it's dark, coax me

Gu Xiu also noticed that his question seemed a little nonsensical, so he said: "Sorry, I have no other intentions, but I think you are very good at these two aspects."

"I take it as a compliment."

Gu Xiu had seen Zhou Xingxiao before, but it was just a low and light smile, it was the first time he saw such a smile.

When Zhou Xing laughed, there was an inexplicable warmth, like the sun in spring, it would not burn people, but it would make people feel very warm.

After the two chatted for a while, Zhou Xing went back to work.

Zhang Wanwan did not leave with Zhou Xing, but continued to squat beside Gu Xiu.

It seemed to like it very much, Gu Xiu continued to stroke its head with his hand while making a video call with Xie Jie.

It is still necessary to let Xie Jie know about the matter on his side, and then we have to see how to solve this matter.

Xie Jie laughed after receiving the call, "Why, you thought of me before it got dark on the first day of the tour? I wanted to call you later in the evening to ask about your situation. Did you go out today? ? Are you having fun?"

"Going out, not happy."

Gu Xiu pointed the camera at his feet as he spoke.

After Zhou Xing saw the situation on Gu Xiu's feet, he couldn't help being startled, "How did you do this?"

"Climbing a mountain, I accidentally fell."

"Are you going to climb the mountain with Zhou Xing?"

"No, it's nothing to do with Zhou Xing. I fell when I was alone."

"Why did you climb the mountain by yourself? How did you fall?"

Gu Xiu became a little impatient, "I told you I accidentally dropped it, why do you still ask?"

Xie Jie softened his tone, "I'm just worried about you."

Gu Xiu also realized that he shouldn't talk to Xie Jie like this, but he couldn't control his temper.

He was already avoiding thinking about dissociation, but Xie Jie's question seemed to remind him of something, and an uncontrollable sense of anxiety surged into his heart.

Gu Xiu apologized to Xie Jie.

Xie Jie didn't care too much about this, on the contrary, he cared more about Gu Xiu's current situation.

Although Gu Xiu didn't tell him, he has learned about Gu Xiu's condition recently.

Gu Xiu used to be a patient with severe depression, and now his diagnosis after relapse is not optimistic, moderate depression, and moderate depression is accompanied by visual hallucinations, auditory hallucinations, and occasional dissociation .

Dissociation is a relatively serious mental illness, including dissociative amnesia, dissociative wandering disorder, multiple personality disorders, and loss of sense of self [Note 1].

Fortunately, Gu Xiu only has the first two conditions now, and no multiple personalities, otherwise his condition will become more complicated.

According to what Xie Jie learned, Gu Xiu should have started showing signs of depression relapse a few months ago.

At that time, he had already started to experience various situations such as slow response, long-term trance, inability to concentrate, decline in creative ability, and emotional ups and downs.

But Gu Xiu never told anyone about it.

Xie Jie has some feelings about this aspect, but he didn't know Gu Xiu's medical history before, and once thought that Gu Xiu was just under too much pressure to write. Now that he thinks about it, he can't help feeling a little regretful. If he had realized this earlier, he would have brought Let Gu Xiu go to the hospital, maybe his condition can be treated and alleviated as soon as possible, then the current situation may be much better.

Today, Gu Xiu still wants to hide his illness, and Xie Jie is cooperating with him, pretending not to know all this, just hoping not to put too much pressure on him, but his worry about Gu Xiu is almost increasing day by day, if No, he wouldn't call Gu Xiu every day.

Although he tried his best to pretend that he didn't know anything about it, when he thought of Gu Xiu's illness, sometimes his reaction was unavoidable.

Seeing that Gu Xiu calmed down, Xie Jie also tried his best to control himself, and did not continue to ask for details, so as not to irritate Gu Xiu again.

Gu Xiu went straight to the point and said, "My foot injury may take two to three months to fully heal, and I can't continue traveling for the time being."

Xie Jie asked: "Do you want to come back? I will pick you up now and help you contact the hospital."

Gu Xiu frowned when he heard that, "My foot injury is not serious, I have already been treated in the hospital, I can take care of it myself after I go back, and I don't need to be hospitalized."

"I know you don't like going to the hospital, but you have to be checked again to be at ease now, don't you? Besides, you have to be taken care of after you come back... No, I'll hire a nurse or nanny for you first..."

Xie Jie carefully watched Gu Xiu's emotions, "How about letting your family take care of you for a while..."

A slap with a 'slap' landed on the face of the young Gu Xiu, instantly leaving a bright red mark on his face.

The woman looked at him mockingly, "You are still depressed, what right do you have to be depressed?"

"The doctor asked me to take care of you more, huh, haven't I taken care of you enough? How many clothes have I bought for myself in these years? All the money I earned in these years was spent on you! But what happened?"

"I've signed up for so many training classes for you, are you going to sleep?"

"Her son is the first in the grade, how about you? You can't get into the top ten!"

"I sent you to learn Mathematical Olympiad for two years, but you were immediately eliminated from the National High School Mathematical Competition. You let me watch her son win the first prize!"

"It's simply embarrassing!"

"Even if I raise a pig all these years, I should be rewarded, how about you? What have you rewarded me?"

"You are a waste! Useless waste!"

"Let others know that my son is mentally ill, and don't know how to point me behind the scenes. How do you want me to behave in the future?!"

"I really wish I never gave birth to you in this life!"

The video was abruptly cut off.

family……

Gu Xiu sneered.

But after a while, the sneer on his face gradually faded, and the pain began to spread.

What is the meaning of his life?

Why on earth is he still alive?

……

Xie Jie's heart tightened. He just remembered what the doctor said that the family's help might have a certain positive effect on the patient, so he tentatively asked that question. He didn't expect Gu Xiu to have such a big impact. reaction.

These years Gu Xiu rarely mentioned his family members, Xie Jie is not very clear about the specific situation, now it seems that he is afraid it is a bad thing!

He hurriedly picked up his cell phone and called Zhou Xing.

A few minutes later, Zhou Xing knocked on the door of Gu Xiu's room, and waited for a long time, but there was no response.

He tried, but Gu Xiu didn't lock the door.

After he pushed open the door of Gu Xiu's room, he saw that the curtains in the room were drawn, and the room was completely dark. Gu Xiu was lying curled up on the bed.

Zhang Wanwan nuzzled a bottle on the table to the edge of the table, and the bottle rolled to the ground with a gurgling sound.

Zhou Xing picked up the medicine bottle and looked at it, then saw several other medicine bottles on the table, his pupils shrank suddenly.

He was about to pick Gu Xiu up from the bed, but when he turned around, he saw that Gu Xiu had sat up from the bed at some point, and he was looking at him with a cold look, "You Don't worry, I'm taking a regular amount of sleeping pills, and I won't cause you any trouble."

Zhou walked to Gu Xiu's side, "Want to chat?"

Gu Xiu lowered his eyes and said nothing.

"You can continue to live here."

"Did Xie Jie tell you something?"

Zhou Xing didn't speak.

"What did he say? He said that even if I become like this, I don't want to go to the hospital, I don't want to find a nurse, I don't want to find a nanny."

"I look like a hypocritical and neglected wretch, don't I?"

This is the first time Zhou Xing has heard such sharp words from Gu Xiu since he met him, but the sharp words are not aimed at him and Xie Jie. is himself.

"No, it's just that you may be in a bad mood."

Gu Xiu lowered his head, "I'm sorry."

He curled up and pulled up the quilt so that only his head was exposed.

"I can take care of you if you need me until you are healed."