I wasn't like this when I was a kid

"I didn't find a second personality in your body."

Gu Ya woke up from the hypnotic state, and the psychiatrist told the truth about the result.

A sentence that is obviously easy to understand, but Gu Ya can't understand it.

He sat up straight, his eyes full of resistance: "Impossible, he is here."

The psychiatrist looked at the teenager on the hypnosis chair: "Maybe it used to be, but now you are the master of this body, the only master."

It is uncommon for the main personality to disappear and the secondary personality to take over the body.

Generally speaking, other personalities exist to protect the main personality.Only a very few would want to replace it.

The situation in front of him obviously cannot be explained by the latter statement.

"What do you mean... used to be?" Gu Ya still didn't want to believe it.

"If you are really sure that you have a dual personality, then I can only tell you that the other personality has disappeared."

These words exploded in Gu Ya's ears like thunder, and he couldn't recover from the shock.

I do not know how long it has been.

"Is it because of me?" Gu Ya asked with a trembling voice.

Looking at the man on the other side who was about to collapse, the psychiatrist said firmly, "No. He disappeared for his own reasons. What you have to do is to live a good life together with his share."

In fact, how could it not matter.

If there is no second personality, the personality will die until the end of the body.This is simply not the case.

Even if the doctor doesn't say this truth, Gu Ya understands it.

With his last hope, he looked at the doctor expectantly and pleadingly: "Will he come out again?"

The doctor fell silent.

Gu Ya's clenched hands clenched tighter and tighter: "Please tell me the truth."

"The loss of personality is irreversible."

Even if an identical personality is split in the future, strictly speaking, it will not be the original one.

Gu Ya came out of the hospital in a daze, but in the sunny weather, he felt as if he had fallen into an ice cave.

When he came to the hospital this time, he was prepared to disappear from now on.

In the end, it was the boy he protected with all his heart that disappeared.

Then what is the meaning of his continued existence?

Gu Ya didn't close his eyes all night, staring at the bed board for the whole night.

At six o'clock, the dormitory building opens on time.Gu Ya got dressed, got out of bed, washed up briefly, and left the dormitory.

Always worried about him, Lin Yu, who was also awake, hurriedly followed.

It's just that his tracking skills are really bad, and he was discovered after just following for a while.

Seeing the person hiding behind the tree with most of his body exposed, Gu Ya let out a light breath: "Come out."

Lin Yu dawdled out from behind the tree, and asked worriedly, "Where are you going this morning?"

Gu Ya didn't answer, but said: "Go back to see grandma for me, saying that I'm busy with my studies, so I will go back to see her in the afternoon."

This means that he is not allowed to follow.

Lin Yu pursed her lips: "You first promise me that you are not allowed to do stupid things."

The appearance of the other party's collapse last night was lingering in his mind, and he was really worried.

"Well, I promise."

Watching Gu Ya leave the school, Lin Yu also went to the bun shop.

When we arrived, the bun shop was already open, and there was a long queue at the door.

The old man was alone, selling buns and collecting money, busy as a spinning top.

Lin Yu hurried in and said, "Grandma, Gu Ya has a few sets of questions that he hasn't finished, and they have to hand them in tomorrow. He is doing the questions at school. Let me help you sell the buns."

Gu Ya would come back every week during the holidays, and would make phone calls at night.

After finishing speaking, without waiting for the old man to say anything, he went straight to the cashier: "Grandma, tell me how much it is, and I will find it."

"Have a drawer of steamed buns stuffed with sauerkraut!"

The old man's words were abducted by the guest: "Hey! Good!"

Busy until the end of the morning rush hour, Lin Yu lifted the stool and put it next to the old man: "Grandma, sit down and have a rest."

The old man leaned on the stool and sat down, smiling: "You sit too."

The more he looked at Lin Yu, the more satisfied he became.

He works quickly and is sensible.

"You don't need to do papers?" the old man asked.

Lin Yu was taken aback for a moment, and then said: "...I don't study well, so I don't need to do it."

"Let Zai Zai make up lessons for you." The old man immediately thought of a way, "Zai Zai studies well, and he can also consolidate his knowledge by giving you remedial classes."

Lin Yu didn't respond, and changed the subject: "Grandma, are you doing well recently?"

The old man only thought he was concerned about her, and nodded repeatedly: "It's fine, nothing happened. Zai Zai's parents died early, and he is my only relative. The biggest thing in my life is to support him to go to school and watch him get married and start a career."

The situation of the previous life came to mind.

Lin Yu's tone was firm: "It's definitely possible."

If everything goes as it did in the previous life, at worst he would urge Gu Ya to get married early.

As soon as you graduate from college, it's over.

Lin Yu was thinking secretly in his heart, but he didn't know that he left the single in high school, so he didn't need to worry about it at all.

After chatting with the old man for a while, Lin Yu left the bun shop with the excuse of going to the bathroom.Walking to a corner where no one was around, he called Gu Ya.

Although it was not turned off this time, it was not connected.

Lin Yu waited until the phone hung up automatically.After thinking about it, I sent him another penguin message.

【Lin Yu: Why didn't you answer the phone?I am worried about you.If you see a squeak, you can send a punctuation mark. 】

Waited for 3 minutes to reply.

Lin Yu had no choice but to put away her phone and go back to the bun shop.After a while, I took out my phone and looked at it.

At around three o'clock in the afternoon, the phone that had been quiet for most of the day finally started to move.

[Gu Ya: Picture. 】

[Gu Ya: Which one do you like? 】

In the picture are two baseball caps, one black and one white.All are the same except for the color.The style is simple.

Lin Yu, who was worried all morning: "..."

[Lin Yu: Did you go shopping together? 】

[Gu Ya: Which one? 】

[Lin Yu: Send me off? 】

[Gu Ya: Well, thank you. 】

Lin Yu thought for a few seconds, and felt that he should be thanking himself for helping grandma sell buns.

Or maybe it was last night.

It was rare for him to take the initiative to give himself a gift, of course he couldn't refuse.

Lin Yu stared at the pictures and compared them: [White. 】

After three seconds.

[Lin Yu: No, no, black.Black is white. 】

Another three seconds passed.

[Lin Yu: It's better to wear white, black absorbs heat, and it's hotter in summer. 】

Gu Ya replied with a series of ellipses: 【Got it. 】

Lin Yu didn't know what he knew: [When are you coming back? 】

[Gu Ya: Half an hour. 】

Gu Ya did what he said, and half an hour later, he really appeared at the door of the bun shop.Pass the two hats in his hand to Lin Yu.

The best way to cure the difficulty of choosing is to buy them all.

Fortunately, the hats are not expensive, and the two hats cost 30 yuan in total.

"Give it all to me." Lin Yu was flattered.

Gu Ya let out a "hmm", walked to the refrigerator, and opened it to check.

It's stuffed with fresh vegetables and meats.

The old man smiled and said: "Xiao Yu helped me to buy it in the vegetable market. Just like you, she is obedient and sensible."

Lin Yu was afraid that Gu Ya would expose him, so he quickly buttoned the black hat on his head: "This one is for you."

Gu Ya turned his head, and Lin Yu, who was wearing a white hat, was grinning at him.

Silly and simple.

The buckle on the back of the hat was put to the maximum, and it was a full circle bigger when worn on Gu Ya's head.Lin Yu naturally walked around behind him and helped him adjust.

Gu Ya didn't hide either, and stood quietly, acquiescing to some intimate behaviors.

The old man watched from the side, and suddenly remembered: "Xiao Yu's grades are not good, Zai Zai, you make up his lessons."

Lin Yugang wanted to say no, but Gu Ya responded first: "Okay."

Lin Yu: "!"

So easy to say yes?

The two wanted to stay in the bun shop to continue helping, but the old man drove them away: "You two are not needed here, go home and play."

After finishing speaking, he took out 100 yuan from the cash register and handed it to Gu Ya: "Buy whatever you like, don't waste it."

After leaving the bun shop, Gu Ya walked up to the bicycle, unlocked it, lifted his long legs, sat on the bicycle, and supported the ground with his legs.

Glancing at Lin Yu who was standing aside, "Come up."

Lin Yu walked over, faced Gu Ya's back, and sat down on it.

He also has long legs, and there is no place for his feet on the sides, so he can only lift his legs up.In this way, the focus is on the butt.In order to maintain balance, Lin Yu could only grab Gu Ya's sides.

Sensing the opponent's dodge, Lin Yu explained: "I can't sit still without arresting you."

"I'm ticklish, you hug my waist."

Lin Yu: "..."

Yes, he has itchy flesh on both sides.It's okay to stick to it, but I'm afraid of a slight touch.

Lin Yu stretched out her arms in an obedient manner, wrapping her arms around Gu Ya's waist firmly.

"Where were you before?"

Gu Ya rode the bicycle, and it took a long time before he spoke: "Walk around."

He went to another psychological clinic and got exactly the same answer.

There is no second personality found in your body.

Gu Ya accepted this fact.

He will live well, with his admiration and guilt for the boy.

With endless regret and self-blame.

"If there is anything in the future, you can tell me. I promise not to tell others."

Lin Yu's voice drifted into Gu Ya's ears mixed with the sound of car horns,

"Grab it well." Gu Ya's tone was light, "There is a speed bump in front. I'm not responsible for falling."

When Lin Yu heard this, he hugged her even tighter.

Both of them tacitly skipped the sentence just now.

After entering the community, Gu Yazhen led Lin Yu into the downstairs shop.

"I won't eat. Don't waste your money." Lin Yu hurriedly said.

Gu Ya didn't listen to him, and lifted a watermelon from the ground and put it on the electronic scale.I bought other fruits and snacks.

Going up to the fourth floor, Lin Yu hugged the watermelon and stood very consciously at the door of Donghu.

Gu Ya, who was pulling out the keys at the back, glanced at him: "Do you know where I live?"

Lin Yu, who came here for the first time, was stunned: "I don't know. But there are only two households in total, so you can choose one of the two. Am I right?"

After entering the door, Gu Ya went to the kitchen to cut watermelons, while Lin Yu sat quietly on the sofa, looking at the surrounding environment.

Two bedrooms and one living room, about 70 square meters without the common stall.The decoration is also very simple.

Everything was exactly as I remembered it.

Friendly and familiar.

After a while, Gu Ya came over with a sliced ​​watermelon.Put the fruit plate on the coffee table, and went straight to his room.

Lin Yu followed curiously, and saw that Gu Ya took out several notebooks from the bookshelf and handed them all to Lin Yu: "This is the notes I made in class, memorize them all."

Turning over, every page is filled with dense words.

Lin Yu bit the bullet: "Thank you...thank you."

At eight o'clock in the evening, the old man came back from the bun shop.

"The buns are selling fast today, and I'll be back when they're gone." The old man said as he walked towards the kitchen, "It just so happened to make something delicious for you two."

Lin Yu stood up from the sofa: "I'll help you."

"No. You sit down and watch TV, it will be ready soon. Zai Zai, treat me well."

Upon hearing this, Gu Ya put the fruits and snacks in front of Lin Yu: "Eat."

Lin Yu: "..."

I suspect you want to feed me so that you can devour grandma's delicacies all by yourself.

The school stipulates that boarding students must live in the dormitory at night without asking for leave.Otherwise, it will be treated as escape, which is a serious violation of discipline.

It was already ten o'clock in the evening after eating, and there was still an hour before the bed check.

It's a little far away from the school, so the two of them can only take a taxi.

Half an hour later, the taxi stopped at the east gate of the school.

Getting out of the car, looking at the tightly locked school gate, Gu Ya and Lin Yu were stunned at the same time.

The author has something to say: All the descriptions and settings of the dual personality in the article serve the plot and should not be taken as real.