"Slag" is right

Wen Jianming went home.What he told Lu Yi was that He Wenchu ​​finally decided to divorce him, and he went home to prepare some procedures, although this was not a lie.

Zhao Que was in poor health some time ago, and her family often came to take care of her, so they discovered that she had an unusual relationship with He Wenchu.As a last resort, Zhao Que came out. Fortunately, her family accepted her and He Wenchu, which made He Wenchu ​​finally let go of his last worries, and also gave up his plan to treat Wen Jianming as the last straw. signed.

Of course, this is not the main reason why he hasn't appeared for a long time. Even he himself has a hard time explaining what he is avoiding.

After unblocking Na Nan, he would send a bunch of messages every day.At first, he apologized, and later he said that he had found a new job, and some other things, in Wen Jianming's view, were all trivial matters, and most of the time, he didn't even know what he was talking about.But no matter what he said, Wen Jianming didn't bother to reply.

Lu Yi took the initiative to call him occasionally, once or twice a week, without any specific business, just chatting casually.Wen Jianming called him more frequently, once every two or three days, but because he had to think carefully before dialing the phone number, it actually took up a lot of his thoughts...

"It's nothing, school is about to start, and I need to spend time preparing lessons." Wen Jianming held the mobile phone, watered the flowers on the balcony, and talked to Lu Yi, "What about you? Are you busy?"

……

"Then pay attention to your body. In terms of diet, stomach disease is a chronic disease that cannot be cured..."

"Sounds better than playing games at home... This kind of person with personality problems has a bad relationship with his parents... You don't need to substitute yourself as his guardian... No, I think you are a person who doesn't like trouble... …Uh-huh……"

Turning from the balcony to the study, Wen Jianming pinched the bait and threw it into the fish tank, which he raised recently.After returning home, he always felt that the house was a bit empty and lacked vitality.For the first time, I thought about keeping a pet, but in the end I chose the least troublesome fish.

"Lu Yi, I have a question I've been meaning to ask you."

The most eye-catching resident in the fish tank is the pure white Thai fighting fish. It drags its complicated tail and fins, like a bride in a wedding dress, slowly floats to the surface of the water, sucking in the floating feed one by one.

"Well, what's the problem?"

Wen Jianming clamped the phone between his face and shoulders, pulled a tissue to wipe his fingers that had squeezed the fish feed: "You were hospitalized last time...why?"

There was silence on the other end of the phone for a while, surprised by such an obvious question: "Don't you know that the gastric vein rupture caused by drinking..."

"I mean……"

Wen Jianming wanted to ask him why he drank, and whether it was really because he was sad about leaving.If this is the reason, why refuse his care and invitation?No, it's not important.The important thing is, does Lu Yi have the same feelings for him as he does?If that's the case, should they try to be together?He will be divorced soon, and Lu Yi doesn't have to have other worries.

As for Nan Nan, he can respect Lu Yi's ideas and give some financial assistance.School is about to start soon, you can arrange for him to live on campus, or rent another house for him.If his parents refuse to give him tuition and living expenses, Wen Jianming is also willing to sponsor him to graduate from university.Even if Lu Yi still can't let go of his strange concern for him, he can even find a way to find a job for Nan Nan after he graduates...

"What?" Lu Yi asked again after waiting for a while before hearing Wen Jianming's next words.

"...nothing, I mean...you don't drink..."

Wen Jianming couldn't figure it out by asking, he was not a sloppy person, he always spoke directly.But now, he couldn't ask, it seemed that the answer was too important, so important that he didn't dare to easily lift the last veil.

He remembered that when his father was ill, he went to the hospital with chest pains to cast shadows, and the result of the reexamination was a report that he typed up alone.When he got the paper from the automatic printer, he sat on the rest chair next to him for an hour before he finally got up the courage to turn the paper over...

"I didn't drink." Lu Yi chuckled, "I wouldn't be so careless."

"Ah That's good."

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"Teacher, what did he say?" Nan Nan asked eagerly, and put a peeled red grape into Lu Yi's mouth.

"School is about to start, he is preparing lessons, he must be very busy." Lu Yi collapsed on the sofa, threw his phone aside, pointed to his open mouth, and Nan stuffed him another one.

"Why don't you let him come back?"

"How do I get him back? He has his own job, his own life, his own will, and he doesn't listen to my orders."

Nan Nan put the fruit plate on the coffee table and said dejectedly, "If you let him come back, he will come back."

"Who do you think I am?"

"What if he finds someone else?"

"No way..." Lu Yi put the fruit plate back into Nan Nan's hand, lay down again, and motioned him to continue peeling, "This is how things are with feelings, so you can't force it. You are still young, learn to accept it slowly... "

Nan Nan placed the fruit plate on the coffee table again: "I don't accept..."

After speaking, he got up, ran to the balcony, and closed the sliding door.

Lu Yi brought the fruit plate over and peeled two of them by himself. When he found it was too troublesome, he chewed them together with the skin of the red grapes, and spat out the ones that couldn't be chewed.After eating a few, I found that it was not interesting, so I went to the refrigerator to get two cans of beer and went to the balcony.

Na Nan squatted in the corner of the balcony that was scorched by the scorching sun during the day, hugging her legs and burying her face in her knees.

"Crying?" Lu Yi put the beer can on Nan's head.

"No." Nan raised his head and reached out to take down the cold jar, and opened the ring.

Lu Yi lay on the iron railing next to him: "Can I ask, why are you so attached to Wen Jianming?"

Nan Nan bit the edge of the beer can: "It's not that there is no reason to like someone."

"That is to say, those who have no reason are usually sudden obsessions, which are very fanatical, but very short-lived. The situation where you can't let go of a person is that you have had deep contact with the other party and received deep emotional feedback. There are some irreplaceable things in between. But as far as I know, Wen Jianming has not given you any feedback."

Nan Nan didn't seem to want to answer this question. After being silent for a long time, he asked back: "Is this the case with you and Cheng Jinwen?... Deep contact, deep emotional feedback, irreplaceable..."

Lu Yi glanced at Nan Nan, wondering how he knew Cheng Jinwen. It stands to reason that Wen Jianming is not the kind of person who would publicize other people's private affairs, and it is even less likely that he would tell Nan Nan.

Nan Nan understood Lu Yi's surprise from his eyes, and got up and leaned against the railing next to Lu Yi.

"Every time you answer his call, you are in a bad mood." Nan Nan thoughtfully, "You talk to him...how should I put it, the voice sounds very happy, but the face is completely different. It looks like, the mood is worse afterwards, and then after a while, the frequency of getting drunk increases, so I guess..."

Lu Qiang took a step aside, and rarely reprimanded Nan Nan: "Don't look at my phone."

"I didn't watch it on purpose. I accidentally saw it when I called the teacher on your mobile phone. Because of your obviously bad mood, I was a little concerned..."

"You are not allowed to use my mobile phone to call Wen Jianming in the future. If you want to say anything, use your own mobile phone."

"..." Nan Nan laughed suddenly, "It's really too obvious, Brother Lu, you see, your mood will turn bad when you mention him."

"It's because you checked my phone privately."

"But I usually use your mobile phone, so you won't be angry." Nan Nan moved over, leaned against the railing, leaned back, and looked into Lu Yi's eyes with his back, "Is that person so important?"

Lu Yi glared at Nan, and stretched out his hand to pull him back: "Don't lean so close, be careful not to fall."

After standing still, Nan Nan put his hand on Lu Yi's shoulder: "Brother, I still don't understand...why are you so kind to me?"

Lu Yi smiled self-deprecatingly: "Let's raise a little boy."

"Really? But I won't sleep with you, and you won't force me."

"It just shows that I'm a good guy."

"Am I like him?"

"Who?"

"Cheng Jinwen."

Lu Yi glanced at Nan Nan carefully, then laughed: "My taste is not that bad..."

"...Brother, you are hitting people too hard, am I bad?"

"No, sorry, hahaha, you are very confident..."

"..."

Nan Nan entered the room angrily, and slammed the sliding glass door smoothly.

Lu Yi was still slowly sipping the warmed can of beer on the balcony, only then did he realize that the reason why he fell in love with Wen Jianming at first glance was because he looked like Cheng Jinwen when we first met.And the inability to face his feelings later was not because of Nan Nan, but because he was like Cheng Jinwen.

Lu Yi couldn't believe that Wen Jianming would always be by his side. In fact, Wen Jianming was always leaving.Lu Yi thought that a person like him, no matter whether it was this residence or their relationship, could pat his ass and leave at any time without attachment.Lu Yi can play with him every time, but when it comes to sincerity, Lu Yi will automatically back down.

But all the care and kindness towards Nan Nan is because Nan Nan is very much like himself—the obsession with a hopeless relationship, the bad relationship with his family, the loneliness, and even the boring, world-weary, and unmotivated life status... …

But there are some things that are different. Na Nan is braver than him, more courageous than him to fight for what he wants.Perhaps in the eyes of others, including Wen Jianming himself, Nan Nan's stalking is very annoying, but only Lu Yi knows that it is a life he did not choose.

Lu Yi often wonders, if he hadn't been so "sensible" to withdraw from Cheng Jinwen's pursuit of his dream, and he had tried as hard as Na Nan, no matter whether he succeeded or failed, then he would not be like this, always It circles in place, unable to get out.

He knew he wasn't having a good time, but there was nothing he could do, whether it was the tired and boring days or the beer in his hand, he couldn't change it.But he would hope that Nan Nan would live a better life. He cherished Nan Nan, just like these years, he loved himself, but he couldn't do anything for himself.