dedicated to memorial day

August was a little hotter than July, and it became even more difficult.Putting Cheng Jingshen's advice to the back of their minds, Zhou Yu and Xiaoxi tasted all kinds of iced watermelons, but they never realized the feeling that Cheng Jingshen said, but the teeth finally started a complete war with him, and it intensified.

Most of the pain will be severe in the evening. In the twilight with the fragrance of green grass, the teeth will start to pantothenic, swell, and painful.Zhou Yu can only close his eyes tightly and wait for the pain to pass, which often takes him a long time, even if it passes, it will still leave a dull pain on the root of the tooth.

Along with the toothache, there is also an emotion that cannot be described in words. It has been with me since the day I saw the photo. Zhou Yu thought of the lingering feeling that Cheng Jingshen said before he left. I don’t know if there is a relationship between the two in common.

"Anyway, I'll pull it out when Cheng Jingshen comes back." Zhou Yu thought so, and suffered toothaches again and again.

On the holiday of the store, there was an unprecedented torrential rain.The rain mixed with the thunder and slammed onto the road, as if it wanted to boil the whole universe.

The bus was suspended, and the original plan to go to the city center to purchase had to be put on hold. The whole house became extremely damp, and it was not appropriate to clean it, let alone drying clothes.Zhou Yu had to sit on the sofa and watch the rain, listen to Teresa Teng's songs repeatedly, from "I only care about you" to "The Feeling of Parting" in one breath.

The feeling of emptiness spread from the toes to the top of the head, so I remembered the "desert" Cheng Jingshen said.May, who was hiding in her den, made some rustling noises, and got into Zhou Yu's arms. Zhou Yu touched its head with a smile, but the feeling of emptiness did not disappear at all.

It turned out that the feeling was not "deserted", but "lonely".

At eleven o'clock in the middle of the night, the rain stopped abruptly, everything seemed to have been washed, and the cicadas sang one after another in the wet air.Zhou Yu was tortured by the toothache and couldn't sleep, so he dragged his slippers and climbed up to the rooftop.The night wind was gentle, and the accumulated rain wrinkled several puddles, and the water droplets fell from the water-absorbed leaves to the ground, making a slight patter sound.

Zhou Yu squatted in front of that tomato plant, and the heavy rain knocked down a few fruits, but luckily it didn't blow off the roots.He picked up a few red fruits, wiped them on his T-shirt and stuffed them into his mouth. The sour taste immediately spread from the tip of his tongue.

"Not yet." Zhou Yu frowned and said to himself in a regretful tone.

Then Zhou Yu bowed and sat down beside the tomato. The pale waning moon was in front of him. He raised his finger and pointed to the right side of the moon, which was the direction of City A.Close your eyes slightly, imagining the night view of City A, the sound of the wind caressing your ears more realistically than usual.

The night in city A is illuminated by the river of light formed by the headlights of cars, and the office buildings with seamless glass veneer are shining brightly. convenience store.The smell of high-end perfume and cheap snack street mingled over the city. There is such a sense of incompatibility and division everywhere in City A.

If you go back...

Thinking of this, a sense of fear and weakness suddenly surfaced. The longer you leave a place, the more fear you will feel. If you want to go back again, you need to accumulate courage for a long time.

Hearing a slight sound from the corner of Ye Cong, Zhou Yu opened his eyes and asked, "Is anyone there?"

No one responded, but the sound continued.Zhou Yu got up and peeled off the green leaves in front of him. Not far away, he vaguely saw a girl wearing suspenders and hot pants, with extremely short hair. She looked only in her twenties, smoking a cigarette. Glancing at him, he withdrew his gaze.

Seeing this, Zhou Yu didn't want to disturb her, so he turned around and left.But the girl's voice suddenly came from behind, a little unreal, she said: "After smoking this cigarette, I am ready to jump from here."

Zhou Yu gave an indifferent "Oh" and stopped in his tracks.

The girl added: "Obviously I wanted to jump from here when I was 14, but I couldn't do it until I was 24."

"Why do you want to jump down?" Zhou Yu took a step towards the girl, and seeing that the girl didn't show any resistance, he walked over.

"Is there a reason to die?" the girl asked.

Zhou Yu stood behind her and replied after a few seconds of silence: "No."

The girl probably thought Zhou Yu was quite interesting, she smiled and said, "It's really hard to live. I vaguely know what the problem is, tried to resist, and also thought about repairing it. But in the end, love, friendship, and family affection all failed. I feel that I don't deserve to be loved, and I don't deserve to be loved." I think I am incapable of loving, and I understand that life is boring and empty day after day."

The girl didn't say any specific things, it was quite a conscious reason, but Zhou Yu understood it.

Exactly the same as himself when his mother had just died.It's just that time has passed, and now it sounds as if I was confiding to him at that time, so I can't help feeling in a trance.So I was shocked to realize that in just three months, I had completely lost such a state of mind. I spent every day in anticipation, but I never carefully studied what I was looking forward to.

"If you jump from here, you don't have to bear these things."

The girl probably regarded Zhou Yu as the last person to confide in her life, so she spoke sincerely, but Zhou Yu was distracted again. He looked at the white short sleeves that had not been taken back on the opposite balcony calmly. Shaking crisply in the wind.Then he sighed to himself: "Summer is not over yet..."

"What?" The girl didn't hear his voice clearly, but there was a look of impatience on her face.Anyone who is broken into the plan by a strange person, and then earnestly speaks in return for a absent-minded answer, will feel somewhat annoyed.

Zhou Yu arrived on the railing with his head up to blow the air, as Cheng Jingshen often did, he asked the girl: "Have you ever eaten that super sweet watermelon?"

Although the girl was not interested in this topic, she still answered patiently: "What do you call a super sweet watermelon?"

"It just tastes crunchy, and the juice will burst in your mouth when you take a bite. The one just taken out of the refrigerator is the best, cool and sweet." Zhou Yu said with a smile, "You must eat that in summer. Just do it."

"Have you eaten?"

"Not yet." Zhou Yu stretched his waist, and his tone became lighter.

The emotions that are always hanging in my heart and the lingering feeling that Cheng Jingshen said after his father passed away.It was only when I said it that I suddenly realized that such feelings are actually a pity.Regrets about the unresolved, unresolved, unfinished beginnings and unfinished goodbyes.

It's like a watermelon that I haven't eaten all summer.

"Fortunately, summer is not over yet." Zhou Yu said.

The girl asked puzzled: "Is this the reason to live?"

"I have to try that kind of watermelon." Zhou Yu looked at her with a smile.

The girl didn't speak, just smoked a cigarette silently.

"Let's think about it after summer is over." Zhou Yu said.

The girl asked: "Is it okay after summer?"

"Then wait until next spring." Zhou Yu said with a smile, "It's hard to wait, but you still have to think about it. Anyway, killing yourself can be done at any time. It doesn't hurt if it's earlier or later. .”

The cigarette in the girl's hand was already burned out, and then she took out another one, suddenly thought of something, and passed the cigarette case to Zhou Yu: "Do you smoke?"

Zhou Yu shook his head, yawned and walked towards the door: "I'm sleepy, I have to go out tomorrow, so go back to sleep first."

The girl didn't say anything to stop her.Walking all the way to the door, Zhou Yu suddenly turned around and said to the girl: "By the way, I opened a flower shop on this street. If you are still alive tomorrow, come to my shop and send you a bouquet of stunning and romantic flowers." .”

The girl hummed and laughed: "What kind of strange name is this?"

"Is it strange?"

"Undesirably weird."