No one knows loneliness better than me

71.

Min You is not worried about this: "They like to think about it, so let them think about it. I like watching them scare me the most."

Hearing this, I knew that Min You actually cared, cared about other people's opinions, and also sincerely felt that their fear was simply speechless and disgusting.

72.

I am a strange ganoderma, other ganodermas are full of aura, but I am full of evil spirit.

When I was still in the darkness and chaos, I heard a nice voice saying: "It seems that you will practice the way of killing in the future."

I have forgotten exactly what that voice was like, but all spiritual beings are sensitive and know who is kind to me and who is malicious to me. I have a good impression of this voice, presumably the owner of the voice is very fond of me. good.

I have not yet transformed, and as a conscious ganoderma, my perception of external sounds is still limited.I know the man spoke to me a lot, but I don't hear much and remember even less.

I should cultivate the Dao of Slaughtering, I have understood since I was spiritually wise.

I turned into a human form on a dark and windy night, and what faced me was a ghost. I knew he wasn't the one who was with me all the time.

The ghost screamed when it saw me, and I think that was the first time I showed my ability to scare ghosts.

Countless red threads entangled the ghost, I was very angry, I wanted to open my eyes and see that person, but it was all destroyed by this ghost, and now I can't even find the way back.

Originally, I could ask the ghost to know where I came from, but it turned out that the ghost really had a lot of magic weapons. He threw something at me. For a moment, I felt that my whole body lost all spiritual power.

When my spiritual power recovered, there was only one piece of jade pendant left at my feet, which was composed of milky white suet jade and ink jade.

It didn't take long for the jade pendant to disappear out of thin air. According to the laws of the cultivation world that I understood later, this jade pendant may be something at the level of a natal magic weapon.

It's just that I never met anyone who used the jade pendant as a magic weapon.

73.

In order to make some progress on the path of killing, I participated in various battles, becoming a soldier who charged forward, and became a general with outstanding military exploits.

After being approved by Killing Dao, I ascended.

In fact, it is easy to become demons when cultivating the Dao of Slaughtering, but it may be because I am a spiritual plant, not easy to become demons, and I am born with a strong evil spirit, which makes my road of cultivation very smooth, without any ups and downs.

If I become a demon, it will probably be the first spiritual practice to become a demon.

But the orthodox Heaven Realm does not recognize the way of killing, but they have no way to kick me down after I ascended.

After going to the heaven, I just want to be a spiritual cultivator, but maybe I was too unlucky, and I encountered a battle between immortals and demons as soon as I went to heaven.

At this time, they thought of me who practiced the way of killing, but I didn't like killing, I just wanted to stay away from right and wrong, so I refused.

74.

I got acquainted with a little fairy official, who can be regarded as a "social butterfly".

Communication between various ethnic groups requires someone to take risks to transmit information, including the transmission of information between heaven and hell, which also requires someone to run back and forth.

The breath of the little fairy official made me feel very kind, but I could feel that he hated and rejected me, maybe because of my evil spirit, but what he didn't know was that I felt that he was so close because of his body. The evil spirit of the man may have been contaminated by running somewhere.

But this does not prevent me from thinking that Xiao Xianguan is a god worth making friends with, because the gods in the entire heaven don't like me, so it seems that the only thing I can refer to is my own feeling.

But the little fairy official died not long after, and the demon didn't have the consciousness not to kill it.

Maybe it was at that time that I had the idea of ​​fighting against demons.

During the Great War between Immortals and Demons, countless people fawned on me and flattered me. They praised me very well and wished I could stand shoulder to shoulder with the sun, saying that I was more radiant than the sun and the moon.

The irony is the change in their attitude after the war.

In the eyes and fear of everyone, I have doubted countless times, is the right path necessarily the right path?

As a spiritual practitioner who practiced the way of killing, I have lost my value, leaving them with only countless negative emotions. I can't bring them happiness, or even integrate into them, and I am not happy either.

In the confusion and self-doubt, I began to long for the affirmation of others.

Love is a wonderful thing, it seems to heal everything, I have been looking for a love that can accept me, but unfortunately it has been fruitless for thousands of years.

75.

After hearing what I said, Min You blinked his eyes.

He originally wanted to say something, but then he didn't say anything, his eyes widened in horror, and then he rushed towards me and held me in his arms.

He has a smell that I like, which makes people want to get close, but the smell that I can't avoid is getting stronger.

Bloody smell.

I pretended to be calm, supported Min You, and released my consciousness around me, but I didn't find anything.

The only thing that surprised me was that at that moment just now, I felt that the spiritual power in my whole body was frozen and could not be used.

I felt this feeling thousands of years ago.

76.

Who in the heavens uses arrows?

I have found so many, it is difficult to really find it, and it is even more difficult to find the murderer.

That person was aiming at me, but the whole heaven wants to die, but there are only a handful of people who don't want me to die.

I wanted to carry Min You back to the underworld, but he refused, so I had to carry it on my back.

After the man was seriously injured, he talked more.

"I wanted to ask you if you blamed the person who said you were suitable for learning the way of killing. If he hadn't said so, you wouldn't have fallen into such a situation."

I refuted it without even thinking about it, it was a beam of light in my heart, not to mention, it was clear that it was the theory of victim guilt.

"How could it be his fault? What he said is quite right. I am indeed suitable for cultivating the Dao of Slaughter. During my cultivation, it can be said that I ascended without any effort."

"If I think he's wrong, or I think I'm wrong, then wouldn't I just admit that those who are really wrong are right?"

"I don't blame him. If I want to blame it, I blame those guys in the heavens who cross rivers and tear down bridges, turning faces faster than turning books."

Min smiled sullenly, I don't know what's funny, but he is injured now, I don't want to care about him.

77.

It's miserable, I thought on the way to the underworld.

Injuries suffered in the heavens have to travel thousands of miles back to the underworld to heal them.

I thought that along the way, there would be some gods who would see it and help, or tell us to stay and heal our injuries, and stop running so far away to heal our injuries. It turns out that there is no such thing as unnecessary actions, only me being sentimental.

The gods passing by pretended not to see it, and the heavens had become so indifferent and ruthless. Such a cold world made people feel a little sad, and the last bit of expectation for the heavens disappeared.

I was confused again, this time it was no longer about whether I should practice the Dao of Slaughtering, but why I should practice, why should I ascend, and why should I stay in the heaven.

I didn't respond to the [-] call to come back a long time ago!

Where am I not [-], why do I have to go back to heaven and be disgusted by them!

"Why did Feng Guilai come to borrow money from you?" Besides, Min You clearly didn't lend him the money, and when he met me again, he didn't mention the money. At that time, I really felt that he came to me for the money. Didn't mean to scare him off.

It took a while for Min You to respond to me, his voice sounded like he had just woken up, a bit vague: "A long time ago, a ghost escaped from the underworld, and later he became successful in cultivation. The underworld has nothing to do with him and just ignores him. But this ghost was able to escape by relying on the people behind it. The people behind him are greedy for money, and the ghost has been trying to find ways to collect money everywhere. The ghost was sealed back, and the money has not been paid back to this day."

78.

I frowned when I heard that, and regretted that I didn't use more force when the sword was on Feng Guilai's neck.

Could this be something that Feng Gui said would make me regret it?

I am very regretful, regretting not taking his life.

"Can you keep your back steady, you can't blame me when I spit on you."

Min You was still in the mood to joke with me, but in fact, his blood had already flowed all over me.

"You are going to die, do you care about yourself?" My voice was trembling, definitely more bumpy than my back.

Min You tried very hard to maintain his state, but he didn't have much strength to speak, and what he said was exhausted: "I'm going to die, so you just pretend that I blocked Cupid's arrow for you, for fear of being caught by you Revenge, fled to the ends of the earth."

God damn Cupid, Cupid doesn't care about this piece.

"You have a good idea. If you want to steal my marriage, I will definitely go over mountains and mountains to find you out. I am so powerful, and the vastness of the world is not enough for you to hide."

After finally taking Min You safely to the underworld, my brain was in a mess.

The strange place suddenly became familiar, as if it matched the place deep in my memory, which I hadn't noticed before.

79.

I remember a battle before I ascended. As a little soldier, I was thinking about the meaning of life in the rain.

Back then, I was also a great monk with great ambitions, and I actually thought about the meaning of existence, such a profound philosophy.

Suddenly I felt that the rain was getting lighter, and when I looked up, it was the invincible general who held up his hands and blocked a small piece of rain for me.

"doing what?"

I suddenly bowed my head: "I don't know the meaning of everything I do. I wield the knife mechanically. In fact, I am afraid of blood and death."

The general smiled: "That means you still don't understand what you want to protect."

The words suddenly became clear.

It was him.

It turns out that I always have someone I want to protect.

It started when it was not yet in human form.

80.

I am a Ganoderma lucidum that grows in the underworld. I have absorbed evil energy, and I was born to practice the way of killing. I have successfully ascended through various battles in the world, and finally fought bloody in the battle between immortals and demons, becoming an evil god that everyone fears.