Xia Meng

One month has passed since the summer vacation, and it’s August in a blink of an eye. The air is as dull as ever. Dark clouds were densely covered, and the sky darkened in an instant. In an instant, it rained heavily, and the sky and the earth were connected by dense rain.

Xia Meng stood in front of the window of the office staring at the outside in a daze. The raindrops hit the glass. When she closed her eyes, she seemed to be able to feel the raindrops on her face that day. The wound on her left wrist was painful. Xia Meng subconsciously touched the A scar, a slightly raised line on smooth skin, feels a bit like a raised vein.

"Teacher Xia?" Someone called Xia Meng from behind.

Xia Meng opened her eyes, put her hands down, turned around, and the light from the window shone on the person at the door, who was about the same height and fair complexion, and for a moment seemed to see Xu Yang standing at the door.Xia Meng came back to her senses and saw clearly that the person standing at the door was Teacher Bai Qi who taught science.

"Teacher Bai, what's the matter?" Xia Meng walked towards her desk.

Bai Qi moved a little closer to Xia Meng's desk, but kept a short distance without walking over, "It's okay, I passed by the office and saw you in a daze, what were you thinking?"

Xia Meng sorted out the scattered documents on the table, shook her head, and said, "I saw that it was raining suddenly, and I stared at it in a daze. In fact, I was fishing." He laughed and looked at Bai Qi.

Bai Qi also laughed, "Isn't the meaning of going to work just to catch fish?"

"you do not say."

"Ms. Xia, Mrs. Xia." Qiqi shouted as she ran over in the corridor.

Xia Meng stretched her head to look at Qiqi who was panting, "What's wrong?"

"As soon as I went downstairs to open the umbrella, it was blown away by the wind." Qiqi took out the tattered umbrella whose skeleton had been blown off from behind, and smiled awkwardly but politely.

Looking at the broken umbrella and Kiki's appearance, Xia Meng couldn't laugh or cry, took out her own umbrella from the drawer and handed it to Kiki, "You can use mine first, my umbrella ribs are very hard, I will support it in typhoon days Nothing was blown out, so it should be fine."

"I knew our little Mengmeng was the best." Qiqi took the umbrella and suddenly thought, "Then what should you do?"

Xia Meng turned around and took a napkin from her table, wiped the water from Qiqi's hair, and said, "It's okay, summer is usually thunderstorms, I'll take a taxi back after the rain subsides."

Qiqi nodded, "Then I'll go back first, teacher bye."

"Bye, be careful on the road, and let me know when you get home."

"Okay." Qiqi took the umbrella and quickly disappeared into the elevator at the end of the corridor.

Xia Meng glanced at the rain outside the window, it was still crackling and there was no sign of it getting smaller for a while.

Bai Qi glanced at the time, and it was already time to get off work, so she asked Xia Meng, "Why don't I see you off, I'm here by car, the rain doesn't seem to be light for a while."

Xia Meng saw that it was still early, and that Xia Ke was going to spend the night at his best friend's house today, so it didn't matter if he went back later, so he shook his head and said, "No, I'm not in a hurry to go back anyway, I'll be fine after a while."

"Don't you really need me to send you?"

"It's really not necessary, you go back first."

"Okay, then I'll go first."

"Ah."

After Bai Qi left, Xia Meng sat back at her desk, idly turned on her mobile phone and slid over, feeling lost for no reason.

What is Wei Linxi doing?I usually hang around by my side, wishing I could send a hundred and eighty messages a day, but this morning I said a few innocuous words, and then I lost my voice.It always seemed like this, whenever I really needed help and wanted her by my side, she disappeared.Wanting her to appear at the moment when he was most helpless at the first time was just a delusion.

Forget it, Xia Meng teased herself, she said it all, don't think about relying on anyone, but rely on yourself, why blame others for being unreliable at this time.

Thinking of this, it seemed that she was not so unhappy anymore. Xia Meng sat for a while and felt that the rain seemed to be a little lighter, so she packed her bags, got up and went downstairs.

When I walked downstairs to the door, I found that the rain hadn't diminished, and it was still pouring down tirelessly, washing the city. Just standing at the door, before going out, the howling wind blows people back.

Xia Meng took out her mobile phone and was about to call a taxi. When she heard the horns at the door several times, Xia Meng glanced at the white car. She didn't think it had something to do with her, but the horn kept ringing, Xia Meng was a little curious , Squinting his eyes to identify it, the car window was rolled down a little, it turned out to be Bai Qi.

Bai Qi waved at Xia Meng and signaled her to get in the car. Xia Meng glanced at the taxi order that no one had picked up and hesitated. Bai Qi was still waiting patiently for her. Xia Meng really had no choice but to cancel the order quickly. He rushed into the rain and got into Bai Qi's car.

Bai Qi handed the napkin to Xia Meng in the back row, Xia Meng said "thank you", and asked him curiously while wiping the rain from her hair, "Why are you still downstairs in the company, didn't you leave long ago? "

Bai Qi started the car, drove on the road, asked Xia Meng for the address, and drove towards the destination.

"I sat in the car for a while and saw that the rain didn't look like it was going to be light. I just wanted to say wait for you. It must be hard to drive in such a heavy rain."

After Xia Meng finished listening, she didn't know how to reply for a while, so she said "thank you" again and stopped talking.

Bai Qi's driving skills are very smooth, there are almost no major bumps, and sitting in his car will give you a very reassuring feeling.There was a slight contrast with his appearance.

Bai Qi has a cropped head, and his facial features are not the kind that are good-looking, but he has a kind of free and easy ruffian. From the back of his neck, he can see a small tattoo, and the rest is covered by his clothes. I don't know. What a range.Just from the first impression, Bai Qi gives people a sense of distance that strangers should not get close to, but after getting to know each other for a while, you will find that he is actually very easy to get along with, and he is very friendly, speaking and doing things He is also very polite and knows how to hold his own.

Originally, Xia Meng didn't quite understand it when he first arrived here, but later he found that Bai Qi was really suitable for this career, and almost all the students in the campus liked him very much.

When Xia Meng was drowsy in the car, Bai Qi asked her, "Xia Meng, can I ask you a question?"

Xia Meng leaned on the back of the chair lazily tilting her head, looked at Bai Qi in the rearview mirror, and said "Huh?"

"How did you get the scar on your wrist?" Bai Qi and Xia Meng met eyes in the rearview mirror, and neither of them dodged. It was only a second or two, but it felt like several minutes had passed.

Bai Qi continued to look at Lu, and Xia Meng also maintained the same posture just now, but his eyes dimmed.

"Sorry, did you inquire into your privacy, don't tell me."

"It's nothing private, and it's not a shameful thing, anyway, I think so." Xia Meng took a deep breath, with unclear feelings, and continued: "I drew it myself, use it in a dramatic way." It’s like slitting your wrists and committing suicide.”

"Because of what? Broken love?"

Xia Meng smiled, "You won't die if you break up in love, but I just can't live if I commit suicide."

So many painful experiences, so many complex emotions, no matter how many seemingly crazy things I experienced at that time, until now, I can just write it down with "I just can't live anymore".

"what about now?"

Xia Meng looked at Bai Qi in confusion, but couldn't understand what he meant.

"Is there a reason to live now?"

Xia Meng never thought about the reason for continuing to live after being rescued.Shaco?In fact, after being rescued, Xia Meng was afraid. She was so selfish at that time that she only thought that she would not be able to survive. She never thought about how Xia Ke would survive if something happened to her.So Xia Ke is one of the reasons why he can live now.

But is it really the only reason?What Xia Meng knows but refuses to admit is that she is still reluctant. Thinking about it now, there are so many delicious things that she hasn't tasted yet.There are so many beautiful scenery, I haven't seen it yet.Wei Linxi owed her an emotional debt, which she has not yet paid back.

"There are still a lot of delicious food that I haven't tasted yet." Xia Meng smiled and half-closed her eyes to look at Bai Qi in the rearview mirror.

"Thank you for taking me back. Let's treat you to dinner next time." Before getting out of the car, Xia Meng said to Bai Qi.

"Xia Meng," Bai Qi called to stop her, "If you feel that you are going to lose your life again, just come to me."

Xia Meng froze for a moment, did not answer, and entered the house without looking back.

When he opened the door, darkness suddenly rushed towards his face, sucking Xia Meng in.Xia Meng closed the door without turning on the light, leaned against the door, and slid weakly on the ground.

She dug out a cigarette from her bag and took a few puffs.Xia Meng has always smoked, but she never smoked in front of Wei Linxi and Xia Ke, not because she was afraid that they would feel bad about her, but because she was afraid of hurting their bodies. In front of outsiders, Xia Meng never cared.

The room was very quiet, I didn't feel it was so quiet before, but today when I was alone, I realized it was so empty, so empty that I could hear my own heartbeat.

The cigarette butt lights up and goes out in the dark, like a breathing animal, soothing Xia Meng's irritability with every breath.

Xia Meng is an adult, it's not that he doesn't understand the meaning of Bai Qi's words, he knows that he shouldn't think too much, maybe others just want to help him from the perspective of friends, but Xia Meng's feeling has always been accurate since he was a child. , This kind of emotional thing has never been missed.It may be narcissistic to say so, but this time, Xia Meng hopes that she is really just being self-indulgent.

After taking the last sip, Xia Meng got up from the ground, turned on the lights, turned on the TV, and went to the kitchen to cook a bowl of noodles for herself.While eating, the phone screen lit up, and it was Wei Linxi's message.

Xia Meng was indifferent, until she lay down on the bed after taking a shower, she never opened the message she sent, nor answered the phone, the screen turned on and off, repeated countless times, and finally completely turned off in the dark room.

The next day was a sunny day. When Xia Ke got home, Xia Meng was still hiding under the quilt and didn't get up.

"Big slacker, why haven't you gotten up yet? It's already noon, so don't you go to work?" Xia Ke lifted Xia Meng's quilt.

Xia Meng was like a curled up hedgehog. After Xia Ke lifted the quilt, he squirmed slowly and opened one eye to look at Xia Ke.

"You're back, I'm on vacation today, I don't want to get up, I don't want to move."

"Oh, you're so lazy." Xia Ke clicked his tongue in disgust, went to the living room to turn on the TV, went to the kitchen and warmed up some instant dishes brought by Wei Linxi for Xia Meng.

Xia Meng yawned and walked to the living room. When she saw the food prepared by Xia Ke, she thought of Wei Linxi. From last night until now, she completely ignored her messages and calls.

While eating lunch, Xia Meng looked at the unread messages on her phone.

"Honey, it's raining heavily, are you home yet?"

"Honey, are you home yet?"

"Honey, why are you ignoring me?"

"Honey, what's the matter? Don't ignore me."

"Honey, don't scare me."

Xia Meng flipped through one by one, and the last one stayed on "My wife, I'm sorry, did I do something wrong and made you angry?"

Xia Meng stuffed a mouthful of hot curry into her mouth, and thought about it carefully, what is there to be angry about? To put it bluntly, Wei Linxi and her Xia Meng are strangers, to put it mildly, they are friends.It has nothing to do with it, why should I ask others to help me immediately when I am helpless, and why should I ask others to treat me unconditionally?

"I was too sleepy yesterday. I fell asleep as soon as I got home. I didn't see your message."

The message was just edited and sent, and within a minute, I received a reply.

"Oh, it's good that you're fine, I thought you were angry with me."

"No." Xia Meng replied bluntly.

"What are your plans for today?" Xia Ke asked Xia Meng while sitting on the sofa in the living room.

Xia Meng thought about it, and wanted to say that there was no arrangement, but suddenly remembered that yesterday he said that he would invite Bai Qi to dinner when he was free, so it would be better if it was just today, and it would be better to pay off the favors owed to others earlier.

"Bring someone to dinner tonight."

"Who is it, Wei Linxi?"

"No, colleague."

Shake poked his head out of the living room, "There is a situation."

"It's nothing, it's just a favor."

Xia Ke groaned and sat back down again.

When Xia Meng arrived at the restaurant, Bai Qi was already waiting for her at the seat.Xia Meng sat down and looked at the time, and asked, "I'm not late, am I?"

"No," Bai Qi poured lemonade into Xia Meng's cup, "I'm afraid there will be a traffic jam at this hour, so I'll come early."

"That's good, have you ordered?" Xia Meng brushed her sweat-wet hair and put it behind her shoulders.

Bai Qi stared at Xia Meng's movements, "Not yet, I'll order when you come, I don't know what you like to eat."

Xia Meng smiled, "I'll treat you to dinner, just choose what you like, I'm not picky."

"You have to like to eat, otherwise what's the point of me eating vigorously by myself."

After the whole dinner, Xia Meng and Bai Qi chatted very happily. Xia Meng didn't expect that although Bai Qi is a teacher of science, her mind is not rough at all, and she can chat with herself quite easily.Xia dreamed of Xu Yang.

"You are like my best friend in college." Xia Meng said to Bai Qi.

"Who?"

"Xu Yang."

"Do I resemble him?"

"To be honest, it doesn't look alike at all, but I don't know why, sometimes when I see you, I feel like seeing him. Maybe you and him give me the same feeling."

"Really? Then I have a chance to meet him."

Xia Meng raised the glass and took a sip of the wine, then gently put down the glass, as if deliberately controlling the force, when the glass was placed on the marble table, there was no sound.

"No chance, he's dead."

Bai Qi was stunned for a moment, and hurriedly said: "I'm sorry, I brought up your sadness again, I seem to always step on your minefield."

Xia Meng didn't feel angry at all, and smiled generously, "It's nothing, I brought it up myself."

"Besides, he was trying to save me. Didn't you ask me to find a reason to live last time? He is also one of them. I can't let him sacrifice in vain. I have to live well."

Bai Qi nodded, "I still say the same thing, if you need it, you can find me."

Xia Meng nodded politely, and replied: "Well, thank you."

"I'll take you home." After eating, Bai Qi and Xia Meng walked in the mall.

"No, I just paid back the favor you sent me home. If you send me back again, I owe another one. It's endless." Xia Meng quickly waved her hands and refused again and again.

"But you drank a lot of wine just now, I'm afraid it's not safe for you to go back alone,"

As soon as Bai Qi finished speaking, Xia Meng staggered. Bai Qi was about to reach out to help, but Xia Meng held onto the railing by himself, and reached out to stop Bai Qi.

"I'm very happy today, I drank a little more, but don't worry, I can go back by myself, I am conscious."

Xia Meng insisted on leaving by herself, but Bai Qi had no choice but to send her to a taxi. After thinking for a while, she drove after her.

Xia Meng didn't drink too much because she was happy, on the contrary, she was sad.

The more we chatted with Bai Qi, the clearer Wei Linxi's figure became in his mind, unknowingly, an unknown fire surged up, and he couldn't get angry inexplicably in front of others, so he used glass after glass of wine to dissolve his worries .