Mid-Levels Farm

Xuan Xiaodong arrived in Jinghai City not long after. Chu Ruozhuo had already sent a driver to pick him up at the train station. When he knew he had received it, the call came immediately: "Xiaodong, have you got on the bus? You have worked hard, I asked the driver to go directly I'm really sorry to pick you up at the Sheng family's villa, I should have picked you up by myself, but unfortunately there are too many things happening today... I owe the Sheng family a favor, so I'm embarrassed to refuse..."

Xuan Xiaodong said: "It's okay, I bought a ticket for the afternoon, I'll send it to you and I'll be back."

Chu Ruozhuo felt more and more guilty: "Don't, don't, don't go back so fast, I'll stay at my place tonight, I'll be free tomorrow, I'll treat you well, it's okay to take a stroll around Jinghai City, I'll take you to the Bodhi Club to taste the private things there. Cook, although I don't think you are as good as you, but no matter what, let me treat you once, okay?"

Xuan Xiaodong said: "No one is watching at home. I just raised a dog, and no one feeds the dog."

Chu Ruozhuo said: "Do you have a dog? Ask the neighbors to help you see, what kind of dog? Why don't you tell me if you want to have a dog? I know a friend who has a lot of really good breed dogs... Help me find one." Only, after raising it, you can give birth to puppies to sell..."

Xuan Xiaodong smiled good-naturedly: "Just ordinary native dogs, the dogs in Grandma Xia's house gave birth to a litter and gave them away everywhere. I just took one and used it as a gardener. Too expensive breeds are easy to be picked up in the countryside. Stealing, many people steal to make hot pot."

Chu Ruozhuo: "..." I don't know why, but I suddenly feel that the dog that the other party is not allowed to keep is for food, after all, the other party's craftsmanship is top-notch... He couldn't help laughing and said: "Okay, let's talk about it when you get there, where are you going?" gone?"

Xuan Xiaodong glanced out the window of the car. He passed through the busy city before, the traffic was like flowing water, and there was a lot of people's voices, but after turning around and passing a long embankment road full of willow trees, the car drove into the road up the mountain. The road was clean and no one was there. , the roadside is full of thick green sycamore trees, and the vehicle seems to be driving into the quiet bottom of the lake, which is much quieter.

He looked at the road sign intently and said, "I just got on Emerald Avenue."

Chu Ruozhuo said: "Yeah, that's good, I'll be there soon, I'll pick you up at the door." He hung up the phone, and smiled at the young man opposite: "Leilei, the red dragon has been delivered, I'll go down to pick you up."

Sheng Leilei was drawing cards with his slender fingers, and laughed: "I'll just let someone take him to the fish tank, why don't you go there yourself, Mr. Chu?"

Chu Ruozhuo said: "That can't be done, I treat him as a friend." He stood up and was about to go downstairs, but Sheng Leilei suddenly said: "Wait, I suddenly remembered, my uncle said just now, and Dr. Cai met with you right after we finished talking, and Dr. Cai should be leaving after some time, so go up to the third floor and wait. If you see Dr. Cai coming out, you should go in quickly, or my uncle will have to rest later."

Chu Ruozhuo was stunned, Sheng Leilei said: "Go up quickly, my uncle is not in good health, if he rests, he won't be able to find time, maybe he won't come out until the dinner party to thank him, he didn't even want to do it at first , none of the old people in the family came. I said that it is enough for the young people to have fun. It is because of everyone's kindness that he agreed. He will go to the hospital for an examination tomorrow, and it is even more impossible for you to see him. You Don't worry, I'll pick him up for you, and you must treat him politely as your friend."

Chu Ruozhuo thought about it for a while and he was right, he smiled and said, "Okay, then I'll trouble Leilei."

He got up and went upstairs, Sheng Leilei threw the cards on the table, with a sneer on the corner of his mouth, he got up and went downstairs as expected.

On the third floor, in the tidy and spacious study room, Sheng Wuyu was indeed talking with his psychiatrist Cai Zhonglin—the atmosphere was not good.

Cai Zhonglin leaned against the window, pushed his glasses, put a stack of reports on the table, looked at Sheng Wuyu who was sitting in a wheelchair, but his aura was not weakened by this, but his voice was a little helpless.

"I don't agree with you doing the surgery now, it's not a good time - I suggest you postpone the surgery."

With a sullen face, Sheng Wuyu took the stack of report cards, flipped through them without saying a word.

"You've had a dozen surgeries, most of them failed, and it doesn't look like you're affected."

"You are in good control. Whether you ask people around you or your family, the feedback they give is positive. You are active in treatment, have an aggressive attitude, and have a fruitful career. Even the psychological assessment test, you have done it perfectly."

"However, whether it's sleep monitoring, diet observation or hormone testing done for you in the past few days, all monitoring indicators have proved that you have obviously suffered from depression, anxiety, eating disorders, sleep disorders, hormone disorders, etc. Symptoms of depression have already appeared, although you have chosen the positive side on the scale, you have not chosen truthfully."

Sheng Wuyu threw the stack of report cards back to the large desk, tensed his jaw muscles, and put away the smile on his face.

Cai Zhonglin sped up his speech slightly: "This is a typical obsessive-compulsive symptom of a perfectionist."

"You're forcing yourself to be as positive and happy as you were in the past. Your paralysis in front of everyone hasn't brought you any negative effects. You can overcome the past. You can still achieve excellence that ordinary people can't match. Your material Wealthy, your spiritual life is rich, you are still able to work and live normally, you even refuse life assistants, you don’t need human help to complete your actions, you are perfect as before, even if for this perfection, you pay more effort and pain behind your back .”

Sheng Wuyu was expressionless, but his eyes had already cooled down.

Cai Zhonglin sighed helplessly: "I'm sorry to be so direct. Before, I tried my best to focus on psychological counseling. After all, you have always been very cooperative. But this time I came here specially. In a place you are familiar with, maybe it can make you relax. The vigilance and precautions of psychological treatment. I also told my aunt that I hope my family can accompany me more, but you are a person with too much willpower. You refuse the company of your family, and you also refuse anyone to care about you. It's mild, optimistic, but it's getting worse."

"No one can convince you except yourself, Wuyu, your body can no longer withstand too many operations, the success rate of this operation is still very low, and your mental state cannot bear the consequences of another failure.

"You have a tenacious and persistent personality, and you have extremely high demands on yourself. You pursue perfection in everything, and you don't give up easily when things happen. But this is also a shortcoming, and you can easily become paranoid. You have done a lot to restore your legs. If you are willing to succumb to your fate, you cannot accept your physical inadequacy at all, and you cannot accept a life in which you cannot stand and walk."

"You have to relax yourself and learn to reconcile with life. I don't want you to give up treatment, but I hope you can enjoy life at the same time. Don't force yourself to move forward, Wuyu, you have done better than most people , relax a little bit, and stop chasing imperfections, okay?"

Sheng Wuyu suddenly sneered: "Enjoy life? You actually mean to let me accept the facts and be a paralyzed patient who will be cared for for life, and be a useless person who eats and waits to die? The education I received from birth is I am talented and intelligent, I have ambitions, I want to have a career, and now everyone tells me, ah, for your own good, you can give up the future completely, and you can be a salted fish waiting to die, right? ?”

He lowered his eyelashes and looked at his legs wrapped in plain trousers in the wheelchair: "I have cooperated with your treatment very well. You let me listen to music, watch movies, musicals, and watch what I like. I Every week there are arrangements, you let me keep a pet, I have a cat, I have fun with the cat every day, I have normal social life, entertainment life, and regular rest... Except that I didn’t try to fall in love, I'd do anything to drag a healthy woman into the water."

Cai Zhonglin interrupted calmly: "But your mental condition is deteriorating." He looked at Sheng Wuyu, and added: "Every day is worse than the previous day."

"Eating disorders cause your stomach to become disordered, mild gastroenteritis occurs, and your stomach also begins to show early symptoms of stomach problems due to anxiety and tension. Under sleep disorders, you still have to force yourself to work and live according to a normal and strict schedule, and you are exhausted. It will increase your physical and mental burden. What's more, you are still taking some drugs for your current treatment. , I am sorry that I do not agree with you to start this operation."

"Material affluence, career achievement, and the pursuit of excellence are not the only values ​​in life. You are an obvious self-oriented perfectionist. You have caused too much pressure on yourself, high anxiety, high depression, and the breakdown is likely to be in the In an instant, there was a suicidal ideation.”

"You need to relax, completely relax, stop thinking about your work, your treatment. Every day you sleep until you wake up naturally, you need to feel genuinely happy, instead of ticking off the list and treating spiritual treatment as an item that you need to perfect Mission accomplished. It’s all about being happy, you need to genuinely enjoy life, enjoy emotional pleasure, accept imperfection, and feel hopeful every day.”

Cai Zhonglin looked at Sheng Wuyu earnestly: "Cooperate well again, okay? Trust me."

Sheng Wuyu took a deep breath: "I will try my best——I will postpone this operation."

Cai Zhonglin nodded, but sighed in his heart. The Sheng Wuyu in front of him was the kind of patient he feared most. He was highly qualified, highly educated, and gifted, and he cooperated with all treatments.However, the long-term behavior patterns and excessive demands on themselves make them unable to restrain themselves from putting too much pressure on themselves, and then fail over and over again.They often have willpower far beyond ordinary people, they are the most outstanding few people, and their families are rich and happy, but their mood deteriorates day by day, and they fall into a world-weariness that ordinary people can't understand. Thoughts struggle, suddenly break and collapse on a certain day.

He said: "I will prescribe some medicine for you... just to resist anxiety and improve sleep. If you can slow down your work pace, learn to really relax, and have no problem falling asleep, call me and you can stop the medicine, provided you are honest .”

Sheng Wuyu didn't speak again.