love like drunk

Gu Wenxi was used to being rude at Jiang Chen's house. After entering the door, the previous restraint soon disappeared. After changing her slippers, she sat on the sofa and crossed her legs to wait for him to come.

"Wen Xi, let me make you some tea."

"No, I drank a lot of drinks at home."

Jiang Chen put away the teapot, but still took a cup of water and put it on the coffee table, in case he was thirsty later.

Gu Wenxi didn't have much patience with him now, she swayed on her toes and said, "What's the matter, if it's because of Liang Qian, I'd say I wish you all well."

"Wen Xi," Jiang Chen's face was very ugly, "I also said - I don't have that kind of affection for her."

"You broke up?"

"Well, in fact, I told her to leave me just a few days after you left..."

"That has nothing to do with me," Gu Wenxi said in a cold tone, "I just didn't expect that you would be hotter than me by 3 minutes."

Jiang Chen had a pale face, bit his lips hard, and said in a hoarse voice: "Wen Xi, the reason why I pursued her at that time was because I was very scared..."

"Fear?"

"Because...you have never had a girlfriend for more than three months before, but you have talked with her for more than half a year, and she is more serious than any of your previous dating partners. I am afraid that you will really get together..."

"You—" Gu Wenxi felt surprised and amused, "Are you out of your mind? Can't see me—" Can't see myself being loved?He is not slow, for this reason, he can naturally detect something unusual, not to mention that because of Du Yunyan's matter, he has already gained a new understanding of the relationship between men.

"Yes, I can't see you with someone else." His eyes no longer dodged.

Gu Wenxi's temples throbbed and her scalp tingled: "Are you gay?"

"Yes, I was born... but I only liked you, when I first entered college..."

Jiang Chen has never liked girls, or even hated them. He hates the way some girls act infatuated with good-looking boys.But when he saw Gu Wenxi for the first time, his reaction was not much different from theirs.

It was past the college registration date, and his top bunk was always vacant.When he returned to the dormitory from the cafeteria at noon that day, he saw a man sitting on the side of the upper bunk with his legs hanging down on the ladder and his shoes still on.Seeing him coming in, the man just kicked off the ladder and jumped down from it.He took a step back in surprise.

"scared you?"

Jiang Chen always remembered the first words Gu Wenxi said to him. In fact, he was not scared, but the first time he saw such a refreshing and handsome boy.He couldn't bear to look away.

"I really can't help but be scared," the other party continued when he saw that he didn't respond, "Well, let's treat you to dinner tonight."

It was only later that he found out that the man was Gu Wenxi, and he had a house outside the school. Later, they gradually became acquainted, and he was often invited to his apartment. They had common hobbies and countless common languages.

When Gu Wenxi is happy, she is enthusiastic and funny, she will never bore the people around her, and when she is unhappy, she is so dull that no one will give her a good look.Jiang Chen knows that he is a person who never reveals his heart easily, cunning and charming, those girls who like to chase him are just confused by his brilliance on the surface, why can they stand by his side?

Only you are the most suitable.

Jiang Chen fell into memories of the past. After a long silence, he lowered his head and asked, "Wen Xi, do you hate homosexuality?" He didn't dare to raise his head immediately, quietly waiting for the verdict from the other party.

"I don't hate homosexuality, sexual orientation is personal freedom," Gu Wenxi looked at his raised face and the faint light in his eyes, and poured cold water down, "But I never had that kind of affection for you, and it will be impossible in the future have."

"Wen Xi, I know you don't like men... But look, Liang Qian keeps saying that she loves you. If I care about her a little bit, I will change my mind easily? How many girls used to pursue you for vanity? They only I just want to be pampered, I don't know how to give, and I don't understand you. I don't bother you when you want to be alone, but Liang Qian doesn't care if you are in the mood or not, she always wants to take your time... She is not suitable for you at all! After breaking up, you actually left, how could she deserve you to—"

"Stop talking! I said that running away has nothing to do with you." Gu Wenxi couldn't believe that a friend who had been friends for seven years had such a malicious side to innocent people.The fundamental problem with Liang Qian and herself is that they are not suitable. They should not be together in the first place. Even if she has weaknesses, it is not the reason why she deserves to be cheated.Relatively speaking, Jiang Chen who held this kind of thinking made him even more chilled and unfamiliar, "Do you think you seduce my date for my own good?"

"Yes," he insisted, "I just don't think she can make you happy."

Gu Wenxi nodded with a sullen face: "Then let me tell you, it's not that I absolutely don't like men, but that I can't like you. I don't need others to pay for me, especially you.

"Since you can leave me alone, let's do what we say." He stood up, didn't take a sip of the water on the coffee table, and walked towards the entrance.Blocked by a dry air, he didn't want to stay any longer.

"Wen Xi——" Jiang Chen followed closely to the door, grabbing his cuff hand without confidence, "Can you give me a chance?"

"Don't you claim to know me best?" Gu Wenxi glanced back at him, "Do you think you still have a chance?"

Jiang Chen saw disappointment in his eyes, saw disdain, and saw the estrangement that hadn't been seen for many years... He slowly put down his hand, and heard the sound of the door being locked.

It is true that he knows Gu Wenxi well, and also understands that his external enthusiasm is purely based on whim, and he can spend it freely, but when the "hotness" on that surface is too lazy to maintain, it really forms an insurmountable distance.

Coming out of Jiang Chen's house, Gu Wenxi forgot to drive and walked along the road for a short distance, feeling uneasy like eating flies in her heart, which was still difficult to resolve.

If Jiang Chen simply liked him and didn't have so many dirty thoughts, he would at most feel embarrassed and wouldn't be so indignant.After being angry, I was sad again. The person I trusted for so many years was not what I imagined.

When he reached the intersection, the green signal light began to flash, and he stopped.

The flickering green villain finally freezes to red. There are not many cars at this intersection, and it looks deserted.In a trance, he thought of Du Yunyan. One winter morning, he said to the person he liked, "Only you can control your heart."

Gu Wenxi suddenly understood—it was a tenderness and love that deeply buried selfish desires.

The last time Yang Yunshu saw Du Yunyan was three years ago, when her mother had just had a serious illness due to cerebral hemorrhage.My mother is a middle school Chinese teacher, and many students came to visit, but Du Yunyan was the one who impressed her the most.This young man, who was ten years younger than her, was the one with the best grades among the last class of students that Zheng Yun took care of before he retired.

She took Du Yunyan to the cemetery where her mother was buried. The holly all over the park is still lush in this season, adorning both sides of the sidewalk.

"I really didn't expect that you would make a special trip here," Yang Yunshu said, "When your last letter arrived, my mother was dying and couldn't reply to your letter, but I read it to her and she was very happy. "

"That's good, thank you." Du Yunyan held a bouquet of pure white chrysanthemums in his arms, and went up the stairs, "How is your father?"

"Fortunately, she lives with us now," Yang Yunshu paused. "My mother's health failed in the second half of last year. In fact, everyone in the family was mentally prepared. She taught all her life and lived to be almost 70 years old. She has nothing to do with herself. It’s a pity, it’s not painful to leave, so don’t be too sad.”

"Yes, I know."

The two walked side by side, Yang Yunshu occasionally glanced at the young man beside him, this student was hard to see through, it seemed that no matter how deep sadness could be hidden in the cold brows, there was even a hint of a relieved smile.

Walking to Zheng Yun's tomb, she watched him put down flowers in front of the black stone tablet, then stood some distance away, bowed deeply three times, and there was a long interval between bending and getting up.

"By the way," Yang Yunshu called to stop him, "My mother wrote some words before she was alive and asked me to give them away after she left, but there were too many things during this time and I didn't have time to sort them out. If you are willing to take them back, I will return them in a few days. May I contact you?"

"Okay, thank you."

When he was in junior high school, Zheng Yun admired him and encouraged him, but also felt sorry for him leaving S City.Afterwards, they maintained correspondence for more than ten years. The communication with paper and pen made Du Yunyan feel more free from restraint and generation gap. From talking about studies at the beginning, to recording more trivial matters of rural life later, writing letters to his mentor like a diary, During this process, his heart became more peaceful.They are "forgetful friends" in the true sense.

Yang Yunshu's eyes were red, and she said with some emotion: "My mother must be very pleased if she knows that the former students miss her so much."

"It should be." Du Yunyan nodded slightly, "You should also take care of yourself."

When they came out of the cemetery, some clouds gathered above their heads, but there was no rain dripping for a long time.