I wake up every day and see myself selling stupid

Fanwaiji

I have always been a very rational person, always calculating what is the best choice.

That year was.It still is.

It's just that I didn't regret it back then, but now I regret it.

I rarely think about what life I'm living without Zhou Papi, but, I do.

I opened a small coffee shop and recruited two Chinese students who came here to work part-time. I only need to feed the treasure of the town store, Garfield, and bask in the sun and read magazines every day.

I didn't pay attention to domestic affairs any more, for no reason other than laziness.

I think, I am very satisfied with my current life, which is quiet and comfortable. I will never suffer from insomnia at night, worry about all kinds of conflicts between two people, and do not need to find reasons to comfort the one who is not grown up. lover.

I will always live in peace and stability like this, I thought I would live like this.

Until he fainted in the store and was sent to the hospital.

The test result was insufficient blood supply.

At that time, in a daze, I suddenly realized that I hadn't eaten for two days.

I haven't thought of these things for a long time.

So long that I thought I forgot.

Maybe it's because of the pain, maybe it's because of being in the hospital again, the feeling of depression and loneliness...

Some memories flooded in and caught me off guard.

At that time, I was only 14 years old, and my daily life suddenly changed from looking at someone’s back in a white shirt with an unspeakable little pink secret in my heart, suddenly facing my parents being arrested for drug trafficking, and facing it alone. Orphaned daughter of a relative's debt collector.

In fact, I didn't think about how nice she would be to me, and I didn't even care that she didn't talk to me anymore. After all, apart from the hidden thoughts in my heart, we were just acquaintances who nodded.

I have never been so short of money at that time. In order to pay off the debt, I sold the house and everything in the house, except me...

To be honest, at that time, I was so desperate that I wanted to sell myself.

The only reason I persisted in my heart was that she was sitting in the front seat of me. No one spoke to me, and everyone avoided me like a snake, but to me, it was nothing.

Until, when she changed schools suddenly, the head teacher explained that it was because of the class style.

Because... sitting in the back... me.

At that time, I realized that people can really be pushed to a corner.

Also, we don't have much to do with each other, do we?

I thought, what am I holding on to?

Can't figure it out, I did the stupidest thing in my life.

Then it turned out to be sent to the hospital.

When I woke up, someone paid for my medical bills and sent away my relatives who came to collect debts.

I heard from the doctor that it was the driver who hit me at the time.

This is the worst thing I've ever done in my life.

However, it changed my fate.

When a middle-aged woman with a good face walked in, I was clutching my stomach and looking out the window in a daze.

I didn't know the man, although he looked familiar.

"Let me introduce myself, my name is Gu Ning's mother."

I froze for a moment, she has a mother? ? ?We have never heard of it from marriage to cohabitation.

"Haven't heard of me?" The woman smiled a little...sadly...

I can't express that feeling, I always feel that she will break down and cry the next moment...

However, there is an indescribable temperament about her, which makes people feel a little uncomfortable.

"Gu Ning and I are already divorced." I don't want to get involved again, I think, maybe it's the obsession when we first fell in love, even if she abandoned me at that time, no, it's not considered abandonment, what's the relationship between us None, right?

"Well, I know, so she's back in the nursing home again."

"Nursing home???" I don't understand what she means at all?What does it mean to come back again?

"Spiritual sanatorium." Gu Ning's mother sat over with a tired face, "It's the second time."

When she said this, she frowned, "The last time she was sent in by her father. She once stole more than 200 million yuan from the family."

"I think, Ms. Ling may remember what the more than 200 million yuan was used for?" Gu Ning's mother smiled more and more cruelly. I saved you, and then stole more than 200 million yuan from my family to give you a bright future. I almost forced you to die, and I would rather admit that I am sick and accept various treatments..."

"Do you know who she kept calling when she was receiving so-called physical shock therapy for homosexuality alone? Do you want to guess how many times she committed suicide because of depression?"

And I... despise her under such circumstances, despise her insecurity, despise her selfishness...

In an instant, my mind went blank, as if all the strength had been removed from my body, only my hands were trembling.

"After she returned to China, she never contacted me again. I also know that she hates me, but I also hate you. Without you, she would have a family, a husband, and children, so she wouldn't have so many emotions." Shadow. I also hate myself. I couldn't divorce her father and take her away... instead of being like now, I have a deep obsession with money, right..."

"Where is she..." At this moment, I just want to see her... I just want to tell her that I love you.

Been in love for many years.