"Slag" is right

The weather is getting colder, and the sanatoriums in the suburbs are self-heating. Before it's time for the city to heat up, the nursing homes have long been used for the elderly who are afraid of the cold.

In the single room on the third floor, Mother Wen was wearing a turtleneck sweater and reading glasses, sitting in front of the window arranging flowers, which was her latest hobby.In the past few years since she moved to the nursing home, she has been single and free, and has developed a lot of hobbies for herself.

When the doorbell rang, she thought it was a staff member who came to clean up for her, and let her in without even raising her head.After the door opened, there was no sound of the vacuum cleaner for a long time, and she turned around and saw Wen Jianming taking off his coat.She took off her reading glasses and glanced at the calendar on the wall. It was only the end of the month, not the 1st.

Wen Jianming would take some time to take a look on the 1st and 15th of every month. After getting used to it for a long time, it became a kind of agreement, and he never messed up the time.According to his understanding, he is not a person who does whatever he wants, so his mother subconsciously asked, "Why are you here today?"

"Tomorrow and the weekend, I'm a bit busy, so I can't spare time." Wen Jianming hung his clothes on the hanger at the door, walked towards his mother, sat down beside her, and watched with great interest her half-planted flower basket, "In the future, the 1st and 15th may not come on time."

The old lady just nodded without asking why.Instead, Wen Jianming took the initiative and said, "I resigned from school and recently found a training job. I am much busier than before."

A good university professor actually resigned and went to do training with no guarantees. Anyone who heard this would think that Wen Jianming's brain was out of order, but his mother didn't say anything. He pays attention to his body.After speaking, he put on his reading glasses again, and continued to look after her flowers.

The idea of ​​Wen Jianming's resignation has been around for a long time, and he has been thinking about it for several months.Even Wen Jianming himself didn't know when it started. Whether it was the content of the work or the environment, he couldn't bear it.

And when people try their best to endure something, they often expose some emotional problems, such as not giving face to the leader, and directly choking with Director Wang of their Faculty of Arts during a meeting, and this happened more than once .He is enduring the environment, and the environment will also become enduring him. Originally, because of his exposed privacy, it was incompatible with this environment. In addition, he refused to swallow his anger, and all the malice of the environment immediately attacked him.

In the past, Wen Jianming would consider a lot and choose the safest path for his life.But this time, after he published a criticism of the conservative and discriminatory atmosphere in colleges and universities, he resigned directly.Probably the school also tolerated him to the limit, as soon as the resignation letter was handed in, it was approved immediately, for fear of anyone going back on their word.

He spent two days thinking about what he was going to do, but he couldn't really come up with a reason.He could have rested for a while, but the more he is free, the more he likes to think wildly, thinking about Lu Yi, thinking about the relationship between him, Lu and Nan Nan.

Wen Jianming knew that leaving this time was not what he wanted, but Lu Yi hoped that he would do so.Lu Yi didn't say anything, but he hoped that Wen Jianming would not get involved between him and Nan Nan.Lu Yi liked Na Nan to the point where he wanted to monopolize him.I don't know if he realizes it himself, but Wen Jianming, who is always paying attention to him, sees every bit of change in this feeling, and because this feeling is for other people, he can see it more clearly .

Wen Jianming understood Lu Yi's mood very well, just like he wanted to monopolize Lu Yi and Na Nan to go away.But he couldn't make Nan go away, so he was forced to quit.

In order not to let himself think about these meaningless things, and remembering that it was interesting for Nan Nan to teach those children, he also had the idea of ​​teaching children.But he is not sure about this, so first go to a training institution to try to get in touch with children. If it is really interesting, he plans to become a primary school Chinese teacher in the future.

One thing that is good about the training institution, at least for him right now, is that it is busy.You can take half a day off on weekdays, but you are usually busy until night on weekends, and you are almost exhausted when you get home, so you don’t have time to think too much.

A basket of flowers was placed, and Mother Wen put the flower basket aside casually, as if it was not a work made by herself.She cleared the things on the table again, brought a plate of fruit, and asked Wen Jianming to pick what he liked.

Wen Jianming symbolically took a winter jujube from the fruit basket, but he just squeezed it in his hand and didn't feed it into his mouth.

He squeezed the dark red jujube until warm, and then said: "He Wenchu ​​and I are divorced."

Hearing this, the old lady glanced at Wen Jianming and sighed, not knowing whether it meant relaxation or regret.

"Still left."

"Well, leave. It's good for us."

Originally, the divorce was mentioned in Xia Tian, ​​but Zhao Que's health has not been very good, and He Wenchu ​​suffered from another illness in the middle, and now the divorce procedure is much more troublesome. really leave.When Wen Jianming got the divorce certificate, he laughed rather self-deprecatingly for a while, laughing at himself, a middle-aged divorced man who was falling in love.

"Actually, I'm gay." Now that it's all said here, Wen Jianming simply said it all, "He Wenchu ​​is also, we are just married in order to cope with our respective families."

He observed his mother's expression, which was similar to what he expected, and his mother did not get angry and blame him for it.Speaking of it, Wen Jianming also had a hard time imagining his mother's angry appearance, as if she never got angry, she was like this all her life, cold and indifferent.Especially after his father died, he became more and more indifferent.

His mother glanced at him, a penetrating gaze, and then she moved her lips and said, "I know."

Wen Jianming has always been close to his father, but it will always be his mother who knows him better, probably because they are more alike.

"You still blame me, you lied to him at the beginning."

"It's not strange, at least he left without a heart attack."

Wen Jianming's father is a warm and traditional man. When he got cancer, he couldn't let him down, but he regretted that he couldn't see Wen Jianming get married.Maybe when people are good, they can be persuaded that marriage is a matter of fate, but at the end of life, people often become paranoid and unreasonable.Compared with his mother, Wen Jianming's love from his family mainly comes from his father, and he also loves his father very much. This deep feeling often becomes a shackle in the end, locking Wen Jianming's true self.

Now that his father has passed away for several years, it is also the first time for him to remove all disguises in front of his family and reveal his true self.Although the rest of the family didn't care much about it.

"Jianming, you don't have to come every month in the future, come when you want to, and live your own life well."

Mother also took off the shackles of his responsibility, and she didn't need him to do so.

On the way home, Wen Jianming saw a large chain supermarket by the side of the road, so he stopped the car, which was more convenient than driving to the supermarket after a while.This supermarket is bigger than the one near his home, and has more complete categories.Wen Jianming strolled slowly in this unfamiliar supermarket with his shopping cart, and bought some daily necessities and food.

It will be more difficult to plan for eating alone, and a little more will be wasted.He looked at the vegetables and meat in the fresh section with his eyes, and calculated the quantity to buy in his mind.

He didn't expect to run into Su Rui again on the way to check out.Next to Su Rui was a young boy, tall and dark.Su Rui pushed the shopping cart, and the boy moved two dozen beers into the shopping cart.

Just when Wen Jianming was hesitating to say hello or just avoid it, Su Rui saw him and took the initiative to say hello to him.

Wen Jianming had no choice but to push the cart over: "Long time no see, what a coincidence."

Su Rui looked quite relaxed: "My house is near here, why are you here?"

"I was driving by and stopped by to do some shopping."

Su Rui glanced at Wen Jianming's shopping cart and nodded.

The two were speechless for a while, Wen Jianming planned to leave.He and Su Rui hadn't contacted each other since they parted in the middle of their trip. If he hadn't met someone today, Wen Jianming would have almost forgotten him.

"I'll pay first." Wen Jianming said.

"Let's have dinner together, it's a rare coincidence."

Having seen and heard Jianming hesitated, Su Rui asked again: "Is there still something to be busy?"

Wen Jianming glanced at his shopping cart, obviously he didn't seem to be busy.

"Let's go then."

Coming out of the supermarket, Wen Jianming put his things in his car, only to find that Su Rui was alone, and the boy didn't follow him.

Su Rui smiled: "There is a good Yunnan restaurant nearby, take your car, I asked him to drive mine back."

"He..." Wen Jianming wanted to ask him if he didn't mind Su Rui eating alone with him, but in the end he didn't ask, as if he had a ghost in his heart, "You look very young, and you're still in school?"

"Graduating in June next year, I have applied for a foreign school. They say they have won the full scholarship, but the living expenses for a few years have not been settled..." Su Rui smiled at Wen Jianming as he spoke, "He will accompany me until he graduates, I'll pay for your living expenses, so you don't mind."

After eating, the two chatted about other things, their respective jobs, Wen Jianming and He Wenchu ​​divorced, and Su Rui planned to have a test-tube baby with his surrogate wife.Purely as friends, the two got along pretty well.

At the end of the meal, Su Rui suddenly said: "How is your sick friend?"

Wen Jianming didn't know why he suddenly mentioned Lu Yi, but he just put it perfunctorily: "He has a bad stomach, he also likes to drink, and then he was admitted to the hospital again."

"You still have to take care of your body. You'll know it's uncomfortable when you're two years old." Su Rui poured a cup of tea for Wen Jianming with a kettle, "I was quite angry when you left me alone in Yunnan before, but somehow you won't be able to come back. I'm angry, and I want to contact you when I'm not angry, but I don't know how you and your 'friend' are getting along, so I haven't contacted you. This period of time is just better, I didn't expect to meet you when I went to the supermarket .”

Su Rui smiled bitterly: "What kind of luck are you talking about..."

Wen Jianming didn't know why he suddenly mentioned looking for someone, and he didn't know how to answer the words, he just lowered his eyelids.

"Do you have anything to say with your 'friend'?"

Wen Jianming closed his eyes, then shook his head.

Su Rui looked at him with burning eyes: "What about us, do we have a second chance?"

Wen Jianming looked up at Su Rui, but still shook his head.

Su Rui smiled again: "Is there really no chance at all, even if the other party rejects you?"

Wen Jianming didn't speak.

"What about finishing what you didn't finish that night? You owe me."

Wen Jianming was silent for a moment: "...Sorry."

He hasn't had an appointment for a long time, and he has no interest in others or in other bodies. It seems that after the mind and emotions are no longer numb, the body becomes numb instead.