time for sysyphus

Ji Zhongnian picked up Lin Si from the bathtub, carried him back to the bed, covered him with a warm velvet quilt, and covered his cold hands and feet.

"Why do you suddenly feel uncomfortable?" Ji Zhongnian asked.

"Nightmare."

Seeing Lin Si's sobbing and soft appearance, Ji Zhongnian was so distressed that he hugged Lin Si in his arms and gently rubbed his pinna and earlobe.

Ji Zhongnian's fingertips were rough and warm, and he slowly massaged Lin Si. This action always made Lin Si very comfortable, and even miraculously calmed his whole body and mind.

"What did you dream about?" Ji Zhongnian knew that Lin Si would often have nightmares, and every time he comforted Lin Si like this now.

"It's just... terrible," Lin Si said with his eyes closed. "Someone is going to kill me."

"Dreams are always reversed." Ji Zhongnian comforted, "There must be something good about to happen to my Lin Si."

His eyes stayed on Lin Si's face and did not move away, observing this beautiful, slightly pale face at close range, his eyes were so tender that they were almost doting, and then he bent his head and kissed him.

Lin Si nestled crookedly in his arms and refused to move. They were clearly not in love, but these days Lin Si was always very close to Ji Zhongnian, acting like a big child from time to time.

Ji Zhongnian touched his head suspiciously, "My Linsi seems to be getting stickier recently."

He found that recently, when he turned around inadvertently, he could find Lin Si watching him quietly for a long time; when doing those things, Lin Si was always very proactive, surprisingly proactive, even holding hands in ordinary Hugs... Lin Sidu seemed to cherish it all the more, even more than when he was in love.

He didn't know if the word "cherish" was used correctly, but it was this feeling, as if the intimacy and love between them had a fixed time limit, and that time limit was coming, so Lin Si wanted to grasp every moment Every minute and every second.

"Isn't it better to be sticky?" Lin Si said thoughtfully, "My nature is actually an idiot, and I just want to cling to Ji Ershao every day."

He closed his eyes, felt Ji Zhongnian, and felt that the current time passed steadily and peacefully.

Ji Zhongnian kissed the corner of his lips again, his eyes were full of unstoppable love and pampering, "Sleep, I will take you to the nearby park for a walk tomorrow. The scenery over there is good, suitable for relaxation."

Lin Si closed his eyes obediently, "Hey, I'm starting to look forward to it."

Ji Zhongnian patted him gently, and coaxed him to sleep with a voice that gradually became vague, "Tomorrow, we will take a walk around that park, from noon to sunset, and then eat your favorite lamb chops." , drink some wine, in the evening..."

Lin Si didn't hear the following words very clearly, perhaps because Ji Zhongnian's voice was deep and gentle, which seemed to reassure him, he gradually felt sleepy, and fell asleep in Ji Zhongnian's arms.

The whole street was quiet and beautiful, with the warm afternoon sun and the occasional fallen leaves piled up on the side of the road, Lin Si and Ji Zhongnian walked into the pleasant park holding hands.

Affected by the previous nightmare, Lin Si was troubled by uneasy thoughts, and seemed unable to relax fully.

He is always distracted thinking, full of calculations, this life has lived half a year longer than the previous life, does that mean that he is getting farther and farther away from the node of death?But in case... death is only slightly delayed... what should come will still come...

"Look at the road," Ji Zhongnian yanked him, making him avoid the pit under his feet.

Lin Si came back to his senses and almost fell.

"What are you thinking about so preoccupied? You don't even look at the road," Ji Zhongnian helped him straighten his wrinkled sleeves, and pulled him to continue walking.

In the center of the park, there is a clock erected with iron and steel branches, like a large artwork, sitting there quietly.

Lin Si stopped and looked at the clock, the pointer on it moved forward one frame at a time, thinking that it would keep going like this, and describe the time with Ji Zhongqing.

But God who controls time forbids it.

He asked Ji Zhongnian: "Tell me, why does the clock walk so fast."

"Is it fast?" Ji Zhongnian replied, "Then don't look at the second hand, look at the hour hand, and you will feel that the clock is moving very slowly."

"I don't think it's slow, the slower the better." Lin Si said.

Even knowing that the upcoming fate cannot be escaped, I still want to try my best to keep the time with my lover.

As long as the sweet time can be extended a little longer than in the previous life, whether it is ten days or a hundred days, even if it is only one day, it can be regarded as the victory he won for them.

Thinking of this, Lin Si put his hand on the back of Ji Zhongnian's. Ji Zhongnian turned his head to look at him, and saw that the corners of his eyes were smudged red by the cold wind, making him very charming.

Ji Zhongnian couldn't help teasing him, "I want to hear you say those three words."

Without even thinking about it, Lin Si blurted out: "Reluctantly."

Ji Zhongnian was taken aback, dissatisfied, "Let's talk."

Lin Si finally realized, "I love you."

If I go back to the past again, I will love you even more.

On the way back, Lin Si wrapped Ji Zhongnian's arm and was in a good mood: "Where shall we go tomorrow?"

Ji Zhongnian smiled: "It depends on where you want to go."

Lin Si thought and said, "Hey, how about—"

Suddenly, Ji Zhongnian's cell phone rang, interrupting Lin Si's words.

"I'll take a call first," Ji Zhongnian took out his cell phone to answer, and his assistant Wei Ping talked about some work matters on the phone.

Lin Si waited quietly by the side until Ji Zhongnian put down the phone, looked at him apologetically, and said, "Tomorrow I may... have to rush back to China."

Lin Si's heart skipped a beat unexpectedly, he was stunned for a few seconds, and asked Ji Zhongnian: "About work?"

"Well, I'll come back to accompany you when I'm done. It should be soon, just three or four days."

Lin Si could understand it when he thought about it. After all, Ji Zhongnian had put down his work there for almost a month, and he couldn't really be a king who ignored the government and neglected his career.

He smiled, "It's okay, work is important. I'll see you off tomorrow."

The next morning, Ji Zhongnian signed for the earliest flight, and Lin Si accompanied him to the airport.

When Ji Zhongnian kissed Lin Si farewell, he turned and walked towards the boarding gate. Lin Si watched him go farther and farther, and for some reason his eyes gradually became moist.

He stared blankly, reluctant, even wanting to hug Ji Zhongnian's back.

For no reason, Lin Si trembled uncontrollably, he aroused an inexplicable eager impulse, as if he was afraid of this moment of separation.

When he realized it, he couldn't help but quickly chased after him and grabbed Ji Zhongnian's hand.

"Middle Year!"

Ji Zhongnian turned around, a little surprised in his dark eyes, "What's wrong?"

Linston paused, tightly grasping Ji Zhongnian's hand, and said to him, "Why, I, I'd better go back with you. Let you go back alone, and I'll stay here alone—"

"No need," Ji Zhongnian cut off his words with a smile.

He thought that Lin Si was reluctant, so he gently let go of Lin Si's hand, touched his face to comfort him, "It's tiring to run back and forth, you don't have to accompany me this trip. I will go back for a few days, soon I will fly back to find you."

"But..." Lin Si bit his cheek, and was grabbed by the loose hand of the opponent again, his knuckles turned white due to the force, "I, I want..."

He didn't know what was wrong with him, as if driven by some kind of impulse and premonition, he just wanted to grab Ji Zhongnian's wrist forcefully, not wanting to separate from him.

Lin Si looked deeply into Ji Zhongnian's pupils, the imperceptible liquid in his eyes was heating up, as if he was expressing the obsession deep in his heart.

Ji Zhongnian sighed helplessly, and patted the back of Lin Si's hand lightly to reassure Lin Si, "Okay, my plane is about to take off. Be obedient."

The two stood facing each other like this, Lin Si hesitated for a while, then nodded hesitantly, giving up the idea of ​​going back with Ji Zhongnian.

"Then," he embraced Ji Zhongnian with both arms, and said reluctantly, "Peace and wind."

Ji Zhongnian hugged him back, and promised, "Yes. I'll report you safe when I get off the plane."

The pair of arms that were trying to hug the lover's body were slowly let go.

They gave each other simple goodbyes.

For a long time after that, Ji Zhongnian regretted why he didn't extend this hug, why he let Lin Si go first, why he didn't bring Lin Si back to China and keep him by his side.

He didn't know that this was the last hug with Lin Si, and he didn't know that Lin Si felt uneasy and reluctant when he hugged him. He only thought that the plane was about to take off, and he only thought about rushing back to China as soon as possible to deal with the work. .....

—— "It's better, I'd better go back with you."

--"Need not."

The author says:

There are still about three chapters to finish, and the next update will be completed in one go.The ending chapter is the last episode of Zhongnian (5).