dedicated to memorial day

Before the night came completely, he hung the camping lights on the branch beside him, and then put a few bottles of Fujia White and Coke into the cool stream water to freeze. Xiao Chen picked up some dead branches in the afternoon and was about to pile them up ignition.For dinner, there is a mixed pot of beef and vegetables that can be stewed in one pot. Xiaoxi simply processed the ingredients, just throw them into the cassette stove and boil them to eat.

When the fire started, Xiaoxi had already put all the ingredients on the folding table, Zhou Yu took out the beer from the stream, several people sat around, adults drank Fujia white, minors drank Coke.The beer foam rushes out with the sound of "boo" from the bottle cap, toasting with the wind in the mountains and forests, and makes a refreshing sound after touching.

After impatiently taking a sip of beer, Xiaoxi let out a sigh: "Sure enough, you have to drink cold beer to complete yourself when you go out to play."

Everyone agreed.

Then Xiao Chen asked Cheng Jingshen whether he would drink beer and eat hot pot when he was camping in the UK. Cheng Jingshen said that he usually drank beer and ate pasta, and occasionally ate instant pizza.Xiaoxi asked how the dinner was today, and Xiaodong said it was much better than the rice balls at noon.Everyone smiled knowingly.

In short, they are talking about these irrelevant topics, and it seems that they can chat a few words if they catch anything.Normally such a conversation would be somewhat tiresome, but now everyone seems to be very happy, Zhou Yu couldn't help but feel that he was integrated into this kind of time.

Thinking about it carefully, since the death of his mother, Zhou Yu has always felt that there is an invisible barrier between him and the outside world, and there is always a cold wind passing through.He did not know why, but attributed it all to the loss of the ability to be happy with his mother's death.But now, for the first time, he felt that he belonged to this world, and even seemed extremely harmonious.

Several people then chatted about tomorrow's travel plan, and Xiao Xi said to Zhou Yu as if he suddenly remembered something: "By the way, boss, you will sleep with Dr. Cheng tonight. Xiao Chen and Xiao Dong will sleep in a tent."

Zhou Yu just stuffed a shiitake mushroom into his mouth, and was in a hurry to speak again, so he swallowed the whole shiitake mushroom in his mouth. The burning sensation in his throat made Zhou Yu cough violently, his face flushed.

"It's okay." Cheng Jingshen stroked his back, but Zhou Yu blocked him.

In the end, he stopped coughing after drinking a few sips of beer. He completely forgot to think about it, thinking that Xiao Xi would definitely sleep in a tent with Xiao Chen.

The culprit, Xiao Xi, bit his chopsticks innocently and said, "Or do you want to sleep with Xiao Dong or Xiao Chen? Or do you want to sleep with..."

"Stop." Seeing that Xiaoxi was about to "speak wild words" again, Zhou Yu hurriedly stretched out his hand to stop it.

"Then you agree~" Xiaoxi tilted her head and said.

This was a very natural thing. He and Cheng Jingshen had the best relationship, and they were both men. It was normal to sleep in a tent, but he was too sensitive.

Zhou Yu put down the wine bottle, lowered his head and answered vaguely "Yes".

Xiaoxi winked at Cheng Jingshen triumphantly, Cheng Jingshen could not restrain the corner of his mouth from twitching, but still kept showing a deadpan expression.

After dinner, Xiaoxi boiled a pot of boiling water with a clean pot, made a cup of hot tea for everyone with tea bags, and everyone sat around the campfire holding cups of hot tea.After all, it wasn't summer yet, the temperature difference between day and night was huge, everyone put on thick coats, Zhou Yu didn't bring any clothes, fortunately Xiaoxi brought a blanket.

The starry sky above the head is flickering, the night wind blows the leaves gently and calmly, and falls into the dark forest.Everyone is holding hot tea in their hands, and they are doing roughly the same movements but with different details, just like a frame captured in a photography story collection.

Human beings are animals of atmosphere. If you don't talk about romantic love stories in this situation, you will inevitably feel ashamed that you have let down the beautiful scenery of a good time.

Xiaoxi glanced at Xiaodong, Xiaodong was warming himself by the fire, whether it was intentional or not, Xiaoxi said, "When was everyone's first love?"

When Xiaodong heard this, he suddenly coughed twice, retracted his hand and took a sip from the teacup.

"I haven't done it yet." Xiao Chen thought it was Xiao Xi who asked him, and smiled shyly, "I'm too slow."

Xiaoxi probably didn't expect to be accidentally injured, and she wasn't someone who cared about these things, so she put her hand on Xiao Chen's shoulder and said with a bit of arrogance: "It's okay ~ sister will teach you later."

Xiao Chen turned his face, looked at her very seriously and said, "Thank you for willing to teach me."

Xiaoxi was so cute that she let out an "oops", with the expression "I found a treasure" written all over her face.

Cheng Jingshen and Zhou Yu glanced at each other, obviously both of them had goosebumps all over their bodies.

"What about you, Xiaoxi?" Cheng Jingshen asked.

"Me? I'm 16 years old, I forgot." Xiao Xi tried hard to think about it, "It should be a crush."

"Does secret love count?"

"Of course." Xiao Xi took it for granted, "Why, Dr. Cheng has a crush on someone?"

Cheng Jingshen smiled politely.

Xiaoxi was excited, and he flapped his arms and said: "There is a story, tell me quickly, when?"

Cheng Jingshen glanced at Zhou Yu, and found that Zhou Yu was also looking at him without blinking.He looked away and lowered his eyes, as if he didn't want to show his emotions too much, but the emotion that couldn't be concealed leaked from the corner of his mouth, and even his voice was gentle: "Nine years old. My first The first time I saw him was 9 years old, third grade."

Xiaoxi rolled her eyes, looking as if her expectations were in vain: "Brother, it won't be some drama like 'I want to marry you when I grow up', I will definitely die laughing."

"No. He..." Cheng Jingshen paused.

Zhou Yu looked at him and thought, this person must be very important to him, so important that he must muster up the courage to even speak out.

Cheng Jingshen was silent for a few seconds before continuing: "No, he doesn't know me."

Xiaoxi swallowed her saliva, her expression was a little hard to describe, as if she had finally found a polite expression: "Doctor Cheng, you are a bit precocious."

Cheng Jingshen smiled helplessly: "It's not what you think. At that time, I just heard his name. He has good grades, and the whole school knows his name."

"What kind of secret love is this?"

"Junior high school is still the same school."

"So, he knows you?"

"I don't know him." Cheng Jingshen said, "But he would pass by their classroom pretending to go to the toilet, and then sneak a look at him."

It has been a long time since Cheng Jingshen has recalled his youth, especially since he came here, almost never once. If Xiaoxi hadn't mentioned it this time, he probably wouldn't have thought about it seriously.

It was in the second year of junior high that Cheng Jingshen really noticed that boy.That is really an overly quiet person. He has a sense of loneliness and vulnerability that does not match that of an adolescent.

The boy was wearing a loose blue and white striped school uniform, with a thin back and an expressionless face, always looking absent-minded.He is often alone, and the few times when someone surrounds him to say something, his eyes are also faint, as if he is distracted, wondering if he is listening, and occasionally he smiles a little, that kind of Perfect response.Rather than saying that he is slow, it is better to say that few people can really enter his world.

The boy had always been bright, and was known to score high in various tests with little effort.At first, Cheng Jingshen was just envious, the kind of envy that he could easily get something that he couldn't get no matter how hard he tried, so he secretly competed with the young man in his heart, as if to prove that he was also as talented as that person.

But it’s just like playing in the water. When you can hit three, you will see people who hit five and try to catch up.But when you realize that the opponent can actually hit ten, you will give up. It is a compromise made after knowing that you cannot catch up with the opponent.

So Cheng Jingshen finally gave up.It was almost a battle that spanned his entire youth, a battle he fought alone.It wasn't until he ended in a disastrous defeat that he realized that in this protracted battle, his eyes had long been inseparable from the boy who was regarded as his opponent.

But he was so ordinary and had no characteristics at first, and he couldn't even say a standard "I love you" after braces, so what qualifications did he have to get close to that young man on the altar?

"What kind of innocent boy's behavior is this..."

Cheng Jingshen came back to his senses and smiled.

"What about high school?" Zhou Yu asked.

Xiaoxi was anxious to advance the plot: "Does he know you?"

Cheng Jingshen shook his head.

"You have been in the same school for more than ten years, and he doesn't know you? He has no impression of you?" Xiaoxi couldn't believe it, not to mention Cheng Jingshen's outstanding looks, even ordinary people, in more than ten years. How many times do you pass each other, how many times do you hear each other's name?

"It can't be said that we don't know each other at all. We always meet in some strange places. I have also greeted him a few times. It's just because I am too ordinary. He probably doesn't remember me anymore." Cheng Jingshen said .

"You are too ordinary, then we may have no way out." Xiaoxi rolled her eyes to the sky.

Cheng Jingshen said with a smile: "It was indeed different back then. He wore braces and black-rimmed glasses, and was disgraced every day because of his studies. Besides, he didn't seem to be very interested in the outside world."

"Why didn't you confess?" This time it was Xiaodong, apparently at a young age, he still couldn't understand the behavior of liking but not speaking out.

"He is the key training target of the whole school. I have also determined the direction of applying for dentistry since the first year of high school. It is not the time to confess, let alone..." Cheng Jingshen suddenly paused.

— I don't know if he likes men, either.

Xiaodong asked, "What's more?"

At this time, we must thank the same pronunciation of "he" and "she" in Chinese culture.

Cheng Jingshen smiled faintly: "Besides, youth is only beautiful if you have regrets."

The chicken soup that was mentioned in a serious manner made Xiaodong instantly lost interest in asking.

"Which high school are you from?" Zhou Yu, who had been silent for a long time, suddenly asked.

Although city A is very large, there are only two best high schools, one is mainly for studying abroad, and the other is mainly for domestic education. Although there are about 20% exceptions every year, most students will be in school when they enroll. Just make a good choice.

Before Cheng Jingshen could answer, Zhou Yu guessed again: "Foreign language?"

Cheng Jingshen was silent for half a second, and then Xiaoxi who was on the side quickly answered: "What kind of youth pain literature is this, I'm in tears."

Xiaodong pounded the fire with a branch, and asked casually, "What happened next?"

"Later, when I went abroad, he stayed in China to study and never saw him again." Cheng Jingshen smiled with relief, wondering if it was because time had diluted many feelings, Cheng Jingshen didn't have much regret on his face.

"So she didn't know you from the beginning to the end?" Zhou Yu asked softly.

Cheng Jingshen looked at him, and the smiling outline became softer under the firelight: "It should."

"You're too affectionate, aren't you? Doctor Cheng!" Xiaoxi said excitedly, "The reason why you haven't been in a relationship is because you haven't forgotten him?"

Cheng Jingshen relaxed his body with his hands behind his back, closed his eyes and frowned slightly, and after thinking for a while, he replied: "It's not that affectionate, I'm just used to looking up at someone for so many years, and I haven't had time to get rid of this." Habits, and maybe I have never found such an outstanding person again.”

"I'm not in love with you, I'm just used to loving you. Dr. Cheng, you're actually writing romance novels in your spare time, right?" Xiaoxi waved his arms and let out a "hissing" sound.

"Student, you are exaggerating." Cheng Jingshen smiled helplessly.

"It's a pity, that girl would be very happy if she found out." Xiao Chen also sighed regretfully, "No matter who you fall in love with and get married in the future, you will still remember this relationship."

I have already had a heartbeat at an age before I knew it. In the long nearly 20 years, I have already gotten used to the existence of this feeling.No matter how consummated it is with anyone afterwards, except for this person, it is not a perfect ending in a sense.

Zhou Yu felt a little sad, and couldn't tell why.Maybe it's because Cheng Jingshen had such an indelible feeling in his youth, maybe it's because he regrets this never-before relationship, or maybe it's because he wasted a whole April in wrong doubts.

It's not appropriate to say sad, he wanted to find some more suitable words, but searched all over to no avail, as if there were no words to describe such emotions in the world.

"Where's Boss Zhou?" Cheng Jingshen suddenly turned around and asked Zhou Yu.

After Xiaoxi realized it, she also booed: "That's right, what about you, boss, last time you said you were in love?"

Before Zhou Yu could react, he had already become the focus of everyone. Although it was not a secret that he couldn't tell, he was still a little shy under the eyes of everyone.He scratched his hair and said, "My story is boring."

Almost as boring as he is, without ups and downs.

Xiaoxi was very interested: "Tell me about it."

"When I was in college, I talked with my senior sister for a month, and then she broke up." I tried to tell the whole story in the simplest way. Of course, there may be no need for the story itself.

Xiaoxi confirmed with suspicious eyes: "Study... sister?!"

Zhou Yu nodded: "Yes."

Xiao Xi stared at Cheng Jingshen instead of Zhou Yu with his eyes wide open. It was hard to tell whether it was shock or affection.Cheng Jingshen still looked unhurried, but the more calm Cheng Jingshen behaved, the more pitiful Xiaoxi felt. She swallowed and confirmed again: "Girl?"

"……Um."

Xiaoxi pursed her lips, nodded her hair meaningfully and let out a long cry: Mmm——

Later, Xiaoxi also probably discovered that the topic of this evening talk had changed from "educating the dangers of underage puppy love" to "persecuting Cheng Jingshen".Although I don't intend to offend, let her start and end with her. Xiaoxi wrapped the clothes around her chest and said, "It's a bit cold, let's get windy."

Xiao Chen said: "It seems to be."

"Then today's story will end here." Xiaoxi stretched out a finger, like a scene in a mystery manga, "Finally! Today's atmosphere is so romantic, let the king of affection, youth The protagonist of the love story - Mr. Cheng read a short poem for us as the happy ending of today's story~"

It was a night that will remain in Zhou Yu's memory forever.

The stars are twinkling, the summer grass is rustling, the night birds are chirping, the insects are singing, the stream is gurgling, and the fire is crackling. Among them, Cheng Jingshen's voice is the most profound.

"I am the last passer-by on your road, the last spring and the last snow, the last battle for survival."