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Orange sunlight flew in through the cracks in the window, and the evening sky looked extraordinarily gentle.

Yu Ling lay quietly on the bed, and he didn't know if he was still waiting for Chen Jifeng, who should never come back.

The phone was buzzing and vibrating beside the pillow. Maybe it was a colleague urging him to finish those bits and pieces of documents, maybe a friend invited him to dinner, maybe it was a routine greeting from his parents on weekends.

Yu Ling doesn't want to pay attention to it, anyway, he will never be the man who has moved out of this house.

The breakup between them was predictable, there was no derailment, no hysteria, no plots that appeared in the bloody novels, it was just the long time and busy life that killed the love.

I don't know when, Chen Jifeng's laughter began to decrease, and Yu Ling began to fall asleep every day when he returned home tired.

There are fewer and fewer chats and kisses, and there are always only a few words in the chat box, but the matter has not decreased too much, but it is always done hastily with a sense of lust.

The people running around the city are busy with their ordinary jobs, and Fang Qiu's youthful spirit seems to be blown away with the autumn winds, leaving only two adults who have grown up. A man faces endless confusion in life.

Yu Ling's stomach growled soon after the sun went down. He got up and opened the refrigerator. There were not many things in it, and he was not in the mood to make some delicate meals for himself, so soon, a bowl of bland The white boiled noodles were put on the table.

The two of them parted amicably.Both Yu Ling and Chen Jifeng seemed to have anticipated this matter.

The day when Chen Jifeng moved away, it was not a gloomy and rainy day like the one in the novel, it was just an ordinary sunny day, a bit windy but not too cold.

Yu Ling barely held up a smile and sent him away, as if it was really just a farewell between ordinary friends.

The noodles mixed with Laoganma finally became less bland, and Yu Ling started to eat seriously without being picky, but tears could not help but fall down while eating.

He remembered that the man also used to tell him that he had a bad stomach not to eat Laoganma all the time, but he was always defeated in his prayers, but he just carefully gave him a small spoonful.

He thought that they no longer loved each other, and leaving should be considered a relief.

In fact, in the first few days, he really didn't feel so uncomfortable. He still lived a two-point and one-line life, with a harsh boss and a stingy vegetable seller.

But with the passage of time, Yu Ling felt more and more at a loss. Everything was working normally, but such trivial things as opening the shoe rack to see the empty half, always made Yu Ling suddenly feel endless loss and sadness.

Finally, on this ordinary Saturday afternoon, when I woke up from a nap and saw the sunset, Yu Ling felt unprecedented loneliness and longing. The unpleasant past dissipated like smoke, and the beauty was still vivid in my mind.

Chen Jifeng's silly face reappeared in front of his eyes again, and Yu Ling couldn't ignore the throbbing pain in his heart. For the first time, he knew that heartache was not an adjective. It turned out that the heart really hurts involuntarily when it is extremely sad.

Tears flowed out like a broken thread, and the tears that Yu Ling didn't want to shed were floating on the noodles. He could no longer deceive himself and tell himself that he no longer loved Chen Jifeng. He never realized it more clearly than now. He really couldn't leave Chen Jifeng.

Only Chen Jifeng's Yu Ling is the complete Yu Ling.

Yu Ling was not an indecisive person. The moment he understood his intentions, he made a decision almost instantly, and went to find Chen Jifeng tomorrow.

Yu Ling still remembers the day when he first met Chen Jifeng, the day when high school freshmen entered school.

The sunny day at the end of August was surprisingly hot, and the air shone on the stone road with scorching heat waves.

Because his parents are busy, he can only take a taxi and squeeze into the crowd with heavy boxes to get materials and daily necessities distributed by the school.

People queuing filled the entire hall, and Yu Ling was in it, and soon sweated, desperately pouring out money.

There was no wind to dry the sweat from his forehead, and his bangs began to stick to his forehead. Yu Ling didn't want to wipe the sweat with his hands, but the sweat was getting more and more, and the sweat that was slowly dripping down was a little itchy.

Just as he was debating whether to use his T-shirt to wipe the sweat that was streaming down his eyes, a hand holding a tissue suddenly appeared in front of him.

Yu Ling raised his head and saw a pair of smiling eyes.

"Wipe it, it's too hot," he heard the person next to him say.

Yu Ling swore that he had never seen such beautiful hands before. They were slender and slender, each nail was manicured round and full, and even the veins on the back of the hand were properly grown, revealing an undisguised beauty.

As a curvy boy who already knows his sexual orientation and has some unspeakable fetishes for his hands and feet, the temptation of such a stunner who suits his appetite is probably the same as that of Tang Seng lying naked on the bed of the king of the daughter country to the king of the daughter country. The temptation was equal, Yu Ling really showed great restraint to resist not really stretching out his hand to caress.

"Thank you." He reached out to take the tissue, smiled and looked up, but couldn't help but dodge his eyes when they met the corner of the man's smiling mouth.

"Why does this man still have a smile on his lips? No wonder he smiles so seductively." Yu Ling turned his head and muttered softly while wiping his sweat, but he didn't see the higher corners of the mouth of the people around him.

"My name is Chen Jifeng, what about you?" the person next to him suddenly called out.

"Yu Ling." Yu Ling hurriedly turned around to agree.

"What class do you belong to? Did you just read the class and dormitory list at the door?" Chen Jifeng smiled and pointed to the direction of the list shelf at the door.Yu Ling looked at Chen Jifeng's beautiful lips in a daze, and couldn't help swallowing a mouthful of saliva.

"Not yet. There are more people crowded at the door than here. I'll wait to see it when I go out after picking up my luggage. I think there will be fewer people."

As soon as Yu Ling finished speaking, he saw Chen Jifeng standing on tiptoe and looking over the shelf.

"Hey, you're waiting for me here. I saw my friend squeezed in over there. I'll let him take a look for you. What's your score in the high school entrance examination?"

Before Yu Ling could react to Chen Jifeng's gushing enthusiasm, he quickly said the score.

Chen Jifeng nodded, and quickly apologized all the way to the shelf where the list was posted, and squeezed back quickly after a while.

Before he recovered from Chen Jifeng's smiling killing, Chen Jifeng had already gone and returned.

"Guess what, we are not only in the same class but also in the same dormitory. What a coincidence, hey, wait for me to go together after picking up the luggage." Chen Jifeng enthusiastically reminded Yu Ling of the forever naive place in his aunt's house. husky

"Okay, which floor is our dormitory on? My suitcase is very heavy."

"It seems to be the third floor. It's okay. Let's lift the box up. I'm so strong. Feel my muscles."

"..."

"Do you want to eat an ice cream when you go out later? I saw a supermarket behind the third floor of the high school. I invite you."

Among the crowded crowd who sometimes smelled bad sweat, Chen Jifeng and Yu Ling got to know each other like this

The young Chen Jifeng always likes to smile so much, his white and neat teeth are exposed all the year round, it makes people so happy to talk to him

Yu Ling was also amused by the weird and coquettish words he always popped out, and two cute canine teeth were exposed under his curved eyebrows.

The summer wind passed through the hall, blowing past the pair of smiling teenagers, entangled their breath and blowing them far away, but at this moment, none of them realized that the people around them would become the source of all their emotions in their lives .

Yu Ling's plan failed because Chen Jifeng came by himself.

Originally, according to the plan, Yu Ling got up early on the weekend for an unprecedented time, and cleaned himself up meticulously.

He picked up the trash and prepared to throw it away before going downstairs to buy some breakfast.

The moment he opened the door, the person who should not have appeared at the door made him really stunned.

Standing at the stairs outside the door was Chen Jifeng, smoking a cigarette while leaning on the handrail of the stairs.

Yu Ling opened the door quickly, and Chen Jifeng was also in a daze, so Chen Jifeng didn't have time to dodge.

Yu Ling saw that the sadness on Chen Jifeng's face seemed to have passed away, but he wondered if he had read it wrong, because there was only embarrassment and nervousness on Chen Jifeng's face.

Yu Ling saw him quickly snuff out the cigarette butt, and touched his ear with his hand, he knew that this was a gesture that the other party often made when he was embarrassed.

"I didn't expect you to wake up so early, uh, are you going downstairs to buy breakfast?" Chen Jifeng asked pretendingly, but the hand that tightened the corner of his clothes had already revealed his nervousness.

Yu Ling didn't answer, but looked at Chen Jifeng almost greedily.

Since they broke up, Yu Ling has never seen Chen Jifeng again, it is too difficult to meet someone casually in such a big city.

Although they said they would not delete friends when they broke up, their circle of friends was tacitly closed to each other, and he also lost his dynamics because of this.

Chen Jifeng has lost weight, with stubble on his face, black eyes, sunken cheeks and a wrinkled windbreaker, all of which are different from the lawyer Chen who in Yu Ling's memory always revealed an elite style after graduation, It is more like A Feng who was always reckless in high school.

This also clearly reveals that his past four months may not be as smooth as Yu Ling's.

Could he also be inseparable from me, Yu Ling was a little lost in thought.

"Don't you want to see me, I, I just passed by today to take a look, I didn't come to disturb you, I didn't mean to spy on you, don't be nervous, I know you don't want to see me, I'm leaving now" Chen Jifeng Seeing Yu Ling who was stunned, he became more and more panicked, explained a few words in nonsense, and rushed downstairs.

Yu Ling looked at Chen Jifeng who was foolishly rushing downstairs, took two steps and stretched out his hand to grab him, Chen Jifeng was pulled back, as if he didn't expect Yu Ling to do this, he lowered his head in surprise look at him.

Yu Ling didn't raise his head to meet his gaze, but just put his arms around Chen Jifeng's waist, and Chen Jifeng was stunned.

He still had a familiar smell. Yu Ling smelled it and felt that his heart, which had been floating for days and had no fixed place, suddenly calmed down. All the grievances and longings in the past four months burst out. Second tears.

Chen Jifeng felt the wetness on his shoulders, panicked, and quickly circled Yu Ling and patted him on the back lightly.

"An'an, An'an, what's the matter? Why are you still crying? Did someone bully you?" Yu Ling felt even more wronged when he heard Chen Jifeng's words. Chen Jifeng's hand on his back made him feel back When he was a child who could cry freely, the pain of the adult world inexplicably filled Yu Ling's heart at this moment, and he cried bitterly while hugging Chen Jifeng who gave him warmth.

Chen Jifeng didn't expect that his words not only failed to comfort Yu Ling, but made his sadness worse, he didn't know what to say for a while, so he could only quietly pat Yu Ling, stroked his soft short hair, and tried to Give him some comfort even if it is barren.

But the hug time between the two of them didn't last long, because the elder brother at the opposite door was woken up by Yu Ling's crying, opened the door cursing and telling them to go back to their room to cry, and soon after cursing, he slammed the door viciously .

After being yelled at for a while, Yu Ling realized his gaffe, and hurriedly got out of Chen Jifeng's arms, but his sobs could not be stopped.

Chen Jifeng looked at his red eye circles from crying and felt a little distressed, he couldn't help but asked, "Can I go in and sit down?"

Yu Ling quickly gave him an affirmative answer.