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The strong feeling of alcohol lingered in Ji Zhongnian's head, making him a flower picker in the middle of the night, barging into Lin Si's room in a daze, and playing drunk like an idiot.

In the darkness, he stared at Lin Si with a pair of faintly shining pupils, and slowly let go of his hand covering Lin Si's mouth.

"I miss you."

"..." Lin Si stagnated, fresh air poured into his nasal cavity.

The room fell into a silence that could be heard falling needles, Ji Zhongnian coughed twice, turned over, and lay beside Lin Si.

His hard arm muscles were just against Lin Si's shoulder, as if he was staying next to Lin Si in such an intimate way without crossing the distance.Lin Si's heart was beating faster, and Ji Zhongnian's slow breathing was next to his ears.

"My head hurts, I can't sleep," Ji Zhongnian said in a rough voice, "I was thinking about you, so I came here."

He raised his hand and put his arm on his eyes, feeling like he was about to lose his mind.

Tonight, he drank himself like hell, came back with a stinky smell of alcohol and two beautiful ladies, all in a foolish way, just to gain a little sense of presence in front of Lin Si, but in the end it was still only himself who was concerned about gains and losses .

"You said that you have someone you like, but you also said that you are not together." Ji Zhongnian's voice was a little hoarse like staying up late, "Since you are not together, it means that I still have a chance."

Lynch swallowed.

Just as he expected the worst possibility, Ji Zhongnian really fell in love with him.

In his previous life, he would have been ecstatic, but now, he only has fear and sorrow.Because the direction of all things is developing towards the established track, bit by bit converging into the story that God wants them to repeat, he is afraid that Ji Zhongnian will bear the price with him.

What makes him feel powerless the most is that he has no ability to change this future, and he has no way to make Ji Zhongnian believe in the future he said, so he can only run away.

But Ji Zhongnian pursued him relentlessly.

Lin Si said something that Ji Zhongnian couldn't understand, "We won't have good results together. Ji Zhongnian, why bother, you can find someone else... You are so good, no one will refuse you—"

"You rejected me, you have been rejecting me." Ji Zhongnian stopped Lin Si's words.

Lin Si turned his head and glanced at him, Ji Zhongnian suddenly turned over and pressed on him.

From such a short distance, he could smell the faint scent of shower gel on Lin Si's body, and he unconsciously slipped his hand in from the hem of Lin Si's pajamas, when he touched Lin Si's smooth waist with a touch of cold fingertips When touching the skin, he could feel the trembling of the people under him.

"You have a reaction," Ji Zhongnian seemed to evoked a thought, the gaze he stared at Lin Si was frightening, like a large beast that could go into heat at any time.

"You're crazy drunk," Lin Si pushed him away, rolled over and got out of bed, before he even had time to put on his slippers, he ran towards the door with bare feet.

However, Ji Zhongnian chased after him.

He grabbed Lin Si's wrist, pushed him against the wall, and yelled madly while drinking: "Lin Si, what do you think of me?! Why do you have to avoid me? Why do you avoid me? ...It's okay if you make trouble once or twice. But if you keep making trouble, you can't stop making trouble, right?"

Lin Si's back was forced against the cold wall, and he grunted in pain. Ji Zhongnian immediately realized that his strength was too strong, and hurriedly hugged his waist like a clumsy child.

His ferocious aura is gone, and his bad temper has also disappeared, leaving only a kind of coquettish confession of guilt, and he said vaguely to Lin Si: "I'm sorry, does it hurt?"

"I didn't make trouble, it's just that I can't..." Lin Si said, and he said the second half of the sentence with a volume that Ji Zhongnian couldn't hear, "I can't stay by your side."

He can't be in the same room with Ji Zhongnian in this situation, facing each other alone, not only Ji Zhongnian can't help it, even he can't help it.

Ji Zhongnian was silent, but the sound of breathing was obvious, and the strong smell of alcohol dissipated, pouring into Lin Si's nasal cavity like a surging air current.

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Wei Ji Zhongnian lowered his head to get close to him, touching his cold nose.

With such a short distance, Ji Zhongnian said dumbly: "Do you know how I got here in the few months after I left the slums? I think of you every day, I think of you kissing me, I think of you see My eyes. I think there is something wrong with my brain, otherwise why would I think about a man all day? But I can't stop, I doubt myself, I hate myself, but I can't help thinking about you. "

His breath fell on Lin Si's lips as much as he exhaled when he spoke. Lin Si lowered his eyes slightly. Ji Zhongnian's words made him not have the courage to look directly at the other party, and he didn't even dare to listen carefully to everyone who entered his ears.

Because that was what Ji Zhongnian wanted to show him, but at the moment, it couldn't be the worst thing.

Ji Zhongnian raised his chin with one hand, forcing him to look into his eyes, "I sent someone to inquire about you, and when I heard that you were no longer in the slums, I panicked, afraid that I would never see you again. Then The moment I knew I liked you. I tried to fight myself, but it didn't work because I'd rather admit that I'm a pervert who likes men than blow you out of my head."

Lynch didn't know how to respond.

He has been trying his best to prevent Ji Zhongnian from falling in love with him, but the heaven seems to be against him, so this happened, and now Ji Zhongnian is still blatantly courting him.

"But after seeing you again, I realized that it was my own wishful thinking. You don't seem to want to see me at all." Ji Zhongnian said with a sense of loneliness, "I brought you back and gave you food and a good place to live, but you didn't want it. Want to get out of here. I don’t know what you’re thinking about, do you want to be a homeless person or a beggar? Do you want to go back to the slums and live those shabby lives? Would you rather be like this than follow me?”

Every time he said a word, his thick and hot chest rose and fell, and every time he hit Lin Si's chest violently.

"Lin Si, I admit that I am not a kind person who wants nothing. I keep you here just because I want you."

After saying this, Ji Zhongnian waited for a long time, but he couldn't see any feedback from Lin Si's eyes.

Lin Si's dark pupils seemed to have lost their color, as dim as dilapidated plaster.

He was silent for a long time, but still did not respond to Ji Zhongnian.

—I think you don't love me, never love me.Even if you do it all over again...don't fall in love with me.

Lin Si's attitude was obvious enough, Ji Zhongnian froze, and then slowly let go of the hand that clamped Lin Si's shoulder, hanging down wearily.

He looked down and looked over, and saw that Lin Si's lips were very red, covered with a thin layer of watery light, like a light red lip gloss, shining brightly in front of him, as long as he moved forward a centimeter ...

He couldn't help it.

He kissed it.

It was as gentle as kissing a snowflake that didn't want it to melt, even though he wasn't sure whether Lin Si agreed with his kiss, but he had already lost all his sanity.

Lin Si's lips were colder than he imagined, but they were soft. Ji Zhongnian gradually increased his strength, and Lin Si unexpectedly did not resist.

During the gap, Ji Zhongnian pressed Lin Si's lips and said, "Do you feel it?"

"I'm afraid I'm greedy," Lin Si said with red eyes, and he relaxed a little, no longer being so stubborn: "If you treat me like this, I can't help wanting more, but I dare not ask for more."

Ji Zhongnian's mind buzzed, "Have you fallen in love with me?"

If it wasn't for the cover of darkness, Ji Zhongnian would have noticed the tears in Lin Si's eyes. He wanted to stay by this person's side, but he was afraid.

He was afraid of letting the person in front of him love him, and then go through the inevitable farewell, seeing him die in front of his own eyes, but there was nothing he could do.He understood what kind of pain it was, and maybe this person would never get out of it for the rest of his life.

Lin Si said against his will: "No. I don't like it."

Every time he said cruel words to Ji Zhongnian, he would feel that his mental strength was exhausted, and this feeling was especially obvious at this moment, so obvious that he really felt the pain in his heart, and then his face showed a look of discomfort.

So Ji Zhongnian could tell at a glance that he was lying.

"Then you act like you don't like me." Ji Zhongnian smiled bitterly, "You saved me in the slums, and every time I doubted that you had feelings for me, you gave me confidence invisibly. Information. Every time when I want to back away, I seem to find that you don't feel nothing for me, I don't believe it's just a misunderstanding..."

As Ji Zhongnian was talking, he suddenly felt very angry, annoyed that he couldn't get what he wanted, and pressed Lin Si's hands against the wall forcefully.

Lin Si was treated like this, and the skin on the back of his neck showed a thin layer of sweat. Because of the height difference between them, he had to stand on tiptoe slightly to make his body squeezed by Ji Zhongnian feel better.

Sensing his discomfort, Ji Zhongnian freed one hand to wrap around his waist, so that he could be pressed against the wall by himself in a higher posture.

The two fiery bodies pressed against each other, and the heartbeat almost jumped out of his chest like a drum. Lin Si's heartbeat was more panic, he felt that he was about to fall, and he couldn't be stopped.

He struggled to escape, but failed because the other party held him tightly.

Ji Zhongnian kissed again, this kiss was not so gentle, even a bit fierce.

Lin Si still didn't resist, as if his nature was forcing him to cater.

Between the lips and teeth, the pure love covered up the desire, which made Ji Zhongnian believe that even if he gave up his sexual desire, and did not kiss or do...love, he also wanted Lin Si to stay by his side, probably It's not just liking, it's falling in love.

After this kiss was over, Ji Zhongnian carried Lin Si back to the bed and did not let go.

The two were lying on the quilt together, Lin Si didn't dare to face Ji Zhongnian at such a close distance, and couldn't get out of the other's arms, so he turned around and turned his thin back to Ji Zhongnian.

"Lin Si, your acting skills are not enough to support you to say things against your will. You always do some contradictory things, which makes it impossible for me to really let go."

"I..." Lin Si's back was stiff.

Ji Zhongnian pressed heavily on his body, like a giant beast that was exhausted and closed its eyes, and said in a weak and deep voice, "Sleep with me for one night."

"Ji Zhongnian..."

"Don't talk, I'm tired and sleepy."

"How can I sleep with you like this?" Lin Si patted the arm around his waist, signaling him to let go.

On the contrary, Ji Zhongnian tightened his grip, and willfully put his face on the back of Lin Si's neck, sniffing his scent gently, "Sleep like this, even if you pretend to be asleep, stay with me."

After a long while, I don't know if it was an illusion, Lin Si felt a little cold liquid slipping over the back of his neck, he didn't say anything, and let Ji Zhongnian hug him like this.

The two of them hugged each other temporarily, closed their eyes, and spent the night together in an unprecedented calm, wrapped in each other's warmth, thinking about nothing.

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