dedicated to memorial day

When he received the news from the psychiatrist, Cheng Jingshen was helping a six-year-old child to prepare dental membranes. The child was a bit covered, and the initial diagnosis might be a problem of overbite teeth.As soon as he took the model out of the child's mouth, the phone in his pocket vibrated twice.

It's a message from a psychiatrist.

Cheng Jingshen took off his gloves and took out his mobile phone. After reading it, he put the mobile phone back into his pocket calmly, then bent his eyes towards the child: "I still need to take a picture of the details of the teeth."

It wasn't until the child finished taking the detailed pictures of the teeth and returned to the consulting room that Cheng Jingshen received a message from Zhou Yu: "Dr. Cheng, when do you get off work? I'm at the entrance of the hospital and I have something to tell you."

This is what the child's mother saw when she entered the door: the young doctor clenched his left hand under his lips, as if trying to restrain his emotions, and his daughter's dental film was displayed on the computer screen.The corners of the doctor's mouth obviously couldn't hold back, but when he saw his eyes, he found that the eyes that were always smiling were red with eye circles.

"Doctor Cheng, are my daughter's teeth troublesome?" the girl's mother asked worriedly.

"No." Dr. Cheng let go of his fist, covered his forehead with his palm, and when he raised his head again, the expression on his face was the same as usual, as if what he saw just now was just her hallucination. He said, "You My daughter's dental problem is not serious, but the specific treatment plan will not be discussed with you until the dental model is formed, so you have to come back next week."

"Didn't you come up with the plan?" The girl's mother asked suspiciously.

Cheng Jingshen smiled: "I'm just an intern who came here to study, and I'm leaving next week. The specific plan will be discussed with you by a more professional chief doctor.

This time it can really end.

After seeing off the mother and daughter, Cheng Jingshen immediately asked the director for leave, and when he returned to the consulting room, he found that He Xue was already sitting in it.

"Going back?" He Xue stood up and looked at him with a smile.

"Well, there's something wrong." Cheng Jingshen said as he took off his white coat and hung it on the chair, took the car keys and was about to go out.

"Are you going to see him?" He Xue asked standing behind him.

Cheng Jingshen didn't answer, nor did he look back.

He Xue, who didn't get an answer, poked her head with pride and stubbornness on her face, but her rapid blinking betrayed her emotions.Her voice was a little hoarse: "I really have no chance at all?"

Cheng Jingshen still didn't turn around, almost didn't even pause, and left the consulting room directly.

When I walked out of the hospital gate, I realized that it was raining.It is the third season of the Great Heat, and the heavy rain comes. It is the biggest rain at the end of summer, and it is also a unique rain at the end of summer. It has the coolness of autumn, but it is not sad.

Cheng Jingshen took a shared umbrella, and as soon as he opened it, he passed through the transparent umbrella and saw Zhou Yu who was sitting on the opposite side with his arms folded under the bus stop to avoid the rain.The passing vehicles ran over the road and gave off a wet echo, Cheng Jingshen ignored other things and ran over.

"Why don't you find a place to shelter from the rain?"

"I want to get some air." Zhou Yu's voice was trembling, maybe it was because of the cold, although he didn't get caught in the rain, but his skin and hair were full of moisture.

"Go there for a walk?" Zhou Yu pointed to the park opposite the hospital.

There was no one in the park in the rain, and the two walked through the wet rotator, waist twister, and walker with umbrellas.The plants in the park exude a green fragrance after being drenched in the rain, and the crape myrtle flowers appear and disappear in the wet green, which are summer flowers.

There is a gazebo in the middle of the park for the elderly to rest their feet. The two took their umbrellas and sat down in the gazebo.It was so quiet that only the whistle of the cuckoo could be heard.

"Say something." Zhou Yu spoke first.

"What are you talking about?" Cheng Jingshen put away the umbrella, put it beside the chair, and stared at the water droplets on the umbrella to form a stream, extending along the ground.He could have thousands of questions, but at this moment, none of them seemed meaningful.

Zhou Yu asked: "Aren't you going to ask me why I came to see you?"

"what's up?"

Zhou Yu moved his body, supported the seat with his hands, and looked up at the rain: "I was thinking about a question when I was sitting at the bus station waiting for you to come out."

"what is the problem?"

Zhou Yu turned his face: "What is that person like?"

Cheng Jingshen quickly realized who Zhou Yu was talking about, but he was still stunned, but soon he laughed again, with the infatuated look that was unique to recalling youth: "He. A very quiet person , you can hardly find anyone who is quieter than him in adolescence. It seems that he doesn't care about anything, but he can easily win No.1. It's cute when he smiles, but he always feels a little absent-minded."

Cheng Jingshen paused for a moment before speaking again: "Different from the sunshine that is unique to teenagers at that age, he is more like moonlight, quiet and poetic."

"So jealous." Zhou Yu looked at his toes and smiled softly.

"what?"

"I said I'm so jealous of him." Zhou Yu looked up into Cheng Jingshen's eyes.The rain was still persistently falling, hitting the roof tiles with clangs, bending the plantain after it was scratched, and falling into the soil, the plantain trembled twice, and struggled back to its original place.

Time dissolves in silence, and all memories are gradually blurred.

I don't know how long it took before Zhou Yu turned his face away: "What should I do, Cheng Jingshen. I probably will never be able to compare with that person, and it will only get worse and worse in the future."

Cheng Jingshen didn't speak, looked at Zhou Yu's side face, his Adam's apple moved slightly, and unconsciously held his breath.

"But one thing is for sure, I must like you more than him."

I don't know if it's too cold, but Zhou Yu's face is red, his lips and the corners of his eyes are red, but his eyes are squinted and he smiles, that smile is as clean as when he was 17 years old, he said: "So, would you like to think about it? me?"

Cheng Jingshen looked at Zhou Yu's face with a blank expression, neither excited nor surprised.Completely blank.

He was already ready for this moment, an hour ago, five months ago, ten years ago, he was ready to face this moment.But he was still stunned, not knowing how to react at all, the brain conveyed the instructions, but the body did not execute them, and he was out of his control.

"Don't you give me a hug?" Zhou Yu said.

Cheng Jingshen hugged Zhou Yu tightly with both arms, and buried his head in Zhou Yu's shoulder socket.Zhou Yu's cotton T-shirt and hair smelled like rain, and he could finally get close to this body without any scruples.I have been looking forward to the fulfillment of my wish for many years, and with a strong sense of satisfaction, I also retaliate to force out the depression accumulated in the past.Cheng Jingshen felt that his eyeballs were swollen and congested, and his tears flowed endlessly. This should be regarded as tears of joy, but no matter how happy the tears were, they still flowed for sad emotions in the final analysis.

Humans really should invent a special term for this kind of hug, just do nothing, don't talk, don't kiss, don't undress, just hug, tightly hug, breathless hug.

Zhou Yu felt that Cheng Jingshen must be very tired, that kind of hug that put all the weight on his shoulders without any scruples, Cheng Jingshen must be very tired.Zhou Yu always thought that a person like Cheng Jingshen should never get tired and would always be gentle and decent, but he changed his mind and felt psychologically balanced again. It turns out that negative emotions are fair, just like life and death, Cheng Jingshen is not immune.

Zhou Yu reached out and gently stroked his back, looking at the ever-shrinking sky: "Cheng Jingshen, I discovered it myself."

"Yes, you found it."

I don’t know which homeless singer hiding from the rain is singing "Summer's Finale" on the side of the road, singing the phrase "The end of summer, in the non-stop rain, has been waiting for you."

"Summer is really coming to an end."

It's over.Summer is over~

Thank you all for listening to me tell a boring story.

bye bye bye