Stop chasing me!Lu Yingdi

Probably because of the side effects of the medicine, Lu Yishan seldom wakes up, basically lying in bed all day and all night except eating. Occasionally, she asks someone to turn on the TV to watch the variety show that is on, but she seldom finishes watching it in its entirety.If possible, Lu Junyao would like to stay with Lu Yishan all day long, but Lu Yishan would not let him stay in the room all the time, for fear that he would waste his time, so Lu Junyao would accompany her only when eating, and at other times Lu Yishan said If you want to rest, let Lu Junyao go back.

In fact, even if Lu Junyao went back to the house he rented, he didn't have much to do, he just did some summer homework, he was not a person who liked to study, and it was impossible for him to learn something extra.So after finishing his homework, he usually goes for a walk around to buy some ingredients, then goes back to the house to make some food, and then watches a movie to pass the time.

Xia Shui would come to him every now and then, and what puzzled Lu Junyao was that this little boy knew the neighborhood like the king of the mountain here, even passing by the store, the boss would call him "young master".Lu Junyao is not interested in finding out Xia Shui's family background, but thanks to him, Lu Junyao can buy things around here for a few dollars cheaper.

Lu Junyao was curious once, so he asked at the door of the convenience store: "You are a child who has been wandering outside, isn't your family worried about you getting lost?"

"Don't worry." Xia Shui bit his popsicle without raising his head, "There is a person looking at his phone standing by the streetlight opposite, see that?"

Lu Junyao followed along and looked over: "I see, why?"

Xia Shui's expression did not change: "My bodyguard."

Lu Junyao: "..."

Xia Shui shrugged: "My parents always think I'm a child, so I don't know anything, but in fact, I recognize the bodyguards they send out to follow me secretly."

Lu Junyao didn't know what to say for a while.Xia Shui showed a cunning face, reached out and tugged at his sleeve, mysteriously: "Do you want to try?"

"what?"

Xia Shui's mischievous mood of wanting to do bad things jumped on his face: "Pick me up and run now, he will definitely catch up. Do you want to see if you can outrun him?"

Lu Junyao looked down at Xia Shui, remained silent for a moment, then tapped his forehead with his knuckles, and said "tsk": "I'm young and full of bad water, so I won't accompany you to play tricks on others, and bodyguards are also very hard. "

"Okay." Xia Shui touched his forehead and glanced at his mouth.If someone else taught him, he wouldn't be so obedient, but for some reason, he could obediently listen to what Lu Junyao said, maybe because this brother is so good-looking, if he is disobedient and ignored, the loss outweighs the gain.

When Lu Junyao bought the ingredients, he would make something to eat by himself, such as sandwiches or toast. He bought these kinds of magazines when he was bored. Surprised, I didn't expect my mother to be sick and unable to eat these things, but fortunately, learning is not completely useless, and I can also find something to do for myself when I am bored.

Unexpectedly, Xia Shui seems to like eating his snacks, obviously they are all experimental products, maybe the child's taste is so simple, as long as it is sweet, it tastes good, and I can't tell why.

And Xia Shui ate quite a lot, maybe he was growing up.It just so happens that Lu Junyao is not very good at controlling the amount, so it is easy to make too much, and he feeds Xia Shui one by one like feeding. Seeing the child's cheeks swell from eating, he thinks it is cute, and he feels a little healing .

When Lu Junyao was watching a movie in the living room, although Xia Shui didn't quite understand it, he was able to sit still and quietly watch it with him.In fact, he didn't need anyone to accompany him, let alone a primary school student, but Xia Shui didn't want to leave and was very attached to him.Lu Junyao sometimes felt strange, it was the first time in his life that he knew that he would attract children like this.

"Brother, I think you look better than the actors in the movie." After a movie ended, Xia Shui couldn't fully understand the content, so he could only barely make a superficial evaluation, which can be regarded as crossing the age gap Find topics.

Lu Junyao looked down at the movie list, and said in a casual tone, "Really, you like my looks so much, you are so superficial at such a young age, you don't like me at all, you just think I'm pretty."

"How can you say that." Xia Shui argued, "Your appearance is also a part of you. If I like my brother, I must like my brother's appearance."

Lu Junyao: "..." Unable to refute.

After watching for a long time, Xia Shui leaned against Lu Junyao and fell asleep.In the evening, the light was dim and shone into a corner of the living room. The lights in the room were not turned on, and the atmosphere was quiet. Only the sound of the movie playing and the breathing of the two could be heard.Lu Junyao put a piece of clothing on Xia Shui's body, and for some reason, two words "tranquility" and "beautiful" suddenly appeared in his head, which had always been far away from him.

Lu Junyao suddenly remembered what Duan Shuyi said to him before, saying that life does not need to be happy, as long as you can have a small amount of happiness.Well, at this time, let’s just say that I am in this kind of “tiny happiness”.

At dinner time, after Lu Junyao took Xia Shui back with his arms in his arms, he planned to go straight to see Lu Yishan after dinner at the convenience store, but saw a few cars he knew parked at the gate of the nursing home, suddenly had a bad feeling, and hurried upstairs, From outside the door, I heard arguing inside.

Li Hongzhi and Lu Wenkang came. I don't know what they came for, whether they were simply visiting or for other purposes. Anyway, there was a quarrel in the room.But it sounded like only Lu Yishan was yelling hysterically, and the others seemed to be arguing for something, their voices were low and indifferent.

Lu Junyao squatted at the door to eavesdrop, buried his head, clenched his fists tightly, and heard Lu Yishan's tone change from anger to collapse, and finally burst into tears. This time, he didn't have the courage to go in, and he couldn't let his father and uncle get out. He couldn't hug Lu Yishan to comfort her.

Because he heard all the conversations in the house, clearly.

So he almost fled away, and with every step he took, his reason and emotion gradually collapsed a little bit.

Lu Junyao ran back to the residence, as if he had lost all his mental strength, even the strength to go upstairs, and he slumped directly on the steps at the door of the building, facing the uncomfortable summer wind, tears streaming down his face.

At this time, the mobile phone rang, and Duan Shu also called.

"Hello? Shi Yu and I plan to come to you in the next few days and visit your mother by the way... Huh? What's wrong with you?"

After Duan Shu also picked up the phone, he noticed something was wrong: "Are you okay, how do you feel... are you crying?"

Lu Junyao was silent for a long time, choked up and opened his mouth, depressed and depressed, with an indescribable self-loathing.

"Li Hongzhi and Lu Wenkang came. They had a quarrel with my mother in the room. I heard their conversation..."

By now, Lu Junyao no longer wanted to address the two of them with relatives like "father" and "uncle", which would make him feel sick.

"My mother didn't want to marry this bastard..."

Lu Junyao gritted his teeth, as if his emotions were on the verge of an explosion, but he couldn't swallow the bitterness with tears, his voice was trembling and hoarse, with intermittent crying.

"Li Hongzhi raped her with the help of Lu Wenkang, and then she became pregnant, but all the rumors were directed at her alone, and the Lu family didn't help her, and they even felt ashamed of her. In the end, she compromised and married her. That scumbag."

Lu Junyao buried his head in anger while weeping uncontrollably.

"I'm the son of scum...it's all because of me...if I didn't exist..."

"Lu Junyao!"

Duan Shu also suddenly shouted something loudly, which startled people.

"Listen, it's not you who are at fault, it's your father and uncle. Rather than complaining about yourself here, you have to live to see their retribution."

Lu Junyao sniffed, but did not speak.

Duan Shu also knew that there was a high probability that he would not be able to comfort the other party with just one sentence, so he could only sigh: "You rest early today, I will see you tomorrow morning."

After hanging up the phone, Lu Junyao put away the phone and leaned against the wall.His head hurt so badly, as if someone had knocked it with a nail, it was cracking, and his spirit was also very tired, he didn't want to move, so he closed his eyes and let the tears flow freely on his face lie.

He didn't know how long he had been like this, when he suddenly smelled the beautiful fragrance of flowers, opened his eyes, and saw Xia Shui squatting in front of him with a worried expression on his face, holding a few lilies.

"You...? Why are you here..." Lu Junyao was a little dull.

"After I finished eating, I saw the lilies raised by my mother blooming in the yard. I thought they were very beautiful, so I took a few of them here and wanted to give them to my brother..." Xia Shui looked a little sad, "But when I came here, I found that my brother seemed very sad. What's the matter, is brother crying...?" Hong Xing, Shao Xianduijia

Lu Junyao turned his head: "It's nothing, children don't care..."

Before Xia Shui could wait for Lu Junyao to finish speaking, he suddenly hugged Lu Junyao up, and tried his best to wrap his arms around Lu Junyao's shoulders and neck, hugging very hard.

"When I'm in a bad mood, it's much better to be hugged by my mother." Xia Shui looked serious, "I don't know why my brother is in a bad mood, so I will hug my brother too, will it make me happier?"

"..."

Lu Junyao was silent for a long time, and slowly hugged Xia Shui back.The child's body is small and soft, which actually alleviated a little physical fatigue, as if the warmth of the skin was transmitted to the heart.

Xia Shui couldn't help but burst into tears: "Brother, don't be sad, I like my brother very much, and seeing my brother sad, I can't help but want to cry."

Lu Junyao sighed in his heart: "Thank you, Xiao Shui, thank you for being willing to like brother."

Xia Shui shook his head: "I like brother because he is a very good person, brother should thank himself."

Lu Junyao was slightly taken aback, and a complex choked sob came out of his throat.

"Is it……"

**

Lu Junyao couldn't sleep at night, so he got up early in the morning. After hesitating for a long time, he decided to go to the nursing home to see Lu Yishan.

Before Lu Yishan woke up, Lu Junyao was sitting on the chair by the bed, quietly watching her slightly frowning brows and bloodless face, secretly touching Lu Yishan's fingertips outside the quilt, his nose suddenly felt a little sour.

I don't know when, maybe the moment the wind blew through the treetops outside the window, Lu Yishan opened her eyes.

"Why do you look like you want to cry?" Lu Yishan's voice was haggard, "Looking at your expression, I thought I was dead."

Lu Junyao gently grabbed Lu Yishan's finger, and said in a low voice, "...I'm sorry, Mom."

Subtle surprise appeared on Lu Yishan's face. After thinking for a moment, she hesitated and said, "You... Did you come last night?"

Lu Junyao lowered his head, did not speak, and acquiesced.

"That's right, I should have thought of it, you will come every night at this time." Lu Yishan propped up a little and sighed, "So you heard what I said yesterday."

"I'm sorry." Lu Junyao suppressed his emotions with unshed tears in his eyes, "I dragged my mother down."

"Sorry……"

Lu Junyao was lying on the bedside, his sleeves were soaked with tears, he seemed to have become a machine that could only mutter three words, he knew it was meaningless, but he had no other words to say.

Lu Yishan was silent for a long time, pulled up the quilt and turned around, her voice was bitter and hoarse: "This has nothing to do with you, it's not your fault, and you were not born voluntarily."

Lu Junyao asked softly, "Have you ever regretted it?"

"...I did, because I was a cowardly and cowardly person, so I was so easily deceived and controlled at the beginning, and pinned my hopes on delusions that would not exist." Lu Yishan said slowly, "But you are me. Son, in this world, I will not hate you alone, in other words, because I love you, I can support until now."

Lu Junyao understood his weakness and powerlessness a long time ago, but at this moment, he hated his own weakness even more than before. At this moment, he suddenly understood one thing—maybe it is really difficult for him to bring happiness to his mother .Ever since she was pregnant with him, the mother has fallen into a vortex of misfortune. No matter how much happiness she can get in the process of raising the child, the happiness is short-lived, but the misfortune will continue her life.

What Duan Shu also said is wrong, relying on "tiny happiness", people can only "survive", but cannot "live".

Thinking about this in Lu Junyao's head, he suddenly felt hopeless.

He didn't know how he got out of the sanatorium, perhaps distraught and top-heavy.He sat on the swing in the yard, leaning on the rope in a daze, as if a hole had been dug in his heart. Inside the hole was an abyss of self-loathing, and his mother's love could not fill the hole.

When Duan Shuyi arrived with his luggage, Lu Junyao didn't notice.He just felt that someone was going to approach him, and reached out his hand like a conditioned reflex to catch the person backhanded.

"Pain, pain... let go!"

"Huh, it's you?" Lu Junyao immediately let go of his hand as if waking up from a dream.

Duan Shu also rubbed his arms, a little aggrieved: "I see you look downcast, I want to comfort you, how could I have thought that I was almost beaten."

Lu Junyao: "Sorry, I didn't pay attention to my surroundings, subconsciously..."

"It's okay." Duan Shu also held his shoulder, "I will be with you for a while, don't worry about anything."

Lu Junyao lowered his eyes and said nothing.

Duan Shu also knew that it would be difficult to untangle his knot for a while, so he could only distract him first, so he changed the topic: "By the way, Shi Yu is here too."

"What about people?"

"In the back, I went to the convenience store to buy food."

"How did his father agree to her coming out?"

"Laughing, Lu Wenkang is not at home at all these days, I picked her up."

At this moment, Lu Shiyu just arrived, and she ran over excitedly with her bag and canned drink: "Brother! I bought you a bottle too."

Lu Junyao was about to say thank you when he saw Lu Shiyu handing the drink to Duan Shuyi.

Lu Junyao: "??...?"

He suddenly fell into confusion, looked left and right, pointed to Duan Shuyi, then pointed to himself, and looked at Lu Shiyu, showing a puzzled look.

Lu Shiyu also reacted, a little embarrassed, scratched his head, and smiled at Lu Junyao: "I'm sorry, brother, I forgot... I will invite you next time."

Duan Shu also couldn't hold back his laughter.

Lu Junyao glanced at Duan Shuyi sideways, and when he turned to Lu Shiyu, his eyes softened instantly: "It's okay, I'll take you upstairs first, it's too hot outside."

When Xia Shui came to look for Lu Junyao, he suddenly found that there were two more people in the house. Lu Junyao and Lu Shiyu were in the kitchen, and he and Duan Shu were staring at each other on the sofa.

Xia Shuizai looked at Duan Shuyi's appearance carefully, making him feel uncomfortable. Duan Shuyi picked up a book to block his sight: "Enough is enough, don't keep staring at me."

Xia Shui made a serious comment: "Although you are also good-looking, you are not as beautiful as brother Yao at all, so you are not suitable to be a wife."

Duan Shu was also taken aback: "Huh?"

Xia Shui suddenly became serious: "Who are you to Brother Xiaoyao?"

"Uh... friend?"

Xia Shui folded his arms, inexplicably proud: "Hmph, that's how it is."

"..." Duan Shu also suddenly felt a little speechless, "Where did you come from, you little brat, who are you?"

Xia Shui smiled confidently and cutely, patted her chest and said in a flamboyant tone, "I am brother Xiaoyao's future husband."

"........."

Duan Shu was so scared that he dropped the book.Hearing a creak, Lu Junyao came out with a freshly made sandwich, dumbfounded.

Duan Shu also looked at Lu Junyao with a condemning gaze: "People at least...shouldn't..."

"Hey, hey!" Lu Junyao put down the plate, with a helpless expression on his face, "Don't believe what the kid says! He's a kid who lives around here, and he always likes to talk nonsense..."

Duan Shu also had complicated eyes: "I really want to call the police..."

"Don't look at me like a criminal, I'm innocent!"

Xia Shui unceremoniously began to pick up a sandwich and gnawed on it, puffing up his cheeks and slurring his words: "You are talking about Sen Mo, why did you call the police?"

Lu Junyao covered his forehead and sighed: "Forget it, it's none of your business, just eat by yourself."

After a noisy meal, Lu Junyao returned to the kitchen, and complained gloomily while washing his hands: "Oh, really..."

Lu Shiyu was chopping vegetables beside him, smiling brightly: "Brother, did you just eat it?"

"I don't have any appetite, why are you still here?" Lu Junyao said as he wanted to reach out to snatch the tools from Lu Shiyu's hand, "Go out and rest with them, I'll come."

"It's okay!" Lu Shiyu hid for a while, and quickly explained, "I've learned a little recently, and I want to try it out. I'll cook with my brother."

"……it is good."

Lu Junyao was washing vegetables next to him, and suddenly noticed something, wondering: "Shi Yu, why are you wearing a sun protection jacket inside the house, and there is a fire in the kitchen in summer, are you not hot?"

Lu Shiyu: "...No, I'm not hot."

Lu Junyao was surprised: "You are obviously sweating, and your hair is sticky."

Lu Shiyu hesitated, put down the tool in his hand, and subconsciously tightened his sleeves.

Lu Junyao suddenly had a bad intuition that it was too late to say it, so before Lu Shiyu could respond, he pulled up her sleeve first.

A series of red marks that hadn't completely disappeared stood out on the girl's fair and fragile skin, and some places had slender blood scabs, which looked like they had been beaten very hard.

Lu Junyao was struck by a thunderbolt from the blue sky, and was stunned for a while: "This..."

Lu Shiyu quickly pulled back his sleeves, leaned against the wall with folded arms, and explained in a low voice, his voice trembling: "A few days ago, my dad was not in a good mood, and he came home drunk, so... there is no way, after all, mom Already ran away because of this, but I..."

Her voice choked: "I don't seem to be able to...leave that house..."

Lu Junyao was silent for a long time, slowly holding his sister's hand, hesitantly said: "Sorry..."

"What are you apologizing for?"

Lu Junyao's eyes showed sadness: "...Because I can't help you."

"I can't do anything as an older brother, sorry."

Suddenly, with a bang, the kitchen door was opened.Duan Shu also stood at the door, seeing the two people with their heads down, and the atmosphere was not right, so he didn't say much, but walked up to Lu Shiyu, and gently touched her head: "Shi Yu, you Let's go outside today, the kid in the living room is really annoying, help me deal with him, I'll cook for you."

Lu Shiyu hesitated: "I..."

Duan Shu also smiled, looked at her and promised seriously: "You rest at noon first, and I will cook dinner with you in the evening, is that okay?"

Lu Shiyu's cheeks were flushed, he nodded heavily, and strode out of the kitchen.

After the kitchen door was closed, Lu Junyao lowered his head to cut vegetables and asked, "Where's Xia Shui?"

"You mean the child? Watching cartoons in the living room." Duan Shu also lamented while washing the vegetables, "A child of this age is really nice, carefree."

Lu Junyao's tone was light: "The child's family is good, and I think he will be carefree when he grows up. Others will not envy him."

Duan Shu also glanced at him, and sighed with a smile: "Yes, but after staying with that child for a long time, I feel in a good mood. Children who grow up in this kind of environment must be very good at loving people in the future."

"...You think so far." Lu Junyao couldn't help complaining, "But after I leave here, I guess I won't have any interaction with that child."

Duan Shuyi: "I feel he will remember you."

Lu Junyao: "So what?"

Duan Shu also: "Indeed."

The two were silent for a while, and Lu Junyao spoke again: "You know about Shi Yu, right?"

"You said that her father is a scumbag, a domestic violence daughter in a bad mood?" Duan Shu also said "Yes", indifferently, "I know, that's why I brought her here, other than that, I can't do anything What, I can't kill Lu Wenkang."

Lu Junyao was silent for a while, his tone was calm, but his voice was terribly low: "Maybe one day, I will really kill him, and together with Li Hongzhi, he will be torn to pieces."

"..." Duan Shu was also silent for a moment, and slowly said, "If you do it someday, remember to contact me. Xiaomai has limited ability, so I can only try my best to help you disguise the scene."

The two looked at each other a little bit, and sneered tacitly.If a third person enters by mistake at this moment, it will definitely feel creepy.

Lu Junyao glanced to the side, and suddenly said with emotion: "Shi Yu is quite clingy to you, she seems to like you more than me."

"Is it."

Lu Junyao slowly: "After all, she is also at the age of first love at this time..."

Duan Shu couldn't help laughing, put the washed vegetables into the basket, pushed it to Lu Junyao, put one hand on his waist, and tilted his head: "Are you implying me?"

Lu Junyao waved the kitchen knife in his hand, expressionless: "I'm reminding you."

Duan Shu also touched his chin, and joked: "It's not bad if you think about it carefully. Shi Yu is a beauty, and she will only become more beautiful when she grows up. She is still a friend's sister..."

Lu Junyao stopped moving, looked up at him, and smiled on the surface: "Are you joking?"

Duan Shu was also serious immediately: "Yes, you put down the knife first."

"Don't make such jokes again."

"Don't worry, I'm still very measured." Duan Shu also smiled, "Shi Yu is very good, I treat her as my younger sister, and I won't hurt her."

……

**

Duan Shuyi and Lu Shiyu temporarily lived in the house rented by Lu Junyao. During the day, they would visit Lu Yishan together. Lu Yishan seemed very happy and seemed to be in better spirits, and Lu Junyao's mood also improved.And with more people, it is indeed not as lonely as before.

Time passed quickly, and the summer vacation was about to end. Lu Yishan's condition seemed to be gradually improving, and she was even able to go out and walk around.

Because Ninglangyuan is very remote, and their school is in the urban area, it takes two hours to get there by the fastest car.So when school was about to start, Duan Shuyi and Lu Shiyu left Ninglang Garden early, but Lu Junyao stubbornly stayed there until the first day of school, and renewed the lease, planning to come over on weekends or holidays.

Xia Shui also started school, but he would also come back to Ninglangyuan on weekends, and the two would still meet during the holidays, but most of the time it was Xia Shui who came to him.

Lu Junyao saw Lu Yishan less and less, but Lu Yishan seemed to be doing better and better in front of him. Although her appearance was still haggard, she could eat, walk, and speak with strength.Once Lu Junyao even caught Lu Yishan talking with the lawyer in the room.

"What were you talking about just now?" After the others left, Lu Junyao asked cautiously, with a worried expression on his face, "It can't be... a will or something... But, but I think you can definitely heal...!"

Lu Yishan stared at him for a long time, thought for a moment, a complex expression flashed in her eyes, she sighed, and smiled bitterly: "Don't worry, we are talking about other things, I have thought about it, if it can be cured within a few years, I will be with you Dad is divorced."

"Really!" Lu Junyao was overjoyed, and held Lu Yishan's hand, "Mom, after you recover from illness, I will leave him with you, and I will not let you be wronged again."

Lu Yishan laughed loudly and rubbed Lu Junyao's head: "Okay, good boy."

……

Lu Junyao thought that everything was going to get better, so he even took his studies seriously.In the new semester, he also entered the third year of high school, and the students around him seemed to get nervous. Even Duan Shuyi stopped hanging out with him after school, saying that he wanted to study hard.

Every night before going to bed, Lu Junyao silently plans his future life in his heart, thinking about where to travel with her to relax and go to college after Lu Yishan's divorce. For a woman like Lu Yishan, find a more reliable man to be her. Stepfather is fine too... thinking about these things every day to fall asleep, even less nightmares.

He thought that if he could be happy in the future, he might be able to forgive himself now and before.

But a month later, Lu Yishan still passed away. It rained heavily that day, and Lu Junyao had just finished his midterm exam, and rushed into the hospital in the rain, seeing her for the last time.