what!Is this protagonist a scumbag?

She is not my first love, nor the last person I like, but she is the one who treats me best.

She is not my favorite, nor my close relative, but she is someone I am willing to risk my life to save.

But I fell in love with someone else seven days after saving her.

Ah~ Maybe I'm just a scumbag.

The whole story of the matter began with the university life four years ago.

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Yin Jiudong, a girl who is not like a girl in the eyes of the public.

Because of her boyish personality, they all called her Brother Dong.

"I came from a middle-class family, but it wasn't complete. I lived with my mother and younger brother. My father abandoned us and married a widow who was helpful to his career. Although my mother never allowed me to say that about her."

Because he had no father since childhood, Jiudong also became like a tomboy, and became very different from ordinary girls.

Because he is often bullied and ridiculed by others, he often fights with others.

"From a young age, I thought that only by becoming strong can I not be bullied, and only by becoming strong can I protect the people I want to protect. But in the eyes of others, I became a bad boy, which made my mother worry."

Jiudong's eyes dimmed.

"I clearly remember that that night, my mother called my grandma with the two of us behind her back:

"How difficult it is to be a single mother... I live outside with two children alone, and I don't even have any relatives. How can I survive... Because of being a single parent, Jiudong is often ridiculed and bullied by classmates. I know that Jiudong himself Xiao is a good boy. He goes to school during the day and does his homework after school at night. He takes care of his younger brother. If it wasn't for the other children's harsh words, how could Jiudong have an argument with them? Jiudong fought back, but became the one who hit them ...'

From then on, my mother also changed from an ordinary housewife to a strong woman, working starry night, scraping things together, and opening a shop with a loan. After a long time, she finally paid off all her debts and lived a better life. The business is booming day by day, and my mother is the boss herself, opening several chain restaurants and hotels.

As I grew up, coupled with my usual experience, my words and deeds became more stable and rigorous. At that time, I was able to support half of my family.

Although he is very careful in his words and deeds, and there are never fewer rumors, but after all, he has grown up and can see it, so he no longer cares about it.

I don't admit defeat, so I may be a bit strong in life. Since I left home in middle school, my personal life is quite independent. I strive for excellence in everything I do and never rely on others. "

Yin Jiudong was unsmiling and indifferent to others because of her childhood injury. Her classmates said that she seemed to be in two worlds with others.

"Later, I also gradually understood that I need to communicate with the outside world, I need to be close, and I need friends. I began to like joking, and I liked seeing other people smile, because laughter symbolizes beauty and often makes others happy. Therefore, I and boys Most of them are buddies, and most of them exist like friends of the opposite sex in front of girls, so they are called Brother Dong."

He has never been in a relationship, although he has been pursued by more than one boy, but because of Jiudong's independence, strength, and even the shadow cast by his father when he was young, he doesn't trust boys.

This was the night of the sophomore year. Jiu Dong and Shi Xun were bullied by hooligans. Jiu Dong protected Shi Xun, but it happened that Bai Siyu rescued them. In the evening, when Bai Siyu was treating Yin Jiudong's wound, Jiu Dong What Si Yu said.

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My name is Yin Jiudong!

I went to college in one or four years, not very close to home, but not too far.

The location is North City.

In general holidays, I only rest for three to five days, and I will not go home. I will only go back during the holidays of about a week and the long winter and summer vacations.

There are four people in the university dormitory, namely Bai Siyu, Fang Shixun, Ban Yue and me.

I am the youngest in the dormitory, and I have to call them sisters when I am polite.

At the beginning of the university term, because of a fever and illness, I came a little late for about a month, and I also listened to the "scriptures" of the elders at home.

Grandma always said: "You must be careful when you go out. You must not be careless. You must study hard at school. The rest is not important. Don't be obedient just because they said a word or two..."

And I always go in one ear and out the other, "I know, I know, I don't think about anything else, I will study hard..."

The university in Beicheng started school on September [-]th, and after avoiding a week of military training, I was still a little happy in my heart.

This time, I was the last one to go at the beginning of school.

Although it is still summer in other places, the temperature in Beicheng has dropped to autumn, and people have to wear long sleeves and a coat in the morning.

When I arrived, my roommates in the same dormitory were all in class.

Waiting to go back to the dormitory.

There are four beds, each of which occupies a corner of the room, and my bed is near the door.

Because I spent a long time with the dormitory, I got acquainted quickly.

When I was not there, Fang Shixun, Bai Siyu and Ban Yue were all three of them together, and then the four of us walked together.

After that, Shi Xun and I were companions, and Si Yu and Ban Yue were companions.

Shi Xun is a bit introverted and doesn't like to talk much; Si Yu and Ban Yue are cheerful and talkative girls, and the two of them chatted and made a lot of fun in the dormitory.

But Si Yu is more humorous and boyish, with neat short hair, a camouflage coat, and black trousers;

She is 1.7 meters tall, just 5 centimeters taller than me. She often works out, and her figure looks more linear than mine. She has a fair oval face, which fully meets the standard of a handsome little brother in everyone's mouth.

When Bai Siyu and I met for the first time, we had a special affection for her, maybe it was because she was so handsome, or maybe it was because seeing her was like meeting someone of the same kind, and our dressing styles were exactly the same. man.

Presumably Bai Siyu feels the same way, otherwise, it's always up to me.

Si Yu sat on the edge of the bed, his eyes drifted away at first, and he glanced at me from time to time. Although I knew it, I felt nothing.

Later, when I packed up and met her eyes, Si Yu turned his eyes away and walked away.

In my spare time, I often lie in bed and watch movies for a while, and so do they.

That day, Shi Xun suddenly ran to my bed and insisted on watching it with me.

I have never been in such close contact with anyone other than my family, not even with girls, let alone lying in the same bed with others.

I watched Shi Xun climb up in amazement, but Shi Xun had a normal expression on his face.

She pushed me from the middle of the bed to the inside, and we both slept on the pillows.

I was lying on my back, while Shi Xun was on my side.

The face is so close that I can even feel her breath, I don't know if it's her heartbeat or mine, it's beating a little fast and feels very violent.

I froze there and didn't dare to move freely, not knowing where my arms and hands should be placed.

And Shi Xun actually put his arm on my body, maybe this is a small gesture between girls.

However, under such circumstances, I didn't have the heart to watch the movie any longer. I just scrambled around and waited stiffly for the movie to finish.

However, the only thing I like very much is the warmth and comfort of her lying next to me, which is why I fell in love with her later.

Shi Xun breathed a sigh of relief, said, "It's over", then got up and went back to his bed.

Afterwards, this phenomenon became commonplace.

After getting acquainted with each other, the shyness of being unfamiliar is gone. Shi Xun always said coquettishly, "It's interesting to watch TV series together."

Compared to Yin Jiudong now, Fang Shixun is a fool.

In the first week after school started, Shi Xun locked the key in the cabinet, turned the screw down abruptly, and opened the cabinet.

Tell Jiudong before going to bed at night:

"Let's go have breakfast tomorrow morning."

Jiudong readily agreed, but the next day, when there was no class, he woke up early and called Jiudong to eat, but he couldn't find his meal card and said, "I won't go, I won't eat, I'm not in the mood, you go."

Fortunately, Jiudong has a good temper and tolerates her casualness.

And Si Yu always said that Jiu Dong and Shi Xun looked like lovers.

Even the usual communication between two people is:

"Dong, I'm hungry, let's go eat Mala Tang~" With a long ending sound, a coquettish expression, not at all like the introverted, slim, dignified and generous girl when I first met.

Jiudong's answer is always straightforward: "OK".

"Xiao Dongdong, I want to open this, but I can't," Shi Xun pouted and blinked.

"Well, give it to me".

"Xiao Dongdong, I just bought a dress the day before yesterday, and now I don't have pants to match, can you go shopping with me?"

"Well, okay, you go shopping, I will carry the bag for you."

"Dear Dongdong, let's go to the supermarket after class, I want to buy something", while talking, shaking Jiudong's arm.

"Okay, go".

Sometimes, even if Jiu Dong disagrees, she can act coquettishly and make a long voice until Jiu Dong agrees.

And every time Jiu Dong wants to do something, Shi Xun is always by his side.

Whenever Jiu Dong was thirsty, Shi Xun would pour water for her and feed her snacks into Jiu Dong's mouth with his own hands.

Speaking of it, the care is also meticulous.

Therefore, whenever Shi Xun can't do something, it will arouse Jiu Dong's desire to protect and help her do a lot...

Jiudong doesn't like to depend on others, let alone being used to others relying on herself.

But now these two people seem to be living their lives.

In class, Shi Xun helps Jiu Dong bring books and keys, and when fetching water, Jiu Dong helps Shi Xun carry the jug...

Gradually, it seems to be like a girlfriend, but is it really just a girlfriend?

During university holidays, Jiu Dong doesn't go home, but Shi Xun goes back when he has time.

Jiudong was also puzzled.

On the bed, I sometimes sat up, sometimes lay down, and sometimes turned over, even the pillow in my hand was deformed in my hands.

In the past, Jiudong didn't have such an empty feeling in his heart, what's going on this time?

Why every time Shi Xun leaves, he can't help but think about her and everything about her.

Did you eat well and sleep well?

What are you doing at this time.

I will check how many gigabytes her network is online from time to time.

I can't help but talk to her, even if I feel very annoyed, but I don't know why;

I like to joke with her, make her happy, say some thoughtless things, give her various nicknames, various nicknames;

As soon as she said she would come back, I would want to pick her up;

Even though she might not miss me, or miss me that much, even if she is enduring the cold wind and the scorching heat, she still wants to watch her walk out of the station.

Come to me again, come back to me, as if only then, I will feel that life is complete.

The troubled Jiudong sat at the table and scratched his head, "Why do you feel this way, why?"

Thinking of Bai Siyu's description of the two of them as a couple, Jiudong was a little annoyed: "Ah~ah, what am I thinking~ calm down, calm down, calm down".

Such random thoughts lasted for a long time.

Normally, Jiu Dong would always quickly climb up to Shi Xun when she was lying down, and hug her like a lazy dog.

At the beginning, Jiudong couldn't stand the petty movements between girls. When they first met, they had to hug, and when they returned to the dormitory after school, they needed to be hugged, and even kissed. It was only after coming here that they got used to it, but it was only with Shi Xun. so.

But there are some things, just talking and talking, it becomes true.

I knew that I had fallen for Si Yu's words, so I simply stopped thinking about it.

In summer, girls only wear the coolest clothes in the dormitory, and I always look at Shi Xun obsessively.

Ban Yue passed by and patted Shi Xun on the shoulder: "See that one on the other side? Why don't you wear more!"

Shi Xun looked at me who was smiling and blinking on the opposite side, and smiled knowingly: "What's the matter, they are girls anyway, and they took a bath together, and we have seen each other, right!"

I looked at it and nodded, laughed again and again: "Well, yes!", and then turned my head.

Shi Xun is very thin, with long straight black hair, she looks very ladylike, and her overall temperament has a unique charm of women.

Many people also often praise her for being beautiful. If she is judged as the beauty of the school, she will definitely be ranked among the top three. She has bright eyes, and she seems to be talking when they look at each other. She is ten catties lighter than me at the same height. Hugged her, and she didn't show disgust.

"Xun Xun", I smiled and lay on Shi Xun's body.

Shi Xun pinched my face and kept my face away from her, in case I did something bad.

At first it was obvious that she was seducing me, but now it seems like I am pursuing her.

But even if she doesn't respond much, I won't let it go. I use eyes and flexible eyebrows to communicate with each other. It can also be described as seduction, but it's too direct, hehe, or too precise.

I blinked, raised my eyebrows, and my mouth was deformed by her pinching, but I still hummed her pet name vaguely, "Xunxun, hug, I'll embarrass you if you make it ugly, be gentle. "

"It's fine if you don't start driving." Shi Xun smiled at me like Jiu Dong, with a soft voice.

I complained: "I'm not very close to you."

"You're already riding on me, are you still not close!?"

"It's obvious that you seduced me first, but I don't want to ask you carefully, what are you going to have for dinner, this weekend, let's go have a meal!"

"Go back to your bed first, ask me a good question, and I'll answer you." Shi Xun pretended to be serious, but he didn't have the slightest deterrent effect.

"Yeah," I straightened up, ran back, and looked at her with a smile on my face.

Shi Xun looked at her helplessly: "Okay, let's go to the old place."

"Okay! Change your clothes and go."

Like a child, I am very obedient.

This kind of thing has happened so many times, even I can’t count it myself, there is no reason, sometimes sleepless at night, I will think, what kind of emotion do I have for her, do I like her, maybe...

Jiudong tried to hide or stay away, but they were unsuccessful, but it seemed to be somewhat successful, because Jiudong transferred some of the time she used to pay attention to her to Si Yu and Ban Yue.

The two of them are very lively, and I would often joke with them, until that time, when Ban Yue entered the door, I stumbled and staggered, and when I got to my bed, I jokingly said:

"Don't fly to my bed!"

Ban Yue asked in surprise, "Why, I'm going to fly to your bed, and I want to kiss you!" A pouting mouth was thrown towards Jiu Dong.

I'm used to teasing in these languages, but at this moment, Shi Xun shouted loudly: "No!"

Ban Yue's mouth was fixed there in the posture, and his eyes stared at her blankly.

I was also a little stunned, Shi Xun didn't say anything like this, and he didn't even speak very loudly, it's just because we have been together for a long time and we are not so strange, so we got closer.

But this time, I explicitly refused others to approach me.

My heart is warm, and at that moment, that warmth can't go away for a long time.

Although I asked her afterwards whether that sentence was a confession, she kept denying it with wandering eyes and wanted to change the subject, but I was still happy.

This is the most heartwarming sentence I have ever heard since we were together...

Jiudong doesn't go home often during normal holidays, but Si Yu and Ban Yue often go back.

Ban Yue often goes to see her boyfriend, and their relationship is very good; Si Yu goes home, but sometimes he goes to some distant places to play.

Shi Xun, after she said "No", she didn't go back.

I asked Shi Xun why he didn't go back anymore. Although I already had the answer in my heart, I always wanted Shi Xun to say it myself before I gave up.

But Shi Xun said: "I'm too tired on the way back and forth, I don't want to go back."

"Then why do you still travel with me, isn't it tiring to go back and forth?"

I followed Shi Xun's words leisurely.

"This is going out to play!"

"Isn't it more tiring to go out and play than to go home? I have traveled so many places outside and walked so many ways?"

Shi Xun didn't know what to answer, so he could only pretend that he didn't hear, and kept silent.

I tentatively asked, "Is it because I'm here?"

Shi Xun said: "Don't be complacent, the scenery nourishes people's hearts. To see the beautiful scenery, you will not be tired no matter how far you walk."

"As for being so ruthless?" Jiu Dong aggrieved.

"Okay, haha, I'm very happy to have you here", Jiu Dong never expected, Shi Xun said such words to her with a smile.

As far as Shi Xun is concerned, he also has feelings for Jiu Dong, and maybe he is also struggling with what this feeling is, so whenever Jiu Dong asks, Shi Xun always perfunctorily hums, or changes the subject, and dare not answer.

But when he saw Si Yu "teasing" Jiudong that time, he yelled out because of the jealousy in his heart.

It was also because of my loss of control that I was suddenly at a loss, especially when faced with Jiudong's questioning, I was even more at a loss.

It was also after that vague confession that Jiudong understood the meaning of it, and usually made her happy, joked with her, and even hugged her as usual.

Every time I lie next to her, it is always very comfortable. The body temperature of a girl is not too high, let alone a thin girl. Even in summer, Shi Xun's body is still warm and cool. It won't be hot when we are close together, but it feels very warm. Soft and comfortable.

Another small vacation, Siyu and Banyue went home as usual, team building, and Jiu Dong and Shi Xun also stayed here as usual, after waking up at noon, Jiu Dong's heart was moved, Unlike usual, what moved was the desire in my heart.

Jiudong woke up from the drowsy sleepiness.

In summer, the geographical environment of Beicheng creates a good weather for escaping the heat. With the windows open, the breeze blows from the windows. The blue curtains create a hazy atmosphere in the house, with light shining through, but extremely soft.

After lunch is a nap, the time will not be too long.

This time I was the one who woke up first, and Shi Xun was opposite me, lying on her side, the feeling of looking at her was like time stopped there.

Jiudong quietly felt this comfortable time, and really wanted to freeze here forever.

Shi Xun's slender and tall figure was half curled up, her head resting on the pillow, her long black hair fell down, her shoulders stood upright, exposing her collarbone, the width was just right, and it just propped up her shoulders, showing a graceful arc.

Jiudong got up unconsciously and walked over.

The blue curtains reflected the blue mist in the room, and Qin's fair skin appeared fairer, as if she was in a pool, and her skin could be broken by blows.

Stretch out your hand to touch it, it's cool and silky.

Jiu Dong moved his lips closer, but Shi Xun turned over because of his itchy face.

With his eyes slightly open, looking at her dimly, Jiu Dong's face slowly leaned towards her, Shi Xun did not dodge.

I could feel Shi Xun's breath, traced her lips, so soft that I didn't want to leave, Shi Xun didn't dodge to express her acquiescence.

After a while, Shi Xun turned over and turned to the inside, with his back to Jiudong.

The remaining desire burned the fiery body, it was her heat, and it was also her heat.

"Are you okay?" Jiu Dong asked Shi Xun with concern.

"Hmm", Shi Xun didn't move, just hummed lightly.

He must have been a little tired listening to her voice, Jiudong didn't touch her again, but just got up and took a peek.

It turned out that he was asleep, breathing lightly, and Shi Xun slept like this until the evening, without even knowing that Jiudong went out to buy food.

When Jiudong came back, he opened the door lightly. Shi Xun had already woken up and was looking out of the window. Hearing the sound of the door opening, he hurriedly turned his head to look at Jiudong.

"Where did you go! I've been looking for you for a long time. There is no water room, no toilet, and you don't even bring a mobile phone with you when you go out. Where have you been!"

Shi Xun complained anxiously.

Jiudong sneered and said, "Confused? It's already night, don't you want to eat?"

As he spoke, he walked from the door to the table and put down his things.

"You tell me, it's okay to write a note, let me look for you for so long~" She came over and sat in front of the bed, wrapped her arms around Jiu Dong's waist, and buried her in her arms.

Jiu Dong picked up the chopsticks and tore off the wrapping paper, stroked Shi Xun's head with the other hand, and handed the chopsticks to him.

"Got it! I will tell you next time before going out."

Shi Xun took the chopsticks, smiled, and Jiu Dong poured a glass of water and handed it to her.

After a period of time, he felt weird and lost the feeling he used to have. Jiudong sat by the bed and looked at Shi Xun who was sitting there quietly. The two of them didn't say a word.

It caused Jiudong to mutter in his heart.

Ten Xun, what happened?

After that, for a while we were just like we used to be.

But gradually, Shi Xun was often in a daze. She has an introverted personality. Although she doesn't like to talk or express, our relationship is closer than ordinary people after all, and we should often talk to each other.

"Xun, Shi Xun, what's the matter with you?" Jiudong asked several times.

Shi Xun replied lightly: "It's all right."

There is no emotion, just two words.

Could it be that Shi Xun felt disgusted, so he didn't want to talk to me, or didn't want to talk to me or see me at all?

In fact, no matter what the reason is, I can understand it.

Because this kind of relationship is absolutely against common sense, it's ugly, it's called abnormal.

I used to think the same way, and more than once...