love like drunk

Except for the quick glance outside the bakery in S city, Gu Wenxi hasn't seen Yunhan for several months.The young man was whiter and thinner than when he left, and looked very handsome.

"You're back?"

"Mr. Gu?" Relatively speaking, the surprised look on Yun Han's face was more obvious, as if he didn't expect that Gu Wenxi was still here, he replied after a moment of stunned, "I asked for a few days off to come back and take a look."

"Are you here to look for Yun Yan?" Yun Han still has a house in the village, so of course he didn't come to stay in the hotel. He came here, except to visit Du Yunyan, Gu Wenxi couldn't think of any other reason.This overly intimate address surprised the young man in front of him again.Gu Wenxi didn't explain, and then said, "Sit down for a while, I'll call him."

"Um, thanks." Despite his confusion, he complied with the advice and waited.

The restaurant was empty in the afternoon, and the staff were either resting or cleaning up the vacated rooms upstairs, and the wind chimes occasionally made a lazy tone or two.

Gu Wenxi found Du Yunyan in the backyard, and took a few eggplants from him: "Someone is looking for you."

"Who?"

"Yunhan."

A thin column of water flowed into the mouth of the pot. Gu Wenxi plugged in the kettle full of clean water and boiled a pot of water in a couple of minutes. Then he poured boiling water into the teapot and waited for the curled tea leaves to spread out.

"Why are you back at this hour?"

Du Yunyan and Yunhan were sitting at the dining table not far from the kitchen door, and some of their voices could be heard from inside.

"This section of the store is not that busy. I took a vacation and came back to tidy up the old house. I will see you by the way. Are you okay here?"

"Business is good and there are enough people."

……

After Gu Wenxi made the tea, she put another small dish of shortbread that Yunyan gave them, put them on the tea tray, walked around from behind the bar, and skillfully placed the tea set in front of them: "Let's drink tea."

Yun Han once again showed doubtful eyes, and his eyes lingered on him.

"Wen Xi," Du Yunyan said, and opened the seat beside him a little, "You can sit together too."

Gu Wenxi, who originally planned to leave after delivering the tea, twitched her lips: "Then I'll take another cup." This set of white porcelain tea set originally came with five teacups, and there were only three of them, so he quickly fetched another one from the kitchen .

Gu Wenxi suddenly remembered the situation when the three of them had breakfast at the same table last winter.It's just that Du Yunyan and Yunhan were sitting on one side at that time, and he was sitting on the opposite side, but now he and Du Yunyan are sitting on the same side.

"Mr. Gu," Yun Han finally asked, "Have you not left?"

"I went home once," Gu Wenxi said heartily, "I'm back again, and I plan to stay here in the future."

"Stay here?" The expression of the young man on the opposite side was no longer surprised, but shocked, "Do you work here?"

"No," he shook the teacup in his hand, "There is still life."

"Life?" Yun Han was obviously confused, or had discovered some signals, his eyes widened a little, as if he was trying to find the cryptic answer.

"Yunhan," Du Yunyan patted Gu Wenxi's arm secretly, "I asked Wenxi to sit with us to introduce him to you again."

Gu Wenxi didn't expect him to say that, and looked at him at the same time as Yun Han.

"Brother Yun Yan," the young man lowered his head, rubbing the cup in front of him with both hands, "Are you—"

"Well," Du Yunyan said, "the two of us are living together now."

Yun Han opened his mouth slightly, was stunned for a while, and then seemed to breathe a sigh of relief: "No wonder...it really is like this."

"Yunhan," Du Yunyan said to him, "because you are my important friend, or relative, I don't want to hide you."

"Brother Yun Yan," he smiled somewhat bitterly, but quickly hid it in a brisk tone, "It's nice to have someone with you."

There was the sound of a car approaching at the door, Gu Wenxi stood up from the seat: "Maybe someone is coming, let's talk first."

"Ah."

There were not enough parking spaces in the front yard. Gu Wenxi helped the owner of the car to watch, missed the car a few times, and finally found a corner that could barely park.

"Hi, thank you for your hard work," he said to the family getting off the car, "this way please."

After registering the guests, Du Yunyan and Yunhan were still drinking tea to reminisce about the old days. Gu Wenxi did not sit back at the table, but watched from the bar a few steps away.Whether it was just now or listening to their conversation secretly last year, he never missed the regret in Yunhan's eyes.No matter whether it reaches the level of love or not, this young man does have an unusual attachment to Du Yunyan.

Gu Wenxi sometimes thinks that if Yunhan had agreed to Du Yunyan, these two people would have been together long ago, and the lives of the three of them would have been rewritten.

Has Yun Han ever regretted it?

That afternoon, Yun Han stayed to help out and left in the evening.

After finishing the day's work and returning to the room, Gu Wenxi was immersed in the unfinished meditation of the day, unable to recover.Du Yunyan saw him sitting cross-legged on the bed from before taking a bath to leaving the bathroom, without changing his posture.

"What do you think?"

"It's okay." With a bunch of messy things in his mind, he just felt tired.

"You don't look like you're okay." After the relationship, Du Yunyan's high-pitched attitude of nothing to do with him basically disappeared, and he was able to spy on Gu Wenxi's mind, "Is it because Yunhan came back?" After all, Gu Wenxi knew that he liked Yun Han.

But Gu Wenxi glared at him: "Am I so petty?"

"Well, I know you don't mind, but maybe there is something I want to know, isn't it very clear?" Du Yunyan asked with a smile.

"You—you know what I want to know?"

"I don't know," he said, "so you can tell me what you want to know."

"I just feel that at that time... In fact, he didn't have no feelings for you, did he?" It was the first time that Gu Wenxi talked to him about Yunhan, and talked about the confusion in his heart last winter.

"Ah," Du Yunyan leaned against him, "He and I, how should I put it... After so many years, we are almost like brothers. He should have some attachment to me, and I can't define such feelings." Because There is more than just a bond of love between people.

"Or, he's more out of habit with me, but staying with me may hinder him from finding the life he really wants, and he will regret it one day."

Will you regret it if you stay?

As long as you are familiar with Du Yunyan's way of thinking, it is not difficult to understand the meaning.

Making a decision is bound to be accompanied by some level of regret.It is a bit too much to describe it as "greedy", rather it is the kindness and weakness of the human heart. Only after a seemingly painful struggle can we face our true self.

"How long have you known each other?"

Du Yunyan calculated in his mind: "14 years."

"Can you tell me about your past?"

"Do you really want to know?" Du Yunyan was a little surprised.Listening to lovers talk about people they once liked—the odd hobby that most people don't have.

"Let's talk," Gu Wenxi understood his concerns, "I don't mind your love history, I just want to know more about your past, because compared with him... we met too late." In fact, he was very curious, and What kind of person is the young Du Yunyan who Yunhan grew up with.

"If you want to know, of course I can tell you," Du Yunyan's voice was softer than usual, melting in the gentle evening breeze, "This is my mother's hometown. I came here to settle with her when I was 15 years old. As for me dad--"

Gu Wenxi held her breath and was about to interrupt him when Du Yunyan shook her hand hard.

"My dad broke up with my mum shortly after I was born, they weren't even married and I never met him."

"So you..." Gu Wenxi didn't know how to respond to this matter.

"It's okay. It doesn't matter what happens to such a person. If you are with me, you must know whether I am a human or a demon. Where did I come from?" Gu Wenxi laughed, and then he continued, "Yun Han's family also Only him and his mother. His father passed away when he was very young, and it was not easy for his aunt to take him alone. Maybe because of this, my mother and his mother had a common language and became good friends. We will be together during the holidays, and my mother asked me to take care of him like a brother.

"I told you that I used to be withdrawn when I was in City S. When I first came here, I didn't like to talk to people very much. Well, he is not yet eight years old, and he always dragged me to let me play with him. , I don’t know what children like to play with, but I love cooking, so I often take him to make some cakes for adults, and later he is more clever than me in this aspect..."

Gu Wenxi listened intently, Du Yunyan reached out and shook his hand in front of him: "Wenxi, these memories are very important to me, but I have let him go."

"Of course I know." Gu Wenxi smiled and shook her head.

"Really... I thought you were a little awkward."

"why?"

"Because you haven't talked much for a long time since he came here." Du Yunyan said with a determined expression.

"I'm—" He did think about something, but he didn't care about it, insisting that he was awkward, because he and Du Yunyan had known each other for far less time than Yunhan, "So what if I'm awkward?"

"Well..." Du Yunyan lay down and said, "How do you want me to coax you?"

"Are you coaxing me?" The tone of coaxing the child, Gu Wenxi heard it was funny, her eyes touched his pair of peach blossom eyes with soft waves, she came up with an idea, and said lying beside him, "Then you do it with me now."