Long Wish Ji Hongxiu

In the winter of the first year of Jingyun, Liquanfang in Chang'an.

I was wearing a monk's robe, with a scarf wrapped around my head, which barely shielded my bald head from the harsh winter wind. I followed a small official in a green robe to a tall mansion comparable to a palace.

I haven't been here before, before I was cut off from this world, when I was still a royal, I couldn't come here.At that time, I never imagined that I would wear a monk's robe and enter this high mansion, and for the master here, or myself, I would cut off endless fate.

As soon as the door was closed, the winter chill was cut off, and the room where the stove was burning was scorching hot. I stood respectfully in the hall with my head bowed, and heard the sound of people rustling down in the room.

The person sitting on the main seat walked down the steps himself, his tone full of urgency: "Chai Shanggong..."

"Princess." I smelled the scent of sandalwood from the temple on my body, and quickly interrupted the secular title she blurted out, "Poor nun Xiuming."

The person in front of me obviously froze. I could afford to wait after reciting the Buddha for almost half a year. I just hung my head in silence, waiting for the question from Princess Taiping of Zhenguo.

"Head up," she said.

I raised my head, and the princess was still as gorgeous as I had imagined, but I was slightly surprised that she looked much more haggard than the last time I saw her.

The four eyes met, but I was calm, Princess Taiping looked away first.

"I thought seeing you was like seeing an old friend. You are the one who is by her side, and you will have her kind of plum blossoms in your bones that others can't learn. It seems that I was wrong. You have been deceived by that person." I can’t find a trace of her anymore.” Princess Taiping never considers other people’s thoughts when she lectures, she feels uncomfortable, so she blurts out, although the words are perfect, when she looks sideways at me, that kind of In the contemptuous eyes, I still caught a trace of expectation, "Did you really let her go?"

I smiled like the great monk in the temple, and said: "The poor nun heard that Zhaorong has entered the auspicious land for ten thousand years, the princess has done everything she can, what else can't she let go?"

"Why did you let her go so quickly? Is she a damned person?" Enraged by my bland words, Princess Taiping asked, "What kind of cause did she plant to get such a result?"

I was also amazed that I, who used to stay in the palace, was gone. I was not afraid of the princess's anger at all, but I could continue to maintain the smile on my lips, and clasped my hands together: "The princess asks about cause and effect, it is better to ask about extinction."

Although Princess Taiping loves to build Buddhist temples as much as her mother, she is not as good at listening to the Buddhist language as her mother. Hearing what I said, she has already lost interest, snorted coldly, and turned back to the main seat.

Staring at her back full of hostility, I knew that I still had to say: "The princess said 'so fast', what is fast? The princess or the poor nun, remember her for life, and only for a lifetime. Hurry up, but what if she can be remembered by future generations? Generation after generation, until the end of time, no one will let her go."

I saw her standing away from her back for a moment, said a Buddha, and recited the "Lotus Sutra" with closed eyes: "All dharmas come from the original, and always have their own appearance of extinction."

I don't study Buddhism deeply, and among the twists and turns of terms taught to me by the great monk of Guangde Temple, only the word "quiet" is engraved in my heart.I will always remember that summer night when the sky was full of stars. I looked northeast in the courtyard of Guangdefang, and slammed on the closed door, but only heard the clang of the iron lock. , One sound at a time, all smashed into my secular heart.

At that time, I thought that I would never let go of this life. It was not until I knew what extinction is that I really touched the deepest heart of that woman for the first time.

Shangguan Wan'er, I don't have the right to call her by her name directly, and I am willing to honor her as Shangguan Zhaorong. It has nothing to do with power, but comes from the heart.

In the first year of Shenlong, the female emperor abdicated and her third son became emperor. This incident may have caused disturbances in the previous dynasty, but in the harem, we don't think it has anything to do with us.Whether the emperor is changed or not, the slaves and servants are all lifeless, unable to see the blue sky outside the high palace walls.

I am one of the maidservants in thousands of palaces. I have been doing things with my head down for a long time, and too many people forget to look up, but there is a rumor that often lingers in my heart, which makes me often look up to see the sun, the moon, or the sky. is a star.

Even if it is delusional, I am looking forward to another world beyond the palace walls.

Before this, there was only one person who had achieved it. From the lowest level slave of Ye Ting Palace to the inner prime minister in charge of the center, many palace people dared not even think about the step she took.

It was in the dreamlike reality that I met Zhao Rong.

She had just become the emperor's Zhao Rong, and she was officially stationed in the Zhongshu Province. Perhaps she felt that there was no one around, and some things were inconvenient to discuss, so she gave an order to select a palace official who could read and write from the inner palace to be the secretary of the inner chancellor.

I didn't expect the opportunity to come so quickly, those of us in the palace would be envied for a long time if we could catch a glimpse of Zhaorong's appearance, but I actually entered the final selection and accepted Zhaorong's summons.

"What's your name?" She picked a few people to ask, but she asked me.

"My maidservant's name is Chai Yan." Although the voice was gentle, I lowered my head and dared not look at her.

She seemed to see my nervousness, and she smiled when she asked, and her voice became more gentle: "It seems to have a history?"

She is very good at mobilizing the atmosphere, and I relaxed a little, and the answer became much more fluent: "It's Jiang Wentong's poem: I hope that the light will be far away, and Sui Yan will return to Chai Jing."

"There is such a reason for the name, and the words on the document are also obviously different. Are you also a daughter of an official family?"

A "yes" continued to shorten the distance. Thinking about Zhaorong's life experience rumored in the palace, I felt that my family's predicament was nothing at all: "If you go back to Zhaorong, the servant is from the Chai family of Pingyang, and the family is in decline. It's..."

"The context is not broken, so what's the point?" She denied my words, and I raised my head in doubt, and I will never forget that glimpse.

There are rumors in the palace that Zhaorong is stunning, and I also followed the trend of fashion to learn to draw a red plum between the eyebrows. Before I met her, I never imagined that the flower on her forehead was so bright and beautiful, and it was engraved on it. It's different from the ones drawn with a brush. After looking at it for a long time, even my forehead and heart began to ache.

Seeing that I was obsessed with watching, she ignored it and just smiled and said, "Come and be my company from now on."

I don't know how she picked me out of all the palace people.It was unavoidable to be a little panicked, but when I saw that there were two other people living with me, the panic was slightly subdued.

I'm not the only one picked out this time.There is one surnamed He Lou who is the oldest. She is already in the palace.There is also Wu Wuyinger, a clever little girl who can write articles very quickly.Among them, I even felt that I was a little dull, and I didn't understand what exactly Zhao Rong liked in me.

The surname He Lou is uncommon, and the surname Fifth is even rarer. Zhao Rong asked me for my name on purpose. Could it be that I was chosen because of my name?

I smiled at my delusion. Although it is Jiang Yan's poem, it is just an auspicious saying of peace in the world. What can make Zhaorong tempted?

It’s just that Zhaorong was selected to be a member of the Ministry of Education, not just to enjoy this status. We have to learn to write articles on the outer court that are different from those in the inner court, so as to be able to pass Zhaorong’s eyes.

"Chai Yan, although your diction is beautiful, not all edicts have to be written like this." She shook her head at my article more than once, and it is common to send back and rewrite, but she is so persistent, just instructing , Never want to change the person, "The more flamboyant the edict for praise and praise, the better, but the edict for doing practical things should not be difficult for people to understand."

She warned me this sentence not once or twice, but she was so patient every time she said it. I listened to it in my heart, but I couldn’t write it out, so I had to hold my breath first, spread out another piece of paper, and answered : "The servant understands."

She nodded without saying anything else, took down the high-pile memos on several cases, and began to approve seriously. For me, it was an article of the whole work, but for her, it was just a small episode in the work.

She frowned slightly when she shook her head, maybe she was smiling when I saw her for the first time, so I was very nostalgic for that bright spring-like smile, and never wanted to see her frown again.If she frowned because of my article, I would feel guilty if she didn't say it.

Maybe this is Zhaorong's charm, she doesn't force you to do anything, but you always want to do something more for her.

Even as dumb as I am...

"What kind of person do you think Zhaorong is?" Lying on the couch in the dormitory, I turned off the lamp, and I suddenly asked this question.

It is not spacious for three people to live in a small house, but for me who is used to living in palace dormitories, it is enough to have a small couch exclusively for myself. As far as she could see, He Lou was cleaning her saber. She had just been made a general, and she had to go out to watch the night later.

"Zhaorong is a diligent person, right?" The sword was sheathed, and He Lou's steady voice followed, "I often see the lights of the Zhongshu Province are still on when I watch the night. If there is one figure, it must be Zhaorong."

"Zhaorong is also very good at maneuvering. She not only keeps in touch with the queen, but also often meets with Princess Taiping of Zhenguo." Fifth Ying'er lay on the couch with her hands on her head, talking about Zhaorong she saw in her eyes, "Chaorong The powers in the world are fighting each other and even being at odds with each other, but there is only Zhaorong, no matter which faction has to sell her face."

That's right, I've only been with her for a few months, do I just want to see clearly this inner prime minister whom the empress has taken a fancy to?Since then, I no longer have any delusions, follow her to do things well, and trust my natural intimacy with her, even though she is a person I can't see through.

The reign title of Shenlong was used for two and a half years, and during these two and a half years, the world was very uneven.I thought I could learn slowly from Zhaorong's side and help her worry, but the disaster didn't give me much time, so I had to go to the front desk to work for Zhaorong with my shallow knowledge.

Maybe it's because my writing is really eye-catching, or maybe she's too busy to read my diction, and the edicts are getting more urgent every day, and as long as a sentence is cleared up, it can be sent. I gradually changed from a literati Withdrawing from the role, I feel more and more that I am doing something.

That's right, it's the feeling of doing things, knowing that your edict will affect the people's livelihood and the people, and it can reassure the officials who are fighting on the front line, that feeling that the country needs you.

That feeling is poison, and once you try it, it's addictive.

You are no longer a dispensable slave, you are an indispensable person.

"When I was your age, I was the emperor's talented person." It was always at night that Zhao Rong had the time to talk about other things. She had just put down the report from the household department in her hand, and it seemed that she was going to rest again today. Zhongshu saved, "At least it's a fifth rank. At that time, the Queen of Heaven was supporting the court, and I didn't know how to do things like you."

The sudden admiration made me a little apprehensive, but she signaled me to sit down when I was about to get up, so I lowered my head to hide my blushing, and replied, "Zhao Rong is absurd."

She shook her head with a smile, and asked me: "You are doing the work of Zhongshu Sheren, but you are an unranked Shanggong, do you feel wronged?"

She even condescended to ask me if I was wronged, and it was impossible to feel wronged just because of this question. I suppressed the emotion in my heart and replied as calmly as possible: "It is already the envy of the world that a servant girl can do things for Zhaorong. Good job."

Talking to Zhao Rong in private should be a flattering and refreshing thing, she will never put on airs, but no matter how friendly she is, it always gives people a sense of alienation.I don't know where that sense of alienation comes from, but it's always that sense of alienation that drives me, asking me to answer her questions with the words on the scene, but she doesn't bother, as if she's used to being perfunctory like this.

"I don't know if it's a good job, but it must be a hard job." But this time it was different, her gentle smile was tinged with bitterness, she was talking about me, and she seemed to be talking about herself, "I have Power, how many marriages have to be dealt with, sitting here and dealing with the affairs of the world is already exhausting, and leaving here will have to be exhausted in the whirlpool."

I couldn't get in the middle of the conversation, Zhongshu Sheng, where people come and go, only the two of us were left in the middle of the night, and the night sky was silent, casting a layer of lonely and gentle moonlight on her.

"Chai Yan." When she called me, I raised my head and looked at the red plum blossom on her forehead, which was a bit hazy in the night. She raised her finger to point to my position and asked, "You know the hardest thing about sitting there is what?"

In fact, I think it is quite difficult to do anything. If I was asked to answer, I could only reluctantly answer: "I am afraid that if a decision is made wrong or a statement is wrong, it will miss a major event in the world."

But she shook her head, and said very cryptically: "Since you haven't realized it yet, then you haven't encountered such a thing."

As soon as the words were finished, footsteps sounded in the quiet outside room. Zhaorong seemed to have known that someone was coming, and sat silently to greet him. Only I looked around suspiciously, and saw He Lou in full armor.

"Your official has seen Zhaorong." She was holding a box, and she was wearing armour, so it was inconvenient to salute, so she just nodded.

Zhaorong motioned for her to put the box over, opened it and asked, "Have you checked everything?"

He Lou replied, "I found out."

"Who is she contacting?"

"It's Princess Anle."

"What benefit does the princess give her?"

"A house in Chang'an City, worth 100 million."

They talked about things that I couldn't understand at all. Although the three of us who followed Zhaorong lived together, we were usually busy with our own business, especially He Lou, who was the general, and us. There is no connection.

Until I caught a glimpse of a letter in the box and heard Zhaorong sneer: "I was bought by these things, why didn't Ying'er ask for a higher price? My secret is only worth 100 million yuan?"

Yinger?Fifth mile?

A chill rose from his back.

I remembered that Zhao Rong had just asked me if I knew what was the most difficult thing about sitting there.

Zhaorong will never ask you for no reason, she has a smile on her face, but a knife is erected in her heart.

If... If I wasn't so naive, would I violate her taboo, and He Lou would be the one who came to investigate?

That's right, how could I be drowned in the warmth of the spring breeze on her face, the person who can sit on the position of Governor of Zhongshu is not as simple as the surface.

"Chai Yan."

She was calling me again, this time I shivered and looked over shiveringly.

The smile on her face no longer made me feel warm, I almost stared at her and asked me: "Do you want the mansion in Chang'an?"

What... what did she just say?Princess Anle promised Fifth Yinger a mansion in Chang'an, and Yinger sold Zhaorong for this mansion.

She is testing me?

"Slaves dare not!" I hurriedly knelt down, as a court official, I could already call myself a subordinate like He Lou, but I was still as humble as when I first met, the trace of admiration I used to have was more like fear of her now Machiavellian.

But she closed the box, got up and walked towards me, even reaching out to help me.The first time I was touched by her, I was not excited at all, but became more and more nervous, and for the first time felt the suffocating pressure brought by the aura around her.

"There is a house in Guangdefang, which is the inheritance of the former Taiwei Liu Rengui and Liu Xianggong. His descendants want to sell it, and I was thinking of buying it for you." After Zhaorong helped me up, he withdrew his hand and left me alone. People were at a loss and made arrangements, "Since He Lou has become a general, he has to live in the palace. Ying'er has Princess Anle to buy property for her. It's not my turn. This house will be given to her." You."

In my capacity, do I live in the former prime minister's house?I stared blankly at Zhaorong, and even forgot to thank you.

She also didn't want to listen to Xie En in that scene, so she calmly accepted Yinger's betrayal and my constant dullness, turned around and went to the office to remove the obtrusive letter box, took down an official document, and told me: "It's okay here, you go back and rest."

Her few cases are always piled up like a mountain, and those official documents come back again and again, as if there is no end. Once she sits at the desk and picks up a pen, she has no other emotions, only the words on the memorandum and the words in her eyes are full of emotions. thing.Other things are small episodes, and the only thing that can keep her worried from beginning to end is the world she writes.

The palace lanterns were flickering, and when I was standing and she was sitting, I could take off the shackles of my status as a subject, and look at her like an ordinary person, how she endured, and how she did things.

To do things, those of us who work hard, no matter what happens, we still have to do things calmly.When you calm down to a certain level, you become lonely.

The sense of alienation in her...is it loneliness?

I pursed my lips, I couldn't believe the speculation in my heart, how could Zhao Rong, who is admired by thousands of people, be lonely?

But her seemingly ordinary hard work is indeed unusual tonight.She had already put down the official documents and was supposed to go to rest, but after confirming Yinger's betrayal, she decided to stay up all night.

She works in a venting way, exhausting her body, and letting these words keep her company.

Only a lonely man longs so earnestly for company.

I didn't leave that night, but gathered my dress and sat down, silently accompanying Zhaorong, working until dawn.

I think I know what's the hardest thing about sitting here.

It is concentration.

It is the determination to keep going even if there is fog ahead.

Gives both kindness and majesty, and never believes in the loyalty of others. She may still trust you the most at one moment, and turn against you the next moment.

With my identity, I have no chance to meet the legendary generation of empresses, but I can see the shadow of the rumored empress in Zhaorong.

Will Zhaorong understand how I feel?Perhaps when the empress inspected her back then, she used even crueler methods.

So I thought of the red plum on her forehead again, the most beautiful red plum in Guochao, nourished by life as soil.

I stopped the pen in my hand, and silently closed the rouge box. From that day on, I no longer follow the trend of red plum makeup, I think I am not worthy.

"Chai Yan." In the crowded Zhongshu Province, she handed me the letter she had just finished writing, "You run and hand it to Su Xianggong's envoy outside."

In the third year of Shenlong, since the beginning of summer, the uninterrupted famine in the kingdom has become even more serious. The Ministry of Education is so busy that it is all about famine.Su Gui, the attendant, was sent to Hebei, where the disaster was worst. In order to reassure Su Gui, no matter how busy Zhao Rong was, she would write a letter to him in person, and then asked her cronies and attendants to deliver the letter to Su Gui's emissary.

She let me go, so... am I already her confidant?

I took the letter carefully, said "yes", and turned to leave, but saw He Lou in armor rushing in through the crowd.

"Zhaorong! The crown prince has raised troops and is coming to the palace!"

Crown Prince Li Chongjun, because he was a concubine, was overwhelmed by Princess Anle everywhere. Although we don't know him well, we also know what the word "rise up" means.

The prince rebelled!The prince who had no sense of existence actually rebelled!

I saw Zhaorong stand up slowly, looking at He Lou, wanting to make sure of something.

He Lou understood, and replied: "The crown prince just went to Liang Wang's mansion, and he heard that he had killed Liang Wang and his son-in-law. He is coming here, and he said he wants to kill Zhaorong!"

Zhongshu Sheng was shocked and silent, waiting for Zhaorong's judgment.

The sudden incident in broad daylight caught everyone by surprise, but what I am more concerned about is why the prince came to Zhao Rong.What Zhao Rong did was what a prime minister should do. How could someone care about his life when he dealt carefully in the complicated political situation?

Yes, I remembered, when I was living outside the palace, there were rumors even in places like Guangde Square, saying that Zhaorong helped the queen to make a big move for officials, said that Zhaorong was greedy for money and started construction projects, said that Zhaorong I sneered at those who kept countless male favorites in private.There are all kinds of rumors in the market, but I know that Zhaorong's mansion in Qunxian Square is only in the southeast corner, and he did not occupy the land of the temple like Zong Xianggong, carefully avoiding the gods and Buddhas in the nunnery, even He Lou They all adopted adopted daughters, but Zhaorong was always a lone minister.

"Chai Yan, why don't you leave soon?" She reminded me aloud, and I hurriedly followed.

This time was an unprecedented thrill. I just followed into the Suzhang Gate, and when I turned around, I could see the flashes of the rebel soldiers' weapons, and He Lou closed the door of the pavilion.It was only then that I realized that if the crown prince had to go after Zhaorong, then I, the female officer next to Zhaorong, would surely die as well. Zhaorong reminded me specifically that she wanted to save me.

Suddenly, I stood side by side with He Lou: "Zhao Rong, hurry up! This slave is here to resist!"

"What's the trouble?" He Lou pressed the sword with one hand, and pushed me away with the other, "Go with Zhaorong, I'm here!"

Zhaorong gave me a meaningful look, and went straight to the emperor's bedroom regardless of whether I followed or not.

I don't know how future generations of history writers will record this coup, maybe they will blame Zhaorong for the prince's defeat?Or maybe because of this incident, Zhaorong will be completely included in the Wei Party?I was surprised that I took the initiative to think in the worst direction. Zhaorong can be missed by others, so no matter what kind of dirty water is poured on her in the future, it seems not surprising.

Does Zhaorong care?

She didn't seem to care, that incident didn't affect her, she was still working hard and never asked the public's opinion of her.

But she seems to care all the time. In the dead of night, I often see her writing a couplet of poems repeatedly:

Taiping's rhetoric flourishes, and Ji Hongxiu is a long-term wish.

I thought that the poems she could write easily were meaningless, and the poem she wrote when she was fortunate enough to visit Sanhui Temple was just one of many flattery lines, but she wrote it over and over again, using the last In a solemn way, write these ten characters in the most elegant block letters.

She longs for peace in the world.

A person who has the power to win Zichen longs for the peace of the world.

I don't know if there is a little bit of this desire for herself, she is the most beautiful prime minister, but it is still difficult to yearn for a lifetime of peace.

On the 28th of the first lunar month of the fourth year of Jinglong, a day that was neither a festival nor a celebration, she, who had never invested in temples, suddenly drew up an edict to expand the Shengshan Temple in Dongdu.

It is said that there were many temples in the Southern Dynasties. In fact, there were also many temples in the Tang Dynasty. There were three or four temples in each of the two capitals. There were so many pagodas in forests that few people cared which one was here and which one was there.I searched in my mind for a long time what kind of temple Shengshan Temple is, and finally remembered with difficulty that it was built when the empress died in the first year of Shenlong and Imami prayed for his mother.

Nowadays, although the former harem still often mentions the empress I have never met, no one pays attention to the empress. They only regard her as a precedent for a woman to be in power, and she is mentioned in the court like a curse.Although the temple far away in the Eastern Capital is a piece of filial piety in name, no one has thought of it for more than four years.

After the thrilling coup in Shenlong's last year, Zhaorong's sense of loneliness became more and more obvious. She worked so hard that she became numb, as if her eyes shone with vitality only when she mentioned the empress.

Between them... isn't there a feud?

I have heard some rumors that Zhaorong endured humiliation by the empress's side, gained trust with feigned loyalty, and finally waited for the opportunity of the Shenlong coup to avenge the innocent family that was wiped out.What a thrilling and exciting remake of the story!Others listened to the secrets of the palace, but I was sweating coldly. With the sageness of the empress, would I really believe the feigned loyalty?

I took over the edict prepared by Zhaorong. I was going to issue it directly, but I couldn't help peeking at it, and asked doubtfully, "Is it too little to expand only fifty steps?"

Zhaorong didn't take it seriously: "It's already done."

I was still hesitant: "Zhaorong, I heard that when the officials of the two capitals expanded the temple, they would often offer some tribute to the gods and Buddhas when they expanded the temple. Princess Anle likes luxurious things. When donating to Zhaocheng Temple, a hundred treasure incense burners were presented; and An Guoxiang Wang was calm, and when he expanded Zhaofu Temple, he sent a plaque with his own handwriting. No matter what, no matter whether it is precious or not, it is all a heart, and it shows the appearance. Is it also..."

She nodded and happily agreed to my proposal. Seeing her slender fingers caressing the pen holder, I guessed that she wanted to send the inscriptions, so I quickly found the cloth she used to use for inscriptions, and laid it carefully. at her desk.She accepted my hospitality, thought for a while, and began to write those five characters on the cloth with a pen:

Long Wish Ji Hongxiu

I think I can guess that she will write these five characters, but when I actually see her write it down, I still can't hide the great shock in my heart.

"Chai Yan, I like your name." Her words confirmed my speculation. When she chose me, she really considered my name. , I can also go back to the mountains and forests."

I savored the meaning of these words carefully, and dealt with them carefully: "Since the Yuan Jinglong was changed, the famine in the country has been reduced a lot, and the slaves will see peace in a short time. At that time, Zhaorong will ask the sage to resign, and it will be a success." Retired."

Zhaorong just smiled and said nothing, and stretched the last stroke of the character "Xiu" that was being written longer than before.

After writing, holding the pen and staring at it for a long time, I suddenly heard her say:

"I seem... I really miss her a little bit."

I don't know if the twinkling in her eyes is starlight or tears, I have never seen her cry, and the light just flashed by, and immediately disappeared in the night.

"I keep a lot of calligraphy and paper on which she wrote this couplet of poems." In Liquanfang's Zhenguo Taiping Princess Mansion, I mentioned this story to her.

Sure enough, the princess asked eagerly, "Where is it?"

I smiled and said very easily: "June Gengzi Night, burn it."

"All burned?" The princess's face immediately darkened.

I was a little bit ashamed to whet her appetite, but I wasn't ashamed that I burned the precious manuscript of Zhao Rong.

On Gengzi Day in June of the fourth year of Jinglong, I should be on duty at Zhongshu Province on that day.

In fact, after five years of investigation, at least in the eyes of others, Zhaorong has already relied heavily on me.The official duty schedule would change frequently, so it was extremely normal for Zhao Rong to have other arrangements.

But for nearly a month, I have been feeling uneasy.There are still many people who are as worried as I am. The emperor died suddenly and the cause of death is unknown. With our identities, we can't pry into the secrets. Maybe Zhao Rong, who knows the secrets, keeps silent and still works in the Ministry of Education as usual every day.Everyone felt that the little emperor who was hurriedly helped up would not be able to sit firmly on the throne, and they were all waiting, even expecting something big to happen in the palace.

And I found that He Lou was on duty more and more times in person. She never left Zhaorong's side, and she was full of murderous looks.

Zhaorong didn't say anything, I didn't dare to ask, just relying on my intuition, and her increasingly obvious sense of loneliness, I wanted to stay with her in the palace as much as possible.I often go there when I shouldn't be on duty, and she doesn't ask, and arranges for me to do something when I come.

I was supposed to be on duty on Gengzi Day, but she asked me to go back.

"You've been staying in Zhongshu Province for several days. If you don't let you go back, they should say that I'm unreasonable." She smiled as gently as when we first met, and the caring she spoke made me feel Like a spring breeze.

"But Zhaorong often stays in Zhongshu Province, Zhaorong doesn't feel tired at all, how dare the servants go back to rest?" I politely declined her kindness, thinking that at this moment, the lonely she might need me in her heart.

She looked at me with a smile, and asked casually, "Do you want to be like me?"

If it were normal, I would have knelt down and said "I don't dare", but the smile on her face made people feel that she was joking, and I didn't need to be so serious, so I just nodded embarrassingly, confirming my expectation: " if you can……"

"No, it's not possible." She ruthlessly denied my delusions, saw my blank face, but restrained her serious tone, and explained patiently, "I can't turn back on this road, but You can still turn around. When the world is at peace, Sui Yan can return to Chaijing."

"Is it just because Zhaorong can't turn back that he insists on going on like this?" People who work hard will never do things passively. I don't believe her words. Wind and rain, struggling between life and death between heaven and earth?"

When she heard me say that, her face changed slightly, as if she was embarrassed by what I said.

"Go back tonight." The embarrassment was only a moment, but she still urged me, "Go back and have a good rest, there are more important things for you to do tomorrow, so don't blame me if you don't have time to rest."

She spoke easily, and advanced my future time, easily dispelled my worries, knowing that she would be annoyed if I didn't order her again, so she received Zhao Rong's kindness, and left Tai Chi Palace after noon.

Since then, I feel that it will be difficult to forgive this decision to leave in my life.

That summer night was not as muggy as the previous few days. The stars in the sky were very clear, and a bright river of stars hung in the night sky.The curfew has already passed, and the gate of Guangdefang is locked. I stand in Zhaorongci's mansion, looking up at the distant galaxy.

The galaxy shined on me before I jumped out of the palace wall. It seemed that the stars moved, but in fact they remained the same forever.It flows in the sky forever, keeps a distance from the world, overlooks the vicissitudes of life indifferently, never responds to the yearning of the world, and has its own trajectory.

Suddenly, a sense of panic welled up in my heart.

Zhaorong looks at me, is it like the galaxy looking down on the world?

Everyone envied Zhaorong for giving me the mansion, but I often felt like I was sitting on pins and needles in this mansion.I even felt that she was angry out of desperation, because of Wu Yinger's betrayal, she wanted to bet that I would betray her too.She never took special care to try to win me over. She relied on my self-consciousness to do everything. When I asked her for advice, she would not hesitate to teach me. If I didn’t go to her, she would not come to me.I don't know if I'm also being watched by He Lou. Anyway, up to now, everyone thinks that I can dispel Zhao Rong's suspicion by being cautious, but I know that maybe it's just because I'm stupid, I just know how to work hard , It's hard to grow those fancy intestines.

There are more open and secret fights in the upward direction, and she seems to be hoping that there will be a dull person by her side in the downward direction, so that she does not have to turn around when speaking, which will make her shuddering heart feel more comfortable.

If Zhaorong looked at me, if she looked down with compassion, then when I look at her, I should be looking up at the starry sky.

I watched the Milky Way gradually flow, and suddenly fell like raindrops, my heart was empty, and I hurriedly looked in the direction of Tai Chi Palace.Guangdefang is not far from Taiji Palace, and I can see the flames soaring into the sky.

Something happened in the palace?

Suddenly remembering the coup in Shenlong's last year, Zhao Rong didn't forget to take me with him when he left, and wanted to save my life.

The feeling of panic became more obvious, and an ominous premonition came to my mind. I hurried to the north gate.

"What happened in the palace?" I rushed to the gate of the square, only to see the soldiers standing at the door with their backs facing through the crack of the door.

No one answered me, but the solemn atmosphere and the increasingly obvious fire shook my nerves.If it was just an ordinary curfew, how could there be so many soldiers standing in front of the square gate so close to the palace?

"Open the door! Open the door! I want to enter the palace!" The story was repeating itself, but I was not by her side. I slammed on the door of the workshop, hoping to attract the attention of the soldiers outside the door. ! I have a whitebait bag from the emperor! I want to enter the palace! I want to enter the palace!"

I took out the whitebait bag I was carrying with me, logically I shouldn't have this thing with my identity, it was Zhaorong who made an exception for me to enter the palace—everything I had was given by Zhaorong.

The door gap was too small, and the whitebait bag couldn't be handed out. No one paid any attention to me. My hand was red patting on the door, but I could only hear the rattling sound of the big iron lock.

"Let me out! Let me out!"

The people who came out to watch the excitement in Guangdefang looked at me like a madman. They didn't know what Zhaorong said to me. When I couldn't get it back, I thought I was stupid.