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I don't know what Doctor Wu told Yang Chen to go in and what he said to him, but seeing Yang Chen's calm expression when he came out, I probably haven't been exposed.When we went downstairs, I stood in the elevator with him. He gently shook my hand. I pretended to be casual and asked, "What did the doctor tell you?"

"I said I won't prescribe you medicine this time, and we will decide next time we come to see you." He said, "Xu Junyan, what do you think? Is it better?"

Psychological counseling is a long process, how can it be so useful, and it is not a quick-acting medicine.I thought it was a bit funny, but when I turned my head to see Yang Chen's earnest expression, my mood was a little complicated, and I finally just hummed: "It's okay."

He held my hand tightly: "I'll come with you next week."

"Aren't you busy?"

"It's not to the point where I can't spare a day."

Yang Chen glanced at me, and suddenly came up to kiss me.I stepped back slightly, raised my eyes to see the camera on the top of the elevator, frowned and said, "There is surveillance..."

"It's okay." He gags my mouth with a fierce and eager kiss.I kissed him obediently, and from the corner of my eye I saw the floor descending rapidly, and I pushed him away until I felt the weightlessness of the slow deceleration: "It's almost here."

The elevator door opened slowly, and he and I walked into the parking lot holding hands. I wiped my lips with the back of my other hand while he wasn't paying attention.Yang Chen sat in the driver's seat, but drove away in no hurry.He reached out and pressed the back of my head against my forehead, I could see the outline of his handsome eyebrows, I didn't know what he was going to do, so I had to be silent with him.

"……do not die."

Yang Chen finally spoke out before I got impatient.He raised his eyes to look at me, those beautiful eyes looked heavy at this moment - this is something that he and Yang Chen have never had before.He was never heavy because he didn't care about anything but himself.Nothing can hold him back. He is a prodigal son, a wandering ship, a carefree bird, and everything that is light and unburdened.

He has been living wantonly, as if forever radiant, never hurt.He is what I used to want to be.I love that when he is in high spirits, I don't think that he never gets hurt, it turns out it's because he always hurts others.

Now I really have become like him, becoming as selfish as he is.

"Xu Junyan, don't die." Yang Chen seemed to press his fingers unconsciously, which made me a little painful. He said, "I didn't understand before, and I did a lot of things wrong, but we have to go for a lifetime, we can't always This way. I will listen to your opinion more in the future, okay? Tell me, I want to know you better. "

"I only have you...don't die."

You are not only me, you have many things.

I pushed him away as if I had been stabbed by a needle, and leaned against the car door and looked at him coldly.I want to refute him, you have everything, you have a pretty face that can be sought after at any time, you have the support of your family to provide money for you to start a business, and you have a smart mind to do well in the mall.Yang Chen, he can get everything he wants, but he said to me: I only have you.

This sentence is like a clown, laughing at me unscrupulously——

ridiculous.

Ridiculous.

I covered my trembling lips with the back of my hand, bit the soft flesh in my mouth hard, trying to calm myself down.Yang Chen looked at me quietly, and the dull air froze between the two of us.

"You have everything, so you don't have to lower your status to know what an insignificant person like me thinks." I know it hurts to say it so bluntly, but now I can't restrain myself, and say it word by word, "Yang Young master, stop joking."

"I know you're still angry with me, so I apologize." He paused, "I'll listen to you if you scold me, you can hit me, I won't fight back."

I took a deep breath, didn't want to continue this topic, turned my face and said: "Stop talking. Drive, go back."

"Xu Junyan, every time I want to solve a problem, you are always like this." Yang Chen grabbed my wrist and tightened his fingers so that I had to look back at him, "I said you have something to say, don't hold back In my heart. Don’t tell me how I know what you are thinking all day long! If you are angry with me, what do you want me to do when something goes wrong? Ah?”

"I don't want to say it!" I was annoyed by his yelling, and I pulled my wrist back.Sure enough, there were already red grip marks, and I was so angry that I opened the door, only to find that he locked it, "Yang Chen, are you sick? I don't want to say, because it will definitely turn into a quarrel with you in the end! Can you Can't make me feel better for even one day? Do you wish I could die sooner?"

Yang Chen was obviously angry with me, his gloomy eyes made me palpitate.But in the end, without saying anything, he started the car violently and drove away from the parking lot.

I leaned tiredly on the car seat.Like countless times in the past, the way Yang Chen and I get along has never changed, the beginning of a good relationship with one side and the ending of a loss for both sides.It used to be that I tried my best to hold a sincere heart, but he threw it under my feet and trampled it indifferently; now it's him who takes the initiative to repair the cracks, but I'm used to giving him back with malice.

The fact that he thinks we're going to be able to go on is all the more absurd, but I don't know which part is the funniest.Is it wishful thinking that Yang Chen deceived himself, or is it impossible for us to be together for the rest of our lives?

Or maybe...it was me who said I didn't love him but maintained this illusion.

When getting out of the car, Yang Chen said to me that he would not quarrel with me again, and would do everything possible to make up for his mistakes, and hoped that I would be happier.He was very serious when he said this, even though he had just suppressed his anger just now, his face was not very good-looking.I didn't refuse when he finished kissing me. In his eyes, it might be a disguised compromise, so he became happy again and pulled me to kiss me endlessly.

"I like you..." He hugged me coquettishly, and ordered arrogantly, "Xu Junyan, anyway, if I don't allow you to die, you won't be allowed to die."

It turns out that being loved by Yang Chen is like this.It's neither gentle nor romantic, it's just being held tightly by this stinky man.Originally, I just wanted to deal with him and get out of the car, but suddenly I noticed a little weakness in Yang Chen at this moment.He has always been indestructible in my eyes, and he doesn't pay attention to any problems. This fragility makes my heart soften.

I gently reached out and hugged him back.

Since I was absent from work all day, I had a bunch of things to do when I went to work the next day.Fortunately, Sun Ning has treated me a lot better since the elevator accident. He pretended to look down on my work speed and helped me share some tasks, allowing me to go home after only one hour of overtime.

Today is Friday, and Yang Chen was arranged by his father to go on a business trip. Before boarding the plane, he sent me a message saying that he would definitely be back within five days, and asked me to go out more to relax and exercise in the past few days.At that time, I was busy with work, and I saw his message on the way home from get off work, and replied lightly that I got it.

Song Cheng added two scenes later, and came back two days later than expected.Even so, I arrived in City B yesterday, Lao Luo went to pick him up, and specially reminded me to confess to him as soon as possible.I'm irritable, but today I have to see Song Cheng no matter what, so that it's really hard to explain in case something goes wrong.

On the way there, Dr. Wu sent me a WeChat message, telling me that I could talk to him when I was free.I thought to myself that I was going around among several people every day, how could I have the heart to talk to him about these things, and I planned to deal with them casually.Unexpectedly, he kept stirring up topics along the way, which made me completely forget my original intention and chat with gusto. The bus almost stopped, and I hurriedly ended the chat when I was downstairs at Song Cheng's house.

Are psychiatrists so busy now... I knocked on the door of Song Cheng's house while thinking, and he smiled at me when he opened the door: "Jun Yan, did you forget that you have the key?"

I froze for a moment, and indeed forgot all about it.Song Cheng had just finished taking a shower, and gave me a kiss that smelled like lemon shampoo.I also kissed his cheek. He has lost a lot of weight, his eye sockets are deeper than before, and his eyebrows and eyes are more charming.

"Miss you." He went to the room and hid something behind his back, deliberately teasing me, "Guess what it is?"

"I can't guess." I really didn't know what he would give, but he raised my hand to prevent me from reaching it. I said helplessly, "Tell me."

"Dangdangdangdang——" He opened the small box in front of me, looked at me with light in his eyes, almost overflowing with anticipation, "Do you like it?"

A small seal lay in the center of the box, made of jade, a soft smoky pink.

"I learned how to engrave seals from the locals, and I engraved your name." I lowered my eyes and saw that there were indeed small wounds on Song Cheng's hands.Scratched scars were layered on his slender fingers, even to the point of shocking, but he never mentioned them.

I gently picked up the seal, and the cold jade felt heavy in my palm.There are small characters on the side of the seal, Song Cheng explained warmly: "It's a side note, I carved a sentence for you myself."

"What words?" I looked down, "Wish words... um..."

"Don't read it out! Go back and read it!" Song Cheng covered my mouth, his ears turned red with embarrassment, his eyes drifted away, and his voice was muffled, "I think we can use a seal to send out wedding invitations in the future, which will save effort And pretty, isn't it?"

I smiled and pulled his hand away to kiss him: "Yes! I like this gift very much. You are such a big baby, how can you be so thoughtful? But have you ever thought that there is a very important problem to be solved now?"

"What's the problem?" He looked at me nervously, his pretty eyes flickering.

"I'm hungry." I took his hand and walked to the kitchen, "I'm cooking today."

"Eh? But I've already done it..."

After returning, I lay on my soft bed, played with the seal, and looked carefully at the light:

"Wish words worthy of virtue, hand in hand. Song Chengyi's arms... Eh, did he make a typo?"