dancer on the knife

After we were divided into classes, we ended the devilish military training life and began to formally enter the learning stage of hotel professional knowledge.And after I successfully got into class one, in the election for class cadres, I also won the position of life committee member by virtue of my courage, loud voice, and frequent smile.Thinking about the family history of my "cadres", I started my career by practicing hygiene.I have been a life committee member since the third year of high school, and then I have been a life committee member in college, so I am familiar with this position, because I like tidying up and tidying up, and when others don’t want to flush the toilet, I can do it by myself. For myself who has lived in the countryside for many years, the dirty and tired here seem so insignificant.

After class division, each class is also equipped with an instructor who is responsible for early training, so the "shadow" of military training has always been with us every day in our study and life.Get up at six in the morning, then go to the playground to line up for training, and then run, every morning.When the six classes were running, sometimes everyone "howled" desperately in order to be louder than the slogans of other classes.The morning and afternoon belong to public knowledge learning, and special trainings are carried out in various aspects such as hotel etiquette, basic makeup, team spirit, service awareness, tourism knowledge, health knowledge, professional ethics, etc.Evening is the time for self-study, and it is also the time to review the daily study.Everyday life is basically like this, day after day, week after week.

Since the training is still carried out in a militarized manner, night duty has also become a compulsory course for male colleagues after self-study every night.On duty is carried out in shifts, which is much easier than standing guard during military training, because you can sit on a chair, and it is in the corridor, and there is one duty post on each floor.The male colleagues most hope to be on duty on the floor of the female colleague's dormitory, so that they can enjoy the scenery aboveboard.Each duty cycle is two hours. When it is the turn of the shift, the replacement needs to take the initiative to take the shift, and make a good handover on the shift record.

Feng Shui took turns, and when it was my turn to be on duty for the third time, I was assigned to the floor of the female colleague's dormitory, and I was a little happy in my heart.From the hustle and bustle on the floor to the sound of the lights and the bell, it gradually became quieter.The training regulations require that you can't read novels while on duty, so you have to bring newspapers and spread them on the table, accompanied by dim street lights, and don't miss punctuation marks.When the leader checks the post, he immediately turns his attention and stands up to say hello to the leader.In the early hours of the morning, the whole floor was so quiet that only the sound of his own heartbeat could be heard.The evening wind blowing on the body gives people a cool feeling, but sometimes the sound of blowing things to the ground is really scary.After all, the content of the newspaper is limited, and after reading it, you can only look left and right.People think a lot when they are bored. I heard people say that this floor was once haunted, and I was the only one standing guard in the empty corridor.My heart was up and down with the gusts of wind, but I thought I hadn't done anything wrong, so ghosts and gods probably wouldn't come to me.In order not to let myself think about these fearful things, I force myself to think about other things.Or maybe it's a holiday today, and my nerves seem a little excited.In this slightly cool midnight, I taste everything the night brings me alone.My heart drifted with the evening wind, and the box of my thoughts opened involuntarily, reminding me of my life during military training and my life in college, and I also stretched my thoughts far away, thinking of my classmates and relatives.

After thinking about it, I still returned to my current life.Thinking about the time passing by so unhurriedly after graduation, it gives people a feeling of doing nothing, being controlled by a militarized work and rest schedule every day, and rarely calms down to think.I just feel that I am slowly losing the most real thing in my heart in such an environment, and I seldom reflect on myself, but just passively adapt to everything, dragging my exhausted body into dreamland every day.Because there is too much hotel expertise, I seldom think about the rest.Because a person has only one heart, if he puts too much in one thing, he will put less in the rest.

On duty nights, there is enough time for me to "think wildly". After reminiscing about a period of past life, thinking about one thing makes it difficult for me to calm down.Before that, I never doubted my ability in writing, because I have always been more confident.But one thing during the courseware break that day made me feel inferior.At that time, I was taking a break. In order to relax, I was joking with my colleagues and teasing each other.A little girl sitting in front of me, at least five years younger than me, had her name on a poster made in class some time ago, because there were two articles by her. At that time, I didn’t think it was my own Written, I thought it was just edited, but when I saw her name appearing frequently in her handwritten manuscripts, and all of them had been published in major newspapers, I felt as if I was suddenly hit with an iron rod, Nerves became sluggish, and there was a mixed feeling in my heart.Thinking about this incident, I felt very scared in my heart, even more scared than the legendary ghost on the floor, because the skills that I have always been proud of were insignificant in front of this colleague.The fear is not that she is better than me, but that I have paid too little for my special skills. With the passage of time, I have not created for a long time. I always think that such a busy training life does not have much time To write, I have a chilling feeling thinking about it.I have always warned myself not to be a slave to life, but under the guidance of life, I have gradually become a slave. Instead of pursuing my ideals, I have been looking forward to a bright future with my past achievements.If this continues, I will not achieve much in my life. This is my greatest fear.Fortunately, God gave such a colleague to appear in front of me at such a time, which made me wake up and let me see the gap, instead of living in my own one-acre three-point land.All the achievements are not thought out, but made. In the future, no matter how busy you are in training or work, don't forget to write. This can be said to be your own soul.

Thinking of these, I felt a force gradually growing in my heart, which made me wake up gradually.The hot blood in my veins rushed to my head, making me in an excited state, and the previous drowsiness was swept away.I started thinking about my future again?Am I going to be the editor of the hotel?Can I become an excellent writer?Do I have a white-collar happy life?Since graduation, I have been living like a spinning top, looking for jobs non-stop, training one after another, I haven't thought about these for a long time.Facing the future life path, there is a little expectation, but also a little confusion.It was the cruel blow when I was looking for a job that made me have a different understanding of life. For a person with no background and no skills, it is really not easy to work hard in this city and get results.When I was not in the society, I was so full of confidence in the future, but when I reluctantly accepted the concept of "employment first and then career choice" from the bottom of my heart, my thinking has gradually gone downhill.Because I have been confused and lost, I understand the pain of helplessness better. Therefore, when the upward force in my heart appears, it brings me an inexplicable excitement, and I gradually return to the passion that I used to have. It was a long-lost feeling.

In such a quiet night, my colleagues have already fallen asleep, because of long-term thinking, I am like a sculpture on the floor on duty.From the beginning of thinking about those haunted legends, my heart was numb, and then I gradually remembered my future, from losing confidence to gradually regaining my confidence.During this process, I did not experience any legendary experience, but because of thinking, I freed the messy heart, fully released myself, and understood myself more comprehensively.I don’t know what will happen to the world after dawn, but I think I already know at this moment that only by sticking to my dreams and not suspending or giving up the pace of chasing dreams due to changes in the world, can I be free from fear.You must continue to persevere in the skills you are good at, and let them be used to the limitless extreme, so that you will get many opportunities.It is also because in this world, excellent people abound, and every organization has the right to choose better people. Even if you are excellent, as long as someone is better than you, then it is normal to be replaced and surpassed.Dream is a lamp that illuminates the heart that walks in the night and is afraid, it makes the heart warm and powerful.People are afraid out of ignorance and born out of dreams.Thinking of these, a heart is relieved.