College entrance examination

Your name is Yan Qi, and you are a student who has just entered the third year of high school. You are special, but you are no more than ordinary people.

Why do you say you are special...

Because in the first two years of high school, you did a lot of things that high school students should not do: smoking, fighting and drinking, beating classmates and scolding teachers, thinking that you are helping justice, and so on.

In short, you are not a good guy, at least not a competent student.

But you are also ordinary.

Before high school started, you were just an ordinary person who stumbled in the high school entrance examination and didn't get into the high school of your choice.

The place where you were born is very ordinary, and the educational resources are naturally not much better.

There are only 2 good high schools in the area, and you missed them with a gap of about 20 points, and you are in a very embarrassing position.

why?

Because in the small city you live in, apart from the two key schools, it only has a high school similar to a vocational high school.Even if you go, you will see a gloomy future visible to the naked eye.

It is impossible for you to be willing, but you really did not pass the exam.

what to do?You fell into a state of depression at that time, and you didn't eat for several days in a hurry, and your parents were also looking for people to ask for help.You start to constantly regret why you didn't study hard at the beginning, so you end up in such an embarrassing situation.

But you know that it is useless to regret, everything is a tree that you bear and bear fruit, and all the suffering should be borne by yourself, but not your parents.

You are lucky.

At this critical moment, a leaflet was delivered to your parents on time——

A brand new private high school will open this year, and it recruits high-quality students in a large area, and gives free policies to those who reach a certain score.

As we all know, the tuition fees of private high schools are not cheap, and this can be said to have cost a lot of money.

It also shows from another aspect that this is a brand new opportunity.

But you are unlucky again.

The free policy is only limited to 10 points below key high schools, and you happen to be 10 points short.

Your parents hesitated again and again, but they still sent you to that school under great pressure.

You thought this should be a good opportunity, but you didn't expect that there are not a few people who reported "I'd rather be a cocktail than a crested head". You went there and you were just a very ordinary, even inferior member of that school. .

So you became impatient, and the huge pressure on your body made you at a loss. You started to study hard and ask hard, and the teachers in the parallel class also attached great importance to you.

But when you passed the first monthly exam, you suffered a comprehensive blow.

It turned out that the score I got from studying hard was just the bottom 50.You feel more and more strenuous, and even if you are still learning, you are not at that level.

The sighs of your parents, the shaking of your head from the teacher, and the non-stressful play and slapstick of your classmates all put more pressure on you, and the puberty that you never had in junior high school is slowly coming.

You start to become irritable and grumpy, and you don't know where you learned to smoke, drink, and fight, as if you have become a "bad student" through and through, willing to take root in this small broken city and give your future It gradually became darker.

But you know it's not, and you're still struggling.

You never let your parents know about these shitty things, you're still learning, it's just...

It's just that the energy of fighting at the beginning is gone.

So you spent two years in a daze like this. With this mentality, your grades have improved a lot compared to before, but your playfulness has also increased a lot, but overall, you feel that you should still be satisfied. .

But in the third year of high school.

You see the people around you start to work hard, start taking notes in class, start only sleeping for half an hour at noon, and start to ask the teacher again and again.

Watching the class's original noisy after class gradually replaced by the rustling of pens, watching the teacher's emphasis on the third year of high school, you seem to understand something.

It's different, everything is different.

You looked at the state of your classmates, and you only thought of one word——

Awaken.

Before you know it, those cronies and friends around you seem to be getting serious, as if everyone has a goal, the university they want to go to, and...

future.

And you are still half a foot deep in the mire, you start to panic and start to hesitate.

The failure of the high school entrance examination once again appeared in front of your eyes. You still remember that you made up your mind to study hard at that time, but ended up playing and studying for two and a half years in high school.

You don’t want history to repeat itself, you don’t want to see your parents sighing, and you don’t want to see the obvious gap between your classmates and you. You suddenly realize that this seems to be an awakening.

Holding the pen and turning it slowly, you suddenly remembered a sentence that the teacher said: "The meaning of life lies not in wealth, sex, fame, food and sleep, but in awakening."

But you never understood the essence of this sentence before, but now you seem to understand a little bit.

Start with the heart, put it into practice, achieve the goal - this is awakening.

You stopped turning your pen and looked at the blackboard.

This is a math class, you should listen.

6.

Awakening never requires any major ceremony, just a short thought.

There has never been any specific reason for the awakening, it may be the gray hair that I accidentally glimpsed, the ubiquitous diligence, and the fantasy I once had.

Awakening has never been difficult, but it is not difficult.

The author has something to say:

A very boring article, related to growing up.