dancer on the knife

On the evening of February 2007, 2, a tear fell from the corner of my eye while I was writing the plan. I didn't think much about it, and gently wiped it away with my hands.At around 2 o'clock in the evening, the phone at home suddenly rang.

"What are you doing? Mom called me today and told me that grandpa is in the hospital, did you know?" Brother said in a rapid tone.

"Brother, I'm writing something. Grandpa was hospitalized? When did it happen? What kind of disease did he get? Is it serious?" I asked a lot of questions.

"Mom said that grandpa suddenly felt unwell and fell to the ground while working on the mountain. Dad carried it down from the mountain himself. He suffered from a cerebral hemorrhage. The condition is unknown now. We have to wait for the results, but it is probably very serious."After listening to brother's words, I couldn't calm down anymore, and I didn't listen to a word of brother's comforting words later.I just thought about how to get home as soon as possible and go to the hospital to see my grandpa.

After hanging up the phone, I immediately thought about how to get home as soon as possible.Find out when the nearest train is to your home and call home.Since I couldn't contact the hospital for a while, I couldn't know the latest condition of my grandfather, so I was like an ant on a hot pot.

When I opened my wallet, I found that there was only 200 yuan. I lent the money to a friend, and it would take some time to pay it back.How do I get the money back?I fell into the painful contradiction between family affection and reality.Money aside, I want to go back right away, the sooner the better.I calmed down and searched for people who could help me. After thinking about it, I found that there were not many people.In the end, I settled on a few people, and then I called immediately. Although it was past 10 o'clock, I couldn't take care of so much for the sake of grandpa.But the world is hot and cold, and people are indifferent. The former iron buddies and former friends are indeed so indifferent at this time, my heart is already cold, cold to the bone.I couldn't fall asleep for a long time at night, and I was very worried that if something happened to my grandpa, I was afraid that I might not see him for the last time, so I prepared for the worst.

I got up very early on February 2rd, and I was still thinking about how to raise money as soon as possible, what to buy to go back, and because it was Chinese New Year, I couldn't go back empty-handed.I realized that there was still a project payment, and my friend had not paid me for a long time. I dialed the number according to the number, but found that the number was empty, and no one answered when I dialed another number.I hung up the phone helplessly, hating such a friend very much.The project funds disappeared without any payment. At that time, we went to help by relying on mutual trust, but disappeared from our field of vision without even an explanation later.

At 10 o'clock in the morning, the family called and said that grandpa's illness was very serious and he might die soon.I was squatting on the ground alone at the time, and I shed two lines of manly tears.I'm afraid I won't even be able to see Grandpa for the last time, but at this time I can't raise money.I really hate myself, and it makes me feel that in front of money, I can see some people's faces clearly.There is always a solution, although it is urgent, but I am not messing around.In the end, 4000 yuan was raised, and several friends agreed very readily, and I also promised to pay it back immediately after the year.Money is the guts of a person, so I immediately went to the supermarket to buy some nutrition and New Year's goods.I asked my brother to take the evening train to go home together. My brother was studying in Xiangya at the time, and because of the sudden incident, I had to ask for leave temporarily.

After purchasing good things in the afternoon, I will arrange the work immediately.It happened so suddenly that I urgently dealt with some work matters, said goodbye to my clients, and wished them a happy new year in advance.Because after returning home, I guess it will be difficult to surf the Internet.I didn't tell anyone, I just said something happened at home, because I didn't want more people to worry about me.

At 6 o'clock in the evening, my father called again.The father over there was already choking with sobs and told me that grandpa was dying, and he was probably leaving soon, urging us to go home quickly.I tried my best to comfort my father, but after being sad, I seemed very calm.I believe grandpa won't leave, because he hasn't seen me yet, it's impossible for him to leave without seeing me.

Carrying big bags and small bags and rushing to the station, the train station is crowded with people.Fortunately, my brother got 2 tickets, otherwise it would be difficult to return home.The ticket dealers have already bought all the tickets. Thinking about the ticket dealers with Chinese characteristics, they will become popular.Surrounded by the crowd on the train, because they are all station tickets.So after I put my luggage, I can only stand next to the seat. Of course, I also enthusiastically put the luggage on the luggage rack for the people next to me.Enthusiastic, they also vacated a small seat for me. When I was away from home, I made do with the seat that could only accommodate 3 people.There are more people in the aisle than sitting on the train, and there is no way to move at all, sitting on pins and needles.

At around 2 o'clock in the morning on February 4, my aunt called again, saying that grandpa was dying and only wanted to see our two grandchildren.I can't wait for the train to fly and reach my hometown early.I watched the time go by minute by minute, and prayed silently in my heart, I hope grandpa must persevere, we are almost home, let me see the last side, or I will regret it for the rest of my life.The most painful thing for a person is that when a loved one passes away, he cannot see him go in person.Think about how grandma passed away without warning more than 4 years ago, and now I can't even remember what grandma looks like.Grandpa, you must wait for me, I will be home soon.

The train arrived at the train station at 5:2 in the morning, and I was inexplicably moved when I saw my hometown where I had been separated for more than two years.The taxi went straight to the People's Hospital where my grandfather lived.In the taxi, my aunt called again, saying that grandpa is completely out of his mind now and is probably leaving soon, so we should hurry to the hospital.Brother is a doctor at the People's Hospital, and he may have seen a lot about birth, old age, illness and death, so he is more calm than me.My heart is like an arrow, I can't wait to see Grandpa.The taxi drove through the small town at full speed.I feel that I am getting closer and closer to my grandpa's heart, and I can touch my beloved grandpa soon.

The taxi finally stopped at the entrance of the hospital. My brother and I put all our things at his home. At this time, the two aunts were already making breakfast, but they just said that they were already making preparations. .I put down my things and immediately rushed to the inpatient department with my brother.I was wondering what my grandpa was like at this moment, I hadn't seen him in years.He must have been in pain in his hospital bed, waiting for us.It was almost dawn, and when I ran to the building of the inpatient department, I felt inexplicably nervous, and the string in my heart was very tight.I was calling silently in my heart: Grandpa, I am here, the grandson you have been dreaming about is coming soon, you must persist, must persist.

When he arrived at the ward, his father's eyes were red, and he sobbed that grandpa was dying.I called to Grandpa in a crying voice, but he still didn't respond, only making some squeaks occasionally.

After breakfast, father, uncle and several elders were discussing whether to cure or not?Because the mortality rate of cerebral hemorrhage is very high, not to mention the doctor said that it is difficult to cure completely, and it is still in the critical stage.My brother, who is a doctor in the hospital himself, suggested treatment, saying that we should fight for a chance of life no matter what, but I agreed with my brother and insisted on continuing the treatment.

In fact, the elders were worried that grandpa died suddenly in the hospital.According to rural customs, this is very unlucky.It is best to die in one's own home, and in some places, even for those who die outside, villagers are not allowed to set up mourning halls at home, and can only set up mourning halls outside their homes.It is precisely because of this that they are rushing to send grandpa home as soon as possible, and they also arranged for their family members to prepare for the funeral at home.It's just that my father and uncle saw that our brothers were so determined and decided to follow our advice: to continue the treatment.

Even if the cerebral hemorrhage passes through the dangerous period, the possibility of leaving paralysis is very high.This is what everyone is worried about, not to mention the repeated illness now.Grandpa was lying on the hospital bed dancing and dancing, and from time to time he made some incoherent voices that we could not understand. In order to prevent the needle from falling, we had to hold him down.The doctor said that this is a typical feature of the disease, and the old man's body mechanism is also fighting against the disease.

The whole family takes turns to take care of grandpa, just for convenience, and because there are people with strong nursing needs, so basically my father, uncle, me, brother, uncle and others are the main caregivers.When my grandpa defecated, I had to turn him over and wipe it off little by little. This was the first time I had encountered such a situation since I was a child, and I still felt a little uncomfortable.Others in the ward praised my brother and I for our filial piety, but I thought, isn't this what a grandson should do?There is no such thing as being filial or not.

I often talk with my grandfather, which will also help his recovery.After a few days, Grandpa's condition finally stabilized.It was a relief for us all.

Since there are many family members, everyone takes turns to take care of it, so it is not so tiring.It’s just that staying up late at night to take care of it is basically undertaken by the elders on their own initiative, saying that young people feel more sleepy and let us rest more.Because my grandfather was lying on the hospital bed, unable to speak, and often closed his eyes, I had to take this opportunity to read some books and think about some work issues.

When my friends knew that I had returned to the county seat, they talked about starting a business, saying that they could come to invest and let me make a business plan.And this time, my grandfather’s critical illness also made me understand the truth that I need to be strong enough to take better care of my family. If I start a business and make money, I can provide better conditions for my family. Even if I am hospitalized, I can live in a single ward and enjoy better medical care.In many cases, it is some specific things that stimulate people to make some important decisions.

Just during this period of time, I have time to think, so I took advantage of the gap between taking care of my grandfather at night and during the day, consulted a large number of business plan contents, and drew up my first business plan.At that time, we even prepared multiple company names so that the registration could go through smoothly.I am a different kind of person. The more urgent the moment, the more exhausted the moment, and the more heavy-duty the stage is, the more my fighting spirit can be aroused.It's like carrying a load at home. The heavier the load, the faster I go, sometimes even trotting.

It's just a pity that I didn't negotiate with my friends, and the idea of ​​starting a business had to be put on hold for the time being.For a person who can't be idle, staying in his brother's house and the ward not far from the ward every day is really a test.In hindsight, I admire myself for being able to write a detailed business plan under such a background.

Grandpa has always been in good health, and it is precisely because of his good physical fitness that he recovers faster, and he can gradually speak.At this time, I like to let him tell me about the previous things.And grandpa also enjoyed it, and came with me one by one. Although I have heard some things many times, I still listened to him very seriously.If he hadn't been ill, our grandpa and grandson probably would have rarely had such communication opportunities.After graduation, I basically come back once a year, and I only stay for a week at most when I go home. I don’t have much time to communicate.

Grandpa still loves me very much. He keeps all the delicious food at home for me. He will give me food when I get home from school and holidays. When I am studying, I will often give me some money as pocket money.When grandpa is lying in the hospital bed at the moment, I also hope to take good care of him, so I take care of him carefully, pouring urine frequently, feeding him carefully, and talking with him, all for his early recovery.

Looking at the bed next door, they seldom talk except simple communication.In fact, when father and uncle took care of grandpa, it was roughly like this. Maybe the love between men is very restrained.It's just that I know that patients need to take care of their hearts in addition to medical treatment. It's not that everyone is unwilling to communicate, but that they don't know how to communicate.When it was my turn to take care of him, I would open the photos on the computer and show them to my grandpa, telling him the stories behind the photos. I hoped that he would not feel bored lying in bed every day.

In the process of taking care of grandpa, the most embarrassing thing is cleaning up the stool. It's not that it feels dirty, but that several patients live together and feel that there is no privacy.Of course, living together is also beneficial. Patients, patients and caregivers can chat with each other about daily routines to relieve boredom.Grandpa recovered quickly, and he can get up from the bed freely and eat by himself.The doctor said that all indicators have recovered well, and he can be discharged after staying for a period of time.Every time the ward rounds were made, the doctor in charge praised his grandfather for being in good health and recovering well.Hearing what the doctor said, Grandpa also smiled happily.And my brother is also a doctor in this hospital, so he can still get some special care in various aspects, which makes grandpa and family members feel at ease here, and this kind of peace of mind can also play a positive role in the treatment of the disease.

Since my grandfather was about to be discharged from the hospital, and there were many relatives taking care of him, I went back to Changsha by myself first.When I left, my heart was actually quite complicated. I lamented the impermanence of life and felt the importance of physical health.After returning, I started to pick up the habit of running again and continued to run.Although I also know that I may give up after a period of time, but at least do the present, and I am too lazy to think so much.

As a freelancer, when encountering emergencies with family members, having no money around me, and sometimes being really powerless, that feeling is particularly painful. Fortunately, we can learn from the pain and learn from it so that we can move forward better.This time when my grandfather was treating his illness, I had no money around me, and my life was tight. This made me feel the importance of making money even more.After returning home, I developed a job to help others metabolize articles. Each article costs 300 yuan, and I can write up to 8 articles a day. For a person who often codes, writing is not difficult.In addition, I am well versed in some routines of the article, so the speed is very fast. To put it bluntly, I hope to earn more money and buy more nutrition for my grandfather.

Because of lack of money, many people in society may let themselves go astray for a while, but once they go on some paths, there is no turning back.It's just that I still grasp a principle, that is, we don't do illegal things.Only by experiencing birth, old age, sickness and death in life can we understand the meaning of life better. The experience of my grandfather’s critical illness this time has made my thinking more mature. This is also the biggest harvest in life five years after graduation.