madness

Swallow's eyes widened, and a string of teardrops ran across his cheeks unconsciously. The tears fell on his collar, and his teeth trembled, making the back molars rattle.

She was frightened to the extreme, her brain was already dizzy, even if someone stretched out her hand, she screamed in fright, her eyes terrified.

"Snapped."

Su Zhiyun's hand was knocked down by her, and the back of his hand felt a hot pain, and soon it turned red like dense eczema. He looked down at his red left hand on the back of his hand.

Silently changed to the right hand.

But Yanzi ignored Su Zhiyun and didn't even look at him.

There were many tears in her eyes, as if she had just woken up from a dream, she scrambled and ran over, covered Wen Zeyu's bloody neck with trembling hands, and shouted as if she had collapsed: "What the hell are you doing?" What are you doing, call the police and call 120!"

"He's beyond help."

Gu Zehuan was on the side, speaking neither salty nor bland.

"How do you know that you have never been saved!" Yanzi's voice was choked with sobs, and his expression was in a trance, as if he really knew them for the first time: "This is a human life, how can you two... How can it be possible."

"How can you be so familiar with it?"

She couldn't speak anymore, guilt, fear, and panic filled her simple and clear world.

She doesn't understand those big principles, and she doesn't understand many things.

Therefore, Gu Zehuan's indifference cannot be understood.

It was dusk, and the villa was quiet and silent. It was obviously the hottest summer season, and the cicadas were singing loudly, but she felt a creepy chill.

Why didn't Gu Zehuan answer her?Not to refute her?

The other party's face was half-hidden in the setting sun with tears in her eyes, and she almost thought that she must have misread it, otherwise, the scorching light leaping in there seemed to be an excited and high-spirited flame.

She looked at Su Zhiyun blankly again, but Su Zhiyun didn't look at her, and didn't answer her doubts.

It seemed that this scene had been repeated many times in front of him, and he had already chewed it through, and even the remaining dregs were tasteless.

Swallow felt even colder, and felt the chills in his teeth, making his hair stand on end.

She realized that for the two of them, this was just an old, old drama on the screen, and even lost interest because there was nothing new-the fanatical religious admirer died of suicide, and he His ashes fluttered in the tired and yellowing sunset, while the rest of the believers held the gilded shrine in their hands, crowed and the moon fell, and were enshrined by the look of Aphrodite, who was loved by all, and turned a deaf ear to it.

……

The atmosphere in the hospital was cold, and the smell of disinfectant was strong. Yanzi came out after a short stay. She was dizzy and dizzy, and followed the police to the police station to make a statement.

While taking notes, I was trembling all over, and the warm water in my mouth could not stop the chill between my upper lips and teeth.

She left the police station in a daze, and saw a tall figure standing in the corner, with her hair tied up, standing under the colorful and changing neon lights, staring at the blue-clothed boy running past the dirty alley in a daze.

She couldn't face Su Zhiyun, seeing that figure would only feel fear.

It seemed that the Su Zhiyun I knew before was just my complete, wishful thinking.

However, Su Zhiyun had already seen her, and he walked over here.

When he entered, the swallow couldn't help but retreat, step by step, until there was no way to retreat, and it stepped on an overturned soda can and made a sound.

"Crack."

Su Zhiyun stopped and looked at her.

Yanzi didn't know why her throat was astringent, she was so dry, she lowered her head, pretending nothing happened, but her voice trembled: "It's too close, I feel uncomfortable, can you go over?"

She didn't dare to raise her head, only heard the sound of footsteps and took two steps back, she breathed a sigh of relief, feeling complicated.

"Are you afraid of me?"

These words once again made Yanzi's heart rise to her throat, and she almost didn't dare to look into Su Zhiyun's eyes, and it took a long time before she spoke out with difficulty.

"I... I just can't understand you." She raised her head and spoke incoherently: "I'm really scared... Actually, I don't want to be afraid of you... But I can't, and I can't help it..."

"Can you understand... I was really scared and scared when you looked like that at the time."

She was silent for a long time.

"I don't think we are the same way." Yanzi's voice became smaller and smaller, muttering to himself: "How could someone be excited because a living person died in front of him... How could someone see the death of someone who was with him day and night? So indifferent."

"It's so weird."

The girl's voice was already crying.

"It's really weird, I think you are all crazy, or am I the one who is abnormal?"

"Or indifference and indifference is normal. Am I making too much fuss?"

Surrounded by noise, adjacent to the busy city, it is also lively at midnight, the snack street is brightly lit, crowded with people, and the trembling body of the girl is also vivid. In the cramped and dark corner, she seems to be melting into the night.

Su Zhiyun stood for a long time, but still did not extend his hand.

"I want to leave for a while, anywhere."

Swallow said this at last.

She left just like that, flew away, skimming over many rocky peaks, five streets and eight alleys.

Never return.

……

"Fishing for goldfish, don't miss it when you pass by, ten yuan three times!"

In the small pool surrounded by dark blue inflatable cushions, countless goldfish and men and women of different ages are trapped in it. Goldfish flick their tail fins, and men and women laugh and laugh.

Seeing Su Zhiyun beside him, the middle-aged man with a pocket on his back, with a yellowish brown face, leaned forward with a flattering smile to solicit customers: "Handsome boy, do you want to come and play?"

Seeing that the young man paid a hundred bills out of his pocket, he couldn't help laughing until he couldn't see his eyes.

Su Zhiyun also took off his shoes and socks with the others, and bent down to catch fish with bare feet, but unfortunately the net bag was made of paper, soaked in water and soaked, and there were so many people around, you bumped me, I bumped you one time.

Even if it was hard to catch the fish, it would still make people fly.

The water in the air cushion was cool, but not clean, and a damp fishy smell splashed onto Su Zhiyun's cheeks.

"Snap".

"啪" is another sound.

Su Zhiyun looked up and found that it was a fat and round child with mung bean eyes and a flat nose. He was about eight or nine years old. He stepped on the water in front of Su Zhiyun so loudly that the fish ran away in shock.

He ignored the child, and turned around to touch the fish with his back on his back.

The child followed suit and stepped on the water in front of him.

Su Zhiyun continued to ignore him.

The kid got bored, and went to provoke another half-grown boy, repeating the same trick. The boy looked about fourteen or fifteen years old, wearing a blue and white school uniform, standing alone in the pool with his trousers on his legs.

The child stepped on it hard, and all the fish scattered away in shock. The boy jumped into the air and splashed water on his face.

"whee."

The fat boy laughed, and stretched out his fleshless foot to touch the water, brushing the boy's cheek several times with his toes.

Finally, some anger appeared on the boy's face, he grabbed the child's feet and pulled, the fat child fell headfirst into the pool, choked on water, and burst into tears.

The mother of the fat child ran out immediately—she was watching with a smile at first, but when she saw something was wrong, she immediately plunged into the pond, and while she was catching her precious son back like a life-saving straw, she was still afraid. The boy ran away, clutching the other party's sleeve, weeping and cursing.

"You little bastard with parents but no mother, how old is my baby, and can withstand a few falls from you!"

"Hey, ma'am, the police are here."

Someone speaks.

The fat sister-in-law was stunned, and looked back subconsciously, and in such a short interval, the boy in her hand escaped non-stop like a fish slipping out of her fingers.

Running away with him was a boy in the same blue and white school uniform. They shuttled through the turbulent crowd, met under the neon lights, and merged side by side into the night street full of pedestrians, like fish returning to the ocean, fleeting.

They walked so unexpectedly and frankly.

The fat lady realized that the police were the young accomplices covering him just now, and she became even more angry, but the young man slipped away so fast, she had to grab the unlucky stall owner with a grim face, relying on her own fleshy fat bush , aggressively begging for an explanation.

Su Zhiyun squatted in the air cushion pool and didn't stand up. Most of the people around him withdrew from the pool after the farce just now, leaving him alone in it without winking.

The surroundings were quiet for a moment, and it was dark in front of his eyes, as if someone was standing in front of him——Su Zhiyun raised his head and saw a face in the dim light, which was very familiar.

He squatted in it, like a large dog soaked in rain, dirty and dirty.

Gu Zehuan didn't speak.

Su Zhiyun looked at him from bottom to top, spread out his palms, and showed Gu Zehuan the goldfish that was trampled to pieces by the teenager.

"died."

he said calmly.

Afterwards, Su Zhiyun was taken to a side night market to buy clothes. His shirt was soaked and smelled like fish. When the boy ran over just now, the pool water splashed and wet his loose trouser legs, even his trousers were not spared.

The boss enthusiastically helped him pick out the clothes, while crazily advocating that his clothes were made of real materials, and he only earned a dozen or so hard-earned money, while accepting cash that was two or three times higher than the purchase price without blushing. .

Su Zhiyun didn't know how to haggle, and he would give as much as he asked. He got into the simple changing room surrounded by a bag of pink HelloKitty curtains, took off his wet clothes, got naked, and changed his clothes.

The styles of clothes in this small shop of less than ten square meters are not trendy, and the patterns are also fancy. Fortunately, Su Zhiyun has wide shoulders and narrow waist, good proportions, and is tall, so he is not shabby.

The man shopping at the night market glanced at Su Zhiyun, and said to the boss, "I want the same one as him."

The boss was very happy, and praised Su Zhiyun several times.

Noisy and noisy, crowded.

Su Zhiyun was walking on the street that was lit up all night, when the night sky suddenly burst into light with a "bang", the fireworks scattered, and the stars drifted away, causing the crowd to exclaim.

In a trance, everything seems to be at a standstill, and there is a huge force carrying the rumbling train to pull the long track back many years ago.

There is a fluorescent sign on the street at the door, which says ear piercing and nails, tattoos, and eyelash planting in big characters. The lights are just on, as always.

Su Zhiyun walked straight over to it. It was a cramped and narrow store, where the sun was not visible inside. Only the owner of the store was sitting behind the glass cabinet, with his mobile phone and cigarettes dimly lit.

"Can tongue nails be used here?"

The boss said: "If you give me money, you can hit anything. Shall I hit it now? Are you sure it's a tongue nail?"

"Tongue nailing."

"Ear piercing."

Two completely different voices sounded.

The store owner frowned. He had a broken eyebrow, and when he pressed it down slightly, he was very aggressive.

"What the hell?"

"Ear piercing."

Gu Zehuan said, he lit a cigarette, his slender and fair fingers gleamed scarlet, and his tone was calm.

"Tongue nailing is too unorthodox for your age and status."

Su Zhiyun was unwilling and said nothing.

Gu Zehuan didn't shrink back either, he smoked slowly and calmly, as if he was sure that he would win.

Until the smoke was burnt out, there was only a short stubble left, and there was still a stalemate. Finally, the shop owner knocked on the table vigorously, and said in an impatient tone, "What are you hitting? I think this little brother is right. Tongue nailing is basically the work of those who are half-sized, why do you have to go through this muddy water, when the time comes, the boss of the company may not know what to think of you."

"Piercing your ears is troublesome."

Gu Zehuan repeated.

Su Zhiyun walked out of the store, with two shiny silver needles on his ears. He lit the cigarette and took a puff. The green railing propped up his arms, and not far away was the stinky sewer.

"I really want to go back." He said without thinking, his upturned face was as devout as a wish, and half of the moon was reflected in his eyes: "I want to go back to a long, long time ago."

"Back to not knowing you, or not fully knowing you."

"You hate me now?"

Gu Zehuan asked.

"No." Su Zhiyun's voice was very soft, thinking of the blue-clothed boy running past him, he paused, and then said: "I just want to go back."

"That's all."

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