Lonely desert

The seasons are flowing, and winter is coming.Winter in the north comes earlier than in the south, and it snows heavily during the winter months.

I haven't seen many snowflakes before, even in Luocheng and Chang'an, there will be two or three scattered light snowfalls around New Year's Eve, and the warm sun will disperse them before they can cover the bluestone roads and eaves.

Beidi is different, the north wind howls all day long and even the snowflakes are dancing wildly, it was a little scary when we first met.Once you are familiar with it, you will feel that it has a different flavor.

In October of this year, the King of Beidi allowed Shan Pei to establish his own mansion, so naturally I also lived outside the palace with Shan Pei.

The people of Beidi are unrestrained and unrestrained, not as rigid as heaven/chao. Everyone in the Beidi palace knows about me and Shan Pei, but we don't accept any dissent, let alone discrimination.The king of Beidi had no doubts about me, and he promised Shan Pei that he would hold his wedding after the beginning of spring as a good fortune for the coming year.

Shan Pei cheerfully ran back to show off to me that in the spring of the coming year, he would hire him with ten miles of red makeup to announce to the world that the Ming matchmaker was marrying him and took me into the house.

One afternoon, I stood outside the house enjoying the snow.Shan Pei, who finished discussing the government affairs, came back through the snow. He asked people to move the chairs, bring the stove, add hot tea, and chat with me under the eaves.

"Ci Chen, do you think today is very different from yesterday?"

I was confused by his inexplicable words, but my intuition always made me feel that something happened, "Did something happen?"

He said calmly, "Jin Suian is dead."

I was a little surprised, but after thinking about it, Jin Suian was already sick when King Liang committed the rebellion, but I didn't expect him to survive this winter.

Probably because he was thinking of revenge, Shan Pei was very relieved, "It's a good thing that Jin Suian is gone. Now that the crown prince is in charge, he will be enthroned as the new emperor soon. Maybe the two countries will be more harmonious."

It's not that I'm worthless for Jin Suian, I've been away from Chang'an for almost half a year, and I've long since lost my original intentions, and I don't even care about his life or death.What I think is that birth, old age, sickness and death are the normal state of human beings, but if one day Shan Pei and I are lost in the world, what will it be like when we meet again in reincarnation?

Shan Pei shook his hand in front of my eyes, turned his head and said with concern: "Ci Chen? What are you thinking?"

"It's just thinking about life and death."

Shan Pei sighed: "Everyone is mortal. If I had quit the world earlier, I would have turned into the brightest star in the sky and watched over you..."

"No!" I interrupted his words, and I don't know why, but now I can't hear these words at all, but I feel scared when I think about it.

Shan Pei grinned, and replied in a comforting tone: "Okay, okay, no, no, no."

In the past few days, I have been a little anxious, as if something big will happen.

Not long after that, this big event will come.

Just after the first month, the heaven/chapo ordered troops to take back the three cities lost last year.And Shan Pei led the Beidi branch army to Jiangcheng for support, and I went with him.

However, when I came to Jiangcheng, I welcomed an unexpected guest, Si Ming.He told me that the Heavenly Emperor already knew about my life in the world, and that although I survived two calamities safely, I was finally defeated by the last calamity.

When I first came to the world, I only knew that I had to survive the catastrophe of my life in the world, but didn't I pass it when I helped Shan Jue reincarnate?

I asked, "Where does the theory of the Three Tribulations come from?"

"One is the essence of the priesthood, the other is the way of the monarch and his ministers, and the third calamity is the heart of love. Si Yuan, don't you know the reason why you refuse to return to the God Realm now? It's only one step away. It's time to make a decision, why did you change your mind after going to the underworld?"

After listening to him, I understood when the three calamities happened. I hesitated for a moment and said to Si Ming: "...I don't want to be the fate of the God Realm anymore."

As I expected, when Si Ming heard it, he immediately said to me, "Are you crazy? Just because of a mortal? Didn't you have the choice to let go? Now why not! For him, you still Want to give up your priesthood? If Master knows that you have lost your determination, ask yourself, can you be worthy of Master's cultivation?"

"Master likes to roam the world, so naturally he doesn't like restraint. I think Master will agree with my choice."

"You..." Si Ming had no choice but to leave angrily.

I thought this was the end, but I didn't realize that something more terrifying was yet to come.The Heavenly Emperor has been retreating in the God Realm for thousands of years and has never left the Divine Palace, and now he came to the human world for me.I remembered the words of Wangchuan River God again, now it seems that the 'he' mentioned by the senior River God must be the Emperor of Heaven.

The Emperor of Heaven also knows the rules of the sky, and he will not attack mortals easily, but he is used to killing people with a knife.

Taking advantage of the battle of Beidi Tian/Chao, if Shan Pei is not eliminated, he will not give up.

I argued with him: "Emperor of Heaven, you are a god, how can you be so disregarding human life?"

"If he was just a mortal, he would not kill him, but he is not just a mere mortal body, but your fate itself. You have an important position, and you are one of the nine divisions of the God Realm. You are in charge of the fate of the world. It’s impossible. You don’t have the self-awareness to accept God’s destiny, but you can take care of the affairs of the Three Realms alone to take care of the overall situation.”

I didn't dare to contend with him, and I knew that I was far short of morality, so I had to make a compromise, just to save Shan Pei's life, "I'll go back with you, can you let him go?"

The Emperor of Heaven shook his head, sighed and said: "Si Yuan, it's no wonder you are lonely. From the moment you and him are on the same line of fate, he has already become your doom. Today, if it's not you who die, it's him. Death."

When I listened to the words of the Emperor of Heaven, it was like a sharp sword piercing through my heart.Was it my own fault?I just want to seek the eternal fate of symbiosis in the world, why can't I get it?Why is it him, and why should he bear my life for me?

"You have no choice, Si Yuan. The current priesthood is your own cultivation, and the Three Realms cannot do without you. If you go back to the Heavenly Palace with me, you will forget it after a long time. You should have the self-knowledge that you are the god of destiny." .”

Later, when Beidi's celestial/dynasty clashed, I didn't know how to go back to the God Realm, and I didn't even have time to say goodbye to Shan Pei.

However, when I woke up again, Si Ming's words were like asking for my life, lingering in my ears coldly, with the word "death to body and soul to death", I didn't even dare to think about the cruelty of the emperor's methods.Is there no room for maneuver at all?The so-called supreme gods cannot change their destiny?Then what is the use of such a god, is it just to rule the three realms?

In an instant, my heart was full of depression, and my practice of nearly a hundred years was subtracted.When I was in the priesthood with Si Ming, I heard something about it. Si Ming holds a sacred object called the Needle of Soul Attachment, which can gather and disperse spirits in one body.

Afterwards, I dragged my sick body and knelt outside the Siming Palace, begging him to use the attached soul needle to let me reunite with Shan Pei Qi Po.Si Ming finally thought about the difference between me and my brother, and disobeyed the rules of the gods without authorization, and agreed to lend me a use.

He told me again and again that if his powers were exhausted, he must stop, and that such a risk should not be taken. He also used Shan Pei's death to advise me not to let him die in vain.

I spontaneously agreed, used the soul-attaching needle to find all the scattered spirits of him, and used my divine power to forcibly fuse the broken souls back into one body, and saw Shan Pei again in my hazy consciousness.Fortunately, Si Ming helped him and sent his soul to the underworld, so that he would not perish again in the God Realm where the yang power was too strong.

I struggled and went to the underworld together with the Lantern of Siming Lonely Soul. I ignored Po Meng's persuasion and passed through the palace of Po Meng. I leaned on the gate of death and tried my best to call him. The unconscious puppet just moved forward blankly, and finally disappeared at the bridgehead over there.

I knelt down at the head of the Naihe Bridge with tears streaming down my cheeks. Gradually, my vision seemed to be blurred by the tears. I only heard Granny Meng call me, and then I lost consciousness.

Afterwards, I woke up to Si Ming's self-reproach.He paced in front of my bed, murmuring, "Crazy, crazy, really crazy, I shouldn't be soft-hearted at that moment."

Seeing that I woke up, he hurried over and pressed me down, "What else are you going to do? He's already returned by ferry, so don't worry about it anymore, let's have a good rest."

I know that this time I have spent too much power to gather the seven souls to return to the throne, and I have broken through the Meng Po Palace regardless of the invasion of Yin Qi, so that the primordial spirit can return to the God Realm, it seems that it is the favor of the Heavenly Emperor.

I didn't see Shan Pei enter the path of reincarnation with my own eyes, tugged at Si Ming's sleeve, and asked, "Can you show me Si Mingbo?"

He obviously refused, "Why are you looking at it? With your current divine power, let alone reading it, if you can open it, you will be considered powerful."

Hearing his words, I only realized later. I thought it was just a loss of some divine power, but now I realize that my existing divine power is not enough for 300 years of cultivation.

"Thanks to Master for saving you this time, otherwise you would still want to see Shan Pei? You almost perished in the underworld. Then you can meet him at the bridge of Naihe for a hundred years."

"Master?" I couldn't help being surprised, Master, an old man who has traveled around the Three Realms for thousands of years, yet he came back for me?

"Yes, it was because Master pleaded with the Emperor of Heaven that he didn't offend you and me. He just punished you and me in this Siyuan Palace and let me take care of you along the way."

I propped myself up and sat up, a strand of white hair brushed across my shoulder was really eye-catching, I hurriedly grabbed the hair and looked at it, unexpectedly it was all white.

Si Ming understood my question and explained: "You have exhausted your divine power this time, and now you have white hair and silver eyebrows."

I don't care about my appearance, but I still can't let go of the fact that Dan Pei has entered reincarnation.

After a long time, I stubbornly asked Si Ming to open the Siming Book and show it to me, only to realize that it was all lies!

Shan Pei's previous life and present life have long since disappeared from the book. I was impatient and hated Si Ming for a long time. Since then, the relationship has become more and more irreconcilable.

Since then, I have wanted to destroy my god body several times and disappear in this world, but I still have to be advised by my master to always put the priesthood first.I am already sorry for Shan Pei, and I must not be ashamed of this world anymore.

Knowing that this is the end of Tong Shanpei, but every time I think of the little moments of Tong Shanpei in the past, it is like a big dream, so illusory that there is no trace to be found.

Maybe it's because I'm in a trance, and I always get confused and lead the wrong fate. Some of them have to be redeemed, but some are too late.Therefore, the gods appealed before the Emperor of Heaven.The Emperor of Heaven was originally hindered by the gods' rejection of me before, and now he wants to use this to make me go to a desolate place to calm down.

Thanks to Si Ming who came forward to speak for me, the Emperor of Heaven had to let it go.But after that incident, I became famous in the God Realm.

Thousands of years have passed, and the God Realm has ushered in a new god, so I got to know Yihuo.

I thought that after such a long time, the rules of heaven and gods should be changed, but I didn't expect that my pain would make Yihuo taste it again.