hot crush [rebirth]

After Liu Susu left, the whole afternoon in the dance room was boring for Yu Linwan.

The reason why she hasn't left yet is because she still has a glimmer of hope in her heart, she will come back, she said, she will try her best to come back after finishing her work.

With such a small hope in mind, Lin Wan sat on the bench in the corridor, waiting quietly by herself.

Time passed by every minute and every second. During this time, there were people passing by in the corridor. Lin Wan put her hands on the chair, and her two calves were rippling gently. Because she was worried about her, Zheng Meijie also took time out to look at her during class. One glance, after confirming that she was still there, he hurried back to the classroom.

Waiting, waiting, waiting until mother's class was over in the afternoon, Aunt Susu didn't come back either.

It would be a lie to say that she didn't feel lost at all, Lin Wan couldn't help thinking, she must have been tripped up by something, alas.

Watching the students in the mother's dance room pack up their things and leave their bags one after another, some even waved to Lin Wan to say goodbye. Lin Wan also responded one by one. Lost look.

"Xiao Wan, let's go home." Zheng Meijie came out last, carrying her bag.

Lin Wan raised her head and said, "Will Aunt Susu come?"

Zheng Meijie smiled helplessly: "It's so late, I'm afraid I won't come, let's go, let's go back."

After finishing speaking, Zheng Meijie stepped forward and pulled Lin Wan's arm. Lin Wan got off the chair in an instant and let her mother lead her away obediently.

"What's the matter, it feels like you're in a bad mood this afternoon."

Sitting on the back of my mom's bike, being asked this.

"No, I just feel a little bored." Lin Wan replied.

"If you don't like to go, then you don't have to go with your mother next time." Zheng Meijie said.

"No, I'd like to go." Lin Wan shook her head and said.

Zheng Meijie smiled happily, knowing that her daughter was coaxing her, she didn't take it seriously.

Just like that all the way home, when the bicycle entered the yard, Lin Wan suddenly remembered that she had forgotten something, and slapped her thigh suddenly.

"Mom, I forgot to buy candied haws for Lili."

Zheng Meijie slammed on the brakes, "Ah? Then what should I do, I'll take you out to buy."

Lin Wan shook her head, "Forget it, I have to go back and prepare dinner. I will apologize to Lili myself, and I will make up for her next time."

Downstairs, Lin Wan got off her bicycle, went to the next apartment building, and knocked on the door of room 202. After a while, someone opened the door from the inside. Lin Wan recognized it as Lili's mother.

"Auntie, I'm looking for Lili."

"Oh, it's Lin Wan. She went out in Lili and went to grandma's house with her father in the afternoon. What can you do with her?"

Lin Wan paused, then smiled and shook her head: "It's okay, then I'll go back first."

It's time to go out, well, I'll replenish her next time.

Liu Susu made it a point to buy cigarettes and alcohol in the afternoon, and took a ride directly to the other side of Ning'an City, which was half a city away. The place she was going on this trip was a place called "home".

She and Liu Ruyi separated after they came out of the building in the dance room. That was her half-sister, who was five years apart from her mother. She was a sophomore in high school this year. She could be described as ignorant, but her father and stepmother had always been used to her. , spoiled badly, and also developed this younger sister's arrogant and tempered temperament since she was a child.

Since Liu Susu left home to go to university that year, she rarely went back to that home. The tuition and living expenses were all earned by her daily part-time jobs. When she left home, her younger sister just entered middle school at the age of 13. It was also the beginning of a rebellious age. The sisters didn't have a deep relationship because of the stepmother's obstruction, and coupled with the age gap, they didn't have much in common.

This time Liu Ruyi came out to look for her, it must be the intention of the family, Liu Susu felt that she should go home, even if there were people in that family that she didn't want to face, after all, it was the place where she grew up.

It takes about four to five minutes to take a bus in the city. Liu Susu sat from dusk to dark. Along the way, the setting sun hit the window on the right, and gradually lost its light and shadow. She kept witnessing the people on the bus going up and down. There are not many people down.

Getting off at the familiar platform, Liu Susu walked into an alley with the things in her hands. Her family had a two-story old house, which was located in the east of Ning'an City. Although it was a building, there were not many rooms, and the corridors were relatively It was cramped, and until she went to university, Liu Susu and her younger sister were squeezed into a room. The younger sister slept in a spacious bed, while she slept in a small wooden bed.

The street lights in the alley were dim, and big dogs rushed out from time to time. Liu Susu consciously walked by the side of the road. She didn't expect to be frightened by these dogs even though she was 22. Sometimes it's funny to think about it.

After walking not far, they arrived. Liu Susu stretched out her hand and pushed open the iron gate. Dinner was already being prepared in the house. Liu Susu raised her foot to enter. There were several dishes on the table. Her stepmother was still cooking, while her father was leaning against the table to drink. Eating peanuts with a little wine.

"Dad, Mom, I'm back." Liu Susu called out.

"Oh, I'm back." Liu Zongshen raised his head and glanced, his eyes didn't fluctuate much.

Liu Susu has long been accustomed to this. Her stepmother has been a housewife since she entered the house. She has not worked for more than ten years. Living a life of food and clothing, the reality has already worn away the smile on his father's face, leaving only exhaustion, endless exhaustion.

Du Yuhua, who was cooking, turned around and smiled politely when he heard the sound. He glanced at the things in Liu Susu's hands, and hurried forward and said, "You come home, what are you spending money on to buy these things? My family is so polite."

As she said that, she took the initiative to take the cigarettes and alcohol in Liu Susu's hand, and then said: "It's time to prepare dinner, go and call your sister."

"Oh, good." Liu Susu nodded lightly.

Upstairs, the wooden stairs creaked, the narrow corridor did not have any handrails, and the walls were slightly peeled, full of traces of time.

There was only one room on the second floor, Liu Susu raised her hand and knocked on the door, and Liu Ruyi's impatient voice came from inside.

"What are you doing!"

"It's time to eat." Liu Susu's voice was calm.

"Understood." Liu Ruyi responded with a strong tone, and after a while, he opened the door and came out.

At the dining table for four, there was relative silence, only the sound of eating.

At this time, Du Yuhua couldn't help breaking the silence first, and asked: "Susu, why did I hear that the blind date person I introduced to you last time said that you have a daughter outside?"

As soon as these words came out, Liu Zongshen's face darkened, and even Liu Ruyi stopped her chopsticks, showing a look of watching the excitement.

"No, it's a misunderstanding. That's the child of my dance class teacher." After Liu Susu finished speaking, she couldn't help but said, "Mom, can you stop introducing me to someone else? I don't want to get married yet."

"You are already 22. If you don't get married, you will be an old girl. Also, the young man last time has a good family and can give you a lot of gifts." Du Yuhua continued.

Speaking of this, Liu Susu put down her chopsticks and said solemnly: "I said, I don't want to get married yet, so you can leave my affairs alone."

As soon as these words came out, Du Yuhua finally tore off the mask of hypocrisy and yelled loudly: "Is it because I am not your mother that you treat me like this? I worry about your affairs back and forth, and I can't get a good word. On the contrary, you despised him, didn't you?"

Liu Susu lowered her head, squeezed her chopsticks tightly, she was no longer in the mood to eat, and responded in a low voice: "You are not my real mother."

When Du Yuhua heard this, he couldn't take it anymore, and turned around to sue: "Liu Zongshen, take care of it, watch what she says."

Finally Liu Zongshen couldn't take it anymore, he slammed his chopsticks and stood up, startled the other two women on the table, turned around and asked Liu Susu: "Apologize to your mother."

Liu Susu also put down her chopsticks and got up, facing her eccentric father, she said stubbornly, "Marriage is my own business, she shouldn't have interfered, I was right, so why not apologize."

After finishing speaking, Liu Zongshen raised his hand, and a loud slap fell on Liu Susu's face. Liu Ruyi and her mother were all dumbfounded.

Feeling the burning pain on her face, Liu Susu subconsciously raised her hand to cover her face, lowered her head and said nothing.

Liu Zongshen continued to say angrily: "You are apologizing today or not."

Du Yuhua realized that it was too much, and hurried out to pretend to be a good person, and pulled Liu Zong's arms to persuade: "Okay, okay, forget it, a family has dinner, there is no need to make trouble like this."

In the next second, without saying a word, Liu Susu picked up her bag and rushed out of the house without looking back.

"Look, look at her virtue, she is used to it!"

"Okay, okay, don't get angry with the child."

"..."

Liu Susu walked and trotted all the way out of the alley, only wanting to leave this place as soon as possible.

Because it was hard to wait for the bus, Liu Susu had no choice but to walk forward. The sky gradually began to drizzle, and it fell on her face, which was cool. Pain, but it was far less than the pain this home brought her.

Before returning home, she might still have a glimmer of hope, hoping to get some family warmth, but now she understands that this is probably a luxury.

Her family was broken up when her mother left when she was six years old.

After dinner, Lin Wan took a shower by herself, and then went back to her room to write today's diary.

On Sunday, March 1990, 3, the weather turned from cloudy to overcast.

I met Auntie Susu in the dance room today, and I saw her dancing again. She was still as beautiful and beautiful as I remembered.

But today something happened that never happened before. On this day more than 60 years ago, Aunt Su Su practiced in the dance room all day, but this afternoon, a girl named Liu Ruyi called her away. It seems that it is not following the track of history.

Did I change the course of history?

In the middle of writing, Lin Wan heard the sound of raindrops hitting the window, immediately put down her pen and got off the chair, walked to the window, and quickly closed the other open window.

It's raining.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the windows were crackling. Lin Wan stood in front of the window, watching the heavy rain in the night, and couldn't help thinking about what Aunt Susu was doing at the moment.

The rain was heavy, but Liu Susu was still walking in the rain, her whole body was soaked, and no one was spared.

Even so, the raindrops hitting her body were far less painful than the pain in her heart.

Swaying with the wind, wandering, with nowhere to go.