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I told Yang Chen that I can only sleep with him on Wednesday and Saturday, because there is PE class on Wednesday, and there is no evening self-study on Saturday.

He was smoking on the roof when he heard this. I stood in front of him and explained the reason to him very seriously. He squinted his eyes and didn't know if he heard it. He suddenly said in the smoke: "You block me from the sun. gone."

I stepped aside, watching him lazily stretching his body almost jealously, revealing strong and beautiful muscle lines, like a vigorous cheetah.He smoked the cigarette slowly before saying: "Okay, anyway, I don't have to look for you every day."

So we agreed on a time, when the time comes, I will find a reason to ask for leave or sneak out of school to meet Yang Chen.Then he took me to a hotel to open a room to have sex, and sometimes we would change places, love hotels, abandoned factories, the rest room behind the gymnasium, and even the toilet cubicle of the school, put a reminder board that is being cleaned, and Yang Chen dared to take off me Pants.

We made love in all the secret and absurd places of teenage sex dreams, lingering and crazy lips and tongues, deep kisses.

Yang Chen likes me to give him oral sex, he always makes me kneel on the ground, pulls my hair and presses down hard.I was inexperienced and he didn't teach me. I often got a sore throat and a sore tongue. I could only hold on to the hem of his shirt tightly in the feeling of suffocation, and I couldn't breathe because of the conditioned reflex when I saw him for several days.Probably because my voice was hoarse and unable to speak for a whole day after I finished speaking, he finally took pity on me, so he restrained himself a lot and I suffered a lot less.But there are special occasions when he still asks for oral sex, like his birthday, or when he is very angry and wants to torture me.

Sometimes I think it might be his sexual fetish, no matter who does blowjob for him, he will be very happy, after all, I will not look good when I am struggling with tears in my mouth.

We still rarely communicate in class. In the second half of the third year of high school, he came to the class more often. Occasionally, he could even see him flipping through the Chinese textbook with a bored face in the morning self-study, occasionally reading a few sentences, or coming over Ask me the meaning of ancient Chinese.I showed him my densely written notes, and he pushed them away impatiently: "I want you to explain to me, I am tired of reading too many words." I had no choice but to translate to him sentence by sentence, and he called Yawn, I don't know if I remember the central theme of Li Sao.

But compared to Yang Chen who is naked and full of desire in bed, I still like the boy who is bored reading in the morning light more.Those occasional tender feelings are like a ray of light, shining into my dark life.

No sweet dream lasts long.

My waist was still sore, and I could only put on my trousers slowly after I came out of the bathroom.After so many years, Yang Chen is still used to leaning against the bed and smoking, he asked me: "When will we meet next time?"

I did go too far today, I always feel that I am no longer a young high school student, and I can't stand his torment.Sometimes in the middle of making love, I still lose my mind, thinking about whether I need to go to the gym more because I always feel that my abdominal muscles are not so tight-of course, Yang Chen should not be able to see this, I can still do my best when I am wandering. Uh ah ah.

I suddenly felt a little boring: "I don't know, let's talk about it."

"Xu Junyan." He stopped me and asked after a pause, "What's wrong with you?"

I looked back at him in confusion, and I felt that I was acting normal: "What's wrong? I'm fine."

Yang Chen looked at me with a cold face.He has a cold and stern appearance, and when he has no expression, he is imposing.I noticed that he was a little angry, so I repeated in a soft voice: "I'm really fine, and I've gained two catties recently." Netizens mentioned that their weight gain was a complete disappointment.

"You did it with someone else." He was about to say something, but abruptly changed his words, "Isn't it?"

The guns are all out of the chamber, and now you regret this?I explained a little funny: "Yes, but I have regular physical examinations, and there is nothing wrong with it. If you don't worry about it, go back to wearing condoms, and it will save me cleaning."

Yang Chen didn't speak, I buttoned up my buttons and was about to leave, but when I heard him speak, he said fiercely: "Xu Junyan, I'm going to start a serious relationship recently, so I think our relationship..."

I really couldn't bear his slow way of making a judgment, so I might as well give him a sharp cut, so I thoughtfully said for him: "It's over like this? I understand, what's so embarrassing, it's good to get together and break up, I promise I won't Nonsense."

He stared at me unhappily, as if angry that I took his words, I smiled at him: "I hope you find the right person, if you are willing, you can also send me an invitation card, and I will follow the gift. Then Goodbye."

I didn't wait for him to say anything, I picked up my bag and pushed the door out.He didn't catch up, which was expected, and I would be surprised if he did.The sunshine in October was still very good. When I went out from the hotel, I shook my eyes, which made the eye sockets that had been dry for a long time slightly sour.At this time, it is probably worth crying bitterly in our hearts. After all, we have been bed partners for five years, and we have no feelings, and the illusion of love has been born because of physical entanglement.But I didn't cry. After all, to put it bluntly, it was just a break-up with my girlfriend, not to mention the ending that I had expected a long time ago, which wasn't enough to move me.

There's nothing to be sad about losing something that wasn't mine in the first place.

I hailed a taxi and sat in the car with the sun still streaming through the windows.When I stretched out my hand to block the sun, I suddenly remembered that I hadn't cried for something for a long time, even if I wanted to squeeze some tears, I couldn't do it.Since I couldn't cry, I had to laugh.

I, Xu Junyan, lost the ability to cry when I was 22 years old.