Miss Tsushima

Tsushima Hiiragi leaned back against the railing, and the wind against the direction kept blowing towards her. The tail of her hair was still dripping with water. Nakahara was also facing the river, frowning, and his eyes fell on the river. , the sun rises and falls on the water, and the sparkling water waves are rippling with broken gold.

Zhong Yuanzhong also put one hand casually outside the railing, with a cigarette between his fingers wrapped in a black leather glove, a little red flickering in the wind, like a dull blooming flower, he did not smoke, and so on When the cigarette was about to burn out, it shook? Shaked, and a piece of soot fell.

Winding clouds floated from the cigarettes and slowly dissipated over the river.

"Chuya..." After such a long silence, Tsushima Hiiragi buried his face in his arms and said softly, "May I ask you to leave first."

"What about after I leave?" Nakahara looked at the river and asked, "Would you like to jump down again?"

"Leave me alone...Chuya." Tsushima Hiiragi buried himself deeper in his arms, repeating, "Really...don't take care of me anymore, let's go..."

She repeated, "Don't? Leave me alone." The voice was low and weak, with a wordless plea, "Leave me alone."

This world is upside down, she is wrong, if this goes on, she will go crazy again, yes, she is wrong, she just figured it out, Tsushima Hiiragi is not Dazai Osamu, and neither is Dazai Osamu "He", they are different existences, what kind of eyes has she been watching the growth of this child.

Looking at him with eyes full of expectation and hope, with maternal tenderness, the resemblance that once fascinated her is the source of pain that is strangling her neck now.

After all, they are different existences. Yes, Osamu Dazai can use glass bottles to hold fireflies and chew candy. He is the boy who holds her sleeve in the crowd during summer festivals and under fireworks. He is Osamu Dazai, not "Osamu Dazai".

He is the child who grew up like this, not the elongated blurred shadow behind her, he grew up like this, she watched him grow into, he is a living existence, not a substitute for anyone.

What kind of eyes did she use to watch him grow up?

After all, she has been escaping from reality. Even though they have so many similarities, they are still different existences. The existence of "Tsushima" is a clock that stops running, covered with thick dust, and is an existence that stays in that river forever. Those summer days that walked together, the shaky time, and the growth After all, there is only Osamu Dazai.

She is just a heroic spirit, just the phantom of "Dazai Osamu" after death, just an immortal, innocent monster?

Now she finally understands how stupid and selfish Dazai Osamu is from his "self" who took care of him when he was growing up. After all, they are just strangers living in the same house. Shima Hiiragi always thought that she understood Osamu Dazai, but only now did she realize that she didn't even understand her own existence.

Osamu Dazai is just Osamu Dazai, not the past she wants to find, Chuya Nakahara is just Chuya Nakahara, not the one who would get angry at her, wave his fists, and hug her shoulder carelessly, but could make delicate In the middle of the poem, they are clearly different existences, but she just stays in the past.Deep in the memories of the past, unable to extricate myself, it's like having a dream.

They are different.

Only then did she understand.

But, why? Let her see Akutagawa Ryunosuke again after she understands?They are similar, but that is not Mr. Akutagawa, not the one who made her look forward to, who gave her the belief and goal of life, the desire to live and the reason to die.

Such a similar existence, such a fundamental difference?

Why, let her see the child with her own eyes after she understands this?Osamu Dazai clearly did it on purpose, calling out that name loudly in front of her, he must be resentful to her, so he walked away so irresponsibly.

There is no such a world. She made a mistake? It was a complete and fundamental mistake. She thought it was similar to the world before her death, but only now did she realize that it was all so strange, and it was , Is it familiar or unfamiliar? This world is upside down, making her unable to tell the difference.

This world has Ryunosuke Akutagawa, but not her teacher Akutagawa.

Have you lived in this world? This? For many years, it is the first time I feel such profound strangeness and confusion, like a child, or an old man with amnesia, who is obviously a familiar existence, but can only stare blankly Looking secretly, staring at a place for a long time, the appearance gradually blurred and changed into an unknown appearance.

It wasn't just Osamu Dazai who was left where he was, but also Hiiragi Tsushima.

At the moment of opening the "book", she has seen all the existence of this world and countless parallel worlds, so what is she? Is it an exception in the three thousand worlds, or just a phantom, she can't confirm.

Maybe, it’s better if it doesn’t exist. For a person like her, Tsushima Hiiragi felt the dizziness and pain rising from her heart. In a strange environment, the feeling of being alone made her gradually suffocate and anxious Uneasy, the world seems to be spinning and falling.

This? This is not where she belongs, she wants to leave? Let's go, Tsushima Hiiragi thought, the coward's traits? It kept clamoring in her heart, and the instinct of avoidance made her subconsciously want to get away. Protection, only in this way can it be done, no matter what the story will be later, if you don't touch, you won't get hurt.

Even if it's happiness, she doesn't have the courage to try it?

In a world without her, everyone can still be happy. Therefore, the disappearance of such an insignificant person like her will burst like a bubble, and will be quickly forgotten.He will meet in the future, a companion who can deliver his back, and a belief that can support himself to live.

He will survive.Even if a person may be lonely, but with someone like her, there will only be sadness in the end, and those who love her will only despair in the end.

Perhaps this is why Enoshima Shield paid attention to her. The magical charm drives those who love her crazy. If they don't understand the essence of a lover, they will only leave despair.

Does she want to leave? Back to Lixiang's side, Tsushima Hiiragi thought vaguely, Lixiang, who can always protect her, holding her hand, Tsushima Hiiragi felt the texture of poplin There was a hint of coolness on the sleeves, which were sticky, like a cold snake. Only then did I realize later that I shed tears.

"Chuya, leave me alone?...Leave." Tsushima Hiiragi said, pain, too much pain? There was only chaos left, infinite fear and sorrow. She was eager to escape from this place, yes Whether it's the roof or the river, give her a quiet place and let her be quiet.

She thought, have a nap?

Tsushima Hiiragi closed his eyes tiredly.

Suddenly, her wrist was tightly held, and that force made her feel a strange pain, creaking, as if even her bones were about to break? Zhong Yuanzhong also pulled her away vigorously. ?Get up and look straight into her face.

Nakahara Chuya's temper is actually not good, and it's nothing? A gentle and considerate character, but since he was a child, he has never shown an angry look at Tsushima Hiiragi. He looked into Tsushima Hiiragi's eyes, Like swirling sea water, burning flames fluttered in the cold sea blue, staring at her face tensely.

Tsushima Hiiragi was abruptly pulled away by him to cover his face, and the golden waves on the river suddenly hurt? Her eyes, which are used to darkness, slowly filled with tears, and her pressed eyelashes were moist. bent? down, wet? her cheeks.

Even though her wrist was grasped with great force, she didn't struggle at all. She didn't even move her fingers. It was just a soft touch, as if she was holding it? A puppet without a soul, what did she say? His face was pale.

After a long time, Zhongyuan Zhong also opened his mouth.

"I said, no matter what, as long as I'm here, nothing will happen to you?" He said word by word,

"I won't leave you alone."

"Let go..." Tsushima Hiiragi seemed to be burned by the temperature of his palm, and suddenly struggled, and Nakahara Nakaya tightly grasped her wrist, even if there were bruises on her wrist, he still grabbed her tightly Hold her and never let go.

"Chuya...do you know, that's what you are, that's why you're so annoying." Tsushima Hiiragi stepped back, his eyes filled with tears, "I'm always like this? Did you say that? Why? ?Hold on to me? Go home...go? Go...let go!"

Her tears flowed down her cheeks and chin one by one, and dripped on Zhong Yuanzhong's hand, which was also wearing a leather glove. On? Tears, suddenly feel the pain of heartache.

"I will never let go."

Zhong Yuanzhong also pulled her, regardless of her struggle, forced her into the car?, and started the car.

This time, was he really angry? Nakahara helped her fasten her seat belt rudely, making sure that she didn't have any tendency to make abnormal movements—for example, suddenly opening the car door? Jumping or something?

Tsushima Hiiragi didn't care what kind of consequences such a leap would bring. What she pursued was a transparent utopia in the void, just like the existence of glass, easily smashing herself, he had already I understand that Tsushima Hiiragi is an out-and-out pessimist, but this still makes him restless.

Tsushima Hiiragi was able to leave in this way from the hands of the military and police. Not only Fukuzawa Yukichi went to look for it? Only by having a conversation can we bring her out smoothly.

There are also conditions. On the premise that Tsushima Hiiragi is an important suspect in this case, after a long period of negotiations, Mori Ogai promised to farm, and the port mafia will also confirm Tsushima Hiiragi's movements. Closely monitor her, if there is an abnormality, deal with it immediately, and he will be responsible for any accident.

After such a multi-faceted movement, Tsushima Hiiragi was released.

"I heard before that Ms. Tsushima's charm is beyond ordinary people. I still don't believe it. Now it seems that there is indeed a basis. It seems that President Fukuzawa of the Armed Detective Agency has also gone to look for it? Captain Fukuchi of the military police, now even Mr. Mori, the leader of the port mafia, you all come to me, Ms. Tsushima lives up to her reputation."

When leaving, Taneda said to Mori Ogai with a smile, and there was a secret prying under the smile.

Mori Ogai stood up and laughed out loud when he heard what he said. "No, I think you misunderstood? What? Miss Tsushima has special abilities, and she is very important to Yokohama."

His laughter echoed in the quiet conference room, and the atmosphere became inexplicably tense. Ango Sakaguchi, who served as the middleman, tightened his fingers in his pocket nervously.

"I'm not the same as President Fukuzawa." He restrained himself? Smiling,

"President Fukuzawa is the knight who protects the princess, and I can only be the dragon who protects the treasure?"