contact with it before, so I searched for relevant information in my spare time.

On this day, Wei Boyuan's third uncle's cousin got married. As a close relative, he went out early in the morning to attend the wedding.

When I was mopping the floor at home, I received a call from Lei Mingyu.

Lei Mingyu's tone was a little anxious: "Mr. You hasn't come to the company for two days. Special assistant Yang can't contact him. No one in the company knows his address. Special assistant Yang asked me to ask if you can find a way to contact him." .”

Lei Mingyu is not an emotional person, and he has not lost contact for so many years.

I called him but no one answered. There was nothing I could do, fearing that something might happen to him, I changed my clothes and decided to visit his home.

The house is still the fingerprint lock before I left. I tentatively stuck my ring finger on it, and the door opened with two beeps.

Before entering the house, there was a strong smell of alcohol.

I opened the shoe cabinet and saw that the slippers I had worn were still there.

I changed my shoes and walked into the living room, and saw You Ben'an sitting crookedly on the carpet in the living room, the coffee table and the ground beside him were full of empty wine bottles.

I walked over and stood beside him, he raised his head as if feeling something, looked at me in confusion for a while, and then hiccupped and said, "You're back."

I pulled him up and onto the couch.

He took the opportunity to hold my hand, and refused to let go, talking about you taking him home?How can you take him home, how can you break up after seeing his parents?

I guess he called my mom.

After the death of his only relative, every year during festivals and when he was not working overtime, he would come back to my house. My mother treated him as half her son.

In fact, I want to break up with him. To put it simply, it is not so easy in reality.

"I didn't feel that I lost you when I was with Xiao Rui, and I didn't feel that I lost you when I knew you were with others. But I really felt it when I knew you brought Wei Boyuan home. You won't come back to me again." He pulled me hard and I sat down next to him.

"I always feel that I don't like your feelings. I hold tightly to the throb that Xiao Rui brought me and refuse to let go, but the feeling he brings to me is so insignificant compared to the sadness of losing you. , Mochen, my heart hurts so much, do I like you?" He was rambling, as if he didn't need my response.

"You once said to me, don't be afraid because the sun has set, because it will rise tomorrow. The night is not to devour you, it just tells you that you should rest. No matter how sad, sleep up It’s a new life, but I sleep and wake up, wake up and sleep again, and I’m still very sad.” He still held my hand tightly, his confused eyes were so sad, I seemed to see the boy who lost his father five years ago again , I was by his side at that time, wiping his tears.

"I was swallowed by the night, but my sun would never rise again. I made him sad, so he chose to shine on others. What should I do to get my sun back, tell me, okay, how can I Do it." His voice slowly choked, and I raised my eyes to see the tears on his face, and wiped them away with my hand.

We have known each other for eight years, and we have been together day and night for eight years. Seeing him cry like a child makes me feel uncomfortable.

It never occurred to me, then or now, to make him sad.

When he hugged me, my nose was sore and tears fell.

"If you're angry that I'm dating someone else, you go and talk about it, but come back after talking, okay? I was wrong. I can't live without you. I don't have anyone else. Didn't you love me the most in the past? You were afraid that I would be cold. Afraid that I'm hungry, no matter how much you feel sorry for me, okay?" He was sobbing and sobbing, and my tears couldn't stop.

"I love you, I love you, why am I so sad now if I don't love you, I don't love you, I just didn't understand before."

He is drunk.

Sober he may know, but now he doesn't understand, my love for him is like his father, death is death.

Losing is sad, but no matter how sad it is, it will always pass. The night I moved out of this house, I buried my relationship with me for eight years. I have said goodbye to the past, and now it is his turn. .

I still remember when I was in college, I asked You Ben'an to accompany me to camp on the mountain to watch the Leonid meteor shower.

But it happened that he had a basketball game that day, and he didn't want to miss it.

But tonight the game was lost.

It was very late after the end, and it was too late to go to the suburbs.

We didn't change our clothes, didn't take our tents, we rode our motorcycles and rushed to the observation point, but we were full of people walking back.

I don't give up, I must go to the observation point in the park to have a look, I thought at the time, even if I only saw the last pop.

But we waited for half a night and didn't get any more. He looked at me shivering from the cold, and said angrily that he shouldn't go to the competition.

It's the same now, since he chose basketball, no matter whether he wins or loses, there will be no shooting stars anymore.

During those years when I loved him, I once thought that as long as he was not with others, even if he lived like this for the rest of his life, I would recognize him.

But then there was Xiao Rui, he chose Xiao Rui, and there was no Ji Mochen who loved him.

Although I feel sorry for the two of us, I also know that if some things are missed, there will be nothing.

Meteors will not land again because of your regrets, and neither will love.

After taking care of You Ben to sleep, he called Yang Xingye and reported his safety.

Yang Xingye sighed, didn't say anything, and resigned himself to working overtime in the company.

I called Wei Boyuan again and asked him to come and pick me up when he was done. I originally thought that if I didn't go out today, he would drive away.

Looking at You Ben'an's sleeping face, I finally left without leaving a note.

Go to sleep, since you have officially bid farewell to the past, wake up again, you will be a newborn.