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When Lu Zizheng heard Xu Baihan's words, she stood up in shock, stepped in front of Xu Baihan, and reached out to grab Xu Baihan's slender shoulders, as if afraid that she would not be able to touch Xu Baihan in the next moment.

Xu Baihan raised his eyes and smiled faintly at Lu Zizheng, stretched out his hand to gently cover Lu Zizheng's hand: "Zizheng, don't persuade me, I have lied to myself for too long. I miss her so much, I gave it to her." My deadline is to wait until the day she leaves in August this year."

Lu Zizheng persuaded with trembling lips, "Sister, don't do this, Yunbo definitely doesn't want you like this, wait a little longer, shall we wait a little longer?"

Xu Baihan shook his head, and said in a sad tone: "Zizheng, I dare not wait any longer. I thought that I would always remember Yunbo's appearance and every arc of her smile to me. But in the past few years, I I can't describe Yunbo's appearance more and more. The appearance of her frowns and smiles is becoming more and more blurred in my heart. I am so afraid that I will not remember her appearance clearly in the end, and I will not be able to find her. I'm even more afraid, if it's too long, she will forget me and won't recognize me..."

Lu Zizheng's tears finally couldn't be held back, they slipped from the corners of his eyes, and choked up, "Sister, you can't do this, it's too cruel to me. I know everything, how can I do nothing, just watch Watching you leave. Sister, please, don't do this, okay? Give yourself and Yunbo a little more time, and Yunbo will come back..."

Xu Baihan raised her hand with difficulty but gently wiped away Lu Zizheng's tears: "Zizheng, don't cry, it's my sister who's sorry for you, I'm selfish." She turned the wheelchair to a small cabinet in the corner, opened the cabinet, and opened it from He took out a book with a dark cover, returned to Lu Zizheng, and handed the book to Lu Zizheng.

Lu Zizheng took it with both hands, and looked at Xu Baihan with doubts.

Xu Baihan smiled sadly: "Zizheng, I'm sorry, I don't have much time. But I'm afraid, when I leave, no one will remember that Yunbo used to exist so vividly, and no one will know. Me and her In between, I used to love so fiercely with my life." She shifted her eyes to the book in Lu Zizheng's hand: "This is what I can keep, the only proof that we once loved. Zizheng Zheng, after I leave, help me publish it under my name. I am reluctant, after I leave, no one in this world will remember Yunbo, no one will know her grievances, no one will know, she Loved me and hated me with my life."

Xu Baihan has been writing and contributing articles since college, and Lu Zizheng is always her first reader, but she never thought that the last story she read from Xu Baihan would be written with blood and tears like this .Holding the book in both hands, Lu Zizheng felt that it weighed ten thousand catties. It was so heavy that she couldn't hold her hands steady, and she couldn't stand up.

Lu Zizheng also had a time like that, she knew how important faith is to a person, no amount of comfort would probably be able to shake a sober person who is determined to die.The grief in her heart was about to overwhelm all her thoughts, and tears rolled down her face.

Lu Zizheng scanned the surrounding portraits with tears in his eyes. The girl looked stern, but there was a gentleness in her brows.She stared at it blankly for a long time, but she felt a little kind-hearted, and her heart was moved, maybe...

She turned around and blurted out, "Sister, I seem to have seen her somewhere!"

Xu Baihan was a little frightened by Lu Zizheng's surprise, frowned slightly, and asked, "What?"

Lu Zizheng seemed to have found a breakthrough to keep Xu Baihan, and explained eagerly and flusteredly: "Sister, I seem to have seen someone who looks like her at some point, I forgot when and where , but I really, really, have seen her, sister, you believe me, if you wait for me, I will definitely remember it!"

Xu Baihan seemed to understand, smiled lightly, shook his head and said, "Zizheng, don't lie to me."

Lu Zizheng took a deep breath, tried to calm down the excitement, and explained again calmly and seriously: "Sister, you believe me, it's true, Yunbo must be alive, I must have met her sometime .”

Xu Baihan smiled sadly: "Zizheng, you don't know. Over the years, I have seen many people who are similar to Yunbo, but every one of them is not her. I believe it many times, but..." She didn't say anything. After finishing speaking, he turned the wheelchair out of the inner room suddenly, changed the subject and said, "Zizheng, don't talk about me, how are you and Huaixi doing?"

Lu Zizheng still wanted to persuade her, so he called her at a long time: "Sister...really, listen to me..."

Before he finished speaking, Xu Baihan looked back and smiled, begging: "Zizheng, it's rare for us to see each other once, so let's skip this topic for now, okay?"

"sister!"

Xu Baihan pressed his index finger to his lips, blinked his eyes, and decided not to talk about it anymore.

Lu Zizheng bit his lip and looked at her, his thoughts were in a mess and his head was in a daze. Later, she didn't remember anything Xu Baihan said to her again. Until the end, she didn't know how she left the Xu family. .

She refused the driver from Xu's family to see her off, and walked back along the road in a daze, trying to sort out the chaos in her heart, but it seemed that the more she managed, the more chaotic she became.All the noise around her seems to have nothing to do with her, and only the last page of the book that Xu Baihan gave her is left in her head: I would like to let love live forever with silence, and from now on, it will remain unchanged; I would like to use this article , to prove that we once loved each other, and since then, it has never diminished.Yunbo, I love you.

Xu Baihan said: "In fact, it is not terrible to lose, what is terrible is that you never had it. Until everything is gone, you don't have any evidence that you once loved and once had it."

And what should she use to prove her love?

Lu Zizheng was lost in thought and didn't have the time to look at the red street lights, so she walked forward when she saw the road. The phone in her bag rang suddenly, which woke her up.She hurriedly rummaged through her bag to find her mobile phone, and when she saw that the call was from Jiang Huaixi, she was a little dazed for a moment.Suddenly, a motorcycle passed by her, and the horn and the driver's curse sounded at the same time, which made Lu Zizheng's hand unsteady, and the phone was thrown out viciously, and fell to the ground without a sound...

Lu Zizheng bent down to pick up the silent mobile phone with a broken screen, and suddenly felt a little sad...

What should she leave behind to prove that after Jiang Huaixi left, she once had her own life, so tenderly and profoundly...

Is it a missed call?An unread text message?Or those countless call records?

However, what if one day the mobile phone is lost and the number is no longer used?

Is there anything that can prove that the tenderness that Jiang Huaixi gave once existed so real, and will not be replaced by pain and despair in the end, and will be crushed by time...

Lu Zizheng was thinking calmly, walking aimlessly, and unknowingly, she came to her father's cemetery... When she was young, she would always think of her father first when encountering unsolvable doubts, but now, It turned out that such a habit had never been changed.

Looking at the past from a distance, Lu Zizheng vaguely saw a woman standing in front of his father's tombstone.She frowned, a little strange, her figure didn't look like a familiar person.

She approached the woman step by step, and the figure of the woman became clearer and stranger, until finally, Lu Zizheng stood still beside the woman, watching the woman turn around, she was surprised to recognize her. It turned out to be Zhou Fangfan.

Zhou Fangfan obviously didn't expect to meet Lu Zizheng, his expression was both surprised and happy, his expression was complicated and distorted, he opened his mouth slightly, and opened his eyes round.

Lu Zizheng frowned, and asked her in a calm tone, "Why are you here?"

Zhou Fangfan lowered his head slightly, not daring to look at Lu Zizheng, and replied in a low voice: "A few years ago, I came here to visit my grandpa, and found that my uncle was also here. When I came to visit my grandpa again later, I would come here to meet my uncle. Let me say a few words. I met you a few years ago, and you said that you would meet again by fate, so I often wait here, hoping that the fate will come. I didn't expect that today would be such a coincidence, and I really met you."

Lu Zizheng squatted down and wiped his father's face on the tombstone with his hands, and said softly, "So, I would like to thank you for always chatting with Dad."

Zhou Fangfan bit his lip and looked at Lu Zizheng with a complicated expression. Finally, he also squatted down and said sincerely in a low voice: "Every time I come to see my uncle, I have to say a hundred words of sorry to him in my heart, I'm sorry for hurting you. I missed you. Today, I finally have the opportunity to personally say sorry to you in front of you. Zizheng, I’m sorry, I was not brave enough back then, I was too cowardly..."

Lu Zizheng turned his head and looked at her with serious eyes, which gradually became sharp...

How could her apology be said so lightly?Sorry three words, how much weight?The room full of psychological books, and the scar on her wrist all prove what kind of nightmare this woman in front of her once made her fall into.

That day, she woke up from the hospital bed with thick gauze wrapped around her wrist. Her mother cried and asked her with red eyes: "Your father is gone, and you are leaving too. Do you want to leave mother alone?"

At that time, she clearly realized that she couldn't go, she still had responsibilities, and she still had to take care of her mother.

However, she was still very unhappy. She read a lot of books in an attempt to heal herself, but it was only up and down.

At night, she often couldn't sleep, but within half a year, she was only skin and bones.

She asked her mother: "Am I as perverted as they said? Mom, did I remember wrongly, did I really force Xiaofan, why can't I remember clearly? Mom, I don’t want to be a pervert, but I I can’t change it, mom, what should I do, I’m so scared.”

It was Mom who hugged her and gave her confidence over and over again, telling her: "You're not a pervert, you're right, they're wrong, they're bad, they don't know anything, it's all bullshit."

The year of the senior high school entrance examination was when her condition was at its worst. After transferring to another school, she was like a mute in an unfamiliar environment. Apart from studying, she was immersed in her own world.Doing homework at night, often crying while doing it.

Later, her mother took her to see a psychiatrist, and after the high school entrance examination was over and she was admitted to high school, her mother said that this was a brand new beginning and everything would be fine, so she slowly got better.

It's a pity that, against her will, she still met a junior high school classmate in high school, and the rumors and rumors about her spread to everyone in her age group within a short time.Because of the colored eyes of her classmates, it seemed that all the bad things were related to her. Even if she lost her class fee, it was said that her father died early and her life was not good, so she privately believed that she was the most suspected.As a result, the nightmare that I thought could end came back aggressively...

Lu Zizheng raised her hand and squinted at her wrist. She wanted to coldly reject Zhou Fangfan's apology, but when she raised her hand, the first thing she saw was not the horrific scar, but the scar that Jiang Huaixi gave her. Yes, that intimate watch.

All of a sudden, all her resentment was like a dark cloud meeting the sunshine, and slowly, it dissipated...

Maybe, everything is like this, it was planned long ago, there is a cause and an effect, without the cause that Zhou Fangfan and the others planted in the past, probably, it would not be able to produce such a sweet fruit as Jiang Huaixi, right?Could it be that all the shadows in her life were waiting for the warm sun of Jiang Huaixi to appear?

Lu Zizheng sat on the ground leaning on his father's tombstone, looked at the wide strap on his wrist, and smiled with relief: "Fang Fan, it's all over, let's forget it..."

Zhou Fangfan sat down beside her, his gaze was as deep as water, and he murmured softly, "Forgot?"

Lu Zizheng turned her head to the side, looked at her side face similar to that of her youth, and thought of the time when she sat next to her in class and secretly watched her, she felt a little melancholy. She looked up at the clear blue sky, and suddenly asked her "Xiao Fan, do you still believe in love?" The tone of voice was familiar and familiar to Zhou Fangfan.

Zhou Fangfan smiled softly: "Love? Zizheng, I'm getting married tomorrow. I met the bridegroom on a blind date half a year ago. My parents think we are a good match in every way, and it's time to worry about the age. , it’s settled. I came here today to talk to Grandpa about this in person.”

Lu Zizheng's heart seemed to be hit hard by a sap, and it hurt dullly for a while.

Grandma Jiang said, "Huaixi, your brother is settled, don't worry about grandma, when will the other bracelet in grandma's hand be handed over to my good grandson-in-law?", still ringing in my ears.

Zhou Fangfan suddenly approached Lu Zizheng, pressed against her ear, and said softly, "Zizheng, let me tell you a secret, my first love was a girl, I liked her for a long time, and later I also regretted it for a long time In this life, since her, I probably will never be able to like someone so much again. I want to tell that girl that she must be braver and happier than me."