madness

Su Zhiyun took the diary and walked back into the room.

The girl still had lingering fears, she pulled the quilt up a bit, gripped it tightly in her hands and complained, "Why didn't your brother come into your room without knocking?"

It took Su Tianlin a while to come back to his senses, and he sneered.

"Don't worry about him, he's just crazy and has a problem with his brain."

The girl picked up the clothes on the ground and put them on. Su Zhiyun was in a good mood until she was in a good mood. Su Tianlin caught a glimpse of her slender waist and pinched her thigh exposed under the skirt. .

Smooth and plump, creamy and white.

The girl glared at him, patted his hand away, and took out foundation and lipstick from her bag to touch up her makeup. She pursed her lips and blurred the corners with her fingertips: "Your brother has been like this since he was a child?"

Su Tianlin didn't know what he thought of, and said "um" casually.

"He's always been like that, weird."

"But your brother has such long bangs, doesn't the teacher say anything about him?"

"Nobody can stop him."

Su Tianlin's eyes flickered slightly when he thought of what was written in the diary.

"I don't know who is so unlucky to be liked by him."

Su Zhiyun returned to the room alone, and then opened the diary.

He didn't write much in his diary, most of it was talking to himself, and it wasn't long.

April 1

bad mood.

April 1

bad mood.

April 1

bad mood.

April 1

bad mood.

This sentence did not change until February 2.

April 2

On a sunny day, I picked up a cherry.

Red cherries, sweet cherries.

The sun was shining brightly, Su Zhiyun escaped from the classroom during lunch break, and hid alone in the stands beside the playground.

Behind the stand is a crabapple tree, with luxuriant branches and leaves, stretching out through the white railing, casting a thick shade.

Su Zhiyun looked at the sky through the layers of tree branches. It was blue and divided into fragments. The sun was too hot and shining, as if it was shining brightly deliberately to attract everyone's attention.

He could feel warmth in the place where he was covered by the sun, and then began to grow tiny bumps, which slowly crawled all over his body.

Su Zhiyun heard voices coming from the stadium behind the stands.

getting closer.

getting closer.

Then the sound suddenly disappeared, and everything was silent except for the rustling of leaves.

Su Zhiyun followed a bird jumping among the branches and looked back.

He saw a girl standing on tiptoe under the crabapple tree kissing a boy.

The boy took a few steps back.

The girl's bright lips melted in the kiss, Gu Zehuan pushed her away, and Su Zhiyun could clearly see the sticky traces between the lips and teeth of the two.

Under the sunlight, Gu Zehuan's lips were bitten so that the edges were slightly swollen, turning into a rich red, like rotten cherries.

He seemed to have noticed Su Zhiyun's gaze, and raised his head to look here.

Begonia flowers crumbled into his lips, eyes, and gaze.

Su Zhiyun heard a huge roar coming from his ears, and his tiny figure gradually disintegrated in the grotesque scene.

Gu Zehuan recognized Su Zhiyun.

Su Zhiyun stood up, took a few steps back, and fled.

That night, Su Zhiyun dreamed that Gu Zehuan was eating a cherry under a crabapple tree. He raised his head slightly, hooked the cherry with the tip of his tongue, and then gently sucked it, and crushed it in his mouth.

The sweet and slippery pulp was passed into Su Zhiyun's mouth, and he could smell the crazy, intoxicating and inextricable fragrance from Gu Zehuan's collar.

Black eyelashes, a little bit of begonia red in his eyes, his lips are a little swollen from being bitten by himself.

The first thing Su Zhiyun did when he woke up the next day was to wash his pants in the toilet.

He recalled Gu Zehuan's appearance in the dream, and felt dizzy, his ears were red, and his whole body was hot.

I may be sick.

Su Tianlin downstairs yelled Su Zhiyun's name several times at the entrance, but when he didn't hear a response, he frowned, picked up his schoolbag and walked out.

The driver asked: "Where's the young master? Why don't you wait for him to go with you?"

Su Tianlin opened the car door, threw his schoolbag in, and said without looking up, "He said he would take the bus today."

The driver still wanted to say something, so he quietly glanced at Su Tianlin's face, swallowed the words silently, and drove away.

Su Zhiyun opened the diary and saw a crabapple flower in the middle of the page on February 2. The crabapple flower had dried up and was still very well preserved. He relaxed slightly, then closed the diary and put it in the in the locked drawer in the lower right corner.

Usually Su Zhiyun would remember to lock the door before leaving home, but this morning he got up a little anxious for school and was negligent for a while, but Su Tianlin discovered it.

Su Tianlin has always disliked Su Zhiyun, he would deliberately target Su Zhiyun and do some things to antagonize him.

Li Yanjiao knew that Su Zhiyun had looked for her.

At that time, she was playing mahjong, without giving her a look, she was all focused on the cards in her hand, and said casually: "Your brother likes you, and he deliberately played tricks on you."

Su Tianlin stopped Su Zhiyun who was about to go out.

"Do you know why it's useless for you to complain? Because she doesn't like you."

"People like you, no one will like you."

Little Su Zhiyun grabbed his palm, he looked like a wounded little wolf cub, trying to keep calm, but anger and gloom leaked from the corners of his eyes and brows.

"I don't need anyone to like me."

Su Tianlin seemed to be able to see through his mind, showing a slightly half-smile expression.

Xiao Su Zhiyun ran away under the gaze of the other party.

Su Zhiyun thought about Su Tianlin, and his mood became bad. He decided not to do his homework, and climbed back to bed and fell asleep hugging the pillow.

In the middle of the night, Su Zhiyun had a splitting headache, his throat felt like it had been burned by smoke, and he was extremely thirsty, but he didn't have any strength in his body, so he fell asleep again in a daze.

The next day Su Zhiyun touched his forehead, it was hot, probably because he caught a cold from the rain yesterday.

Aunt Wang knocked on the door outside for a long time but did not hear any sound from inside.

Just happened to see Su Tianlin, so Aunt Wang asked, "Eldest Young Master, have you seen Young Master?"

Su Tianlin buttoned up his school uniform shirt, glanced at the room with the closed door, and looked away.

"I didn't see it, who knows what that kid is thinking, maybe he is in a bad mood, he should go to school first."

Su Zhiyun never allowed anyone to enter his room, he even changed the lock on the door himself, and only he had the key.

Aunt Wang knocked on the door a few more times, but found that there was no response from inside, so she came down by herself again.

Su Zhiyun was lying on the bed, his stomach ached from hunger, and his mind was still buzzing.

He supported the cabinet to stand up, but his legs became weak again, and he fell all of a sudden and fell on the foot of the cabinet. He was dizzy and didn't get up for a long time.

Following his upward gaze, Su Zhiyun saw two porcelain dolls on the top of the cabinet, with smiling faces, a man and a woman, holding fish and firecrackers.

It was given to him by his sister.

When Su Zhiyun was a child, he learned to speak much slower than his peers, and his reaction speed was also very slow. At the age of three or four, he still couldn’t call mom and dad. At that time, everyone thought that he had a brain problem. After that, it was finally checked that everything was normal.

When Su Zhiyun was six years old, Li Yanjiao was pregnant with another girl. She took Su Zhiyun's hand and put it on her stomach, then asked him with a smile: "Xiao Zhiyun, will mom give you another sister?"

The woman's distended stomach looked monstrously deformed, like a frog stuffed with too much cotton to digest.

Su Zhiyun touched Li Yanjiao's skin.

Something kicked his palm.

From that thin layer of skin, you can even clearly see the outline of a foot that is not as big as your own palm.

Li Yanjiao's expression was so happy and content, which formed a huge contrast with her swollen belly that was almost bursting.

Su Zhiyun stared closely at Li Yanjiao's stomach.

So weird.

So weird.

So weird.

It seemed that in the next second a monster would tear open its flesh and crawl out bloody.

Li Yanjiao was stared at by Su Zhiyun, her smile froze slightly.

"What's the matter, baby, don't you like your sister?"

Su Zhiyun didn't like to talk, but those relatives and friends liked to tease him even more, hoping that he would talk. They made some silly jokes in front of Su Zhiyun, trying to annoy each other.

"Your mother won't want you after she has a younger sister."

"At that time, everyone will like my sister, are you afraid?"

"In the future, you will give half of everything to your sister."

It's a pity that no matter what they said, Su Zhiyun always looked dumbfounded without blinking his eyes.

After a long time, Su Zhiyun recalled what those people said, and spoke slowly.

In order not to stutter, he spoke very slowly.

"No. I hate her."

"I'll throw her to death."

This was the first time Li Yanjiao heard Su Zhiyun speak so clearly. The other party did not blink when he said this, his beautiful eyes were not angry at all, like a puppet doll.

Li Yanjiao felt a little palpitation for no reason, and she couldn't help taking a few steps back.

Su Zhiyun followed. He put his palm on Li Yanjiao's stomach, and gently parted his lips to say an onomatopoeia.

"boom."

Li Yanjiao's face turned pale, and she suddenly felt a cramping pain in her stomach.

Immediately afterwards, the woman was sent to the hospital, where she almost had a miscarriage due to excessive shock.

Su Zhiyun was also ordered not to approach Li Yanjiao again.

A few months later, Li Yanjiao successfully gave birth to a baby girl. Su Zhiyun saw her for the first time at the full moon wine. She was white and soft, held in someone's arms, and her body smelled like milk.

Very weak, very innocent.

Su Zhiyun stuffed his little finger into her fist.

The other party held his little finger tightly.

She looked so soft, so cute that it would melt away with just a pinch.

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