time for sysyphus

The sky is covered with heavy clouds, which have not been dispersed by the wind for a long time, which indicates that a downpour is about to hit.

Holding a bag of buns tightly in his arms, Lin Si speeded up the pace of the return journey. He hurried over the muddy road and the dirty pits, splashing all over his trouser legs with messy little gray spots.

His life should have been like this, dirty, living in the mud all the time.

But that person is different.That person is the proud son of heaven, the one who can live on the clouds.

During this short trip to buy steamed buns, Lin Si has completely set his heart on himself. This time, for Ji Zhongnian, he will never throw love as he pleases.

He wants to let Ji Zhongnian live a good life for the rest of his life, return what Ji Zhongnian deserves, and make Ji Zhongnian live a smooth and complete life.

—It doesn't matter if there is no Talins.

In the next few days, Lin Si tried his best to avoid too much negotiation with Ji Zhongnian, did not dare to look too much, did not dare to say anything, for fear that Ji Zhongnian would pay any attention to him.

...he made himself into air.

Life in the slums is very boring. A small bungalow of more than ten square meters is like a pig cage. Ji Zhongnian, who has always been pampered, lives in this pig cage, like a prison, doing nothing more than a pig.

When he was bored, he was observing the "savior".

The "savior" seems to be introverted, not very talkative, or just not very talkative to him, always doing his own things silently at home.

Even if there were only the two of them in the house, they could still embarrassingly maintain a state of zero communication.Sometimes, Ji Zhongnian, who is so cold and cold, can't help but say a few words to relieve his boredom, and Lin Si may not be able to respond.

Therefore, Ji Zhongnian felt that this "life-saving benefactor" was an autistic personality, more specifically, an autistic good person who did good deeds silently but did not speak out.

Why did he think Linsi was a good guy?

Because according to his intentional or unintentional observations during this period, he found that Lin Si would quietly cover him with a quilt at night; he would change gauze and cotton wool for him on a regular basis every day; Tianlinsi brought back an electric fan, although it looked like a piece of junk picked up from a waste recycling bin...

He also found that Lin Si always went out during the day and returned home in the evening. Such a seemingly impoverished person could always bring some fresh meat and vegetables in his hand when he returned home, which was not a small amount of consumption in the slums.

When it was time to eat, Lin Si would call him over for a few bites.

It seemed indifferent behavior, but he noticed that every time Lin Si would put the meat dishes on his side and the bland vegetarian dishes on his side.

The chopsticks shuttled back and forth between the fried pork slices and the rice, and Ji Zhongnian's stomach was slowly being filled. Although Lin Si's craftsmanship was not very good, Ji Zhongnian had learned to be content with only one meal a day to satisfy his hunger.

"You don't eat meat?" he asked.

"I don't like it," said Lins.

Ji Zhongnian raised his eyebrows, "Then why did you buy it?"

"..." There is a bug in the lie.

"Bought it for me?"

"..."

A lie needs to be covered up with another lie, but obviously, Lins can't make up another lie at this moment.

He bit the bullet and denied it, his cheeks flushed slightly, "No."

One corner of Ji Zhongnian's mouth twitched. He clearly saw through Lin Si's lies, but he didn't expose them. Instead, he gave Lin Si down the steps in another way.

"In return, I will give you enough rewards in the future," he suddenly said while holding the dish, to express his gratitude to Lin Si.

Although he wasn't sure if Lins was treating him well just for "profit", but it wasn't a debt of favor that could be settled with money.

He didn't like to owe others things. Since Lin Si saved him, let him live and eat here, and treated him well, he would give an equivalent reward.

"Well," Lin Si responded lightly.He didn't even say "thank you" and took it as a natural transaction.

The two of them spend their daily life in such an ordinary way, and they still rarely communicate with each other.

Lin Si worked hard to suppress himself, tried his best to reduce his sense of existence, and tried to be more indifferent and less concerned about Ji Zhongnian.

He didn't want to weaken his liking, he just didn't want Xiang Ji Zhongnian to know that he liked him, and he didn't want Ji Zhongnian to "go astray" again and fall in love with him, a man with no future.

As for Ji Zhongnian, sometimes he would be curious about Lin Si, curious that this person seems to be closed off, but has a warm heart that can't be covered by a cold shell.

But his curiosity is superficial, and he doesn't ask too many questions, after all, this is just a person he met by chance.

It was another uneventful day.

Ji Zhongnian's injury has healed very much, and he can already move his body normally.

He finished shaving in front of the mirror and was cleaning the foam from the razor. The water splashing on the man's hands and sharp blades was the loudest sound in this small bungalow at the moment.

He glanced sideways. This glance was unintentional and sudden. He glanced at the mirror, just in time to meet Lin Si's eyes secretly staring at him.

Lin Si, who met Shang Ji Zhongnian's gaze, was stunned, as if struck by sudden lightning, he hurriedly turned his eyes to avoid meeting Ji Zhongnian's gaze, but it was still half a second late.

In just a short moment, Ji Zhongnian actually caught the deep emotion hidden in Lin Si's gaze. It was extremely focused, with scorching heat and silent words, it was by no means an ordinary look.

Obviously, this person looks so alienated at ordinary times, why would he cast such...thick eyes on places that he couldn't notice.

Is it normal for a man to have this kind of seemingly affectionate look at another man? ?

"Hey, you—" Ji Zhongnian felt weird and awkward in his heart, he hesitated to speak, but he didn't know how to ask.

Looking at Lin Si, he was distracted, and his fingers accidentally touched the sharp blade of the razor, and a cut was made immediately.

"Hiss..." He cursed in a low voice.

Bright red blood droplets overflowed from the open wound, followed the water flow, and merged into the water outlet of the washbasin.

Lin Si had been paying attention to Ji Zhongnian from the corner of his eye, and when he saw this scene, he was shocked immediately: "Why are you so careless?!"

He hurried over, grabbed Ji Zhongnian's hand, checked the wound on it, and looked anxious.

Holding Ji Zhongnian's wrist, he nervously murmured "Be careful when using such a dangerous thing", "This wound is a bit deep", "Don't be careful when using a knife", "Next time you Just leave the razor blades on after you shave, and I'll wash them"  …

Lin Si forgot to pretend, and the word "care" could not be hidden on his face.

His worried and anxious appearance was quite different from his usual pretended indifference. Ji Zhongnian was even more puzzled when he saw it.

In Ji Zhongnian's perception, this kind of excessive caring and gentle treatment is not common between two men who don't have a deep relationship.

Taking a step back, he had never met someone who treated him like this.

Combined with Lin Si's silent and kind behavior towards him, and his strange behavior of peeking at him for no reason, Ji Zhongnian had an unconventional idea——

Isn't Lins... thinking about men?

This weird thought popped up like a bean sprout, and Ji Zhongnian felt a shudder running down his spine. Just imagining it like this would not work.

He was disgusted by his absurd idea, and immediately withdrew his hand, slightly contemptuous, "I'm fine, just a small injury."

"It's very troublesome to hurt your hand..." Lin Si didn't notice, and grabbed his hand again.

"It will be fine in two days."

While speaking, Ji Zhongnian observed Lin Si's expression with a secretive expression on his face.

Could it be that I was thinking too much?Maybe this Lin Si is a good person... he is like this to everyone...

Lin Si didn't notice the suspicious gaze of the other party. He lowered his head, stared at Ji Zhongnian's wound carefully, and blew gently with his mouth twice to help him relieve the pain.

In fact, this incision was not worth mentioning to Ji Zhongnian. Instead, the breath exhaled from Lin Si's mouth was warm and soft, with an itchy feeling like a feather, ironing Ji Zhongnian's hand.

"Does it hurt?" Lin Si frowned slightly, looking up at him.

Ji Zhongnian was taller than Lin Si, looking down from his own angle, he saw that Lin Si's eyelids opened a round and smooth arc, framing those plump black eyeballs inside.There is also a small and delicate nose tip, with a little bit of water on the upper lip that seems to have been licked by the tongue...

Ji Zhongnian was stunned.

"... Cough," he narrowed his gaze after recovering, and retracted his hand with an unnatural expression.

Lin Si said, "Wait for me."

He went to find some iodine and gauze, cut into a few thin strips, and used them to bandage Ji Zhongnian's wound.

Every movement was very careful, carefully wrapping the gauze between his fingers, for fear of hurting Ji Zhongnian.

Lin Si didn't know that he had already instinctively exposed his hidden care and pity, and Ji Zhongnian saw all of these gentle feelings in his eyes.

He stared at Lin Si who bowed his head, and suddenly asked, "Are you so kind to everyone?"

"Ok?"

"I found that you are very kind to me." Ji Zhongnian said bluntly.