moon boy

To all readers: It’s over, this is the first novel that Am She has completed, and it should be considered a short novel.Thank you for your support all the way. I know that there are still many areas for improvement in my writing, but thank you for not giving up and accompanying me all the way here.The next updated article: "15".Amnesty on 7/22/[-].

On the morning of the third day, Ainur was about to leave.It took him a day and a half to pack his things.I looked at his busy figure, the corners of his mouth were bitter, and his mind was blank.

Next, the long wait begins.

Our love is too bitter.I suddenly thought of such a sentence.

I finally found a question: "Do you know where to go?"

"Yes, keep walking due west."

"Then do you know where to go?"

"It's almost as far as the border between China and Kashmir. If you get there, you must know."

I thought to myself you still know about Kashmir.I roughly estimated in my mind the area that Ainuer will walk through.God, it's too difficult and dangerous, and the road is very long.How long will it take to go back and forth, plus crossing mountains and ridges.

"Luoyang." He called me suddenly.

"what happened?"

"Sorry……"

"Why did you say this suddenly?" As I said this, my nose suddenly became sore again, but I endured it and did not shed tears.

"You know what? That's the first sorry I ever said."

"Oh?"

"Our family motto has always been that we can only say 'sorry' or 'sorry', and 'sorry' is relatively too heavy. Our clan has always been arrogant, and we never feel that we will be sorry to anyone."

"And I hope you don't say sorry again."

"It won't be too long. I will hurry up and come back in three years at most."

Three years, how many days?How do I spend these hours alone!

"Maybe I'll be back in more than a year. You can live with the Na'vi family, and they will definitely entertain you. As for my situation, you just tell the truth."

"Okay. You don't have to hurry and don't get tired."

"it is good."

"Have you brought your compass?"

"Bring it."

"Bring a few more, so as not to lose them."

"it is good."

Ainur handed me a whistle: "Blow this, the sound from small to large is calling the horse, the horse bit and saddle are placed on the fireplace; the sound from loud to small is a golden eagle, you don't have to be afraid of it, I tame it For many years."

I took the whistle, and it turned out that the change of the sound was exquisite, and I had never heard it before.

"I... I'm leaving." Ainur looked around the cave.

I looked at him helplessly, tears streaming down again suddenly.We hug each other tightly, looking for each other's lips in tears. "Don't cry..." Ainur still said so.

He still left.

gone

So go.

I sat on the bed and sat blankly.I said to myself, don't go see him off, because parting once is already painful, don't try to say goodbye a second time.

However, I still couldn't control it. I stumbled and ran to the entrance of the cave, poking my head out to see his back going down the mountain.The tears kept flowing, and I have never shed so many tears in my life.

My steps were light, and Ainur didn't notice me.But after he walked a few steps, he looked back reluctantly.I finally burst into tears, my eyes were hazy...

That's it, start waiting.

I think, if you fall in love with a man in the city, you will definitely face painful coming out, confession, and struggle with your parents. Fortunately, I don’t have to face these.My Ah Q spirit is really...

It is currently April NO.30, and the weather is getting hotter.I noted the date, intending to record it for a long time.

When I went to sleep at night, I suddenly missed the pig sleeping next to me, and even missed his weak snoring.I used to have nightmares about Ainur's unexpected death, then wake up screaming and sweating profusely.

The pool gradually filled up again.I really, really don't want to take another look at the bottom of the pool.

I often look at the empty space next to me in a daze at night, insomnia, and want to sleep until he comes back.If you don't come back, you will sleep forever.When I came back to my senses, half of the pillow was already wet.

Often looking at the fireplace in a daze.I can still vividly remember the first time I lived in a cave. I seem to think that Ainur was squatting in front of the fireplace, poking the fire with tongs.The fire flickered, reflecting his sharp-edged face.

I often hold tightly the shawl Ainur gave me, letting my tears wet it.

Often feel hopeless.

Often want to cry.

I often think that men don't cry easily.

……

One summer morning, I planned to go to the Uyghur family for a sit-down.I got on the horse and ran towards the place in my memory.I saw the house from a distance, and saw Ibbadati choosing vegetables in front of the door.

She looked at me from a distance, very pleasantly surprised, waved at me, and then shouted: "Brother Luoyang——"

I smiled at her and said, "Hello."

She took the reins of my horse: "Great, I've been looking forward to your coming all day long. Where's Ainur? Why didn't you come with me?"

I couldn't answer, my heart was so sour.Seeing my awkward expression, Ibbadati said worriedly, "Brother Luoyang, what happened?"

"I..." I was about to say, when Ibbadati patted my back lightly: "Don't cry, don't cry..."

God, why is it so like Ainur!Tears rolled in my eyes, and I finally cried when the whole family came over.

They are very kind-hearted and have helped me a lot during this period of time.I stayed in their house for two months.During such a long time, I have helped them do a lot of work, and doing farm work is actually quite interesting.

Ibadati found out about Ainur and I. She was much stronger than me. She only cried once and comforted me optimistically, saying that Ainur is so powerful and she will definitely come back.

I've already decided that I'm not going anywhere, and I won't be in Luoyang anymore, just waiting for him.I suddenly became very stubborn very stubborn.

My tears have also dried up, and now even if something provokes my most sensitive nerves, I will not cry, but just smile bitterly.

I waited until I felt like I was dead, already dead.

I often wonder why I am not dead yet.

I got gutsy and loved getting hurt.I like to get hurt badly to forget about the pain in my heart.Another Uighur boy bandaged my wound, sighing as he bandaged it.

I became fond of talking to myself, and I actually said a lot to Ainur.

You bastard, why haven't you come back, where have you been?Let me tell you, if you don't come back when I'm old, I'll burn paper for you... I don't know if your strange nation likes this.Don't be too anxious to hurry, be careful of avalanches, and be careful of exhaustion.If you really can't find your father, don't force yourself, keep facing west?This is a bit of a mystery...Let me tell you, the temperature difference in Hoh Xil is too great in summer. It is so hot during the day. If you are walking in the snow-capped mountains, I really don't know if it is hot or not...

After living on the grassland for two months, I went back.Dad asked me if I wanted another guy with a good relationship to go back with me?I said no, I'd better learn how to be strong.

Dad said, if you have any questions, you must come to us.

I smiled and said, good.

I have waited until the next winter.

When I woke up in the morning, I felt that the sky was very bright, and I was pleasantly surprised to find that it was snowing heavily.It is not uncommon for Hoh Xil to snow, sometimes it will snow in May.

But this time, I had a wonderful feeling, as if I was born to love this snow, just the snow that fell today.This time the snowflakes are very big and crystal clear, the sky is full of snowflakes, the sky and the earth are all pure white, which still fits the desolate and boundless beauty of Hoh Xil.

My mood has been erratic, but it is different from the pain and despair that was taken away before. It seems like a snowflake that keeps floating and fluttering, repeatedly condensing, melting, and finally disappearing, mixed with a trace of relief.

Big deal, I will really wait for you forever.No matter how bad it is, I will run all over the world to find you, until I can no longer walk and die in a foreign land.

I went back to the house, took out a piece of paper, drew a line across it, and wrote down today's date.I thought to myself, wait another two years, if he still hasn't come back after two years, I will go to him.

I can leave our house and go back to my hometown Luoyang, or go anywhere, and I can quickly integrate into modern life.It's not so much that I decide to wait, it's better to say that I have to wait, I can't help it.Because I know that in this life, in several lifetimes, in lifetimes, I will never meet someone who loves me more than him, or someone who loves me more.

I looked up in the mirror blankly, looking at my still young face, I couldn't help but smiled wryly, two years, 730 days, is still a long time for me, how should I live.During the college entrance examination, the countdown started from [-] days, and I felt extremely tormented.My heart was sore, and I couldn't help but want to cry.

I shook my head to get rid of these bad emotions, and was about to pack up my breakfast when I suddenly heard someone knocking on the door.

My blood froze all of a sudden, I stayed there motionless, I didn't dare to think about anything, I couldn't move a step.I can clearly hear my strong heartbeat and the sound of snowflakes outside the door.

Someone knocked on the door a few more times, and then I heard a voice that was so familiar, I asked tentatively, "Luoyang, are you there?"

My heart beat wildly, I staggered to the door, and almost crazily opened the door, Ainur's familiar face was right in front of me.His frowning eyebrows stretched out all of a sudden, and he grinned, the tip of his nose was slightly red from the cold.Between him and me, countless snowflakes are falling.

For more than a year, the longing and despair of more than a year were relieved in an instant, my eyes were sore, and I burst into tears.

I originally wanted to say a thousand words to him, but at this time I didn't say anything, I just stared at him with hazy teary eyes for a long, long time, greedily, wanting to carve his face severely In my heart, I will never let him go again.

--THAN--