escape the nightmare

However, Lin Feng soon discovered that he still underestimated the height difference between him and Jiang Zhang.

"Those who don't know think you are hiding money from your own house, why put it so high." Lin Feng complained in a low voice.

Lin Feng jumped hard, but he could barely touch the corner of the book.He didn't expect that it would be so hard to find a "replacement book" to play memory killing.

However, this kind of trivial matter did not bother Lin Feng at all, so he casually pulled a stool from the side and stepped on it.

Lin Feng pulled out the book, only to realize that it was not a book, but a notebook with a red cover, and there was a piece of paper in it.

Although Lin Feng knew that it belonged to Jiangzhang, and he also deeply understood what curiosity killed the cat, but for some reason, Lin Feng subconsciously pulled out the piece of paper inside.

Even after leaving the game, Lin Feng found that his intuition was still controlling his behavior.This time it was his intuition that made him open the paper.

Lin Feng discovered that this was actually an informed consent form.

The title of the informed consent form reads the words "Nightmare Awakening Plan".If this title already made Lin Feng's heart skip a beat, then when Lin Feng saw the content under the title, he felt that his brain was a little short of oxygen.

He saw Jiang Zhang's chic signature appearing on the family signature column under the consent form, while the patient's column filled in the word "Lin Feng".

Lin Feng looked at his name and couldn't keep up with the rhythm for a while.

He flipped through the informed consent form repeatedly, and it was obvious that the complete consent form was definitely more than just this one page, but the previous pages should have been torn off by Jiang Zhang.Therefore, it is difficult for Lin Feng to infer the specific content of this informed consent form based on the last signed page.

But Lin Feng knew that this must have something to do with his car accident and "June [-]".

Because Lin Feng saw on the informed consent form that the patient Lin Feng was admitted to the hospital on June No. 13, and there was a string of numbers next to his name.

It is No.613.

Lin Feng did not expect that he would see these three numbers again.

Lin Feng hesitated for a moment. In the end, he didn't choose to continue entangled in this incomplete consent form. Instead, he opened the red notebook in his hand.

When Lin Feng read the first page of the notebook, he suddenly realized that it was Jiang Zhang's diary.

But in Lin Feng's impression, Jiang Zhang didn't have the habit of keeping a diary.

Lin Feng's heart skipped a beat, and he frowned subconsciously.

He paused for a moment, skipped back and forth between looking and not looking, and finally continued to scroll down.

"It's been three months, and Lin Feng still hasn't woken up. The doctor said that he has passed the critical period, but why hasn't he regained consciousness.

why?

Why? "

"But no matter what, as long as there is a little chance, I will let him continue to receive treatment."

"It's all my fault. If I had insisted on not letting him go out to breathe alone, all of this would not have happened. He would not have been hit by a car, and he would not have become a vegetable who could only lie on the bed. "

When Lin Feng saw the word "vegetative", he suddenly felt a throbbing pain in his head.

He felt as if something was rolling and interfering in his mind.

"It's because I didn't protect him well. I promised to stay by his side all the time, but I broke my promise and hurt him.

I'm so bad, so bad.

Sometimes I wonder if he shouldn't be with me in the first place. "

Lin Feng's fingertips trembled, and he turned another page.

"I helped Lin Feng wash his body today, probably because he could only rely on injections to maintain his basic nutrition, and he lost weight. He was already very thin. I swore at the beginning that I would become the top ten boyfriends, and I would Feed him fat and make him the happiest person in the world.

Finally?

I didn't do it.

I'm sorry for him"

Lin Feng just flipped through the first few pages of the diary, and he felt a little reluctant to look back.He felt that although the words fell in his eyes, it seemed that Jiang Zhang's voice was reading to him sentence by sentence in his ears.

Jiang Zhang is a person who looks calm and fearless on the surface, but Lin Feng has always known that the real Jiang Zhang is very sensitive in his bones, especially for things he cherishes.

After what happened to Xu Lin, Lin Feng understood that Jiang Zhang loved him very carefully.

Just like what Xu Lin said, Jiang Zhang seemed to be afraid that he would lose him by doing something wrong all the time.Jiang Zhang was afraid that he would mind being gay, that he would catch a cold and have a fever, and that he would leave him one day.

Just like I was afraid of losing Jiangzhang in the last game of "June [-]".

This is Jiangzhang's perfection, and it is also Jiangzhang's imperfection, but no matter what kind of Jiangzhang is, it is the appearance that Lin Feng likes.

So Lin Feng has been telling Jiang Zhang with his own actions that he can completely rest assured about the relationship between them.

Because he has personally experienced the pain of parting and the collapse of forgetting, it is difficult for Lin Feng to imagine what kind of mood Jiang Zhang wrote these few paragraphs.

It was even more difficult for him to imagine how Jiang Zhang survived his time in the game.

Lin Feng discovered that he wasn't the only one fighting alone.

Lin Feng was not in the mood to look any further, but now he just wanted to find Jiang Zhang. He felt that he had a lot of questions to ask Jiang Zhang.

However, the last sentence on this page attracted Lin Feng's attention again.

When Lin Feng saw Jiang Zhang writing the following content, the charm of the entire handwriting changed significantly.Lin Feng could feel Jiang Zhang's excitement when he wrote the pen.

"Today is the 130th and sixth day. According to the original agreement with the hospital, Lin Feng was supposed to be taken home today.

Maybe God is pitying me, I was unexpectedly notified by the doctor when I was packing my things.

The doctor said that Lin Feng's condition was a little different from other vegetative people. All his organs and body functions were very active, and his brain waves and electrocardiograms were basically the same as those of normal people.So the hospital finally decided to seek the opinions of the family members. According to the doctor's opinion, it meant that Lin Feng could still be saved.

They said that they now have a very special medical technology for patients like Lin Feng, so I can think about it.

Then the doctor gave me an informed consent form. "

……

"I'm done.

The doctor was also very frank. He told me that this program is still immature, especially in China, and has not been officially promoted clinically.The reason why they asked me if I could let Lin Feng use this plan for treatment was that on the one hand, they wanted to give Lin Feng a last try, and on the other hand, they also hoped to try their luck and find a successful clinical case.

The doctor said that although the entire plan is based on the patient's own memory to design the awakening process, and they will also add some elements to provide clues to the patient, but all the game plots included in the plan are based on the fluctuation of Lin Feng's brain power. Randomly generated, the doctor said that even they don't know what kind of plot Lin Feng will draw.

Although it sounds inexplicably funny, I still don't feel like laughing at all.

Although I have read the informed consent form, I still seem to have a lot of things I don't understand about this plan.Maybe it's better to go to the hospital tomorrow to find out. "

"I asked the doctor today, and the doctor also analyzed many problems with me.

The doctor said that there are still very few people who can wake up after taking this treatment method. Most of the patients spend money and have no curative effect in the end. It will even affect the patient's brain function and mood, leading to the deterioration of the condition.

The most important thing is that the doctor told me that even if the patient wakes up through this plan, his memory can only stay on those things experienced in the dream.In other words, Lin Feng is likely to forget the past between me and him, and he will only regard dreams as reality.

The doctor made me think hard.

I am very entangled, I don't want to let Lin Feng take any more risks, but I am not reconciled, my promise to Lin Feng has not been fulfilled in time, and I am not reconciled that he will never see the world again.

In the final analysis, I am more selfish, because I am afraid that Lin Feng will leave.

But I don't want him to forget me either. "

When Lin Feng saw Jiangzhang's words on this page, he trembled a little, and even the end of some words were slightly blurred by water.

Lin Feng gently touched Jiangzhang's words with his fingertips.

In fact, even if he stopped watching, Lin Feng could still guess the answer Jiang Zhang gave at the end.But Lin Feng still couldn't help it, he wanted to see Jiang Zhang's choice with his own eyes.

Even if only in the form of a diary.

"I signed the consent form.

I believe in Lin Feng, I believe that he will be able to complete all the treatments, and I believe that he also wants to wake up.

Although this belief is just wishful thinking on my part.

If Lin Feng knew what I just wrote, maybe he would scold me again. He would definitely say that I am arbitrary and dictatorial, and that I am a democratic dictatorship.

Maybe I will roll into the car and sleep again.

Suddenly I really miss the days of playing with him.

But no matter what, even if he is scolded and hated by him, even if he breaks up with me after waking up, I will bring him back.

I need to wake him up. "

When Lin Feng saw the words "bring him back", his temples jumped suddenly, and the speed of turning the pages of the book in his hands accelerated involuntarily.

"Great, the doctor said that Lin Feng has successfully passed the testing stage of the plan, and the doctor said that according to Lin Feng's performance in the first treatment process, he is more suitable for this treatment than the previous patients.

The doctor showed me his report card, and every physiological index of him was approaching the direction of awakening.The doctor said that as long as he can survive the next five courses of treatment, and can connect his memory with what happened before he became a vegetative state, and be able to recall the situation he is in now, then he has a high probability of waking up..."

"In the end, I decided to accompany Lin Feng to participate in the entire treatment. Although the doctor has repeatedly warned that this treatment is achieved by interfering with the operation of the brain, and the brain activity of normal people is much higher than that of vegetative people, so it is less controllable. , so once involved, there is a greater chance of leaving irreversible sequelae in the brain.

But so what, I said that no matter where Lin Feng goes, I will accompany him.

In fact, I also want to meet him, even if it's only in a dream..."

"I saw Lin Feng!

I saw it!It's Lin Feng!It really is him!

The doctor was right, everything was set up the way we first met.Although Lin Feng doesn't know me anymore, he is still cute.

I also nicknamed him "Milk Monster". I don't know if he will remember this nickname when he wakes up in the future.

I don't know when he will wake up. "

"But it doesn't matter, I can accompany him and wait for him. At least now he and I should be regarded as friends, at least we have a legitimate identity to be by his side.

But he seems to dislike my friend..."

Although Lin Feng's heart beat a little faster at the beginning, when he saw the last sentence of Jiang Zhang's words, the corners of his mouth couldn't help but rise slightly.

"Today the doctor emphasized to me again that even if Lin Feng wakes up, he may have certain memory disturbances. He may forget the real memory and regard the life designed in the plan as real. And the doctor specifically told me that although I I can accompany Lin Feng to participate in the whole process of treatment, but I can't tell him the truth, otherwise it will not only affect the curative effect of the plan, but may even directly lead to the collapse of the plan."

"But I thought about it later, the doctor said that you can't tell, but he didn't say that you can't hint.

That is to say, can I secretly try to make him like me again.

After all, the feeling of being called brothers and sisters with my partner is really uncomfortable..."

Lin Feng couldn't help but burst out laughing.

Lin Feng flipped through it backwards, and he found that the content behind it was very consistent with all the experiences related to "June [-]" in his memory.

It's just that the words he saw in front of him were full of Jiangzhang's breath, which was Jiangzhang's unique tone.

"Did Shan Han really want to die?

Wait until I get out of the game and see if I can scold her well..."

"I ran into Mr. Wang, why did he come in..."

Lin Feng saw that Jiangzhang's record hadn't been dropped for a day, and he seemed to be talking to himself non-stop.The content about the game that Jiang Zhang wrote down was even more detailed than what he remembered.

So much so that Lin Feng just flipped through it hastily at first, but later he found that he couldn't help but read every word seriously.

Lin Feng felt that the past was replaying in his mind with the strokes of Jiangzhang in front of him. He seemed to see the scene of them holding each other's hands on the Christmas tree and clenching their teeth until the end of the bell. He saw After coming out of the mermaid egg game, he and Jiang Zhang hugged each other tightly, and saw the scene where Jiang Zhang personally put on the bracelet for him.

But before Lin Feng could turn to the end of the diary, his memory killing was suddenly interrupted.

Lin Feng felt that his feet were empty, and his whole body instantly vacated.

Only then did he realize that Jiang Zhang had returned at some point.

Jiang Zhang was standing in front of him at this moment, and hugged him down from the chair.

"I'm not afraid of falling when I climb so high." Jiang Zhang frowned pretending to be angry.

However, when Jiang Zhang shifted his gaze to the diary in Lin Feng's hand, his expression suddenly froze.

Lin Feng even heard Jiang Zhang's voice trembling, he saw Jiang Zhang gave him a tentative look, and then asked cautiously: "You..."

Before Jiang Zhang finished speaking, Lin Feng nodded.

Lin Feng smiled: "I remember, whether it is a dream or reality, I remember."

"I remember it clearly, even more clearly than your days." Lin Feng looked at Jiang Zhang and said seriously.

Jiang Zhang froze for a moment, he met Lin Feng's gaze.

Jiang Zhang stared at Lin Feng for a long time, and then stretched out his hand to give Lin Feng a firm hug.

Lin Feng also rested his head on Jiangzhang's shoulder, feeling the warmth from his cheek.

In fact, he doesn't remember anything.

Just like Jiang Zhang mentioned what the doctor said to him in his diary, Lin Feng only remembered the past with Jiang Zhang in the dream, but Lin Feng had no impression of the so-called reality.

But being unimpressed doesn't mean he doesn't know anything.In fact, long before he came out of the sixth game, Lin Feng had already slowly had a certain guess about all this.

This is why Lin Feng was not surprised that he would wake up in the hospital bed after the game was over. After all, the moment he reasoned out the way to clear the level, he knew that the car accident was likely to be real.

He finally understood why the reincarnation dream of reincarnation ended with this inexplicable car accident.

He thought of the nightmares he had had in the so-called reality, those cries, those dazzling lights, those scenes that looked like past events but were different from the experiences he remembered...

Lin Feng felt that perhaps the reality that seemed to be outside the game might not necessarily be real.Just like the last game, nightmare and reality have long been fused together.

But these were just Lin Feng's guesses at the beginning, unfounded guesses.

But after he saw the contents of "June [-]", he was right about this guess