madness

There were hazy shadows in the dark room, the sunlight slanted into the room through the gap between the curtains, and fell on Su Zhiyun's bare insteps, and he lay down beside Gu Zehuan's legs, curled up and fell asleep like a puppy up.

The clothes were tucked up, exposing the ankles.

The real puppy curled up in Gu Zehuan's arms to suckle, grunting and whimpering, so dissatisfied that the cough it choked smelled like milk.

Su Zhiyun's eyelashes trembled, and slowly opened, revealing dark eyes. He raised his head and searched around until he saw a piece of snow-white clothes still under his palm, and lay down again and continued to sleep.

But he couldn't sleep for a long time, he would wake up suddenly like a nightmare after a while, and search for Gu Zehuan, until he was sure that the other party was by his side.

Su Zhiyun didn't sleep last night. Gu Zehuan just woke up in the morning. Su Zhiyun sat on the sofa with him and watched TV. It was strange to say that Su Zhiyun fell asleep shortly after leaning on Gu Zehuan, and Gu Zehuan would wake up as soon as he left.

But Gu Zehuan couldn't sleep when someone was next to him, which was the opposite of Su Zhiyun.

The two people's routines were slowly reversed, one sleeping during the day and the other sleeping at night.

Su Zhiyun was not at ease, he always had to check if Gu Zehuan was beside him when he was sleeping.

I slept intermittently, but the dreams were gorgeous and frightening, and they were full of strange things.

He has been upside down day and night these days, groggy.

The faint light of the phone was reflected on Gu Zehuan's face, he answered the call and was about to go out, and put the puppy in his hand back into the nest.

Perhaps it was because Gu Zehuan was there when he got up several times before, Su Zhiyun slept a little deeper, and didn't even notice that Gu Zehuan had left.

When Su Zhiyun woke up in the afternoon, it was already sunset, the room was empty, and Gu Zehuan was not there.

He sat for a while before getting up to get drinks from the refrigerator, where there was a neat row of wine.

Su Zhiyun drank while watching TV, unknowingly drank three or four cans.

After Gu Zehuan came back, he took the door to change his shoes, and Su Zhiyun greeted him, still holding the wine in his hand, he raised his head to kiss his lips in the warm yellow shadow, and passed the cold liquid in his mouth by the way.

Su Zhiyun didn't know how much he drank, he was obviously a little drunk, there were a lot of empty jars on the table, after drinking, he poked his head and licked the wound on Gu Zehuan's cheek like a puppy, tasted the bitterness of the medicine, and moved his head back, After that, I didn't kiss there anymore.

Su Zhiyun, who was drunk, was hyperactive, not like a cat, but like a dog. His hyperactivity was different from ordinary people, and he didn't talk or sing indiscriminately, or go crazy with alcohol, but he seemed extra clingy. Let him touch his chest with the other's name tattooed on it.

"Is it hot?"

Gu Zehuan's palm was pressed against his skin, it was hot, a little sweaty, hot and sticky.

You can also hear the pounding heartbeat.

Gu Zehuan waved his hand and smelled the alcohol on his body: "Why do you want to drink?"

Su Zhiyun said: "When you are drunk, you will not fall asleep or dream."

When he said this, his hair fell loose, and he lowered his head and bit Gu Zehuan's chin.

So Gu Zehuan stopped talking, packed up his things and began to feed the sleeping puppy in the cardboard box. The puppy who has not yet opened his eyes is troublesome and difficult to feed. He has to make milk powder every two to three hours, which is annoying. very.

Su Zhiyun also leaned aside when Gu Zehuan was making milk powder, smelling the smell of milk, he lowered his head to lick his fingers that were soaked in milk powder, his mouth was hot and humid, he held his mouth tightly like a pacifier, and even rubbed his teeth against his fingers.

Gu Zehuan let him suck in his mouth, stopped making milk, and just looked at him quietly.

After a while, Su Zhiyun slowly let go of his gaze, and kissed the place where the teeth marks were left in a friendly manner.

It was the same in the next few days, Su Zhiyun tasted the sweetness of alcohol, sometimes he slept, but the sleep was very short, sometimes he drank when he woke up, and fell asleep on the sofa when he was drunk, dreaming and dying.

More often it rains outside, the summer rainy season is very long, and the rainy season inside the house is also very long, and it rains wet and dusty one after another.

Su Zhiyun's mind became strange, because the time of sobriety after being exposed to alcohol for a long time began to become very short.

He kisses Gu Zehuan's fingers, lips, and wounds in the rain. Sometimes because he is too sleepy, he can't tell whether he is in a dream or in reality.

But it was very clear that he was addicted to this, this messy, chaotic life.

The boy's nerves mutated during the long summer, growing mushrooms, spreading strange and beautiful spores everywhere, and the spores fell to the ground, and continued to grow into mushrooms in every corner of his body, and then the cycle repeated.

During this process, Su Zhiyun became more and more strange and not sober.

It was raining in the room, so Su Zhiyun was wet. He felt that it was very hot here. He raised his hand to cover his eyes, and saw the light from the window making the curtains warm yellow.

His hair has grown long again, and his height and shape will not make people mistake him for a boy, but occasionally his hair is wet, his skin is cold and white, and his face is sideways, with only eyelashes visible, making him look a bit like a soft boy. girl.

It may be mainly related to the eyes, which are sparkling and have long eyelashes.

He sat for a while, looked at his fingers, then straightened up and kissed Gu Zehuan. Gu Zehuan was still smoking. He took the other party's cigarette, bit it in his mouth, and exhaled slowly. It was very astringent, so he stuffed it back into Zehuan's cigarette. mouth, back to the sofa to play with the little milk dog who has not yet opened its eyes.

The light from outside fell on his bare thighs, Su Zhiyun's hair was loosely tied to the back of his head, revealing his face, his eyelashes were drooping, and his dark circles were heavy, as if he hadn't slept well for a long time.

Su Zhiyun doesn't wear too many clothes at home these days because it's too hot and it's inconvenient.

Gu Zehuan usually ignored him.

The puppy sucked Su Zhiyun's finger for a while, but he was hungry instead, and said to Gu Zehuan, "Come down and eat?"

Gu Zehuan dusted off the cigarette ash, extinguished the cigarette butt and threw it into the aluminum can, and stood up.

It may be that sometimes the two people's voices are too loud, and the sound insulation here is not good. When Su Zhiyun went out to eat recently, he always met some people with strange eyes, but he didn't care and turned a blind eye.

It's weird for two big men to hold hands.

But Su Zhiyun wouldn't look at those gazes, because he couldn't stay close to Gu Zehuan, just like a fish can't stay close to water.

Gu Zehuan's breath and smell evaporated and turned into clouds in summer, and degraded into water in every rain, which drenched Su Zhiyun and penetrated into his bones. He got used to that smell and smell, and it became a part of his life. , If you leave, you will have cramps and bones, and you can't breathe.

The owner of Yangji Noodle Shop was a little surprised when he saw Su Zhiyun and Gu Zehuan walking in.

The boy was wearing a loose T-shirt, with Band-Aids on his cheeks, and earrings on his earbones. He had his collarbone nails done in the past few days. His hair was still as black as before, but there were many injuries on his fingers when he reached for the packing box. .

Gu Zehuan turned around to get the plastic water cup, without looking at the boss, the boss glanced at Gu Zehuan, then lowered his voice and asked Su Zhiyun: "What's wrong with you recently, you look so bad, are you sick?"

Su Zhiyun's aura was gloomy, much gloomy than before, and his hair was longer, but it made his eyes more beautiful, so beautiful that he was a bit evil, and a little bit dark.

Before coming down, Su Zhiyun drank a little wine, his nerves were still aroused, he showed his hands to the boss, his hands with well-defined knuckles, even from a boy's perspective, they are not ugly.

He said shamelessly: "No, it was bitten while making it."

"Because it's more comfortable to be bitten."

It took a while for the boss to understand the huge amount of information, he was so dumbfounded that he couldn't utter a word, but Su Zhiyun had already turned around and left.

Gu Zehuan was waiting for him at the door.

"Know this boss?"

"I don't know." Su Zhiyun thought for a while, and then said: "But he gave the dog."

In the past few days, Su Zhiyun couldn't sleep well at night or during the day, so he yearned for Gu Zehuan even more, as if he was addicted, and couldn't leave him every step of the way.

Su Tianlin called him many times, and even Su Tianhe later called him, but Su Zhiyun didn't answer any of them. He turned off his phone and stuffed it under his pillow.

After going up, the two of them ate together, and after the meal, they chopped a small watermelon and half of each person. The weather was too hot today, Gu Zehuan turned on the air conditioner, Su Zhiyun felt cold after blowing it for a while, and started leaning towards Gu Zehuan again.

He wasn't drunk, he was just excited, but couldn't help it, like an addict, he kissed Gu Zehuan's Adam's apple from bottom to top, and licked his lips.

Sometimes she would lie beside her and count Gu Zehuan's eyelashes.

One, two, three, four, five.

forget.

Count again, one two three four five six seven.

The total is no more than ten.

The two of them have been very crazy these past few days, fainted, and the checkout clerks in the nearby supermarkets all recognize these two faces, because Su Zhiyun always buys the same thing, and buys a lot when he buys it.

It's that well-known adult brand again.

She couldn't help but look at him more, the thin and pale boy was tall, with long hair, black earphone cables plugged into his ears, and he was taking apart gum. The type that children like, he saw the cashier kept looking at him and leaned over.

The checkout clerk smelled a faint scent of green lemon and a little cold woody scent on him.

"What's wrong? Is there a problem?"

He just asked plainly, the checkout clerk blushed inexplicably, and turned his head away.

"It's all right, sir."

Su Zhiyun looked at her for a while, and then left a piece of chewing gum on the cash register.

Spearmint.

"Send it to you."

When he was gone, the cashier couldn't help but want to look.

When Su Zhiyun was at home, he often had sex with Gu Zehuan.

The two people's hobbies are compatible, Gu Zehuan is sometimes rough, Su Zhiyun has many injuries, but he doesn't seem to be conflicting, and he doesn't feel pain.

Gu Zehuan always likes to kiss those places on his body where he got rings, because these are wounds from the past. Su Zhiyun's physique is not good, and rings are prone to inflammation, but he still likes them, and no one cares about him. This way.

Su Tianlin called. Su Zhiyun didn't want to answer at first, but Su Tianlin couldn't bear to call repeatedly.

"Hey?"

There was no sound at the other end, and there was a faint sound.

Su Tianlin soon realized what Su Zhiyun was doing and was furious.

"Do you know how long we've been looking for you, and you actually do this kind of thing outside?"

Su Zhiyun thought he was too noisy, hung up the phone again, threw it aside, bowed his head and kissed Gu Zehuan's ear.

Blood began to ooze from the tooth marks on his lonely collarbone, and Gu Zehuan licked the blood away.

Afterwards, Su Zhiyun didn't sleep either. He listened to music with headphones on and was lazy under a blanket. The little milk dog was sleeping in his palm. Gu Zehuan was writing the test paper, and half a watermelon was placed on the table.

Su Tianlin Su Tianhe's cell phone number was dragged into the blacklist by him, and Cui Ming would occasionally come to chat with him these days, but it took a long time for Su Zhiyun to reply to him, because his time became loose and messy, and he would chat with him casually. Knead it and it will fall to pieces.

The song in the earphones is "Paris in the Rain".

After listening for a while, he finally felt sleepy, and fell asleep next to Gu Zehuan.

The author says:

I created a playlist of Su Zhiyun on NetEase Cloud, which are all the songs that Su Zhiyun usually listens to. If you are interested, you can search it. There is also a link in the profile. Aunt Wang