give me a hug

Liang Suinian's kiss was very hot.

Probably because of the bottoming out of patience to the critical point, not the tenderness, impatience, force, and even a bit of roughness that Xie Jiaran took for granted.

He clasped his chin with one hand, forcing him to smell and feel his scent between breaths.

But Xie Jiaran has never been so comfortable.

It's as if every inch of skin on the body, every vein under the surface of the skin, every drop of blood, and every cell has been greatly satisfied, so full that it is about to overflow.

Most of the strength was emptied, and the hand slid down and climbed on the shoulder again, the fingertips imbedded into the skin impatiently, pressing out a depression visible to the naked eye.

Not wanting to resist nor having the strength to resist, he obediently raised his head and accepted everything he gave.

It wasn't until I couldn't breathe because I couldn't breathe, so I backed away for a while.

Short breaths intertwined in the air, they looked into each other's eyes, and neither of them let go because of the interruption of the kiss.

Xie Jiaran was almost obsessed with the way Liang Suinian looked at him at this moment.

The amber eyes are no longer clear, they suppress the instinctive impulse and hide the most real desire.

And it's all because of him.

Xie Jiaran closed her eyes in a daze, and kissed again.

This time, he didn't even need to seduce him again and again.

One touch is the lightning flash.

Liang Suinian even grabbed the back of his head to prevent him from retreating again, forcefully leading him to turn around and retreat.

Xie Jiaran was almost pinched by his waist and pressed in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, and the layers of bright lights that he had carefully looked at outside the window were finally superimposed on his face.

Behind him was the cold and hard glass, and his front was pressed against Liang Suinian's chest. Being trapped in this narrow world, he could most intuitively understand how big the gap in strength between the two was. He was almost crushed by Liang Suinian.

Probably boys always have the miraculous talent of self-teaching in this respect, and the jerky feeling that they could feel at the beginning no longer exists.

Liang Suinian's kiss became deeper and deeper, this boy who was used to being generous and loose suddenly became extremely greedy, he invaded at every step, tightly hooking him and refusing to let go.

Occasionally, an uncontrollable low gasp escaped from her lips, pushing everything around her into an uncontrollable scorching heat.

The situation is more out of control than he imagined.

Xie Jiaran's mind has long been blank, completely passive.

The upper jaw was finely rubbed, entangled to the depths, the unspeakable numbness gathered from the limbs to one point, flowed upstream along the spine, and rushed straight to the brain with sparks——

exploded.

……

"Don't worry, it's only due to excessive emotional excitement that the brain's blood supply is insufficient to cause fainting. It's nothing serious, just get more rest."

The doctor flipped through the case booklet, paused, and then asked with some doubts: "It seems that it is also caused by hypoxia. Did the patient do any strenuous exercise before he fainted, which caused his shortness of breath?"

"..."

"..."

The ward fell into an eerie silence.

The patient on the bed who had just woken up from a dream all night and was unable to face the fact that he was kissed unconscious for the time being remained silent, pulled up the quilt silently, and covered his entire face.

Liang Suinian perfunctorily dismissed the doctor with a few words, walked to the bedside and stood still, looking at the little ostrich in front of him who was hiding him tightly, curled his lips silently.

"The doctor has left, come out." He stretched out his hand to pull his quilt: "Hey, don't hold back for a while."

"..."

With no quilt to cover him, Xie Jiaran simply took Liang Suinian's hand and buried his face in his palm and then pressed it on the pillow, leaving only the red earlobes that were bleeding to the brim and the crimson nape of the neck exposed.

There was a chuckle from above, and the one pressed by him lightly hooked his fingers: "If you are really sleepy, then sleep a little longer?"

"Not sleepy." The muffled voice came from the palm, as if cheating.

Liang Suinian coaxed him: "Then let's pack up and get ready to go?"

Xie Jiaran didn't move and didn't speak, it took almost half a minute before he let go of his hand, and slowly sat up from the hospital bed.

He didn't even look at him, just lowered his head and rubbed his eyes in a nonchalant way, the topic was blunt, trying to hide his discomfort: "Where are Li Tang and the others?"

Liang Suinian: "They're still in the hotel, they plan to visit the scenic spot on the mountain today and go back in the afternoon."

Xie Jiaran let out a low voice, thinking of something, her eyelashes trembled violently: "Then, do they know—"

"they do not know."

Liang Suinian knew what he wanted to ask: "Don't worry, they only think that you need to rush back to school because of a temporary emergency, and I don't worry about you leaving alone, so I will go back with you."

Xie Jiaran said dryly again.

The redness at the tips of the ears was still there, and the hands propped on the side of the bed unconsciously scratched and wrinkled the sheets.

He still didn't look up, he lowered his head to look for the shoes.

For the kid who couldn't hide his emotions, even the small twist of hair on the back of his head seemed to be poked with an invisible stamp, with six large characters printed on it:

I'm sorry.

Under Xiao Xie's cool protective look, the cuteness almost seeped into his bones.

how to say?

Liang Suinian felt that this person seemed to be so cute that he didn't need to do anything, just sitting there would make people like him.

Xie Jiaran stepped on one shoe with her toes, and was about to stretch out the other foot to hook the far one, when the person in front of her suddenly squatted down and grabbed his ankle, took the shoe and patiently put it on for him, and then Change to another one.

Xie Jiaran froze in place, not knowing how to react.

As far back as I can remember, no one has ever squatted in front of him like this, helping him put on his shoes so thoughtfully.

Slowly, vines sprouted from the connection where the ankle was held.

The clumps wrapped around his body and quickly climbed up, wrapping him gently in the shade of the clumps, and white and soft flowers bloomed on the tip of his heart, swaying happily in the wind.

Forget it.

He pursed his lips and shook his toes lightly, thinking happily.

Anyway, they are all his people, and it is not shameful to lose face in front of the family.

Let's hug first, it's been one night and one morning, and they haven't hugged yet.

Liang Suinian helped him put on his shoes and stood up. Xie Jiaran was about to open his arms to hug him, when he looked at the time and said to himself: "It's one o'clock now, go back to four o'clock, just in time for the hospital to finish get off work."

"...?"

Xie Jiaran stopped halfway, his eyes blank: "Do I have to go to the hospital when I go back? But I'm fine now."

Liang Suinian explained: "It's a private hospital. My dad helped him to contact him. He thought he was an old friend who just came back from abroad. He is a well-known psychologist in the circle."

Xie Jiaran was even more confused: "Psychiatrist?"

"En." Liang Suinian took his hands and folded them back on his knees: "However, your situation is already very serious. If something like last night happens again and I'm not by your side, then what should you do?"

Xie Jiaran looked up at him, puzzled and said, "But why aren't you by my side?"

"Because we have different majors."

Liang Suinian explained patiently and clearly: "And the internship will start in the senior year. If you or I move out of the dormitory due to work and can no longer be roommates, won't there be fewer chances to meet each other?"

Xie Jiaran's head buzzed, and he parted his lips in a daze: "... roommate?"

Liang Suinian nodded, thinking that he was frightened, and rubbed his head comfortingly: "Don't be afraid, that doctor is very experienced, and even if it can't be completely cured, at least we can try to control it so that it doesn't get worse."

"..."

Three hours drive back to the city, half an hour drive to the private hospital.

Xie Jiaran was still in a daze until he entered the luxurious and low-key decoration hall of the hospital.

What's the meaning.

... roommate?

So he let go of this gamble, and the result in exchange was only to make Liang Suinian think that his condition had worsened, and then help him contact the best psychiatrist?

But how could his purpose be to find a doctor?

What he wants is obviously a boyfriend.

Desperately following Liang Sunian upstairs to find the consulting room, the returned doctor named Mi Xie was already waiting for them at the door.

The other party briefly exchanged a few words with Liang Suinian, asked about the most obvious situation, and asked Xie Jiaran to go in with him.

Xie Jiaran did not follow immediately.

Seeing Mi Xie enter the room, he looked up at Liang Suinian, and said seriously, "Is this the only thing you want to tell me?"

"Don't worry, Dr. Mi is very professional."

Liang Suinian patted him on the shoulder reassuringly: "Take your time, I will always be outside with you."

"..."

Mixed emotions filled his chest, Xie Jiaran was powerless and angry, but at this moment he was helpless.

He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, turned around and walked quickly into the room.

Xiao Xie's small face was so cold that even a little water would freeze it, but the instigator was rarely noticed carelessly.

Watching the person disappear behind the door, the smile on Liang Suinian's face quickly faded away.

He took a few steps back and sat on a nearby chair in the corridor, covering his face with his palms, closing his eyes to hide his upset.

A night is too short to kill anything.

As soon as he closed his eyes, he could clearly recall the rampant urge that he had never had in the past. What appeared in his head were the images of almost losing control last night, so greedy that he almost wanted to eat people...

It was even fortunate that Xie Jiaran passed out at that time, otherwise he didn't know what would happen next.

wrong.

If he hadn't kissed so hard, it probably wouldn't have knocked people out.

Gee!

Liang Suinian, are you a dog that has lived for more than 20 years without gnawing on a bone?

Xie Jiaran trusts you so much and relies on you, but you have such dirty thoughts when others are suffering?Taking advantage of the fire to do such a rogue thing?

Obviously you have taken up all the benefits, and you still rely on the name of a thirsty skin palliative to cover up your shame. You are obviously the one who bullies others, so why do you still have the cheek to accept other people's thanks in the end?

What the hell are you trying to do...?

Liang Suinian, be yourself.

It was almost seven o'clock when they left the hospital, and it was getting dark.

A few dark clouds floated in the sky, it might rain at any time, the street lamps were already on, and the wind blowing over the skin was moist and cool.

The hotel had already packed up the luggage and sent it back. Liang Suinian thought about whether to pick it up now or wait until tomorrow when he was free, when the quiet person around him suddenly called out: "Brother."

"Huh? What's wrong?"

Liang Suinian turned his head to look at him, the boy's forehead was blown away, revealing a small piece of smooth forehead, which looked even smaller.

Clean and thin, like a high school student who hasn't graduated yet.

"I'm a little cold."

He lowered his head and didn't look at Liang Suinian, his long eyelashes covered the light in his eyes, his tired voice was so light that it could be blown away by the wind: "I'm still a little tired."

They have already entered the school gate.

There are fewer and more people coming and going because of the weather, but it is not without.

Liang Suinian had no scruples at all.

Looking up at the sky, just like the night when he went to Huashan, he took off his coat and put it on Xie Jiaran without saying a word, then squatted down to lift him up firmly, and walked towards the dormitory building step by step.

He is really practicing what he said to Xie Jiaran back then.

Don't be polite to him, don't be embarrassed, you can ask him for help whenever you need it, and you can call him at any time if you don't need it, it doesn't matter.

Maybe even he himself didn't realize that his connivance to him has already reached the limitless level unconsciously.

Xie Jiaran leaned on his shoulder and closed her eyes.

Walking through the main road from the south gate to the boulevard, passing the Huxin Pavilion, and then to the path behind Mingde Building, he whispered in his ear: "Brother, don't you ask me what the result of the consultation and diagnosis is?"

Liang Suinian quickly replied: "Of course, this is your privacy."

"But I want to tell you, I want to say." Xie Jiaran hugged his neck tightly: "I have no one else to say except you."

"Then say it."

Liang Suinian said, paused for two seconds, and promised him: "I will keep it as my secret and will not tell anyone."

"I know."

Xie Jiaran blinked, leaned his head on his left shoulder, and recalled what happened in the hospital just now: "You are right, Dr. Michel is indeed very good, he is more professional than every psychologist I have seen before."

"He asked me a lot, including things about my childhood, my family situation, when my symptoms appeared, and how I behaved when symptoms flared up... He even asked about many details that I didn't discover."

"His vocabulary is too professional. I have never heard of many of them, and I can't understand them, but the conclusion is very clear. Brother, I finally know why I have such a strange disease."

Liang Suinian slightly tilted his head: "Why?"

"Because I was unlucky when I was a child. No one hugged me when I fell down, no one comforted me when I cried, no one praised me when I was praised, and no one helped me when I walked."

Xie Jiaran spoke at a moderate speed, revealing a bit of tiredness and drowsiness, as if he was just explaining an unimportant matter that was not worth paying attention to, and it seemed to be raving with shallow consciousness.

The speaker was unintentional, but the listener's footsteps slowed down quietly.

"why?"

As if afraid of scaring him, Liang Su asked in a young voice, "Where are your parents?"

Xie Jiaran: "They have been busy arguing and fighting cold wars since I can remember, and no one bothered to care about me. Later they got divorced, and soon each had a new family and a new child. I would be superfluous no matter where I am."

He recalled the past, his memory was a little fuzzy, he thought very slowly, and he spoke very slowly: "I was not very sensible when I was a child, and I saw my mother always circling around Lu Shang, asking for warmth and being considerate, I was also envious, no Understand why she can treat him so well, but can't treat me in the same way, aren't we all her children."

"Later, when I got older, I knew that Lu Shang and I were different. We were the symbols of her two marriages, one was lucky and the other was unlucky, and I happened to be that unlucky one."

"I am not only her son, but also a witness of the painful experience she has experienced. She may still love me, but the weight is far less than that of Lu Shang. He is the crystallization of her happiness and also maintains her. The bond of a secure life now."

"Knowing that I can't get those things no matter how hard I try and how jealous I am, I don't want to look at them or pay attention to them. They said I was sensible, and I thought that too, but now I know that I am sick .”

He paused for two seconds, and when he spoke again, his voice was low and imperceptibly uneasy: "Brother, I know, I know I'm troublesome, but can you not dislike me—"

"No disgust."

Liang Suinian interrupted him suddenly.

She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, biting every word clearly: "Xie Jiaran, you are not troublesome at all."

"Help you find a doctor, bring you to the hospital, never because I think you are troublesome, I just hope you can recover, be healthy and no longer uncomfortable, and no one, including me, will have the chance to hurt you .”

Where the dim light shines, faint rain can be seen.

The rain had begun to fall, sporadic and wind-curved.

Liang Suinian accelerated his speed, but his pace was still steady, subconsciously he didn't want the person on his back to be jolted in the slightest.

"And who said you're redundant?"

He said: "As long as you want, I will hug you when you fall down, comfort you when you cry, and praise you when you are praised. Wherever I am, I will take care of you wherever you want to go."

"If you really feel that you are troublesome, then I can only say that I am willing to be troubled by you."

"Xie Jiaran, you have to remember that you are not redundant, you have always been the best, the most special and the most precious one, and you have never been redundant."

After Liang Sunian's words fell for a long time, the arms around his neck tightened silently.

It is a person who wanders alone, and finally catches a piece of driftwood, a life-saving straw in the vast ocean.

"Brother, why are you so nice?"

"Is there?" Liang Suinian seemed to be smiling, and deliberately teased him with a relaxed tone: "Where is it good?"

Xie Jiaran answered him: "Everything is good, from head to toe, from inside to outside, there is nothing bad."

Liang Suinian's eyes softened again, he lifted his lips and was about to say something, when he heard the boy's almost rambling murmur.

"Liang Suinian is such a good person that he can't bear to let go if he gets caught."

"So good that I want him to be so good to me alone."

Xie Jiaran closed her eyes, and buried her face into his neck: "It's so good, I want to be with him all the time."

It was getting darker, and there were no other pedestrians on the road.

The sound of the rain gradually became louder, hitting the leaves above their heads, rustling, as if it was afraid that it would disturb the whispers of passers-by if it was too loud.

But they don't know that someone has lost their language, and the words they want to say also quietly dissipate between their lips and teeth.

Xie Jiaran moved his arm, lowered his wrist, and the tiger's mouth brushed against the opponent's chest without touching it.

He touched his heartbeat.

Plop - plop plop -

Strong and powerful, but also messy.

It's amazing that those feelings of powerlessness and frustration are like dust blown by the wind, staying for a while, and then suddenly dissipating.

Xie Jiaran's eyelashes trembled slightly, and the corners of her mouth finally curved.

Fool, I hear you like it.

I forgive you.