I'm poor

Early spring is a beautiful season for all things to grow, but Yan Qinsheng's life has completely withered.When he returned to school, he lost a lot of weight. He hadn't been in the sun for a long time, his skin was sickly pale, his eyes were still so dark, but there was no light in them, and he looked empty, as if his soul had been drained. The Walking Dead.

Tang Xiande pretended to be a parent and told the counselor that the child was sick and lay in the hospital for a while. No one suspected anything, and Yan Qinsheng really looked like he had a serious illness.

Tang Xiande returned the phone to him before leaving the school, and reminded him softly: "You can use the money in the card as you like, obediently attend classes at school, and after two weeks I will come to Huaiyuan to discuss business. Come find you again"

Like a qualified parent, the man patiently told everything and then stared at Yan Qinsheng waiting for an answer. He didn't drive away until Yan Qinsheng nodded in cooperation.

Yan Qinsheng stood blankly downstairs in the dormitory for a while, then lowered his head and pressed the power button. Unexpectedly, he still had [-]% of the battery after not charging for the whole winter vacation.

The screen was filled with all kinds of missed calls and unread messages from his roommates and friends, which made Yan Qinsheng instantly feel that someone still cared about him, and his heart warmed up after a long time.

The counselor and several roommates called, and Da Zhou sent ten text messages in a row: "What's wrong with you, buddy? Call me back!"

Yan Qinsheng flipped through the call records and messages asking for concern one by one, and his hands trembled when he saw Fang Yi's dozen missed calls.

He thought that Fang Yi would never look for him in his life.

Yan Qinsheng was hesitating whether to call Fang Yi back, but he didn't know how to face Fang Yi.

"Where have you been all this time?"

The panic-stricken voice suddenly sounded behind him, and Yan Qinsheng turned his head to meet Shang Yiyin's angry eyes.

"I..." Yan Qinsheng's eyes turned red all of a sudden, he subconsciously wanted to ask Fang Yi to save him, but he swallowed the words again.

As soon as he opened his mouth, Tang Xiande's cold threat sounded in his mind. He was extremely afraid of that demonic old man.

What would Fang Yi think if he saw those photos... Yan Qinsheng didn't dare to imagine any more, subconsciously took two steps back to distance himself from Fang Yi.

Fang Yi was really angry for a while because of the rejection of his confession, and the arrogance in his bones made him even think about not having any contact with Yan Qinsheng again, after all, he was so old that he was too useless to lick anyone.

But he was angry, and after returning home from the winter vacation, Fang Yi felt uncomfortable. He didn't know if it was because of being rejected for the first time. He wanted to see Yan Qinsheng with a puff of breath in his chest, and he was about to go crazy thinking about it.In the end, he bit the bullet and went to the old building to look for Yan Qinsheng, but he was taken aback by the red letters and court seals at the door of his house.

Seeing Yan Qinsheng's haggard appearance now, Fang Yi became even more worried. He stretched out his hand to cup his face and asked, "Why do you look sick? What's the matter? The words on your door are..."

"Don't ask, it's okay, I just moved." Yan Qinsheng spoke in a very soft voice, as if he was about to disconnect in the next second.

"What do you mean it's okay, you clearly have something to do with it." Fang Yi grabbed Yan Qinsheng's arm and asked anxiously: "What's wrong with you, how can I help you if you don't tell me!"

Yan Qinsheng pulled up a bleak smile, like a decaying flower: "I know you are not a saint who helps the poor, and I can't give you what you want. I don't have the face to ask you to help me." He paused and drooped his heavy hand again. Eyelid, "Now everything is settled, I just fell ill."

"What's wrong with you? Are you okay?" Fang Yi lowered his head nervously to look at his body, only to find that Yan Qinsheng's thin body was well-wrapped in brand-name clothing. It can be seen that he is not short of money, but his skin is pale and feeble. Like a delicate but soulless doll.

Yan Qinsheng pointed to his heart and said nothing, he was sick, heart disease, poverty disease, cowardice disease.

Inborn, genetic, no cure, no one.

Fang Yi lowered his eyes and silently pulled Yan Qinsheng into the flower bed. The two sat side by side on the stone bench and did not speak for a long time.

During these days, Fang Yi actually regretted it. He was used to being arrogant and arrogant. Yan Qinsheng didn't accept him immediately, which really made him lose face, so that he said some cruel words out of reason.

After calming down and thinking about it, he first knew that he was also repulsive when he liked boys, and he tried his best to find a girlfriend to try to change his mentality.

No one wants to be out of tune, and they all struggle with their souls before compromising, acquiescing that they are a homosexual that society cannot tolerate.

Only then did Fang Yi realize that he had dealt a cruel blow to Yan Qinsheng. It took him half a year to identify and accept his sexual orientation, but he forced Yan Qinsheng to accept the same sex without even giving Yan Qinsheng any time to think about it, let alone Yan Qinsheng Did not reject him directly.

"Qin Sheng, if you haven't thought about it well, we can still do what we did before." Fang Yi said coyly, this was already his maximum concession, accepting Yan Qinsheng's original proposal, as if that absurd confession never happened, Continue to be friends.

He even hoped that as long as Yan Qinsheng was given a transition period, maybe they could still become a couple.

"Fang Yi, we can't go back," Yan Qinsheng lowered his head, his pale fingers intertwined into a twisted shape, and his slightly long bangs hid his eyes in a shadow: "Don't treat me badly, I'm not worth what you pay .”

Yan Qinsheng got up slowly under Fang Yi's astonished gaze, and said without turning his head: "I remember that you don't eat leftovers, so please dump me into the trash can as leftovers, and don't eat them again in the future." We met."

When Yan Qinsheng turned to leave, he was very decisive. He was afraid that if he was delayed for another second, he would cry bitterly and show his helplessness.He hurried back to the dormitory building, tripped on the steps and almost knocked to the ground.

Yan Qinsheng sat down on the cold stairs, covering his eyes with his hands, his life was terrible...

He didn't spend any of the money Tang Xiande sent to Yan Qinsheng. He didn't want to admit that he did it voluntarily. Once he spent a penny, it would be the same as prostitution. The way to maintain the last bit of dignity.

Yan Qinsheng even firmly believed in the idea that sooner or later he would have to return Tang Xiande the 5 yuan advanced and the money to buy the cemetery, so that he didn't take any cents, and this was not prostitution or maintenance.

Once a crime is packaged in a money transaction, it is a transaction, and there is no way to explain it.

Bear with it, bear with it for another year, Yan Qinsheng keeps hinting to himself that as long as he survives until he graduates from senior year, he will hide in the remotest corners of the earth, find a job where Tang Xiande can't find him, return the money to him, and let him carry the money on his back. That sin to death, let him know that he is a badass rapist through and through.

Fortunately, the owner of the Japanese grocery store where he used to work is still willing to ask him to continue working, and Zhou Pingkang will still take him to do some piecemeal part-time jobs such as distributing leaflets and ordering milk.

When the Japanese grocery store was busy holding trays, Yan Qinsheng would feel that the days had returned to the past, and then subconsciously glanced outside the store door.

Sunny, no snow, no Fang Yi.

After class on Wednesday afternoon, Zhou Pingkang packed his schoolbag and ran to Yan Qinsheng's seat: "Let's go, let's go to the mall to distribute leaflets today, 60 yuan for four hours, easy and not tired."

"I still have something to do today, you go by yourself." Yan Qinsheng subconsciously grabbed his schoolbag tightly, Tang Xiande was coming to school today, he didn't dare to run around, if the man couldn't find him, he would get angry again.

"Okay." Zhou Pingkang patted him on the shoulder, always feeling that Yan Qinsheng was particularly depressed after returning to school.

It was already dark outside when Tang Xiande's call was received, and Yan Qinsheng still didn't want to go after dawdling in the dormitory for a while.Tang Xiande seemed impatient to wait, so he directly sent a photo.

Yan Qinsheng looked at the unsightly picture of himself on the screen so that his hands were shaking with anger, he gritted his teeth and put on two coats before he walked to the school gate bravely.

The man's black Mercedes-Benz was parked not far away, blending into the night.The car window was lowered slowly, Tang Xiande rested his arms on the edge of the car window, took off the cigarette in his mouth with two fingers and exhaled a puff of white mist, the red light spot of the cigarette butt was very eye-catching in the dark night, he signaled Yan Qinsheng to come over quickly with his eyes .

Although he was mentally prepared, when Yan Qinsheng saw him again, his heart trembled with fear. He took a few steps back, tucked his fingers into fists in the long sleeves of his shirt, and mustered up his courage before moving to the front of the car.

Tang Xiande pressed the cigarette in his hand heavily on the ashtray in the car, opened the door from the inside and pulled the person in.

Yan Qinsheng was caught off guard, and his forehead hit the roof of the car. He let out a soft cry of pain, and before he could react, the old man knocked him down on the seat of the car and made a promiscuous kiss.

"Baby, I don't think I did, huh? I miss you so much." The man was about to move after raising the car window, his rough hands restlessly tore off Yan Qinsheng's obstructive coat, panting heavily: "Why are you wearing so many clothes?" , it’s not easy to take off.”

Yan Qinsheng pursed his lips, frowned and tilted his head to avoid Tang Xiande's kiss. The smell of tobacco and alcohol on the man's body filled the small compartment, making him feel sick and want to vomit.

"I beg you, don't stay in the car, this is the school gate, I don't want people to see..." Yan Qinsheng put his hands on Tang Xiande's upper body, tremblingly begging him.

As soon as the voice fell, the window of the driver's seat was smashed by an external force with a "bang", and it was instantly shattered into a spider web. A stout woman and her relatives and friends swung a fire hammer and smashed the car glass hard.

"Good you Tang Xiande, if you hide your mistress in another place, I won't be able to find it! Adultery/husband/sexual/women, I will drag you out to parade in the street today!" The woman slammed the car window hard while swearing, Yan Qinsheng's face was frightened It was all white, huddled on the car seat at a loss, not knowing where to hide.

Tang Xiande looked out the car window in horror, and panicked, he gritted his teeth and cursed: "Damn it, a dead woman is following me."

The woman's loud and piercing cursing voice attracted many passers-by who came in and out of the school gate. Everyone gathered around the roadside to watch the show. Some of them had already taken out their mobile phones to shoot a big scene of catching rape in the palace and sent it to Moments to collect likes.

The group of people who caught the rape were still smashing the car windows frantically, only to hear a "crash", the glass of the driver's seat shattered into countless fine glass shards, the woman's hand went through the smashed car window, pressed the door lock and pulled it. After opening the door, others hurriedly dragged Tang Xiande out.

"You're fucking capable!" The woman stretched out her hand and slapped Tang Xiande on the face, and her loud voice immediately echoed beside the wide road: "If it weren't for my father's powerful and powerful help, you would have the glory you have now, How dare you come out to steal and raise your third son."

Tang Xiande was slapped twice by her, he lowered his head and didn't say a word, completely lacking the previous high-spirited manner.

As soon as Xiaosaner was mentioned, the woman remembered that there was a mistress hiding in the car, so she dragged Yan Qinsheng out of the car, who was trembling in the car, "I want to see what kind of vixen kills my man!" Hooked away."

At first, the woman was surprised that the vixen had short hair, but then she suddenly reacted and shouted in surprise, "He's a fucking man!"

There was a commotion among the audience, the scene of catching rape was really climaxed, only unexpected, nothing unseen.

"I'm not mistress, I'm not, he forced me..." Yan Qinsheng was about to cry, he hurriedly covered his face with his hands, and then several people pressed on the car door, grabbed his arms and violently opened his hands.

"I am ashamed to say that I was forced to charge so much money from my man. I have never seen such a shameless male mistress like you in my life!"

The woman yelled mockingly, brushed Yan Qinsheng's hair with her left hand, and slapped Yan Qinsheng several times with her right hand, cursing as she slapped: "You don't learn well at a young age, and I told you to seduce men. Only when you break it will you relieve your anger!"

Several other people also rushed forward, Yan Qinsheng was pulled and pressed to the ground, and the women's high-heeled shoes kicked his stomach fiercely.

Fists, heels, slaps... the pain was like hailstones hitting the arms, legs, and stomach one after another.Yan Qinsheng was surrounded and beaten by a group of people, and he was already shrunk into a circle in pain.

Fang Yi stood at the outermost layer of the crowd, staring coldly at Yan Qinsheng who was curled up on the ground shivering like a wild dog.

Xie Qi lowered his hand to lightly hold Fang Yi's trembling fist, and smiled contemptuously: "I can't tell, Yan Qinsheng, who is quite honest, has been taken care of by an old man."

Fang Yi's eyes were red, the corners of his mouth twitched and he cursed fiercely: "Fuck."

Yan Qinsheng fell to the ground, and seemed to hear Fang Yi's voice in a trance, it was very small, very real, and very far away.He opened his eyes, looked through the legs of the crowd around the audience, and saw the pair of sneakers that he had bought for 800 yuan in a frugal way strode out of sight.

No matter how painful he was beaten, he didn't cry, but the moment Fang Yi turned and left, Yan Qinsheng couldn't stop sobbing and crying.

"You still know how to cry, so who are you pretending to be pitiful for?" The woman kicked Yan Qinsheng's abdomen hard with the toe of her leather shoe. Yan Qinsheng wailed and arched his waist even more, with blue veins on his forehead, and opened his mouth to vomit a mouthful of blood.

Zhou Pingkang, who was about to go back to school, saw a group of people gathered around the school gate, and he also joined in to watch the excitement, but when he saw Yan Qinsheng who was lying on the ground, his face turned black instantly.

"You dare to hit my brother!" He cursed loudly like a bell, pushed the crowd away and rushed to block Yan Qinsheng, and waved his fist into the air to warn the woman: "I don't want to hit a woman, if you touch him again I can really give you a hammer on the ground."

Zhou Pingkang stood there tall and straight, and just staring was enough to frighten the aggressive middle-aged women so that they didn't dare to move. The women backed up a few steps in fright, cursing in a low voice: "This The little gay is pretty good at seducing people, so there are people to help."

"That is, any good person who can call this kind of person a brother is a gay."

Zhou Pingkang was so angry that the veins on his forehead twitched violently. He resisted the urge to hit someone, bent down and carried Yan Qinsheng on his back, and left under the mocking eyes of everyone.

"Xiaoyan, you wait, I'll take you to the infirmary." Zhou Pingkang ignored the strange eyes around the campus, and hurried to the infirmary with Yan Qinsheng on his back.

Yan Qinsheng leaned on his back and coughed a few times, feeling as if a thorn ball was stuck in his throat, and he was unable to speak: "Da Zhou, you shouldn't interfere, you will be misunderstood..."

"I have a girlfriend so I'm not afraid of misunderstandings. I don't help when my roommate is beaten up. Is that what men do?" Zhou Pingkang paused, turned to look at him, and said hesitantly: "You are really a man?" Packed?"

Yan Qinsheng smiled miserably with bloodstains on the corner of his mouth: "Do you believe me?"

Zhou Pingkang flattened his mouth: "I definitely don't believe it. You are such a law-abiding person. Besides, if you really took other people's money, why do you have to work part-time with me every day? You can't bear to eat and wear things."

Yan Qinsheng buried his face on Zhou Pingkang's shoulder, closed his eyes tiredly and murmured, "Thank you, Da Zhou."

thank you for trusting me.

Although Zhou Pingkang asked repeatedly, Yan Qinsheng remained silent.But those who have been subjected to violence hardly have the courage to say that word, which is why they cannot sue the bad guys, because to sue the bad guys means telling the whole story of the inhuman experience with their own mouths.

For the victim, that is tantamount to another prison sentence.

What Tang Xiande brought to Yan Qinsheng was not only physical pain, but also spiritual damage. In the closed room, his will was worn away bit by bit, making him fearful and desperate.

That was his most painful memory, even if he mentioned it, he would be wrapped up in fear again, and then cause his body to remember the heart-piercing pain again like a conditioned reflex.

Yan Qinsheng huddled on the small bed in the infirmary, besides the bruises from the beating, there were also cuts from the broken glass of the car.

The school doctor used tweezers to sterilize the wound with a cotton ball dipped in alcohol: "Oh, classmate, you got into a fight with someone, you must have struck too hard."

Yan Qinsheng arched his waist, frowned and said nothing, only felt a cramping pain in his abdomen, and the strength of the woman's kicks almost kicked his stomach through.

"It hurts..." He bent his legs and hugged his knees, the pain was so painful that his consciousness was blurred.

"Xiaoyan, are you okay? If you can't, let's go to the hospital now!" Zhou Pingkang shook his shoulder nervously, Yan Qinsheng looked at him, his vision became more and more blurred until Da Zhou disappeared into the darkness.

wake up.

Yan Qinsheng clutched his stomach and wrapped the quilt tightly and turned over, then opened his eyes in the darkness.

He reached out to the bedside and took out a piece of paper to wipe off the cold sweat oozing from his forehead, and slowly got out of the bed, clutching his stomach.

The sound of slippers being pulled on the concrete floor could be heard in the pitch-black rough room. Yan Qinsheng bowed his waist and went to the kitchen to pour a glass of water before returning to the room.

Since he was kicked hard in the stomach a few years ago, he often wakes up with pain at night, which has become a habit.

He also went to the hospital before, and the doctor ordered hundreds of checklists for him to check. Yan Qinsheng was reluctant, and ran away from the hospital without even taking the medical records.

In fact, he didn't hate that woman, he was even a little grateful, at least she was the one who cured Tang Xiande, and he escaped from the clutches of the clutches.

Originally, he wanted to persist until he graduated from university, but later, he was persuaded by the counselor and the dean to quit because the incident was too big. Zheng Xiao and Yuan Jiagen always ran against him in a weird way, saying that it was disgusting to live in a dormitory with a gay guy who was adopted. Because of this, Da Zhou almost got into a fight with his roommate.

Yan Qinsheng was not a hard-hearted man, he was forced to bear it and left the school.

On the day he left, the department was organizing examinations, and everyone was going to take the exam. There was no one in the dormitory, so Yan Qinsheng silently packed his luggage and stuffed it into a box in the dormitory.

He lost all the clothes Tang Xiande bought for him, and he also transferred back the money on the card, only the 5 yuan and the cemetery money were left.

Yan Qinsheng dragged his suitcase and stood at the school gate for a long time, not knowing where he was going.

I can't go back to my hometown, no father, no mother, no house, that small city is almost a painful memory.

He was even more afraid that if he went back to his hometown, Tang Xiande would pester him again.

When he was penniless, he slept on tatami mats in a part-time Japanese grocery store for two nights. Later, Zhou Pingkang found him and said that he saw an electronics factory recruiting factory workers in a part-time job group. Can emergency.

So Yan Qinsheng worked in the electronics factory on the outskirts of the city for two years.However, the electronics factory has radiation, and staying there for a long time is not good for the health. After saving some money in his hand to rent a house, he began to seriously look for a job.

In the end, he was so lucky that he went to work in the company run by Fang Yi again.

Although he was very reluctant, Yan Qinsheng went to work the next morning with red eyes.