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Wu Yanrui was very curious about Andre who suddenly appeared. Fortunately, Yan Xia noticed my embarrassment and coaxed her to divert her attention in time.I said goodbye to them with a firm mind, and Andre followed me silently with his head down.

I stopped the car, and he sat in obediently, the hood was buttoned deeply, covering the blond hair and most of the side profile of his face, and he held my wrist firmly with one hand.I struggled uncomfortably, and he turned to look at me, refusing to let go.

Only when the street lights came from outside the car window did I see that Andre had lost a lot of weight. At first glance, he looked fragile.The aggressiveness of the original glamorous appearance was diluted, and it became a little more gloomy and alienated.

He quickly raised his light-colored eyelashes to glance at me, then returned to the shadows cast by his brows, with a cautious gesture, but he didn't let go of his hands.

I had a bit of a headache, and it was the same with him in the amusement park before. He said pitifully that he had nowhere to go, and he stuck to me and wanted to go back with me.I wanted to refuse with a cold face, but he took a step back, expressing that he didn't want to disturb my life, so he had no choice but to live on the street.

The car stopped near the community. I obviously didn't believe a word of this kind of nonsense, but I still brought him back.

Maybe it's because I remember that I'm his brother, maybe it's because his eyes are so easy to soften people's hearts, or maybe... the moment I saw Andre, I was overwhelmed with complex emotions, whether it was love or hate , as if a dead heart was beating violently, I finally felt that I was still alive.

The man who easily tugged at my nerves is now trailing behind me.My legs and feet are handicapped, and I walked slowly, and he followed step by step, like an insecure child, stretching out his hand to hold my sleeve without saying a word and stubbornly.

When the elevator reached the door, I took out the key to open the door. My fingers trembled slightly, and I couldn't align the keyhole several times.Sun Ning heard the voice outside the door and opened the door directly inside.

She didn't notice Andre, and there was still a smile in her voice: "I'm back? I ordered takeaway, do you want some for supper? Huh? This is..."

Andre followed me into the door, he took off his hood, Sun Ning was startled when he recognized him, his expression froze quickly, and he almost broke his voice when he spoke: "Your brother?! Why is he here? What is he doing? !"

Seeing that Sun Ning's slender eyebrows were furrowed and her cheeks gradually turned red, I quickly pushed Andre before she exploded: "My bedroom is on the left, you go in first, I have something to talk to her about."

He pursed his lips, as if he wanted to say something, and finally turned around silently and entered the room.

"Xu Junyan!" Sun Ning was so angry that his shoulders trembled, he stretched out his finger to poke my forehead, his face full of hatred, "Don't forget the past! What did he do to you, making you become In this way, now you still have the face to pretend to be pitiful?"

"I haven't forgotten." I rubbed the painful place, and wanted to pat her on the shoulder to comfort her, but suddenly found that she was wearing too lightly, so I had to withdraw my hand, "Let him stay here for one night, I asked him some Let’s find a way to send him away later, okay?”

"It's easy to ask God to send God away. I know this kind of person. They don't say a word of truth. It's a loss if they don't win an Oscar. Three years! It's been three years. What was he doing before? It took me three years, and it was hard. Let you live a normal life, why do you have to jump into the pit by yourself?"

"Only this time, I won't have anything to do with him again."

"You can't decide this, he will come up to pester you by himself."

"……Feel sorry."

Sun Ning stared at me for a few seconds, turned away and sighed heavily.The anger in her voice has not disappeared, but her tone has softened: "Oh, it's not your fault to take a step forward. Just now I spoke a little aggressively, don't mind."

"I know." I said seriously, "You are anxious because you are thinking about me, thank you."

"I said, Xu Junyan, don't stare at people like this." She moved a step, stood a little far away from me, and shook her head helplessly, "You really... Forget it, I'll clean up the study and let him sleep But let me tell you in advance, if he dares to do anything strange to you, I will call the police immediately and expose him on the Internet, I don't believe he can be so lawless...Did you hear that?"

I turned around and saw Andre standing at the open bedroom door. He was staring at this side, with an uncomfortable paranoia in his eyes. He was thin and pale, like a ghost.

When I was worried about what crazy move he would make, Andre spoke softly, almost obediently: "I will pay attention."

"This set of pajamas is a bit long for me, you should be able to wear it."

I folded my change of clothes and handed them into the misty bathroom, just in time to bump into Andre's lower body wrapped in a towel and come out.I looked away in embarrassment, and suddenly remembered something, and I was stunned: "Andre, your tattoo..."

"Washed."

Andre smiled at me, as if there were no tattoo marks left on his bare upper body.

It's just that the area of ​​the pattern was too large, and his skin color was too fair, so looking at it suddenly, the body that was originally perfect like a sculpture was covered with dark lines of different shades, looking dull, rough and ugly.

He touched the position of his chest with his fingers, with a calm expression: "I begged my mother not to erase my brother's name, but she didn't listen. Oh, you probably don't know, it's not that I don't want to come to you, but she treats me as a mental illness , tied me up with restraint belts for three years."

"Mom...how could you do this to you..."

"My brother was surprised? Isn't this normal?" He said, "I got a tattoo on my own initiative and resisted her decision. Well, she will no longer send people to watch me all the time, and I can find a chance to escape."

I opened my mouth and couldn't speak.

"Brother's tattoo is also washed off? I knew that you dare to jump such a high mountain, and you will leave me even if you die, right? Since you hate what I did to you so much, how could you not wash it off? Are you sure? Hate me to death. I don't care, brother, I don't care, as long as I'm with you, it doesn't matter what you think of me...I..."

Andre approached while talking to himself, his hair was a little longer than before, and it was wet against his ears, and his eyes with water vapor were deep and charming like a water demon.I sensed a hint of danger, but I thought he should be a little bit more measured. I didn't expect to be yanked off his trousers. Thanks to my quick reaction, I stopped his movement and avoided a more embarrassing situation.

Part of the blue and black pattern is exposed, it is still entrenched in the lower part of the lower abdomen, and it is pressed tightly against the hot palm, making me dizzy from the heat.

"elder brother?"

He stared blankly for a while, his eyes suddenly brightened surprisingly, and there seemed to be a big tail wagging behind him.The gloomy expression was swept away, and the words became incoherent: "Brother, brother, you still keep it, I thought you would definitely remove it, don't you..."

"No." I didn't know what he was thinking, so I interrupted him and told the truth, "Because tattoo removal is too painful, my ability to endure pain is not as good as before, and I don't want to torture myself."

The bright eyes dimmed, and Andre let go of his hand in a daze: "That's right."

"Andre." I closed my eyes and suppressed the irritability in my heart, "I brought you back today, it doesn't mean that I want to continue the relationship with you before, just because you are my younger brother, I can't understand your situation. Sit back and watch. You don't have to act pitiful or crazy in front of me, no matter what you do, we are brothers and this will not change, and I don't want to change."

He covered his face and smiled bitterly: "You always say that we are brothers, since I confessed to you, you have been playing with my mood, and you have been wronged by others before returning to me. From the beginning to the end, you never really liked me .I'm just a tool you use to take revenge on your mother!"

"I played with you?" I thought I had made some progress during the three years, but I was easily angered by his confounding words, "How many times did I tell you at that time that we couldn't have any results. And , don't use your mother as a shield, am I not your excuse to resist her?"

Mother is the eternal deadlock between us, and Andre didn't continue to quarrel with this topic: "Brother, even if I was too much to you before, it won't be like this now..."

"No, Andre, it's not." I took a deep breath, pointed to my left leg, "I'm disabled, I can't run, I can't jump, I'll limp when I walk too fast, I'm completely disabled—— This leg will forever remind me that the reason I became like this is to seduce my own brother to bed, and this is the price I pay for my mistakes."

"I can make it up."

"I don't blame you, and I don't need the so-called compensation. If you really want to make any changes, then be a normal brother and don't try to make me make the same mistake. Of course, it is best to get out of here and pretend that we I have never met before, to avoid the possibility of all troubles."

"Brother, you... just hate me so much?"

Tears rolled down Andre's cheeks, but he looked at me helplessly, as if he didn't notice it at all, and a thin blush at the end of his eyes pierced into my field of vision.

"I don't hate you, I'm just tired, don't you understand? I already paid for my mistake and can't afford to do it again!"

After I gritted my teeth, I turned around and didn't look at him any more, and my pace was as fast as if I was running away.