time for sysyphus

Lin Si threw himself on Ji Zhongnian, wrapped his hands tightly around the back of his neck, buried his head in the other's neck, and cried, "Why did you come back? I have been waiting for you for a long time, and no one answered your phone ..."

Ji Zhongnian embraced him with one hand, and touched his clothes with the other, only to realize that he was too busy today to look at his phone. He rushed home as soon as he finished work, and even forgot to take his phone.

"It's all right." He patted Lin Si's back with his hand and followed it up and down, "I'm sorry, I should have come back to accompany you earlier."

"I'm so scared..." Lin Si twitched his reddened nose, hugged Ji Zhongnian tightly and refused to let go, "I don't even dare to sleep."

Ji Zhongnian didn't ask him what he was afraid of, but gently stroked the back of his neck with his hands, comforting him: "Don't be afraid, I'm here."

There was an element of reassurance in his voice, and the temperature of his arms made Lin Si's heart calm after a night of coldness. He gradually stopped shaking and stopped crying, and his emotions finally stabilized.

After covering Lin Si with the quilt, Ji Zhongnian went to take a bath, and when he came out, his whole body was warmed by the hot water, so he hugged Lin Si to sleep.

The night was dark and cold, the two hugged each other to warm each other, Ji Zhongnian conveyed enough sense of security to Lin Si, the heavy tiredness and soft comfort wrapped around their bodies, and they soon fell asleep.

That night, Lin Si didn't have any more nightmares.

*

In a blink of an eye, half a month has passed since Valentine's Day, however, nothing seems to have happened.

Lin Si's life is still peaceful, there is no bad thing to disturb him and Ji Zhongnian, there is no bad news about Ji Xiao and Tao Die's mother and son, and his heart that has been hanging for a long time is gradually at ease.

He thought, perhaps, the direction of things in this life is completely different from the previous life...

Maybe it's just me worrying about it.

While relaxing, Lin Si became interested in trimming flowers and trees again, so he stayed in the courtyard all day, trimming the lush Podocarpus pine with the gardener Awen.

"Mr. Lin, your technique is getting better and better." Awen looked at the shape of the potted plant trimmed by Lin Si, his eyes sparkled and he sighed, "Look at this, you are more professional than me."

"It's just a hobby." Lin Si smiled, folded his arms and looked at the perfect work in front of him, and joked with Awen: "I also think I cut it well, so I should be able to steal your job."

"Mr. Lin, you always like to joke. I still have my own skills, and you can't take away my job!"

The two people of the same age were talking and laughing at this verdant and well-shaped Podocarpus pine. Lin Si was actually very happy to have such a like-minded partner.

...Well, as long as Master Ji is not jealous.

Lin Si was in a good mood, he made the dinner himself, but Ji Zhongnian came back for a long time, and all the dishes he made were cold.

After waiting for a long time, Lin Si simply called. Ji Zhongnian said he would call back soon, but his voice sounded hoarse and lacked strength.

After putting down the phone, Lin Si hurriedly asked the kitchen to make a cup of warm honey water, so that his throat could be moistened when Ji Zhongnian came back.

Half an hour later, Ji Zhongnian really returned.

As soon as he entered the house, Lin Si went up to meet him, "Why is it so late? I'll let the kitchen heat up the food for you."

"No need, I don't have much appetite." Ji Zhongnian said in a hoarse voice.

Lin Si paused, and found that Ji Zhongnian's overall condition was very bad, as if half of his soul had been taken out, with a few messy hairs on his forehead, and his complexion looked very gloomy.

"Master Ji, are you tired today?" Lin Si noticed something and asked worriedly.

Ji Zhongnian looked at him devastated, speechless for a while, neither nodded nor shook his head.

"Why are you so busy?" Lin Si helped him untie the tie he had pulled, and took off his suit jacket, and asked, "Take a shower first, I'll put some heat on you—"

Before he finished speaking, Ji Zhongnian embraced him with great strength, his arms tightly encircling him like iron hoops, as if he wanted to draw some strength and comfort from him.

"...What's the matter with you?" Lin Si was stunned for a few seconds, then gently hugged him back, and felt Ji Zhongnian's suppressed sadness through his bellows-like chest.

Ji Zhongnian hugged him wearily, put his chin on his left shoulder, closed his eyes slowly, and rested and tendered with Lin Si in this position for a long time.

After a while, the man said slowly, "Tao Die is dead... her son, Ji Yuan is also dead..."

Lin Si's head exploded with a bang.

It was as if a terrifying thunderbolt had struck above his head, and his whole body was numb. He froze in Ji Zhongnian's arms for an instant, and said in astonishment, "...what, what?"

If he hadn't stood in this supporting position, Lins would have collapsed to the ground.

For him, this news is equivalent to the beginning of bad news, and it is proclaimed that he is likely to face the situation he has been most afraid of.

Ji Zhongnian didn't notice Lin Si's reaction, and choked his hoarse voice, "It happened yesterday. Ji Yuan met a robber abroad. Rescued. Tao Die couldn't accept this fact, so she jumped from the top floor of the hospital and died on the spot..."

When Wei Ping told him the bad news, his first reaction was disbelief, then he threw a tantrum and smashed everything in the office, and finally he couldn't help feeling guilty and blaming himself.

He didn't think about the death of the two mother and son. He wanted to send the two mother and son out out of revenge against Ji Xiao and taboo towards his nephew, but he never thought that they would perish in such a way.

——Ji Zhongnian has never regretted the decision he made like this moment, only feeling completely shocked and owed.

"Lin Si, I killed them," Ji Zhongnian's voice trembled uncontrollably, like a rough rock rubbing against rough sandpaper, "I should listen to you, if I didn't send them out... …I killed an innocent woman and my nephew."

Lin Si said dumbly, his brain could no longer help himself to calm down, all the ominous premonitions flooded in, and his eyes were involuntarily filled with liquid.

Undoubtedly, he was terrified and sad, but he couldn't cry in front of Ji Zhongnian at this moment.

Lin Si took a deep breath, held up all his strength, and helped Ji Zhongnian to sit on the sofa, "Master Ji, listen to me..."

Ji Zhongnian leaned against Lin Si's arms as if he was exhausted, covering his aching forehead, and curled up sadly, like a closed silkworm chrysalis.

"This is an accident," Lin Si hugged him, kissed his temples repeatedly, and comforted him: "No one would have thought of this result, and no one would want to see an accident happen, including you."

"No, you clearly reminded me." Ji Zhongnian shook his head, closed his eyes, and sighed deeply and painfully, "I indirectly killed them."

After being with Lin Si, the happy time gradually smoothed Ji Zhongnian's sharp edges and corners, and his paranoia towards hatred gradually faded, and he seldom obsessed with how to revenge and torture others.

However, what was done in the past still came to the door.

The innocent mother and son, because of his hatred for Ji Xiao and suspicion for Ji Yuan, became victims of being devoured by accident.

For the first time, Ji Zhongnian felt that hatred would backfire in some unexpected way.

After this incident happened, Ji Zhongnian was depressed for a period of time, he couldn't sleep well at night, he would talk vaguely in his sleep, and his mental state was also weak when he woke up in the morning.

But he didn't rest at home because of this, but still remained as a working machine that maintained a normal state. He went to the company with the most regular and decent appearance every day, making rational decisions.In front of subordinates and outsiders, he never showed any abnormality.

He is still the vigorous, calm and calm president of the Ji family.

Only Lin Si can see through him, knowing that Mr. Ji is really sad during this time.

After the death of Tao Die's mother and son in the previous life, Ji Zhongnian also fell into such a state——

Self-blame, guilt, uneasy conscience... just never showed it, forcing myself to be a rational person who is not controlled by negative emotions.

Now, seeing Ji Zhongnian trapped in emotions and unable to get out, Lin Si's heart aches like a knife.

And every time he comforted Ji Zhongnian, he actually had a huge fear in his heart, and he needed to hold on so as not to let himself collapse.

Because he realizes that maybe some things are predestined, they are the traces of pens that cannot be erased or changed, although some details may change due to accidental behavioral decisions, but the direction of people's fate...

It must also lead to the same goal by different routes.

Just like Tao Die's mother and son, their destination is almost exactly the same as in the previous life, they all died in other places.

There is life and death. ——Is this sentence true?

Lins was terrified.

What about himself?

Will he himself be unable to escape in the end?The kidnapping, the fate of death, the result of being separated from Ji Zhongnian for life and death.