salt by salt

I rubbed my forehead impatiently.

He has exquisite eyebrows and eyes, and looks like a small tooth. Coupled with his youthful attire, he looks like a fresh-faced college student at first glance.On the other hand, I just came from the exhibition site, wearing a mature shirt and trousers, it seems that there is a deep age gap between me and him.

"You said you were Yang Chen's college classmate?"

I casually adjusted my watch, and the young master sitting opposite corrected me: "It's also my boyfriend."

"It's what you say."

If it weren't for his constant text bombardment, which is so annoying, I wouldn't be able to find time to deal with it during the workday.

"Do you have anything to say to me?" The waiter served the iced drink, and my fingers stroked the rim of the glass with cold water vapor, "Even if you were together in college, it stands to reason that it has nothing to do with me .”

He thought about it for a long time, as if hesitating, but couldn't muster up enough courage to speak.

I looked at it funny, but I wonder if the smile on my lips revealed a hint of sarcasm, which instead stimulated him: "Mr. Xu, please don't meddle in my relationship with Yang Chen."

so close.

I thought to myself, it’s a good thing I didn’t drink that cup of coffee just now, otherwise it should have spewed out by now.

"Sorry..." I coughed to hide my smile, "What did you say?"

His tone was righteous, but his eyes were a bit empty, and he didn't dare to look at me: "Yang Chen and I are formally in love, I hope you won't be an immoral third party."

I smiled: "I didn't ask just now, I want to know your name?"

"Tang Jiaze."

"Mr. Tang." I tapped on the table, "I don't want to waste my time arguing with you about trivial matters here. Why don't you call Yang Chen in front of me and have a good confrontation."

Tang Jiaze hoarse, held back for a long time and said: "Your third party is in charge, he must favor you!"

I spread my hands: "Even if you two had a relationship, it was at most in college. With Yang Chen's personality, he should have broken up with you before returning to China, and never contacted you again—don't stare at me, I don't have time Follow him."

"He's very busy with work now, and he doesn't have time to be merciful everywhere. I'm afraid it's hard for you, a young master who doesn't stick to the sun, to understand. Similarly, I'm also very busy, and I don't have time to play this cheap emotional game with you. No matter who you get My contact information, it's best not to disturb me a second time."

Tang Jiaze stared at me angrily, I looked back calmly, the water drops on the cup wall were touched by my fingertips, it was cold and wet.

As gloomy as I am now.

I swore before that since high school he realized he liked me and never been with anyone else.I know that such words are not worth believing, but being exposed to the face as a lie, my heart will not be without waves.

Not angry... just mild disappointment.

I've come to this situation, I didn't expect Yang Chen to disappoint me even more.

After a while, he lowered his head as if discouraged, and raised his eyes unwillingly: "You don't have any grudges at all?"

"You are in the same class as Yang Chen University, and I am also in the same class as him, so you are about the same age as me." I looked at the sunny street view outside the window, "In the future, I will trouble you to deal with things in an adult way."

"What do you mean?"

"If you want to use this method to scare people, at least you have to think about the other person's character. Coincidentally, if I don't take this approach, your efforts will be wasted."

17-year-old Xu Junyan was sitting alone, and men and women who claimed to be Yang Chen's lover would always come to provoke him.

They said he was unrecognizable in appearance, that he was all about pleasing people in bed, that he would be dumped quickly.Those words had been a thorn in his heart, making him feel deeply unworthy.

"You really believe in him, no wonder you stayed by his side for so long."

Tang Jiaze managed to hold back a smile, insisting on pretending to be calm, but his expression still showed bitterness.

I turned my head to look at him, and suddenly wanted to know one thing—when I usually thought I was indifferent, would people easily see through the hidden emotions?

He remembered something, his eyes were red, and he began to confide to me: "I have been with him for more than half a year. Yes, he is very generous, but I don't lack those things. I like his good looks, and he is good at everything. "

To be honest, I don't want to know Yang Chen and his relationship history at all.

"He treats me very well and takes me with him in everything. When we are together, there is no one else around him."

It turns out that Tang Jiaze is not the only one... It seems that Yang Chen's college life is not as dull as he said.Thinking about it, it is ridiculous to expect him to "guard his body like a jade" for me.

"That's it. In the end, it's just a matter of breaking up." He smiled wryly, "I'm willing to come out to my family and go back to China with him. He actually sent me a sum of money, saying it was a breakup fee—fuck me Is it for money?!"

I had one head and two big ones and asked the waiter for tissues.Fortunately, Tang Jiaze was shameless, so he didn't cry out in front of the public, the tears swirled in his eyes and went back.

He cursed a few words indignantly, wiped his nose with a piece of paper, and looked at me with burning eyes: "I didn't mean it maliciously. I wanted to meet you, but I said you were a mistress because I couldn't think about it. Don't mind."

The young master was not polite, and unilaterally exposed the previous unhappiness.I'm used to Andre's volatile faces, and I'm not surprised by Tang Jiaze's appearance: "Just be happy."

There was still a bit of sourness in his words: "I heard that you and Yang Chen have been together since high school. He must be much better to you than to me."

I smiled perfunctorily, too lazy to defend myself, and then I heard him say: "Yes, both of you are planning to have children. I know it's wrong for me to do this, but sometimes I can't help my temper..."

"Wait." I frowned, "What kid?"

"Isn't Yang Chen going through the procedure of surrogacy recently? I heard he's in a hurry." He asked suspiciously, "Didn't you ask for it?"

My face froze: "We haven't discussed that matter yet."

Tang Jiaze nodded, and didn't take my strange situation to heart: "He has always been like that, and he does not discuss things. Having children is more like a family, and the pressure will be less in the future. Forget it, I will tell you what to do..."

Yeah, how could I have forgotten that!Yang Chen has always been arbitrary and arrogant, he will definitely do what he decides, what does my refusal mean to him?

My limbs felt cold, but my heart seemed to be set on fire.

"Sorry, the company still has something to do, I'm leaving first."

I stood up slowly, supported the table to stabilize my body, and tried to maintain the appearance of etiquette.

Tang Jiaze touched his head in embarrassment, stood up and said, "My car is parked nearby, and I will take you there."

"No." I waved my hand, "The driver has been contacted."

Hu Ru sat in the co-pilot and turned her head, and looked at me carefully: "Boss, I went to see one of the venues behind, and there is no problem. The other is in charge of Miss Tang, don't worry."

I responded dispensably, I don't want to involve my personal relationship with Yang Chen in official affairs.But the anger in my heart couldn't dissipate, so I could only clenched my fist tightly, restraining myself not to lose my composure in front of her.

When the car stopped at the bottom of the company building, Hu Ru hesitated for a moment and said, "Boss, are you suffering from heat stroke? I think your complexion is not very good."

Before being called away by Tang Shize, she only knew that I left in a hurry and didn't know what I was going to do.Seeing me looking sleepy, I naturally expressed my concern.

I put my finger on the center of my eyebrows: "It's okay, maybe I got dizzy from the sun, just go back and rest."

Hu Ru got out of the car with my bag in hand, the driver turned around and took me back to the apartment to rest.It wasn't until I opened the door and entered my own house that my tense nerves relaxed a little, and I immediately took out my mobile phone and dialed Yang Chen's number.

"Yang Chen—"

"...I just fell asleep." He answered quickly, with a not-so-obvious anger in his voice, "Xu Junyan, you'd better have something to say, it's three o'clock in the morning."

I was so focused on questioning him that I forgot about the jet lag.But when the words came to his lips, it was difficult to change them into words of concern, so he continued in a blunt tone: "Are you still planning to get a child out?"

He was silent for a few seconds: "How did you know that? I can explain."

"Explain what?" I said. "I thought my position was clear."

"This matter is not what you think, and it won't be very troublesome." Yang Chen said gently, "I will take care of everything, and you don't need to worry about the whole process. If you like children, we will take them back to the country and find someone to help them God will take care of him. If you don't like it, just put him with my mother abroad, okay?"

"I don't care whether you want children or not. It has nothing to do with me. I just want you to promise that this matter has nothing to do with me."

Yang Chen seemed to be holding back his anger, and his breathing became heavier: "You will also be the father of the child, so how could it have nothing to do with you?"

"I said that I don't want children, don't you understand?" I whispered, "I will never agree to it as you like."

"Xu, Jun, Yan! Can you stop being so willful?"

"Who is being willful? Yang Chen, do you really think that everyone will follow you?" I sat on the sofa a little tiredly, stared at the ceiling and laughed at myself, "Can you stop imposing your own ideas on On me?"

"I can't talk about these things over the phone." He said, "Let's talk about it when we get back to China, okay? I'm really tired recently and I don't want to quarrel with you."

"I reiterate my attitude to you again, no matter how I talk, I will not waver."

Yang Chen paused, he sneered, and his words were suddenly sharp: "I've said so much, don't you just don't want to have anything to do with me, why put on an act? Xu Junyan, let me tell you, it's useless for you to object to this matter. Not only must it, but it must be yours."

I didn't expect him to be so ruthless and determined, and I froze in place.

"I will definitely get what I want. You can't even run away, why don't you think about it earlier, lest I send someone to tie you up to extract sperm."

He said sharply: "When the time comes, it will be recorded in my name, and I will be his father in the legal sense. You can abandon him cruelly and leave, anyway, you can't do it anyway. But when you leave me, I won't You must care too much about this child, don't you think?"

After a violent storm, we stopped talking, only the sound of breathing from the mobile phone was heard in the silence.

Even if the voice was close to the ear, it was too distorted and seemed extremely distant.

I asked softly, "Why... must you force me?"

Why did you force me into this situation?

"It's you who made me feel uneasy." Yang Chen paused for a while, and said soothingly, "I only have you. When we have children, we will be a complete family."

I laughed lowly.

Yang Chen, is there a truth in your mouth?

Probably trying to make up for the gap just now, he changed the subject in a soft tone, asked about my physical condition, and urged me to go to Wu Mian for psychological counseling on time.I was disheartened, and after a few sloppy responses, I wanted to hang up the call.

"The project hasn't been going very well recently. I may not be able to come back for a while. Don't provoke trouble."

"Ah."

"...Xu Junyan." Yang Chen took a few deep breaths over there, rarely lowered his posture so much, and said almost pleadingly, "The child's matter is the last time, you listen to me, and other things will be up to you in the future, okay? good?"

"Okay." I replied numbly, twitching the corners of my mouth, "Okay."

When the call was over, I put down my phone and looked at my palm carefully.

Thanks to her mother's good genes, the ten fingers in front of her are clean and slender, with thin calluses left over from her student days.My eyes wandered to the fruit knife on the coffee table, and I thought of many things when I was in a daze.

Yang Chen used to be obsessed with playing with daggers, the blade fluttered between his beautiful fingers, reflecting a glamorous cold light.I advised him not to do this, it is easy to hurt himself, he asked me if I was afraid.

The memory flashes before my eyes, it disappears so quickly that nothing is left.

Now I'm tempted to say a belated answer: I'm not afraid.If I was afraid, I would not hold on to the blade tightly, let it cut through the flesh and veins, and embed the cold light deeply into the bones.

Blood dripped on the beige sofa in a pattern that looked like a red smiley face grinning smirk at me.

I closed my eyes, dialed Song Cheng's number with my right hand, and said straight to the point: "Can you hurry up with your plan?"

He paused, his voice was gentle, with considerate concern: "Junyan, what's wrong with you?"

"If there is anything I can do to help, just tell me, I can't wait."

The severed muscles in the palm of the left hand were impressive, soaked in blood and stained a dirty deep pink.There was cold sweat on his forehead and back, his body was chilly, and he felt extremely painful as if he had fallen into the junction of ice water and magma, and he couldn't help but take a slight breath.

I stayed like this for a while, and I didn't come back to my senses until the urging voice came from the phone.Song Cheng said without doubt: "Are you at home or at work? I'll go over now."

"At home." I looked at the wound and felt that this excuse was too clumsy, "You don't have to come here in person, just call a doctor, I accidentally scratched my hand while cutting fruit."

Seeing the unstoppable flow of blood, making the living room look like a murder scene, I found a roll of gauze and wrapped it up, thinking about how to explain it to Song Cheng later.There seems to be no suitable reason. If the truth is told, will he believe it?

Because I suddenly wanted to release my emotions, I happened to have a knife by my side, so I did something that made me feel relaxed.

That's it.