roses hidden in winter

Seeing her leave, Ye Zhan immediately chased after her, yelling to herself: "Hey, when will you pay back the money..."

After a good show, the husband and wife did not follow up. If they caught up, not only would they not get 55, but they would also have to pay 50 in compensation.

In an alley downstairs, Xu Xiangnan leaned against the wall, watching their dingy backs go away, and finally disappeared, but she never looked away, and asked in a flat voice.

"You've seen it all, and you've heard it all, haven't you?"

Ye Zhan, who was also leaning against the wall on the opposite side, looked at her side face and nodded, and said in a serious tone: "Sorry."

"You are not wrong, there is no need to apologize." Xu Xiangnan turned his head to look at her and said with a faint smile, "Let me tell you about my past."

Ye Zhan looked into her eyes, she was smiling, but her eyes were dull and dark. With such parents, her past would probably not be happy.

"If you're not happy, don't say it."

Xu Xiangnan slowly put away his smile, looked away, didn't know where to look, and told his past in the calmest and most indifferent tone.

"My family is a typical patriarchal family. I am the first child in the family. When my mother was pregnant with me for seven months, the doctor accidentally revealed my gender.

So my mother found a small pharmacy after leaving the hospital and bought abortion medicine, but I survived and was born three months early.

This is what my neighbor’s grandma told me. She also said that when I was born, I was very small and my breathing was very weak. The doctors were not sure whether I would survive, but I was tenaciously alive and still healthy.

My mother may feel a little guilty towards me, she was nice to me when I was a child, but these guilts disappeared when I was five years old and my brother was born. Can a good one with guilt be better than a sincere one?unable.

After my younger brother was born, they didn't love me anymore. No, they seemed to never love me as a daughter. Since childhood, they asked me to let him do everything.

He also has what I have, and he has what I don’t have. If he doesn’t have what I have, he asks me to give it to him. If I don’t let him, he will grab it and threaten.

Sometimes when something is not done to their liking, they will be scolded and beaten. Every time I do things to their liking, I will still be scolded and beaten. When I stand there, they will scold and beat me. The little beast is used to it.

The reason why I don’t like to grow long hair now is that when they beat people, they would always pull my hair. The pulling feeling was very painful, and I still remember it now.

When there is meat to eat at home, I hide it for him to eat. I never have my share, but I want to eat it. So I get up in the middle of the night when they are all asleep, and steal a piece to eat, but I only dare to eat it. One piece, don't dare to eat too much.

On his birthday, the three meals are sumptuous, in exchange for chicken, duck and fish, and there will be cake.

On my birthday, which no one will remember, I cook myself a poached egg to celebrate another year older.

I thought, since they don't love me, then I love myself.

When I was in junior high school, I fell in love with painting and wanted to learn, but they didn't want to pay me to learn, so I taught myself and wanted to buy painting tools.

They refused to pay, so I used the money to wash dishes for a month to buy them. When they found out, they forced me to return them, and then bought a set of model toys for my brother.

When she was in high school, they were unwilling to pay her tuition to continue her studies. They said that the nine-year compulsory education had already been completed, and they should go out early to earn money, and if they wanted to study, they could earn their own money to study.

Then I worked summer vacation and winter vacation to earn tuition fees for myself, and they forcibly took away the rest of the money I got except for tuition fees.

At that time, the school was far away from home, and they were unwilling to buy me a bicycle or pay me to take the bus to school, so I got up at four in the morning every day, then ran all the way to school, and took the books to the classroom after class Standing outside because of being late.

When I was in the second year of high school, I decided to live in the school. When they found out, they came to my school to make a fuss. After the quarrel failed, every time I went home from vacation and had no food, I went to the store to buy a five-pack of instant noodles. Eat two meals a day.

This kind of life went on for two years, until the college entrance examination was over, and I was admitted to E University. At that time, I thought, I can finally take care of this place.

But when the acceptance letter came to my house, I was working a summer job to pay for college, and they tore it up while I was away.

My college dream and my dream of leaving home are all shattered. In the past, no one loved me, so I just loved myself. Now no one loves me, and I don’t want to love myself anymore.

In order to completely get rid of that place, I never went back, but I would send money to them regularly every month, and they didn’t take the initiative to call me or contact me. They came to me today and asked me to take 50 yuan .

Hehe, Xiangnan, Xiangnan, Xiangnan, who doesn't want to be loved?But they never loved me..."

After the last word fell, a tear rolled down Ye Zhan's eyes, and her heart twitched.

She was sad about Xu Xiangnan's past, but she was even more sad that she told her past so calmly, as if the protagonist in the story was not herself.