effective gentle

The author has something to say: always resist any form of school violence.

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Lin Zhishen helped him finish blowing his head, looked at him, and suddenly smiled and said, "You were so fierce when you bit me for Bai Xun before. I really didn't expect that one day our relationship would become what it is now."

"Oh, I wanted to kiss you forcefully at that time." Rong Xiao said lightly.

Lin Zhishen was taken aback, "No wonder your eyes were dark and dark at that time, I was so scared when I saw it, so you wanted to kiss me forcibly?!"

Rong Xiao put his arm on his shoulder and said provocatively: "Brother, if I didn't let you, do you think you would be 1?"

"Are you thinking of counterattacking now?

……

After taking a bath for the second time, Rong Xiao lay in Lin Zhishen's arms and played with his mobile phone.

Lin Zhishen stroked his hair and asked, "Xiaoxiao, do you have any English words that you find meaningful or particularly favorite?"

"what?"

"Just tell me."

"deep."

Lin Zhishen was a little surprised, but felt that the answer was reasonable, so he smiled and said, "Okay baby, I understand."

Rong Xiao checked the messages on his phone before going to bed.

A girl in the same class commented on his circle of friends: "Lin Zhishen can also write calligraphy?! What a fairy boyfriend. Seeing you guys dating is like being hit hard."

The monitor of their class said: "I don't know who to be jealous of at the moment."

Lin Zhishen returned to the dormitory on the evening of 521.

He was alone in the dormitory, he remembered what Rong Xiao said yesterday, so he looked for the letter on the bookshelf.

The letter was thick and long, purely handwritten.

Rong Xiao's cursive handwriting is very good, chic and not messy, it is the font he saw on the post-it note on the bluetooth headset shell.

Rong Xiao wanted to hand over the past to him, so he started to write about his junior high school events, and continued to write about them before dating, in great detail.

He went to Yunchu because his uncle and aunt taught there, and the experience in Yunchu was a nightmare for him.

The atmosphere in their class was very bad, there were many bad boys, and a certain student in the top ten of the grade smoked, fought and drank.

Because it is a nine-year compulsory education, the school will almost never expel a student, unless the person's behavior is extremely bad, and it is generally criticized and punished.

I don't know why this happened, and the teachers who have a headache can't figure it out. There has never been a class of Yunchu students like this.

He clearly remembered all the details of being bullied.

"I was a class committee member at the time, and I offended several people, so my things don't belong to me. Someone will take them away at any time, and they may also be thrown from the fifth floor."

"Textbooks and homework books were graffitied or hidden. Books that were treasured had their pages ripped off."

"They said that my serious study was not pleasing to the eye, and they united to isolate me. They often laughed at me for looking like a girl and said some harsh words."

"Do you remember the people who forced me to wear a cheongsam? They are all friends with these people."

There is still a lot of content in the back, and a lot of it is not physical abuse, but mental suppression.

Rong Xiao mentioned that he was not the only one who was bullied, but also many innocent students. They did nothing wrong, but they were bullied.

"Lin Zhishen, for a while, I have been thinking about whether I did something wrong. If I did nothing wrong, why would others hurt me? Or is it because I am too cowardly and sensitive that I care about such small things. Some students In such an environment, you can still concentrate on your studies and take care of yourself.”

He mentioned his illness.

"I don't know when, my legs are as heavy as lead, and it is very difficult to go upstairs. I am very unhappy every day, I am not interested in anything, and I don't want to eat. My head teacher will only blame me for why I study. Regressed, she said I was looking for an excuse."

"I blamed myself so much that I often wanted to hurt myself (sorry, did I scare you when I said this). After being diagnosed with major depression, I understood why I was like this, but my family and relatives They still don’t understand me, and they think that this disease is probably my imagination.”

"When I was in the first year of high school, I often felt that I was too happy or too sad. I didn't know what was wrong with me, I just knew that it was exhausting my energy and I was very tired. I went to the hospital and the doctor said that I had double I have a relationship disorder, but my parents still don't pay attention to it, so I take medicine from time to time and stop taking medicine."

"During the holidays, I often stay in the piano room, relieve loneliness through music, or vent my emotions in it, and it has been like this for many years."

"Sometimes I really want to disappear in this world, no one understands me at all, and no one loves me."

A drop of tear fell on the letter paper, and the handwriting blurred.Lin Zhishen reached out to wipe it off, but found that these marks were as indelible as the scars on Rong Xiao's body.

Lin Zhishen read this letter twice. After meeting him, apart from getting sick and treating illnesses, Rong Xiao had two main things to do, one was to study, and the other was to want to see him.

A lot of content is about him.

Secret love is very sour, and he has to hide all his feelings and pretend he doesn't care when he is staying together.As Rong Xiao said, he could only look at him from a distance.

That kind of love and longing can almost be passed on to Lin Zhishen through paper.

"Before I was with you, I found that you like to smile when you are familiar with people, you are always optimistic and sunny, and you are willing to help others, but you will not show your vulnerable side to others. You and I are two completely different types people."

"Because of you, I know a lot of people, Pei Ming, Bai Xun, Qingqing, uncles and aunts, and some people whose faces I remember but whose names don't match. They are all very kind to me, and everyone is very gentle."

"The days with you are the happiest time in my 20 years. I am so self-willed, but you always accommodate me and tolerate me, never lose my temper with me, and never use cold violence against me. Sometimes I Playing with one's temper is just acting like a baby, you should know."

"You told me you wanted to give me your all, and so did I, but I have nothing to give you, only the experience that made me shudder when I recalled it-not only the school violence itself, but also A series of impacts of school violence on me."

Lin Zhishen thought, Rong Xiao was right, the consequences of that school violence were far more serious than the school violence itself.

Most of the perpetrators are living a good life so far, but the victims have been psychologically distorted, have their own guilt thoughts, and cannot escape the negative influence.

"You must not know that when I was lying on the bed at night, surrounded by those memories and feeling insecure, I would subconsciously say your name, and after I finished, I felt very lost. It has been like this for six years."

"Brother Shen, when I wrote this, my mood has fluctuated, and my hands are shaking very badly, so the writing may not look good. If you want to know anything else, you can ask me directly in the future."

"I love you."

When Rong Xiao came back, he saw Lin Zhishen looking down at the letter, and when he heard the movement, he turned his face away.

Rong Xiao put her schoolbag on her stool, went to look at him, but found that his eye sockets were already wet.

"why are you crying?"

"Don't talk nonsense, I didn't cry."

Rong Xiao amusedly took a few napkins from his desk and wiped them for him, but Lin Zhishen hugged him around the waist.

Lin Zhishen leaned his head on him, "Why don't you feel sorry for yourself at all, it's not your fault at all."

Rong Xiao knew that he just didn't want to see him cry.

He choked up and said, "I feel so sorry."

"I'm so distressed." He repeated, with a strong crying voice, "I can't even imagine how you would go through these things. I regret that I didn't insist on looking for you at that time."

"I am very lucky to have met you. Now I feel that the greatest gift from God to me is to let me have you."

"You're crazy." Lin Zhi took a deep breath, looked at him, and said pitifully and domineeringly, "Why are you thanking God, you should thank me."

Lin Zhishen lowered his head, stretched out his hand and took out a few pieces of paper to wipe his eyes.

Rong Xiao deliberately bent down to look at him, Lin Zhishen turned his head away, he followed, and said coquettishly, "Let me see. I've never seen you cry before."

"After the age of three, my mother never saw me cry."

Tears wet the long eyelashes, and after crying, Lin Zhishen's eyes became darker and brighter.

He was silent for a long time, propped his arms on his legs, lowered his head, and his shoulders trembled slightly.Rong Xiao grabbed his shoulders and asked softly, "What's wrong?"

"I'm sorry, I can't slow down, it's really too heavy. A sick person has spent five years in solitude. He would rather hide and vent his emotions than affect anyone. Only in the piano room can he dare to act like a sick person." Just as hysterical, walk out of that door and continue pretending to be a normal good student."

Lin Zhishen couldn't stop crying, "It's too heavy, how did you survive those days and nights? Why doesn't anyone care about you? Why does everyone ask you to be like a normal person?"

Rong Xiao didn't know how to comfort him, so she could only hug him tightly, "Because I still want to see you. Do you know what I was thinking when I was asking for a lottery in Chengshan?"

"I was thinking, let me have Lin Zhishen, I am willing to pay any price."

Lin Zhishen and Rong Xiao hardly had the opportunity to do group homework together, because they were in different classes, and the teacher generally required them to be grouped into groups for easy scoring.But Rong Xiao has always wanted to cooperate with Lin Zhishen once.

The English class of University A is divided into ABC classes, and many majors are taught together.Both Lin Zhishen and Rong Xiao are in Class A, and for the final homework of this semester, the teacher said to make a short video in English, with a theme of their own choice, in groups of four to five.

The teacher gave enough time and arranged it in early June.

Someone said: "I want to be in the same group as Rong Xiao."

The companion immediately said: "Don't go, Rong Xiao is very strict, and he should already have teammates, he must be on the same team as Lin Zhishen."

The man was right.

Rong Xiao, Lin Zhishen, Bai Xun and Meng Yuan formed a group.They internally selected Rong Xiao as the team leader, mainly because no one wanted to be the team leader, and Rong Xiao was the most reliable.

Rong Xiao discussed with them during class break: "Bai Xun wrote the screenplay, Lin Zhishen starred, Meng Yuan filmed, and I edited. Is there any problem?"

The three said, "No problem."

Rong Xiao said: "Our goal is to get a high score. Is there any problem?"

The three said, "No problem."

So happy to decide.

They discussed the subject, but nothing came of it in such a short time.

After class, when they were about to leave, Bai Xun approached the podium and asked the teacher, "Teacher, can I choose the theme of secret love?"

The teacher pushed down his glasses and said, "Yes, as long as you can do well."

Rong Xiao had a bad premonition, so he asked him after leaving the classroom: "You don't plan to write a story about Lin Zhishen and me, do you?"

"Of course. How can we not use such good resources of our group."

Rong Xiao was speechless.

Rong Xiao's opinion is to finish the video as early as possible, not to leave it until the end, which will affect the final exam review.Everyone is fine.

Three days later, Bai Xun handed in the script, which was very efficient.

After reading it, Rong Xiao asked Bai Xun to revise the script twice, pointing out some details and grammatical errors.

The story is a clichéd secret love, but contrary to the reality, it was Lin Zhishen who had a crush on him.

Rong Xiao said to Bai Xun on WeChat: "It's better not to have a straight crush ending, let's do a bit of a reversal."

"Understood!" Bai Xun sent a cute bunny emoji, "I promise to complete the task."

After the script was confirmed, they completed the group assignment as quickly as possible and sent it to the teacher.