President Qi, I don't despise you

Qi Muye felt distressed looking at him, his little lover was afraid that he would lose the golden beans, so he didn't say anything or ask, but raised his hand and gently rubbed the top of his hair, the corners of his mouth The smile was a little brighter, but it still had that soft feeling.

Just like this, there was silence in the room for a while, and the reunion after nine months seemed to be unable to express the deepest fear and longing in my heart.

Shen Yan didn't want him to worry either, so he lowered his head and tried his best to control his emotions, then raised his head, and grinned at him with a big smile, but Qi Muye felt worried when he saw the red eye circles, but he still Back to the young man with a faint and gentle smile.

Qi Muye reached out to caress his face, his voice was so faint that he could hardly hear it

"I lost weight, haven't you eaten well in the past few months?"

Shen Yan raised his hand to grab his hand, and stretched his own hand to the man's face

"I'm afraid Mr. Qi didn't look in the mirror, it's because you are much thinner."

This person was too thin. When he was supported just now, the arm he was holding was only a handful of bones.

"It's true that I haven't looked in the mirror for a long time, but you are back, cook me more delicious food in the future, and I will gain weight."

Shen Yan couldn't help laughing when he heard his words.

"I have made so many delicious food before, and I don't see Mr. Qi gaining a few pounds of meat, but even so, I will continue to work hard. After all, you have to eat for nothing."

Qi Muye also laughed when he heard it, both of them were deliberately avoiding the sorrow accumulated in the past nine months, there were countless questions in their hearts that they couldn't ask, they could only comfort each other with the most plain language.

It is love to the extreme and fear to the extreme.

Because of deep love, Shen Yan didn't dare to ask Qi Muye how he survived this period of time, and didn't dare to ask how he survived those three hospital visits.

And Qi Muye was the same, he didn't dare to ask Shen Yan how dangerous he was on the battlefield back then, didn't dare to ask if the matter was over, and even less dared to ask if he would leave?

They dare not look back at each other's past, or even look forward to the future. They can only live well in the present and cherish every minute and every second they meet now.

The most helpless thing in life is to do a multiple-choice question with no choice.

Shen Yan knew that when he stepped into the command center of the Ministry of Public Security in Shangcheng, he had only one choice left - if there was a war, he must return. That was the path he chose at the age of 20, and he would die without regret.

Qi Muye also knew that when the young man said that he was going abroad to carry out a mission, he had only one choice - that is to be fulfilled, all he could do was wait silently.

From then on, the two people ran towards two different destinies, either reunited in joy or separated by yin and yang.

Shen Yan finally looked into that person's eyes and said those three words.

"sorry."

No matter how righteous he is, he cannot deny the harm these nine months have done to Qi Muye and his family. His choice may even make it too late for them to see him for the last time, and they may not even get his ashes in the end, so He owes his family 'sorry' from the moment he chose this profession.

"Xiaoyan, you didn't do anything wrong to anyone. A country, an era, after all, needs some people to stand in that position at that time, just stand there, not retreating a step."

At this moment, the eyes of this sickly man lying on the bed are full of sharpness, and there is no trace of weakness. This is the deepest respect for the person opposite at this moment.

"Xiaoyan, you don't need to apologize, because I am not only your lover, but also one of the thousands of people you protect behind me, how lucky I am to have such love from you."

Qi Muye's eyes softened, but the pride in those eyes did not fade away. No matter how long it took, as long as he could return safely, he would be willing to wait.

Shen Yan always knew that he understood him, he wanted to say 'he is so lucky to be able to get such love from him', but at this moment his throat seemed to be stuffed with a ball of cotton, he opened his mouth but couldn't speak a word.

The uncontrollable fever in his eyes, he understood the guilt in his heart, he understood his no choice, his understatement made him let go of the heaviest pain in his heart in the past nine months.

Hot tears slid down the sharp-edged face, drop by drop, hitting the back of Qi Muye's hand, and even hitting his heart.

Qi Muye didn't raise his hand to help him dry his tears, it's a good thing to cry, it's a kind of release.

Shen Yan didn't cry when he was parting, he didn't cry in the most dangerous situation, he didn't even cry at the last moment when he fell down, when he knew that he might never wake up again, but at this moment, in this moment where a gust of wind can blow Crying like a child in front of the fallen man.

Perhaps everyone needs a harbor, a haven where there is no ridicule, an absolutely safe harbor, no matter how strong a person is, he can cry here without any scruples.

And Qi Muye is Shen Yan's harbor, the one that can tolerate everything for him, allows him to be himself without any scruples, and is his last retreat at the end of the road.

Shen Yan's tears grew more and more, as if he wanted to shed all the tears accumulated in the past 27 years. The strings in his heart have been tense for nine months, and he has not relaxed for a moment.

The comrades-in-arms who never came back, the lover who wanted to see the one who couldn't see each other, and the guilt towards the family, never stopped for a moment.

Qi Muye felt distressed seeing Shen Yan like this, but he also knew that there were some things that he could only figure out by himself, he propped himself up, and hugged that strong "little soldier" into his arms.

All he could do was to accompany him like this, wait for him, and give him a piece of pure land in this world that only belonged to him. He patted his back lightly without saying a word.

Shen Yan hugged his slender waist. It was this thin man with only a few bones left. This chest even gave him an endless sense of security, allowing him to immerse himself in it without using anything. think.

Qi Muye was a little worried in his heart, he had checked countless information in the past six months, he didn't know what Shen Yan would experience in the past six months, but it would be cruel beyond his imagination.

He checked the information and knew that many people needed psychological counseling after leaving the battlefield, and he knew that Shen Yan might have experienced that more than once.

But he is still willing to be the most solid shield after he leaves the battlefield. For him, he doesn’t need to be strong or strong, just like a child who cries in his arms when he’s sad, even if he’s a hero You also need someone to protect you, don't you?As long as he is there, he will always protect him.

[The author has something to say:]

This chapter has been written for a long time

Some regret that the main text should not end there, such President Qi and Shen Yan should be the final appearance

They not only have love, but also great love and righteousness.

They are the people who understand each other best in the world

Mr. Qi may have a stronger heart than Shen Yan, he can see through his guilt, endure the wait silently, and finally give Shen Yan a harbor to rely on

The love between Mr. Qi and Shen Yan is mutual waiting, strong love

President Qi and Shen Yan have all the love for each other

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