love like drunk

"No, brother Yun Yan, I'm just a little surprised, when did you start—" Yun Han didn't dare to look into Du Yunyan's eyes.

He and Du Yunyan have known each other for 13 years. They came to this mountain village from each other. At that time, he himself was less than ten years old, and Du Yunyan was only in his teens. In his eyes, he was a gentle brother. Both of them were children of single-parent families. They get along well again and move around a lot.To Yunhan, Du Yunyan is the closest person besides his mother.

And just now, this man who was as close as an elder brother confided to him his most secret thoughts, which were taboo feelings that he had never heard of before.

"Do you like you?" Du Yunyan paused for a moment, "Although I have always been a homosexual, I have this kind of emotion towards you——it was only in the past two years that I gradually realized it, especially when my aunt passed away, I saw you in so much pain... I really want to accompany you well, but the aunt's matter has brought you so much pressure, I dare not tell you easily, so I dragged it until now. You can think about it slowly, if it is not so annoying, if you can accept it, I am very willing live with you."

Heat waves slowly rose on Yun Han's face, he didn't understand this kind of emotion, but Du Yunyan's words didn't embarrass or disgust him, but his eyes dimmed quickly when he thought of his next decision.

"Sorry, I can't—" He hesitated for a moment, "Brother Yunyan, I haven't told you, but I'm actually going to S city."

"Have you decided?" Du Yunyan's tone could not hear much surprise.

"Well, I wanted to go outside for a long time and try a different life," he said. "I used to be young, my grades were not good, and I couldn't get into a good school. Now I am in my twenties. I Mom is gone again, there is only one person, I don't want to have any regrets."

"Have you decided what to do?" Du Yunyan asked with concern.

He nodded: "I want to learn how to make pastry."

"I have a feeling for a long time," Du Yunyan smiled, "You may not stay here forever."

Yun Han turned his head: "What about you? Are you really willing to live like this for the rest of your life?"

"Well," he said firmly, "I'm not leaving."

"Ah, so..." Yun Han lost his mind slightly, "Brother Yun Yan, you are so good at reading, but at that time... don't you regret it?"

There was some wind on the country road, brushing past the trees and houses, like the sound of people whimpering.

"Even if I went to university, I would still come back, the result is the same." The emotion in Du Yunyan's eyes was unpredictable, and he didn't continue the topic, "Yun Han, since you've made your decision, let's do it boldly. I will bless you."

"Brother Yun Yan," Yun Han pulled a bitter smile, "You always think of me, I think... if you didn't tell me what's on your mind."

"Yunhan," Du Yunyan walked around in front of him and looked at him, "None of us can choose for another, only you can control your heart. Tell me, do you want to leave?"

"...I think," he nodded, muttering to himself, "I understand, I will be fine."

The bushes behind him rustled, and Du Yunyan looked over there vigilantly: "Is anyone there?"

"Maybe it's windy?" Yun Han guessed.

"Then let's go back early." Du Yunyan patted him on the back lightly.

The two walked away for a distance, and Gu Wenxi, who was hiding behind the bushes, took a deep breath, and relaxed her breath.

In order to avoid being suspected of going back with them, he wandered outside again before returning to the homestay.Du Yunyan asked him where he went, and he deliberately pointed in the opposite direction.

Yun Han still stayed in the hotel to help with the work, and Gu Wenxi hadn't recovered from the huge amount of information obtained by eavesdropping.Du Yunyan looked the same as before, not at all like a frustrated person who had just experienced setbacks in love, but Yunhan's expression was slightly tangled, and he sneaked glances at Du Yunyan from time to time.This made Gu Wenxi feel very strange.

Of course, the fact that Du Yunyan liked men was beyond his expectation.He himself is a straight man. Although he would occasionally joke and flirt with friends of the same sex, he never seriously thought about another possible relationship between men. Even though he has seen that Du Yunyan treats this boy differently, he only understands it as friendship. It means something special.

No wonder joking with him in the morning, he draws the line so seriously, because he is not straight at all, and he is extra sensitive to indecent teasing.

Once you start thinking about this aspect, it will be interesting to see Yunhan's reaction.Does Yun Han really have no feelings for him?Gu Wenxi doesn't think so.It's just that this kid who grew up in the mountains has other pursuits at the same time. If Du Yunyan can follow him, maybe they will be together.

However, Du Yunyan would rather part with the person he longed for to live with than take half a step out of the countryside. From this point of view, Yunhan is more like the abandoned party, and he is not as calm as Du Yunyan.

"Mr. Gu? Mr. Gu?"

"Ah?" Gu Wenxi was immersed in the gossip, and Du Yunyan called him twice before he realized, "What's wrong?"

"Can you help me feed the chickens in the backyard?"

"Okay, I'll go." Although he was still dissatisfied with Du Yunyan in the morning, now he felt that it was easier for him to breathe alone; after witnessing what happened, being caught between those two people was the most embarrassing situation for him.

The grains fed to the chickens were prepared by Du Yunyan in advance. Gu Wenxi didn't need to do anything. After putting down the basin, he squatted on the edge of the fence without getting up in a hurry.Several chickens scrambled to grab the edge of the basin, grabbing food from it.

Every day in the mountains, the same rhythm is repeated, following the rules.

Is this the life Du Yunyan wants?Gu Wenxi closed her eyes and tried to imagine that person's inner world.

"Huh..." He slowly spit out a cloud of white mist. He didn't want to go back to the living room so quickly. After standing up, he took a small bucket to help water the vegetables in the garden.

Feeling in love with another person, Gu Wenxi is not sure if he has ever experienced this feeling. It is true that he has been in love, but it is only out of curiosity and non-rejection of the love experience. He has never confessed to anyone. I have heard a lot of confessions.Longing to be with someone...sounds good, neither will ever be lonely again.

That's not the case at all.

When they broke up, Liang Qian told him that the feeling had never entered his heart.Want to get closer to someone, but end up getting farther and farther away, that kind of feeling is very desperate, right?

Yet he is now also trying to probe another person's inner realm.

When Yunhan came over in the morning, Du Yunyan's happiness was a rare expression of sincerity, so is the calmness he is pretending now?Why can even this kind of thing be faked so easily?

Yun Han stayed until the evening, and came to help during the next two days. He was indeed very diligent, and he did things neatly. He cooperated with Du Yunyan and had a perfect understanding. There was almost no need for Gu Wenxi to do anything.

Two days later, the college students set off on their way back early in the morning, and Cen Fei bid farewell to them in the afternoon.

"Mr. Du," she said to Du Yunyan standing by the fence before leaving, "If you change your mind, you can contact me at any time."

"I..." Du Yunyan sighed and laughed, "Thank you, Miss Cen."

Having communicated with Cen Fei, Gu Wenxi naturally understood what she meant by "changing her mind".After she left, he took two steps forward: "Are you really willing to give up such a good opportunity?"

Du Yunyan glanced at him: "Do you think I should accept it?"

After a brief silence, Gu Wenxi suddenly laughed "haha" in a low voice: "No, if you accept it, you will not be the Du Yunyan I know." He called the other party's full name again, then turned around and went to the hotel Go to Xiaolou.

Du Yunyan didn't say a word, watching his back disappearing in the shadow in front of the building.