Waking up in Taitun

14.

"Mr. Dazai—"

"Mr. Dazai, get up quickly—"

"Didn't you agree to go on a mission? Why did you fall asleep on the sofa again..."

Woo, it's Dun-kun's voice. His consciousness is not fully awake yet, Dazai Osamu was thinking dizzily in his heart, his thoughts were still sinking in that somewhat real dream, and he was in a trance for a while.

"That bandage waste device, damn it, I'll punish him—"

"No no no! Kunikida-san calm down!"

Ah, sure enough, Kunikida is also on the side, Dazai Osamu said in his heart without feeling any ups and downs, he slightly opened his eyes to adapt to the light outside, the darkness that he had adapted to because of sleeping for a long time was swept by the light for a moment, Dazai Zhi's eyes were aroused by the mild and not dazzling light, causing some physiological tears.

"What an unhappy way to be woken up from a dream like this."

Osamu Dazai pouted and sat up from the sofa, humming like complaining. The young man yawned instinctively before he could sit still. The arms and spine stretched out and creaked. After stretching comfortably, Osamu Dazai rested his chin on his hands, and lazily closed his eyes to look at the person in front of him.

Standing in front of the sofa and looking at Osamu Dazai who just sat up, Kunikida Doppo looked at him condescendingly. Osamu Dazai looked at his face that had already turned ferocious and the gap where the pen on his right hand began to crack, and took a step ahead of him. His eyes widened in shock and he shouted, "Kunikida-kun!"

Kunikida Doppo was startled by his high-pitched voice, and when he looked over again, Dazai Osamu no longer had the sleepy look he had when he just woke up, but now he was staring at him with a serious face, which is rare for Dazai Osamu Staring at him with a serious expression, Kunikida Doppo was startled, and quickly adjusted to his usual working state.

"What's wrong? Dazai, is something wrong?"

Did something go wrong, or did the previous mission miss some key information? Kunikida Doppo frowned more and more, and asked in a calm voice with a little worry.

"Kunikida-kun," Osamu Dazai also frowned, his eyes filled with sadness that he didn't want to show, "Do you still remember what I said during the last mission?"

"Last mission? What did you say?" Kunikida Doppo clattered and flipped through his pocket book. Osamu Dazai looked at him, still with a heavy expression on his face, and said, "I just saw Kunikida's expression on your face, you are always so angry. It’s not good for lifespan at all.”

"Counting this time, this is already the sixth time this week. Hey, Kunikida-kun, this week is not half over yet."

"Before, as a partner, I deliberately reminded you that people of Kunikida-kun's age can't have frequent emotional ups and downs like this. It's really bad for the body."

Osamu Dazai said with a serious face, seeing Kunikida Doppo picking up a pen and subconsciously starting to memorize notes with a smug smile on his face, he continued talking with a bit of coaxing.

"Yes, take a notebook and write it down quickly. If you want to relieve these emotions, Mr. Kunikida must remember to say 'I'm an idiot' three times in his heart every time he gets angry, and then take a deep breath and shout out this sentence, so that It will reduce the negative impact."

"Of course I'm kidding you~"

"—— Dazai!!!"

Atsuki Nakajima watched from the side with a stern face, Kunikida broke the pen with a snap and rushed to Osamu Dazai to punish him——

...Ah, how should I put it, as expected, the new pen still can't last three days, the white tiger boy from the detective agency thought wearily.

After a lot of tossing, when Kunikida Doppo finally relieved his anger and strode away, the young man tiredly put down his hands covering his face to look at the senior who was paralyzed like a dead corpse on the sofa, and was strangled by the furious Kunikida Doppo Osamu Dazai, who was shaking wildly for a while, showed an inexplicably comfortable expression, while being exhausted, he collapsed back to the sofa.

Atsushi Nakajima poked Osamu Dazai, who had buried his face in the sofa, "You finally woke up, Mr. Dazai." He sighed, and stared at the senior who slowly revealed his eyes, " I've been calling you for a long time, and if I don't wake up, I won't be able to catch up with the task."

"Hey! Haven't finished the task yet?!" Osamu Dazai's eyes widened, but they tended to close again soon, "Ah, actually I haven't slept enough yet, Kunikida-kun just made a fuss and threw I've run out of energy..."

As he spoke, he was about to close his eyes again and bury his face back on the sofa. Nakajima Atsuto immediately stuck his hands on both sides of Dazai Osamu's cheeks to stop him from burying him again. The boy looked at the struggle to escape from work with all his heart. The senior stared at Dazai Osamu's heart with wide-eyed eyes: "Mr. Dazai! Sure enough, you fell asleep because you were about to go on a mission before!"

"What are you talking about!" Osamu Dazai secretly fought against the strength in Atsushi Nakajima's hand to stop him. The young man gritted his teeth for a while, but the strength could not withstand the strength of the white tiger boy, and finally gave up struggling,' Dunjun, this stubborn fool! He complained from the bottom of his heart, then looked at him with a look of shock on his face, and asked with tears in his eyes, "Am I that kind of person?!"

"...I should say you are not?" The white tiger boy looked at him with a sad face: "Mr. Dazai, you are clearly such a guy, counting the number of times you left me in the middle of the mission last time, it is almost equal to the number of times in our team." Two-thirds of the team's missions."

"Ahaha..." Osamu Dazai rubbed his head and pretended to be dumbfounded, "So there are so many?" The next second his expression became excited again, "Then let me update my goal to four-fifths !"

"Mr. Dazai!!"

"Oh," Osamu Dazai let go of his playful demeanor and sighed lightly, and said with a little regret, "It's rare that this time was a good dream."

Holding his tone, he murmured as if blaming but also jokingly: "It's all because Dunjun is so annoying."

Atsushi Nakajima turned around to look at him, but he didn't see the usual expression that this guy usually has when he's being funny. His gaze met Dazai Osamu's drooping eyes almost instantly, as if he was recalling something. It seemed to be a common expression on weekdays, but it revealed a quiet atmosphere.

It's really rare, Mr. Dazai will show such an expression... The young man thought unconsciously in his heart, a little confused, is it really a rare dream? Speaking of which, if I was woken up while eating tea and rice in my dream If he wakes up, he will definitely be very disappointed. Thinking of this, Atsushi Nakajima unconsciously showed a little guilt, but before the guilt that seemed to be induced was fully revealed, he realized what he woke up to see Looking at the senior: "...But, it's Mr. Dazai's fault to be lazy and sleep when it's time to work?!"

The tone was still very serious to refute the questioning, Dazai Osamu whispered "cut" in the bottom of his heart, and then the slightly disappointed expression before was quickly taken away, and he stared at him with round eyes with a little distress. juvenile.Have you been able to react so quickly? Osamu Dazai pinched his chin and pondered, ah, it's getting harder and harder to cheat...

"But Mr. Dazai really had some kind of good dream, right?" Atsushi Nakajima changed his mind and said with bright eyes, "When he was about to wake up, his expression looked very peaceful."

Osamu Dazai paused for a moment, and then thought about it carefully. He turned his eyes to see the boy's expectant expression, and said with a smile, "I dreamed that Dun-jun turned into a tiger and almost killed me... or something like that?"

Atsushi Nakajima showed a bit of panic on his face, and looked at the expression on Osamu Dazai's face in shock to discern if the other party was thinking of teasing again: "No way!" The boy responded in surprise: "Mr. Dazai's The supernatural ability must be able to separate the Moonbeast from the very beginning!"

Osamu Dazai finally smiled and said, "So it's a dream."

Atsushi Nakajima looked at the smile on his face, hesitated for a moment, and then said helplessly: "...I don't know if Mr. Dazai is playing tricks on me again, but if it's a good dream, Mr. Dazai will come back after the mission returns." If you go to bed, I won't wake you up."

When he said the last words, his eyes were raised, with a cheerful look on his face: "Maybe I can dream again tonight."

"No," Osamu Dazai shook his head, the smile on his face made Atsushi Nakajima a little confused, "It's enough to have such a dream once."

The senior from the detective agency took a deep breath, and when he opened his eyes again, the quiet feeling that made the young man feel inappropriate before, "After all, it's just some past events."

"Did you dream about the past?" Atsushi Nakajima looked at him and asked speculatively.

"Yes, I dreamed that I looked a little childish a few years ago." Dazai Osamu showed a thoughtful look.

"Hey, what did Mr. Dazai look like when he was a child?" Atsushi Nakajima was surprised, and he unconsciously sketched a younger image of Osamu Dazai in his mind. If he was younger, he should still be in the port mafia, he unconsciously frowned. He frowned and thought about it carefully. After thinking for a long time, he couldn't attach a corresponding image to the "young and childish Osamu Dazai". It's hard to imagine, Mr. Dazai when he was young..."

"It's just a childish ghost." Dazai Osamu ended hastily.

"But that's what Dazai-san used to look like... I really hope to see it again."

The boy unconsciously said such words, so Osamu Dazai was slightly stunned and shifted his gaze to see his expression, which was very simple and somewhat expectant.

I always feel a little powerless, Osamu Dazai thought with his eyes wide open, and he had the urge to laugh, but the complicated emotions slowly dissipated as he exhaled. With a shallow voice, he said with the intention of not knowing whether he wanted the other party to hear: "You have already seen it...in a dream."

"Did Mr. Dazai say something just now?" Atsushi Nakajima seemed to have sensed it, turned around and asked with a puzzled blink of his eyes, "No," Osamu Dazai laughed, but he didn't hear clearly, the young man seemed to sigh in his heart. He said, "No, it's nothing, let's go quickly, Don, finish the task early and stop work early."

"As long as Mr. Dazai doesn't commit suicide halfway, it will be finished soon..." The young man who was distracted by a simple sentence sneered and ended the conversation.

Together, they walked out the door of the detective agency with big or small steps, finding their own comfortable pace, and then, under the reflection of the morning sun and the warm breeze, they set foot on the seemingly endless street.

How long will this road go, probably a long time.

——Tail Yan:

Occasionally Osamu Dazai still thinks about the past, but compared to before, when he recalls the memory of that time now, that gray memory has more vivid traces. Here comes the white tiger.

"Sometimes I want to raise a tiger on a whim." Osamu Dazai said suddenly, buried in a pile of documents.

Atsushi Nakajima looked up at him from the pile of documents opposite him, the young man was stunned for a while, and finally hesitantly said dryly: "...Mr. Dazai...we don't have that much money .”

The author has something to say:

When I talk about the things in Kuroshi, I always feel a little regretful, and Dazai-san sometimes shows a lonely expression.

Occasionally, when Lupin recalled the past alone, he didn't know who to clink glasses with Mr. Dazai when he drank distilled alcohol alone.

The sound of wine glasses colliding is very pleasant, with a ding, ethereal, crisp, and extremely pleasant sound.

The image of Wu Jingzai in my heart is soft, such a person will always have some regrets when recalling the past, he will calmly analyze the situation at that time, and he will see those schemes that Jae-in-law did not realize. This memory is a bit sad, but that memory has become the past after all, and there is no way to change it.

With a clink of the wine glass, at first I could only think of Lupine's regret, but later I would also think of the moment when Dazai clinked glasses with the London cruise liner after the World War II——

Heishi's memory will not be changed in Takenzai's memory, but I came up with a dream in my own mind. When Mr. Dazai was sleeping lightly on the sofa of the detective agency, he had a dream.

The young Dazai in that dream will show his obvious hostility because of Mori Ogai's deep meaning, and will try to change the ending because of the vague fetters, saying that he is not willing to be caught by Mori Ogai's design. It’s okay to say that he didn’t want Sakunosuke Oda to die just like that. He is different from the mature Buteizai. Based on that memory, he began to try to disrupt Mr. Mori's plan.

Then he quietly met a white tiger, the cub can't do anything, like Hei Shijae's favorite character, it won't interfere with his behavior, it just accompanied him quietly, throwing away the confusion at the beginning of contact, and later It always likes to stay by Hei Shizai's side, when the cadre gets into trouble, it will accompany him, and when the cadre lowers his eyes, it will return to silence, curled up in the cadre's arms and listen to the sound of the other party's heartbeat...

The cub can't do anything, because the dream is derived from reality, it is a dream to relieve regret, what it can do and what it can do, from the very beginning, it just stays by the cadre's side, listens to the cadre's words, and accompany By the cadre's side.

……

In the end, the desired ending can be summed up in only one sentence. In the last sentence, Osamu Dazai’s memories of the dark time have added a small figure because of the dream, and it is no longer just full of regrets.

That's what I wanted to reveal from the very beginning, selfish, not obvious from the beginning to the end, a very superficial obsession.

If one day Osamu Dazai tells Atsu-kun about his past, I think Akun-kun will probably listen to him quietly.

Just like the cubs are always quietly listening to the cadre beside him.

But Osamu Dazai will definitely not do that, at most he will reveal a little intentionally or unintentionally, and then change the subject...

Oops, looking back at this article, I really...maybe I didn’t write the story of Tatun that everyone wants to see (with a mask of pain), I’m really sorry, I’m showing you such a text.

(Even the words are transported...)