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Two days later, under Gu Xiu's careful care, Zhou Xing's condition improved significantly, his sore throat gradually eased, his voice sounded much more normal, and he no longer felt tired. The whole person regained his spirit.

Although Zhou Xing's illness recovered quickly, Zhang Wanwan's baldness did not recover so quickly.

After a few days of ointment on its head, it looked better, but it would take some time to fully heal, and the shaved hair did not grow back so quickly.

Fortunately, Zhang Wanwan couldn't see the back of his head. He didn't know anything about the fact that the back of his head was shaved, and he still scrambled around for food all day long, pretending not to be affected by it. .

As the time for Zhang Hui's birthday was getting closer, Qian Jing opened a WeChat group, including Zhou Xing, Gu Xiu, Zheng Yan, and Meng Ze, and began to discuss the follow-up plan and implementation.

Qian Jing avoided Zhang Hui when chatting in the group, acting mysteriously like an underground party joint.

But this is a happy event after all, everyone is still very enthusiastic about it, because the group is very lively.

At the beginning, Gu Xiu didn't want to join the WeChat group, after all he had difficulty reading and writing.

Fortunately, none of Zhou Xing's friends are fond of typing, and what they post in the group is basically voice, with only occasional emoticons mixed in, which makes Gu Xiu relax a little.

Zhou Xing is a person with few words. He usually only turns on the voice to listen to what everyone is talking about. He doesn't talk much, unless he is called by a few people, he will occasionally say a few words, but he still checks the news in the group from time to time. Looking at their plans, it is obvious that they also take Qian Jing's major life events to heart.

Since the last time Gu Xiu expressed some views on marriage proposal that he had read in a book in front of several people, they seemed to regard him as a military adviser and would ask him a few words from time to time.

It is difficult to ignore him when he is called, so every time he is @, he will inevitably reply to the voice and say a few words, which makes him say more in the group than Zhou Xing.

Gu Xiu was originally not good at communicating with people. During this period of time, under the guidance of Zhou Xing, he got along with a few people more, and gradually he stopped seeing them as strangers, and was in the group with them. Chatting, I didn't feel so uncomfortable, and I was able to accept it with a smile when I was teased by a few people occasionally.

This can be said to be a rare experience for Gu Xiu.

Many people say that Gu Xiu is very lonely. After all, he has never had any particularly good friends since he was a child, and he rarely gets close to anyone.

In fact, how can there be so many people in the world who don't like to play with their peers, who are born out of gregarious?

When he was young, he also wanted to participate in extracurricular activities with his classmates after school, to go out with his classmates on holidays, to have picnics, to go to amusement parks, and to travel.

However, for him, these are all just thoughts after all, and he rarely has the opportunity to contact his peers except during class time.

His time every day is strictly regulated, accurate to every hour, and his time is used for studying, not for other things.

Gong Lihua would pick him up on time every day when he was going to and from school, and would send him to cram school during holidays, or watch him study and solve problems at home. He didn't have any free time.

Only when his grades improve, or when he gets the top three in the grade, can he be allowed to rest or play for a while.

Gradually, everyone knew that he didn't fit in well, and when some classmates celebrated their birthdays, or there were activities organized by the class to hang out together in private, few people invited him to join them, and he seemed to gradually become a transparent person.

Later, with the rise of the Internet, people began to surf the Internet, play QQ, go to forums and post bars, but because Gong Lihua was afraid that he would be distracted, he never bought him a computer or mobile phone, so at that time he had little contact with him. These, which made him seem even more out of gregarious.

It wasn't until his second year of high school, when he suffered from depression, that Gong Lihua completely gave up on him and handed him over to Gu Wenlin, that he finally had a little space of his own.

Gu Wenlin is just the opposite of Gong Lihua. If Gong Lihua controls and suppresses him in all aspects, making him completely selfless, then Gu Wenlin's concern for him can be said to be almost non-existent.

Gu Wenlin didn't care about his illness, didn't care when he would go home, and only asked about his grades when he remembered.

However, this did not let Gu Xiu get out of the original situation. Although he had his own mobile phone, started to play QQ, registered forums and post bars, and also got in touch with games, but because of depression, he had nothing to do with him. It became more difficult for him to communicate with people, and he seemed more withdrawn amidst the hustle and bustle.

Depression followed him like a shadow, in high school, and in college.

More than a year of college life seemed like a fleeting moment to him. Before he had time to do anything, his short college life ended just like that.

Until now, he has no more than twenty friends on QQ and WeChat.

This group can be said to be the only one that is active, does not make him feel uncomfortable, and is pulled from time to time to express his views.

Gu Xiu looked at Zhou Xing who was sitting next to him, all this was because of him.

Zhou Xing seemed to pull him into a world of flesh and blood invisibly. He shared his friends and his life with him, and pulled him along the way.

Judging from his 28 years of life, Zhou Xing's appearance and existence are as fleeting as a flower blooming in an instant.

However, what he brought seems to be a lot, so much that sometimes he would feel that his previous life was black and white, and it was not until he met Zhou Xing that his life seemed to have color.

Zhou Xing is too lively and gentle, attracting him, letting him approach, and making him keep expanding his ambitions, indulging his desires, wanting more, even wanting him this way. People belong to themselves.

At this moment, Zhou Xing looked away from the phone screen and looked at Gu Xiu, and the eyes of the two collided.

"Just now Qian Jing sent a message that he has chosen a B&B and is about to settle down. He asked if it would be okay for the two of us to sleep in one room."

Gu Xiu looked down at the phone, and saw that there were indeed a few more messages on it.

It was a mixed message of text and voice. Qian Jing didn't know if it was because of Zhang Hui's presence that he suddenly stopped talking and started sending text, while others still responded by voice.

The moment his eyes fell on the words, he immediately felt dizzy.

He shifted his gaze and stopped looking at his phone.

Seeing that Gu Xiu didn't respond, Zhou Xing asked again with a smile, "Is that okay?"

Gu Xiu lowered his eyes and answered, this question didn't need to be asked in the first place, there's nothing wrong with it, it's not like they haven't slept together before...

Moreover, Zhou Xing's question made Zhou Xing seem to have some extra meaning in it, but Gu Xiu knew very well that Zhou Xing had no other meaning when he said this.

The messages in the WeChat group are still scrolling from time to time, Zhou Xing clicked on the voice, Zheng Yan and Meng Ze have already confirmed to sleep in a room, and now the group is waiting for his message to reply.

Zhou Xing answered the word 'OK' for Gu Xiu, and then said with a smile: "It just so happens that I can go to the beach for two days by the way. If you like it, we can stay for two more days."

Gu Xiu responded, thinking of Zhou Xing driving him around in the game before, thinking of the barren world, thinking of the coastal bridge under the setting sun, the scenery that only belonged to the two of them.

There seemed to be a balance in his heart swinging left and right.

There is his desire-desire at one end, making him want to reach out and pull Zhou Xing into his world.

The other end made him restrain himself, warning him not to take this step.

Because his world is no different from the world in the game, it was originally a barren place.

He was already in the quagmire, and he shouldn't and didn't need to pull others into such a vortex.

Especially Zhou Xing was the one who gave him warmth and tried to help him.

Zhou Xing lived well in the original world without him.

He has a family, he has these friends, he lives a leisurely life, he is a man in the sun, and he wants to drag him into the shadows.

The news in the group continued to ring, and Zhou Xing clicked on two voices at random.

At this moment, Zhang Hui was probably not around again, and Qian Jing started to speak again, but the voice was obviously lowered.

He said with a smile: "This time, thanks to the brothers... I will definitely help you when you propose marriage in the future. Speaking of which, this is a lesson from the past, and everyone will have a reference template in the future."

Zheng Yan teased him over there, "We are all single here, you really don't have any sincerity when you say this, do you think you should introduce someone to us first..."

Meng Ze continued: "Yes, you see that there is no suitable person around us. I think you can ask Zhang Hui if she has any friends who are good in all aspects and introduce them to us. After all, we all know everything about it. Yes, it can be considered reliable, right?"

"Especially Brother Zhou, you see he has been single for so many years, shouldn't he be arranged!"

"Arrange! Must arrange!"

A few people were obviously making fun of Zhou Xing. Zhou Xing was so used to it that he just laughed.

Gu Xiu's eyes fell on Zhou Xing, and he remembered what he had asked a few people before.

Zhou Xing's fact that he hasn't had a girlfriend doesn't mean he's gay. Maybe he just doesn't want to be in a relationship, or he's a bachelor. After all, while he hasn't had a girlfriend, he hasn't had a boyfriend either.

When Meng Ze said to sleep in the same room with Zhou Xing before, he accepted it easily, and didn't think of avoiding suspicion.

When the two of them were in the hot spring pool, he changed his clothes in front of him without thinking too much.

Looking at it now, all of this proves that Zhou Xing is very likely to be a straight man.

Because he is a straight man, and because he doesn't think too much about the same sex, everything he does is very natural and frank.

Gu Xiu narrowed his eyes, in this world, homosexuality is a minority after all, and the road for the minority is always difficult, so what's wrong with being a normal person?

Zhou Xing should, like most people in this world, have the best of everything in this world.

He should get married and have children like Qian Jing, and have a perfect and happy family.

Gu Xiu stood up.

Zhou Xing put the phone aside and stood up.

It was almost time for lunch, Zhou Xing thought that Gu Xiu was going to make lunch, so he immediately said: "My illness is almost cured, let me make lunch."

During Zhou Xing's illness, Gu Xiu had been taking care of him for the past few days, and he hadn't cooked for several days, and now his illness was mostly cured, so he naturally didn't want Gu Xiu to do anything again.

Hearing what Zhou Xing said, Gu Xiu only responded and went back to his room.

Zhou Xing didn't think much, got up and went to the kitchen, thinking about making something for Gu Xiu later.

The irritability in Gu Xiu's heart was almost uncontrollable, and at this moment, a desire to destroy even arose in his heart.

He said that he didn't want to hurt Zhou Xing, didn't want to drag him into the quagmire, he should get married and have children like ordinary people.

Thinking of the day when Zhou Xing would propose to someone like Qian Jing cautiously and enter the palace of marriage with that person, his heart wrinkled into a ball, and he felt extremely depressed, unable to breathe Get angry.

If he confessed to Zhou Xing, what would Zhou Xing's reaction be?

Will he agree in a soft heart because he is concerned about his illness?

If he was really drunk that day, after confessing to Zhou Xing that he was gay, and did something to Zhou Xing, would Zhou Xing push him away?

What if he got Zhou Xing drunk too?

If something really happened between the two of them, it is impossible for someone like Zhou Xing to leave him alone.

Gu Xiu suddenly laughed silently, look, he is such a person, no matter how he pretends to be human, he is like this from the bottom of his heart, selfish and despicable.

His hands began to tremble slightly, and Gu Xiu knew it was a sign of illness.

He turned his gaze out of the window and slowly lit a cigarette.

Even without him, the sun will still rise in this world.

The people around me might be better off without him.

It was late autumn now, the leaves and vegetation outside the window had all turned red and yellow, and the fallen leaves on the ground had already shed a thick layer.

Isn't a person's life like these fallen leaves?Spring birth and autumn death are just a reincarnation.

Gu Xiu smoked one cigarette after another, and soon the entire ashtray was filled with scattered cigarette butts, the smoke in the room was getting thicker and thicker, his eyebrows and eyes were covered by the smoke, and his expression could not be seen clearly.

As time passed, his emotions finally stabilized, and his hands stopped shaking.

He opened all the windows in the room, let the smoke out, and then dumped the butts in the ashtray into the trash can.

Zhou Xing didn't like to see him like this.