time for sysyphus

After the doctor left, Ji Zhongnian got out of bed, walked out of the room alone, and walked around the room alone.

This room was on the third floor of the villa. When he went down to the second floor, he found a large master bedroom. He wondered why he didn't live in this spacious and bright room even though he was the owner of the house.

Ji Zhongnian walked in alone, the room was extremely cold because the heater was not turned on, and the fine dust floated under the scattered light.

The snowflakes and the cold wind hit the window together, making a "thumping" sound. Fortunately, the glass is hard enough to withstand the attack of the north wind.

He looked at the window and was stunned for a while.

In my memory, it seems that the glass of this window was once broken, but because of someone, it was strengthened again.

Without warning, a fleeting idea popped up in Ji Zhongnian's mind——

Inside... there seems to be traces of two people's lives, it should be him and another person.

who's that person?Where did you go now?

Ji Zhongnian recalled it for a while, his brain hurts, so forget it.

Obviously his memory was blank, but when he saw the bed with two pillows, he still inexplicably felt a faint sadness of losing valuables.

But what is the source of the grief, what is the cause of the pain in the head?But no one told him.

Has someone been here and gone?

Ji Zhongnian told Uncle Dong that he would sleep in this room tonight.

Uncle Dong was taken aback for a moment, but he didn't say anything. He just sighed softly and called a few servants to tidy up and clean the master bedroom.

At night, Ji Zhongnian lay alone on this big bed, subconsciously sleeping on the left side.

On the right side of the bed, he reserved a place that seemed to be enough for one person to sleep in, it was empty and cold.

He didn't stay on purpose, he just did it, he couldn't even think of a reason for doing it, he just wanted to do it.

The night was very dark, and when the lights were turned off in the room, it was pitch black.

Ji Zhongnian slowly closed his eyes, feeling a strange yet familiar feeling, this feeling was very contradictory, as if he was very attached to this room, but at the same time resisted coming to this room, it was really strange.

After lying down for a long time, I didn't feel sleepy at all, probably because I slept for a long time in the afternoon.

He opened his thin eyelids, looked sideways, and through the window, he could just see the moon outside, and the cold white curtains illuminated by the moonlight.

He couldn't help but wondered, if there was someone sleeping next to him, who should it be?What kind of person is he?

——This question should be asked to Uncle Dong, or to Wei Ping tomorrow morning.

In the middle of the night, when the moonlight was covered by clouds and mist, the room was pitch black, and Ji Zhongnian finally fell asleep.

He sank into a nightmare, a dream he often had.

Endless sorrow wrapped him like a drowned fish, and before his eyes was a mass of gray mist, shrouding a vaguely untouchable figure, but some distance away from him.

"Wait a minute." Ji Zhongnian walked over.

The figure ignored him, he seemed to be a willful person, he walked farther and farther away, not listening to Ji Zhongnian's call, nor turning his head back.

"Wait a minute..."

Ji Ershao had always been used to being arrogant, but at this moment he let go of his figure. He had never felt so paranoid. He wanted to catch up with that figure, as if he would fall into endless despair if he couldn't catch it.

Until he couldn't help calling out a name: "Lin Si, wait for me!"

...Lins?

When I woke up again, it was already a clear and bright day, and the moonlight outside the window had been replaced by the sun.

Ji Zhongnian gradually escaped from the dreamland, he opened his eyes in a daze, and felt that he was in a strange environment, with snow-white sheets and quilt covers, elegant and neat furnishings, and slightly swaying light gauze curtains.

Here... where is it?

Like usual for more than 100 days and nights, after waking up, Ji Zhongnian's memory seemed to be emptied, he didn't even know that he couldn't remember anything, he just felt that his heart was empty and something was missing.

I even forgot the dream I had last night, just a little headache.

Guided by the housekeeper, Uncle Dong, the doctor came to the master bedroom for consultation with Ji Zhongnian today. Wei Ping came to the master bedroom and reported the group situation and work progress to Ji Zhongnian as usual.

Holding a black notebook, the doctor asked, "Mr. Ji, how are you feeling today?"

Ji Zhongnian opened his mouth, wanting to say something or do something, but he couldn't say it, and he didn't know what to do.

Subconsciously, he turned his head to look at the vacant bed next to him, and touched this position unconsciously.He couldn't find the answer because he couldn't remember anything.

After being informed by the doctor, he learned that he was suffering from a mental illness, "Stress disorder? Intermittent amnesia..." He looked at the text in the doctor's notebook and muttered.

The doctor explained to him, but he didn't listen to it, just thinking about some unreasonable thoughts.

Why sleep alone but not in the middle?Is this spot on the right reserved for someone?

someone, who.

This idea suddenly appeared in Ji Zhongnian's mind. He didn't know the source or the reason, but it just popped up gently like this.

This thought made him feel inexplicably sad, very shallow, like a gust of wind, and he couldn't trace where it came from.

"Mr. Ji," the doctor saw the strangeness in his eyes and knew that his amnesia had struck again, so he took the initiative to say, "I am your psychotherapist."

Ji Zhongnian looked at him blankly.I knew this was not the person in my dream.

"Do you feel any discomfort?" the doctor asked him.

"I seem to have forgotten a lot of things, things from the past." Ji Zhongnian said thoughtfully, "It seems that there are people from the past."

He paused, then turned to Wei Ping, "What date is it today?"

"President Ji, today is December [-]th."

Wei Ping stood straight beside Ji Zhongnian's bed, talked with him calmly, and told him today's date.But Ji Zhongnian looked even more expressionless than him, his eyes were light and empty, like a lake without wind.

"Is there anything important in the company?"

"There is nothing important in the company. There will be a board meeting next week. I have already told you that I will not go. I will report the minutes of the meeting to you in time."

"Ah."

The doctor gave Ji Zhongnian a simple physical examination as usual. Ji Zhongnian straightened his waist and asked the doctor to put a stethoscope on his heart, and heard a very gentle and gentle sound.

Ji Zhongnian casually chatted with Wei Ping, "Aside from me, who else lived in this room before?"

Wei Ping replied: "Mr. Lin, Lin Si."

The doctor heard a heavy heartbeat through the stethoscope, like a boulder dropped into a deep, deep lake.

"Who?" Ji Zhongnian turned his head sideways.

"Mr. Ji, that person is Lin Si, he is your... your former lover."

In the next ten minutes or so, Wei Ping told Ji Zhongnian what happened in the past six months for the 190th time. Ji Zhongnian listened with astonishment, feeling that such absurd story would never happen to him.

Until Wei Ping finished talking to him, apart from surprise, there seemed to be no other particularly ups and downs on his face.

After thinking for a while, he said to the doctor next to him lightly and belatedly: "So, I really don't remember the past."

"You will remember, Mr. Ji. I will try my best to help you," said the doctor.

Ji Zhongnian didn't speak any more, and moved his palm to cover the empty place on the right side of the bed.

He can't remember the past.

I just always feel that there should be someone by my side.

The author says:

The first cycle is over, and the next chapter starts the second cycle.

Some things I want to explain:

In the first loop, Lins thought he was going back in time, or reborn. He didn't know that he was going through a time loop.

But in the second loop, he knows he's stuck in a time loop, so he acts completely differently as well.Correspondingly, Ji Zhongnian's behavior will also change accordingly.Well, the second loop would be a different story going.