I wasn't like this when I was a kid

Gu Ya leaned against the wall, looked at a certain place in the void, and said calmly: "You don't always feel that I have changed, and that is the reason."

Things have been kept in my heart for too long, and all emotions are piled up in one place.

He desperately needs a chance to vent.

Lin Yu had a bunch of questions, but couldn't ask them.The language organization ability seems to have been lost, and he can only look at the other party dryly.

"I am Gu Ya's second personality. I was born during the summer vacation when he was in junior high school. He has been bullied all the time and dare not resist. At the same time, he longs for someone to help him. That's why I have me, a complete opposite of him. ……people."

When he said the last word, Gu Ya paused for a long time.

"Impossible!" Lin Yu finally caught up with the train of thought, "He has a dual personality, how could he not know?"

"Because I won't let him know." Gu Ya said firmly.

"He is so sensitive that when others say a word behind him, they have to think about whether they are talking about themselves. How dare I let him know."

"Besides, I just want to protect him." Gu Ya continued, "Knowing my existence will not do him any good. Dual personality is a disease, and I can't let him become a monster in others' mouths."

Lin Yu suddenly remembered: "That notebook!"

"It's a medium for us to chat." Speaking of this, Gu Ya's eyes showed tenderness and nostalgia, "I've been using that to chat with him."

Lin Yu understood everything.

All questions, all have answers.

No wonder there is no way to meet, no wonder no contact information is left, no wonder he refuses to reveal his identity.

Because we share one body, because we are one person from beginning to end.

"The longer it exists, the easier it is to show its flaws. I planned to accompany him until he graduated from high school and disappear, but..."

Gu Ya choked up, the corners of his eyes were moist, and his voice was trembling: "He disappeared first."

"I went to see a psychiatrist, and they all said that I am not a dual personality. I obviously am, he was still there before."

Gu Ya broke down in tears again.

The medical staff and patients passing by couldn't help looking at the teenager who was squatting on the ground and sobbing silently.

Lin Yu leaned against the other wall and suddenly remembered the last conversation they had in their previous life.

At that time, he failed the college entrance examination and talked a lot about it.And asked to meet again.

But got a farewell without a session.

[I'm leaving, I can't stay with you anymore.Failure in the college entrance examination does not mean failure in life, you still have countless opportunities.Remember, never live in the eyes of others, just be yourself.It has been a pleasure to get along with you in the past three years. I wish you a bright future, good health and happiness.Remember me if you can. 】

"I……"

It was Gu Ya.

Just as Lin Yu was about to say something, Gu Ya stood up, her voice hoarse: "Let's go, keep it a secret for me."

Lin Yu followed behind, and suddenly an unbelievable thought came to her heart: "He is, when did he disappear?"

Gu Ya's answer floated in his ears: "October 10 this year."

It was the day he resurrected from the corpse!

Lin Yu was nailed to the spot, his mind went blank.

How can it be so coincidental?

wrong.

Not a coincidence at all.

Not only did he occupy the body of 'Lin Yu', he also squeezed away 17-year-old Gu Ya.

Are 17-year-old Gu Ya and 27-year-old Gu Ya the same person?

Lin Yu kept asking herself in her heart.

From someone else's point of view, yes.

But he really couldn't convince himself.

How to explain it to the person in front of you.

Will he understand?

Still hate myself.

Lin Yu pushed herself into a corner and couldn't get out.

Gu Ya walked to the door of the ward and saw Lin Yu standing in a daze in the distance: "What's wrong?"

Lin Yu came back to her senses, and took a few steps to catch up, not daring to look directly into the other person's eyes: "You...you rest first, I'll go buy you food."

Looking at the people who trotted away, Gu Ya frowned, and muttered to himself: "Are you scared?"

Lin Yu ran outside in one breath, raised her arms and wiped away her tears, and began to look for restaurants.

When he went back after buying the meal, the doctor was rounding the ward: "You need to be hospitalized in this situation."

"I don't want to live." Gu Ya leaned on the bed, "Isn't it already healed?"

"Even if you are not hospitalized, you have to come here every day for anti-inflammatory drips. You have a penetrating wound, and bacteria are easy to breed in it. Anti-inflammatory and disinfection must be done well."

"Listen to the doctor!" Lin Yu walked to the bedside, "Don't mess around, listen to the doctor. Besides, grandma doesn't worry if you're not hospitalized. I... don't worry either."

The last sentence was in a low voice, barely audible.

Gu Ya glanced at him and compromised: "Alright then. How many days?"

"At least a week."

The doctor prescribed some painkillers: "Take it when the pain is severe. One tablet at a time, preferably not more than three times a day."

Gu Ya picked it up and was about to eat it, but Lin Yu said, "Hey!", "Eat first, or you will get a stomachache."

"Let him take it." The doctor said, "The anesthetic has expired long ago, and it's still hurting."

Lin Yu was stunned.

It turned out that he had been holding on.

"Go to the water room and get him some hot water." The doctor reminded.

Lin Yu put down the rice in his hand, picked up the kettle and left the ward.

Painkillers don't take effect immediately, Gu Ya still needs to be in pain for a while.

Lin Yu spoke softly, lowered his head and fiddled with the rice, and didn't look at Gu Ya: "I bought rice, steamed buns and millet porridge, and a few more dishes. I don't know if it's good or not, anyway, the boss said it was from his family. chef's special."

Seeing him like this, Gu Ya felt that he was afraid of him even more, and said lightly, "Go back to school."

"It's fine if I'm late for class, but if you can't, you'll be late too. You go back to class and take all your notes, and copy them when I'm discharged from the hospital."

It makes sense.

Lin Yu thought for a while: "I'll come back tomorrow. Anyway, today is delayed."

Open the meals one by one, "Which one do you want to eat?"

"I'm not hungry. You eat."

"How can you not be hungry? After bleeding so much and undergoing another operation, you must be hungry."

When she raised her head and met Gu Ya's gaze, Lin Yu subconsciously turned her head away, not daring to meet his gaze.

"I said I'm not hungry." Gu Ya lay down with his back facing Lin Yu, "I'm sleepy, let's sleep for a while."

Lin Yu covered the rice, nestled on the chair and didn't make any noise.

At two o'clock in the afternoon, the police came to take notes.

Gu Ya just woke up and told the truth.

The policeman looked at Lin Yu: "I heard from those gangsters that you are with them? What's going on?"

Lin Yu showed the police the chat records he had prepared long ago: "I am not with them. Instead, they have been asking me for money, and they will threaten me if they don't."

There are discrepancies in the testimony of both parties, and it is obvious that Lin Yu's words are more credible, after all, there is evidence.

The other party insisted that Lin Yu was involved in everything, and even planned the robbery of the bun shop with him.

If you want evidence, you can't produce it.

It's completely a backstop even if you die.

"Okay, I see." The policeman recorded it in detail, "Let's leave this matter as it is, and if you need your cooperation later, I will let you know."

"What about those three people?" Lin Yu asked worriedly, "After a few days of detention, they will be released. They will definitely go to the bun shop for revenge. We are both students and live on campus, so we can't keep watching."

"Robbery is a criminal offense, and these three people have committed robbery and burglary many times before. We have filed a case for trial. After all the evidence is collected, it will be handed over to the court for trial and conviction."

"If there are no accidents, at least three years or more."

Lin Yu finished listening: "Isn't it house robbery?"

Robbery is generally sentenced to fixed-term imprisonment of more than three years, but home robbery is more than ten years, or even life imprisonment and the death penalty.

Not an order of magnitude at all.

"Do you want to see the court trial? I will inform you of any progress."

"Can the punishment be increased for causing serious injuries?"

Lin Yu is not reconciled, Gu Ya's knife cannot be taken in vain.

The policeman nodded: "This will definitely be taken into consideration."

At four o'clock in the afternoon, the old man appeared at the door of the ward on time.In his hand, he carried an oversized thermos bucket.

"You're hungry, come and eat."

Seeing that the old man was in good spirits, Lin Yu felt relieved and lay down next to the thermos: "Let me see what is delicious."

Old hen soup, big bone in sauce, stewed fish, and a big plate of dumplings.

Lin Yu filled a bowl of chicken soup, carried it to the bedside, scooped up the chicken soup with a spoon, and stammered, "I...I'll feed you."

Gu Ya looked at him for a second, took the chicken soup with his left hand, tasted it first, the temperature was just right, and drank it all up.

"No. Eat yours."

Lin Yu: "..."

"Do you still want to drink? I'll serve it for you again."

"Go and eat quickly." The old man came over, "I'll just take care of him."

Lin Yu had been hungry all day, so she didn't refuse, and walked aside to eat.

He didn't notice anything wrong with Gu Ya's mood.

At night, Gu Ya started to chase people away again: "Hurry up and go back to school, or the school will be locked later."

"Can I sleep here today?"

"No." Gu Ya was very decisive, "This place is far away from the school, and there is no time for class. Let's go quickly. I don't need anyone to take care of me."

Lin Yu hesitated for a while, then stood up: "Call me if you have something to do, I'll go first."

Hearing the 'click' sound of closing the door, Gu Ya let out a long sigh.

If I had known that he would be afraid, I would not have told him.

Early the next morning, Lin Yu got up to wash up and went to the cafeteria to eat.

Usually they are inseparable from Gu Ya, and they are suddenly alone, as if something is missing.

I went around the food windows one by one, but there was nothing I wanted to eat.Plus there were too many people, he was too lazy to line up.I went to the store to buy a piece of bread and went back to class to eat.

While eating, he sent a message to Gu Ya.

[Lin Yu: Are you awake?If the wound hurts, remember to take medicine and breakfast.Listen to the doctor. 】

No reply, it seems that he is still asleep.

Lin Yu didn't bother him anymore and concentrated on eating bread.With a glance, he saw the black leather notebook in the hole of Gu Ya's desk.

After hesitating for a few seconds, Lin Yu pulled it out and opened it slowly.

Turn back page by page.

The memory in my mind slowly spread out along with the words.

until the last one.

This is a completely unfamiliar reply - at least in Lin Yu's memory.

【I am you. 】

Blue text, familiar font.

"Clap."

A tear fell on it, and the words were blurred.

Lin Yu hurriedly wiped it open and closed it carefully.

"Thank you."

Thank you for protecting me, encouraging me, and caring about me.

Just, sorry.

The author has something to say: this silly boy, alas.