Penggli Rhapsody

He suddenly heard about the 'real' relationship between his boss and Osamu Dazai before, and the shocked Nakahara Nakaya has now calmed down after making that impulsive questioning call.

But when the mind calms down, the IQ may return to blood more slowly.

At least at this time, listening to Osamu Dazai's words of "pretending to be strong", Nakahara Chuya inexplicably thought of when they first met when they were 15 years old.

Although Osamu Dazai hated it very much at that time, but to be honest, the dislike of young people will always be unconsciously mixed with attention.

Don't look at Dazai Osamu who seems to be particularly good at things now, he can always show his presence among his companions.

But in fact, Osamu Dazai was very quiet when he was 15 years old.

——Even Nakahara Nakaya, who has always been carefree and nervous, felt the loneliness of Dazai Osamu when he was a teenager.

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I remember when they were 15 years old, when they were not arguing with Chuya Nakahara, Osamu Dazai sat quietly in the corner of the hall and stayed there for a day, maybe no one would notice.

...No, no one will really find out.

It seemed to be a full moon that night. At that time, 15-year-old Nakahara Nakaya had just delivered the supper made by his adoptive father to his adoptive mother Ozaki Koyo, when he was walking alone in the corridor of the empty building.

Turning a corridor by chance, Nakahara also saw Osamu Dazai.

The age of 15 was a turning point for Nakahara Nakaya. He entered the port mafia because of his adoptive mother Ozaki Koba. It was also in that year that he met Osamu Dazai, who was said to be the direct disciple of BOSS, who was the same year as him.

To be honest, Chuya Nakahara and Osamu Dazai fell in love at first sight, and since then they have used every means to scold and pit each other. The originally dull mafia life was intensified because of each other's existence, and most of their lives were burned unconsciously. up.

And after three years, Nakahara Nakaya and Osamu Dazai will spend at least four years of their study career in the same dormitory of the same school.

He didn't foresee such a bleak future at all, and Zhongya Zhongya, who was still young at that time, was actually quite naive.

Just like when Tsunayoshi Sawada was 14 years old and still felt that one day he would be able to get rid of Riboun and return to his normal otaku routine, 15-year-old Nakahara also believed very much that the bastard Osamu Dazai would disappear from his life one day.

Without mutual restraint, without mutual help, Nakahara Chuya will one day live a normal life with comfort and freedom, instead of turning his life into an unknown place where he doesn't know where under Dazai Osamu's hands.

In general, Chuya Nakahara and Osamu Dazai are bored at first sight anyway. After meeting for the first time at the age of 15, because each other's guardians began to meet more and more, they never saw each other completely. noodle.

But that night was different.

That night, the upper management of the Port Mafia Building didn’t know why they didn’t turn on the lights. Osamu Dazai sat alone at the folded corner between the two buildings, watching the night outside the window without making a sound.

At that distance, Chuya Nakahara and Osamu Dazai who were passing by were not only far apart, but also separated by French windows of two buildings.

——If it weren't for Chuya Nakahara's sharp eyes, the place where Osamu Dazai was sitting would be impossible for ordinary people to see.

The situation with Osamu Dazai is probably the same. Apart from the special abilities, Osamu Dazai's physical fitness is actually much worse than that of Nakahara, who has been practicing gymnastics and has been exercising his body.

Nakahara Chuya saw Dazai Osamu who was sitting in the dark looking into the distance through the glass of two French windows, but Dazai Osamu probably didn't see him.

So Osamu Dazai, who was 15 years old at the time, sat quietly in that corner for a long time, not avoiding Nakahara Chuya who saw him.

And after realizing this at the time, they had already entered the alert mode of fighting against Osamu Dazai on a daily basis, and Chuya Nakahara realized later that he seemed to be passionate.

Osamu Dazai didn't see Chuya Nakahara at that time, he seemed to be looking at the sea.

But following Osamu Dazai's angle, he also looked into the dark night with only a faint moonlight. Even if the direction was right, Zhong Yuanzhong also found that in such a dark night, he could not see the sea that he could glimpse a little or two during the day.

So what is Dazai looking at?

Dark night?The imaginary sea?Or just sitting in a daze?

In the corridor where Osamu Dazai was sitting in the far corner, occasionally some members of the Port Mafia passed by, and those members came and went without noticing Osamu Dazai in the corner.

What was Zhongyuan Zhong thinking at that time?

By the way, he was thinking, the mackerel looked even more annoying when it was quiet.

Even though he is already a disciple of the boss of the port mafia, he is almost set to become a winner in life, but Osamu Dazai still looks so pitiful, or... lonely.

Obviously today when Osamu Dazai choked on him during the day, his mouth was poisonous and his expression was not good!

Now it looks like the whole world has abandoned him.

In fact, in comparison, it is obvious that he was born without even being a human being. In this life, perhaps there is no one of his kind in this world. From the very beginning, he was born in the Central Plains as the carrier of the legendary god Huangbatu. lonely isn't it?

But how should I put it, sometimes loneliness is not something that can be measured by such a simple comparison.

It’s as if one day in the middle of the night I suddenly dreamed that I hadn’t finished my summer homework, but school would start tomorrow. After waking up, I immediately looked for a pen and suddenly thought: No, he has already graduated and has no summer homework.

Some people were a little melancholy at first, but immediately felt secretly happy because of it, and found that it was great that they had graduated; while some people felt inexplicably sad, and suddenly realized that they had grown up, and the good times when they were young would never go back.

Is this loneliness?This is loneliness.

Standing in the crowd and coming and going, the body is close and you can't see each other's heart, what you say is one thing, but the behavior is another way, all the happiness is close at hand but seems out of reach.

Or, knowing that everything is going well ahead, but still can't help the despair of wanting to stop here.

Obviously life looks so happy, the happier, but the lonelier.

... what kind of feeling is that?

When I was 15 years old, I looked at the sea that I couldn't see in the darkness that night, so many people I knew came and went, but still sat alone in the corner until dawn, what kind of feeling did Dazai feel? Feel?

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As if he had a half-truth and half-false dream, Zhong Yuanzhong also felt a headache for no reason when he woke up the next morning.

Partly because I was shocked to learn about the "unknown relationship" between Osamu Dazai and their port mafia boss yesterday, and partly because I was worried about the mission sent by their boss Mori Ogai to the mafia school this time.

The dream of last night disappeared from his headache brain like running water when he woke up today, and finally Zhong Yuanzhong seemed to be in a daze, leaving only one thought.

——Speaking of which, since this semester, the frequency of Osamu Dazai's suicide seems to have decreased a lot.

Does that mean everything...is getting better?

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